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A s w as a ls o t h e c ase w ith H em in gw ay ’s e arlie r p osth um ous w ork
I s la nds i n
t h e S tr e a m ,
t h is n ovel w as n ot i n f in is h ed f o rm a t t h e t im e o f t h e a u th or’s
d eath . I n p re p arin g t h e b ook f o r p ublic atio n w e h av e m ad e s o m e c u ts i n t h e
m an usc rip t a n d s o m e r o utin e c o py e d itin g c o rre ctio ns. B ey ond a v ery s m all
n um ber o f m in or i n te rp ola tio ns f o r c la rity a n d c o nsis te n cy , n oth in g h as b een
a d ded . I n e v ery s ig nif ic an t r e sp ect t h e w ork i s a ll t h e a u th or’s .

Prefa ce
by C harle s S crib n er, J r.
U p t o t h e t im e o f h is d eath i n 1 961 E rn est H em in gw ay w as w ork in g o n a
n um ber o f w ritin g p ro je cts , a ll o f w hic h w ere n ear e n ough t o c o m ple tio n t o
b e e d ite d a n d p ublis h ed p osth um ously . I r e m em ber h is w id ow , M ary , c o m in g
t o m y o ffic e w ith a l a rg e s h oppin g b ag f ille d a lm ost t o b urs tin g w ith
p hoto co pie s o f u npublis h ed w ritin g l e ft b y h er h usb an d. T his m ay h av e b een
o ne o f t h e r ic h est c o lle ctio ns o f l ite ra ry m ate ria l e v er d eliv ere d i n s o i n fo rm al
a m an ner. I n a d ditio n t o a n um ber o f s k etc h es a n d f ra g m en ts o f s to rie s a n d
s o m e c o m ple te d s to rie s, t h e b ag c o nta in ed t h e t y pesc rip ts o f t h re e m ajo r
w ork s: a n ovel s e t i n B im in i a n d C uba, l a te r p ublis h ed u nder t h e t itle
Is la nds
i n t h e S tr e a m ,
t h e o rig in al t r a n sc rip t o f H em in gw ay ’s b ullf ig htin g j o urn al,
T he D angero us S um mer,
a n d a m ajo r w ork o f f ic tio n t o w hic h H em in gw ay
h ad g iv en t h e t itle
T he G ard en o f E den .
This l a st w ork w as f ille d w ith s o m an y r e m ark ab le r ic h es t h at, i n s p ite o f
t h e f a ct t h at H em in gw ay n ev er c o m ple te d i t, w e w ere c o nvin ced t h at i t
s h ould b e p ublis h ed . O nly t h e s e co nd p art w as i n co m ple te , a n d t h e f ir s t h alf
t a k en b y i ts e lf , w ith o nly a m odest a m ount o f p ru nin g, p ro vid ed a w holly
h arm onio us a n d c o here n t n arra tiv e.
Upon p ublic atio n o f t h e n ovel, o ur j u dgm en t i n b rin gin g o ut t h e b ook a s
w e d id w as c o nfir m ed b y i ts s u ccess a ll o ver t h e w orld a n d b y t h e m an y
p ositiv e r e sp onse s o f l e ad in g c ritic s.
For m an y r e ad ers f a m ilia r w ith H em in gw ay ’s o th er w ork s,
T he G ard en o f
E den
m ay s e em t o b e a d ep artu re f ro m h is u su al t h em es, i n s o f a r a s i t
p re se n ts a n i n te n siv e s tu dy o f t h e m en ta l s ta te o f a n i n te llig en t w om an
u nco ntr o lla b ly e n vio us o f h er h usb an d’s s u ccess a s a w rite r a n d y earn in g t o
c h an ge h er g en der.
But t h e c o ncep tio n o f H em in gw ay a s a w rite r p rim arily a b so rb ed w ith
e x te rn al a ctio n f a ils t o t a k e i n to a cco unt h is p ro fo und i n te re st i n c h ara cte r. O n
t h e s u rfa ce, m an y o f h is s to rie s m ay s e em t o d eal w ith e x citin g p hysic al

ev en ts , b ut, l ik e C onra d , h e w as a lw ay s p rim arily i n te re ste d i n t h e e ffe ct s u ch
ev en ts h ad i n t h e m in ds o f t h e i n div id uals c o ncern ed . A s a w rite r h e w as a
gif te d s tu den t o f h um an b eh av io r. M ary H em in gw ay o nce t o ld m e t h at h e h ad
th e u ncan ny k nack o f b ein g a b le t o e n te r a r o om f u ll o f p eo ple a n d a lm ost
im med ia te ly d iv in e t h e r e la tio nsh ip s a m ong t h em .
In a lm ost a ll o f h is s to rie s, f ro m t h e e arlie st o nes t h at d eal w ith h is
boyhood t o t h e g re at l a te r w ork s o f f ic tio n, o ne c an a lw ay s f in d t h e i n te rp la y
of c h ara cte r u nder t h e s u rfa ce o f t h e a ctio n. H is b rie f c h ara cte r s tu die s i n
A
Movea ble F ea st
a re a d ditio nal i n sta n ces o f t h at p re o ccu patio n.
I r e m em ber h is a n noyan ce w hen I o nce s u ggeste d t o h im t h at i t m ig ht b e
use fu l t o t e ach ers i f w e p ublis h ed a n e d itio n o f
T he O ld M an a nd t h e S ea
with t h e o rig in al v ers io n t h at h ad a p peare d a s a s h ort s to ry i n
E sq uir e
m an y
years b efo re . F or s o m e t im e I w ondere d a b out h is r e actio n u ntil I f in ally
re aliz ed t h at f o r H em in gw ay e v ery s to ry h ad a n i n sid e a n d a n o uts id e. T he
outs id e m ig ht b e t h e b asis f o r a g ood y arn , a s i t w as i n t h e
E sq uir e
s h ort
sto ry , b ut o nly i ts i n sid e, r e v eale d b y t h e t h oughts o f t h e o ld m an i n t h e f in al
novella , c o uld b e t h e b asis f o r a w ork o f l ite ra tu re .
In
T he G ard en o f E den ,
t h e c are fu l r e ad er w ill f in d s u ch d elig hts a n d
re v ela tio ns.

1
T hey w ere l iv in g a t l e G ra u d u R oi t h en a n d t h e h ote l w as o n a c an al t h at r a n
f ro m t h e w alle d c ity o f A ig ues M orte s s tr a ig ht d ow n t o t h e s e a. T hey c o uld
s e e t h e t o w ers o f A ig ues M orte s a cro ss t h e l o w p la in o f t h e C am arg ue a n d
t h ey r o de t h ere o n t h eir b ic y cle s a t s o m e t im e o f n early e v ery d ay a lo ng t h e
w hite r o ad t h at b ord ere d t h e c an al. I n t h e e v en in gs a n d t h e m orn in gs w hen
t h ere w as a r is in g t id e s e a b ass w ould c o m e i n to i t a n d t h ey w ould s e e t h e
m ulle t j u m pin g w ild ly t o e sc ap e f ro m t h e b ass a n d w atc h t h e s w ellin g b ulg e
o f t h e w ate r a s t h e b ass a tta ck ed .
A j e tty r a n o ut i n to t h e b lu e a n d p le asa n t s e a a n d t h ey f is h ed f ro m t h e
j e tty a n d s w am o n t h e b each a n d e ach d ay h elp ed t h e f is h erm en h au l i n t h e
l o ng n et t h at b ro ught t h e f is h u p o nto t h e l o ng s lo pin g b each . T hey d ra n k
a p eritif s i n t h e c afe o n t h e c o rn er f a cin g t h e s e a a n d w atc h ed t h e s a ils o f t h e
m ack ere l f is h in g b oats o ut i n t h e G ulf o f L io ns. I t w as l a te i n t h e s p rin g a n d
t h e m ack ere l w ere r u nnin g a n d f is h in g p eo ple o f t h e p ort w ere v ery b usy . I t
w as a c h eerfu l a n d f rie n dly t o w n a n d t h e y oung c o uple l ik ed t h e h ote l, w hic h
h ad f o ur r o om s u psta ir s a n d a r e sta u ra n t a n d t w o b illia rd t a b le s d ow nsta ir s
f a cin g t h e c an al a n d t h e l ig hth ouse . T he r o om t h ey l iv ed i n l o oked l ik e t h e
p ain tin g o f V an G ogh’s r o om a t A rle s e x cep t t h ere w as a d ouble b ed a n d t w o
b ig w in dow s a n d y ou c o uld l o ok o ut a cro ss t h e w ate r a n d t h e m ars h a n d s e a
m ead ow s t o t h e w hite t o w n a n d b rig ht b each o f P ala v as.
They w ere a lw ay s h ungry b ut t h ey a te v ery w ell. T hey w ere h ungry f o r
b re ak fa st w hic h t h ey a te a t t h e c afe , o rd erin g b rio ch e a n d c afé a u l a it a n d
e g gs, a n d t h e t y pe o f p re se rv e t h at t h ey c h ose a n d t h e m an ner i n w hic h t h e
e g gs w ere t o b e c o oked w as a n e x cite m en t. T hey w ere a lw ay s s o h ungry f o r

bre ak fa st t h at t h e g ir l o fte n h ad a h ead ach e u ntil t h e c o ffe e c am e. B ut t h e
co ffe e t o ok t h e h ead ach e a w ay . S he t o ok h er c o ffe e w ith out s u gar a n d t h e
young m an w as l e arn in g t o r e m em ber t h at.
On t h is m orn in g t h ere w as b rio ch e a n d r e d r a sp berry p re se rv e a n d t h e
eg gs w ere b oile d a n d t h ere w as a p at o f b utte r t h at m elte d a s t h ey s tir re d t h em
an d s a lte d t h em l ig htly a n d g ro und p ep per o ver t h em i n t h e c u ps. T hey w ere
big e g gs a n d f re sh a n d t h e g ir l’ s w ere n ot c o oked q uite a s l o ng a s t h e y oung
man ’s . H e r e m em bere d t h at e asily a n d h e w as h ap py w ith h is w hic h h e d ic ed
up w ith t h e s p oon a n d a te w ith o nly t h e f lo w o f t h e b utte r t o m ois te n t h em
an d t h e f re sh e arly m orn in g t e x tu re a n d t h e b ite o f t h e c o ars e ly g ro und p ep per
gra in s a n d t h e h ot c o ffe e a n d t h e c h ic k ory -fra g ra n t b ow l o f c afé a u l a it.
The f is h in g b oats w ere w ell o ut. T hey h ad g one o ut i n t h e d ark w ith t h e
fir s t r is in g o f t h e b re eze a n d t h e y oung m an a n d t h e g ir l h ad w ak en ed a n d
heard t h em a n d t h en c u rle d t o geth er u nder t h e s h eet o f t h e b ed a n d s le p t
ag ain . T hey h ad m ad e l o ve w hen t h ey w ere h alf a w ak e w ith t h e l ig ht b rig ht
outs id e b ut t h e r o om s till s h ad ow ed a n d t h en h ad l a in t o geth er a n d b een
hap py a n d t ir e d a n d t h en m ad e l o ve a g ain . T hen t h ey w ere s o h ungry t h at
th ey d id n ot t h in k t h ey w ould l iv e u ntil b re ak fa st a n d n ow t h ey w ere i n t h e
cafe e atin g a n d w atc h in g t h e s e a a n d t h e s a ils a n d i t w as a n ew d ay a g ain .
“W hat a re y ou t h in kin g?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“N oth in g.”
“Y ou h av e t o t h in k s o m eth in g.”
“I w as j u st f e elin g.”
“H ow ?”
“H ap py.”
“B ut I g et s o h ungry ,” s h e s a id . “ Is i t n orm al d o y ou t h in k? D o y ou
alw ay s g et s o h ungry w hen y ou m ak e l o ve?”
“W hen y ou l o ve s o m eb ody.”
“O h, y ou k now t o o m uch a b out i t,” s h e s a id .
“N o.”
“I d on’t c are . I l o ve i t a n d w e d on’t h av e t o w orry a b out a n yth in g d o
we?”
“N oth in g.”
“W hat d o y ou t h in k w e s h ould d o?”
“I d on’t k now ,” h e s a id . “ W hat d o y ou?”
“I d on’t c are a t a ll. I f y ou’d l ik e t o f is h I s h ould w rite a l e tte r o r m ay be
tw o a n d t h en w e c o uld s w im b efo re l u nch .”

“T o b e h ungry ?”
“D on’t s a y i t. I ’m g ettin g h ungry a lr e ad y a n d w e h av en ’t f in is h ed
bre ak fa st.”
“W e c an t h in k a b out l u nch .”
“A nd t h en a fte r l u nch ?”
“W e’ll t a k e a n ap l ik e g ood c h ild re n .”
“T hat’ s a n a b so lu te ly n ew i d ea,” s h e s a id . “ W hy h av e w e n ev er t h ought
of t h at? ”
“I h av e t h ese f la sh es o f i n tu itio n,” h e s a id . “ I’m t h e i n ven tiv e t y pe.”
“I’m t h e d estr u ctiv e t y pe,” s h e s a id . “ A nd I ’m g oin g t o d estr o y y ou.
They ’ll p ut a p la q ue u p o n t h e w all o f t h e b uild in g o uts id e t h e r o om . I ’m
goin g t o w ak e u p i n t h e n ig ht a n d d o s o m eth in g t o y ou t h at y ou’v e n ev er
ev en h eard o f o r i m ag in ed . I w as g oin g t o l a st n ig ht b ut I w as t o o s le ep y.”
“Y ou’re t o o s le ep y t o b e d an gero us.”
“D on’t l u ll y ours e lf i n to a n y f a ls e s e cu rity . O h d arlin g l e t’ s h av e i t h urry
up a n d b e l u nch t im e.”
They s a t t h ere i n t h eir s tr ip ed f is h erm en ’s s h ir ts a n d t h e s h orts t h ey h ad
bought i n t h e s to re t h at s o ld m arin e s u pplie s, a n d t h ey w ere v ery t a n a n d t h eir
hair w as s tr e ak ed a n d f a d ed b y t h e s u n a n d t h e s e a. M ost p eo ple t h ought t h ey
were b ro th er a n d s is te r u ntil t h ey s a id t h ey w ere m arrie d . S om e d id n ot
belie v e t h at t h ey w ere m arrie d a n d t h at p le ase d t h e g ir l v ery m uch .
In t h ose y ears o nly a v ery f e w p eo ple h ad e v er c o m e t o t h e M ed ite rra n ean
in t h e s u m mer t im e a n d n o o ne c am e t o l e G ra u d u R oi e x cep t a f e w p eo ple
fro m N îm es. T here w as n o c asin o a n d n o e n te rta in m en t a n d e x cep t i n t h e
hotte st m onth s w hen p eo ple c am e t o s w im t h ere w as n o o ne a t t h e h ote l.
Peo ple d id n ot w ear f is h erm en ’s s h ir ts t h en a n d t h is g ir l t h at h e w as m arrie d
to w as t h e f ir s t g ir l h e h ad e v er s e en w earin g o ne. S he h ad b ought t h e s h ir ts
fo r t h em a n d t h en h ad w ash ed t h em i n t h e b asin i n t h eir r o om a t t h e h ote l t o
ta k e t h e s tif fn ess o ut o f t h em . T hey w ere s tif f a n d b uilt f o r h ard w ear b ut t h e
wash in gs s o fte n ed t h em a n d n ow t h ey w ere w orn a n d s o fte n ed e n ough s o t h at
when h e l o oked a t t h e g ir l n ow h er b re asts s h ow ed b eau tif u lly a g ain st t h e
worn c lo th .
No o ne w ore s h orts e ith er a ro und t h e v illa g e a n d t h e g ir l c o uld n ot w ear
th em w hen t h ey r o de t h eir b ic y cle s. B ut i n t h e v illa g e i t d id n ot m atte r
becau se t h e p eo ple w ere v ery f rie n dly a n d o nly t h e l o cal p rie st d is a p pro ved .
But t h e g ir l w en t t o m ass o n S unday w earin g a s k ir t a n d a l o ng-s le ev ed
cash m ere s w eate r w ith h er h air c o vere d w ith a s c arf a n d t h e y oung m an s to od

in t h e b ack o f t h e c h urc h w ith t h e m en . T hey g av e t w en ty f ra n cs w hic h w as
more t h an a d olla r t h en a n d s in ce t h e p rie st t o ok u p t h e c o lle ctio n h im se lf
th eir a ttitu de t o w ard t h e c h urc h w as k now n a n d t h e w earin g o f s h orts i n t h e
villa g e w as r e g ard ed a s a n e ccen tr ic ity b y f o re ig ners r a th er t h an a n a tte m pt
ag ain st t h e m ora lity o f t h e p orts o f t h e C am arg ue. T he p rie st d id n ot s p eak t o
th em w hen t h ey w ore s h orts b ut h e d id n ot d en ounce t h em a n d w hen t h ey
wore t r o use rs i n t h e e v en in g t h e t h re e o f t h em b ow ed t o e ach o th er.
“I’ll g o u p a n d w rite t h e l e tte rs ,” t h e g ir l s a id a n d s h e g ot u p a n d s m ile d a t
th e w aite r a n d w en t o ut o f t h e c afe .
“M onsie u r i s g oin g t o f is h ?” t h e w aite r a sk ed w hen t h e y oung m an ,
whose n am e w as D av id B ourn e, c alle d h im o ver a n d p aid h im .
“I t h in k s o . H ow i s t h e t id e?”
“T his t id e i s v ery g ood,” t h e w aite r s a id . “ I h av e s o m e b ait i f y ou w an t
it.”
“I c an g et s o m e a lo ng t h e r o ad .”
“N o. U se t h is . T hey ’re s a n dw orm s a n d t h ere a re p le n ty .”
“C an y ou c o m e o ut? ”
“I’m o n d uty n ow . B ut m ay be I c an c o m e o ut a n d s e e h ow y ou d o. Y ou
hav e y our g ear? ”
“It’ s a t t h e h ote l.”
“S to p b y f o r t h e w orm s.”
At t h e h ote l t h e y oung m an w an te d t o g o u p t o t h e r o om a n d s e e t h e g ir l
but i n ste ad h e f o und t h e l o ng, j o in te d b am boo p ole a n d t h e b ask et w ith h is
fis h in g g ear b eh in d t h e d esk w here t h e r o om k ey s h ung a n d w en t b ack o ut
in to t h e b rig htn ess o f t h e r o ad a n d o n d ow n t o t h e c afe a n d o ut o nto t h e g la re
of t h e j e tty . T he s u n w as h ot b ut t h ere w as a f re sh b re eze a n d t h e t id e w as j u st
sta rtin g t o e b b. H e w is h ed t h at h e h ad b ro ught a c astin g r o d a n d s p oons s o
th at h e m ig ht c ast o ut a cro ss t h e f lo w o f t h e w ate r f ro m t h e c an al o ver t h e
ro ck s o n t h e f a r s id e b ut i n ste ad h e r ig ged h is l o ng p ole w ith i ts c o rk a n d q uill
flo at a n d l e t a s a n dw orm f lo at g en tly a lo ng a t a d ep th w here h e t h ought f is h
mig ht b e f e ed in g.
He f is h ed f o r s o m e t im e w ith n o l u ck a n d w atc h ed t h e m ack ere l b oats
ta ck in g b ack a n d f o rth o ut o n t h e b lu e s e a a n d t h e s h ad ow s t h e h ig h c lo uds
mad e o n t h e w ate r. T hen h is f lo at w en t u nder i n a s h arp d esc en t w ith t h e l in e
an glin g s tif fly a n d h e b ro ught t h e p ole u p a g ain st t h e p ull o f a f is h t h at w as
str o ng a n d d riv in g w ild ly a n d m ak in g t h e l in e h is s t h ro ugh t h e w ate r. H e t r ie d
to h old i t a s l ig htly a s h e c o uld a n d t h e l o ng p ole w as b en t t o t h e b re ak in g

poin t o f t h e l in e a n d t r a ce b y t h e f is h w hic h k ep t t r y in g t o g o t o w ard t h e o pen
se a. T he y oung m an w alk ed w ith h im o n t h e j e tty t o e ase t h e s tr a in b ut t h e
fis h k ep t p ullin g s o t h at a s h e d ro ve a q uarte r o f t h e r o d w as f o rc ed u nder
wate r.
The w aite r h ad c o m e f ro m t h e c afe a n d w as v ery e x cite d . H e w as t a lk in g
by t h e y oung m an ’s s id e s a y in g, “ H old h im . H old h im . H old h im a s s o ftly a s
you c an . H e’ll h av e t o t ir e . D on’t l e t h im b re ak . S oft w ith h im . S oftly .
Softly .”
There w as n o w ay t h e y oung m an c o uld b e s o fte r w ith h im e x cep t t o g et
in to t h e w ate r w ith t h e f is h a n d t h at d id n ot m ak e s e n se a s t h e c an al w as d eep .
If I c o uld o nly w alk a lo ng t h e b an k w ith h im , h e t h ought. B ut t h ey h ad c o m e
to t h e v ery e n d o f t h e j e tty . M ore t h an h alf t h e p ole w as u nder w ate r n ow .
“Ju st h old h im s o ftly ,” t h e w aite r p le ad ed . “ It’ s a s tr o ng t r a ce.”
The f is h b ore d d eep , r a n , z ig -z ag ged a n d t h e l o ng b am boo p ole b en t w ith
his w eig ht a n d h is r a p id , d riv in g s tr e n gth . T hen h e c am e u p t h ra sh in g a t t h e
su rfa ce a n d t h en w as d ow n a g ain a n d t h e y oung m an f o und t h at a lth ough t h e
fis h f e lt a s s tr o ng a s e v er t h e t r a g ic v io le n ce w as l e sse n ed a n d n ow h e c o uld
be l e d a ro und t h e e n d o f t h e j e tty a n d u p t h e c an al.
“S oftly d oes i t,” t h e w aite r s a id . “ O h s o ftly n ow . S oftly f o r u s a ll.”
Tw ic e m ore t h e f is h f o rc ed h is w ay o ut t o t h e o pen s e a a n d t w ic e t h e
young m an l e d h im b ack a n d n ow h e w as l e ad in g h im g en tly a lo ng t h e j e tty
to w ard t h e c afe .
“H ow i s h e?” a sk ed t h e w aite r.
“H e’s f in e b ut w e’v e b eate n h im .”
“D on’t s a y i t,” t h e w aite r s a id . “ D on’t s a y i t. W e m ust t ir e h im . T ir e h im .
Tir e h im .”
“H e’s g ot m y a rm t ir e d ,” t h e y oung m an s a id .
“D o y ou w an t m e t o t a k e h im ?” t h e w aite r a sk ed h opefu lly .
“M y G od n o.”
“Ju st e asy , e asy , e asy . S oftly , s o ftly , s o ftly ,” t h e w aite r s a id .
The y oung m an w ork ed t h e f is h p ast t h e t e rra ce o f t h e c afe a n d i n to t h e
can al. H e w as s w im min g j u st u nder t h e s u rfa ce b ut w as s till s tr o ng a n d t h e
young m an w ondere d i f t h ey w ould t a k e h im a ll t h e w ay u p t h e c an al t h ro ugh
th e l e n gth o f t h e t o w n. T here w ere m an y o th er p eo ple n ow a n d a s t h ey w en t
by t h e h ote l t h e g ir l s a w t h em o ut o f t h e w in dow a n d s h oute d , “ O h w hat a
wonderfu l f is h ! W ait f o r m e! W ait f o r m e!”
She h ad s e en t h e f is h c le arly f ro m a b ove a n d h is l e n gth a n d t h e s h in e o f

him i n t h e w ate r a n d h er h usb an d w ith t h e b am boo p ole b en t a lm ost d ouble
an d t h e p ro cessio n o f p eo ple f o llo w in g. W hen s h e g ot d ow n t o t h e c an al b an k
an d, r u nnin g, c au ght u p w ith t h e p eo ple , t h e p ro cessio n h ad s to pped . T he
waite r w as i n t h e w ate r a t t h e e d ge o f t h e c an al a n d h er h usb an d w as g uid in g
th e f is h s lo w ly a g ain st t h e b an k w here t h ere w as a c lu m p o f w eed s g ro w in g.
The f is h w as o n t h e s u rfa ce n ow a n d t h e w aite r b en t d ow n a n d b ro ught h is
han ds t o geth er f ro m e ith er s id e a n d t h en l if te d t h e f is h w ith h is t h um bs i n
both h is g ills a n d m oved u p t h e b an k o f t h e c an al w ith h im . H e w as a h eav y
fis h a n d t h e w aite r h eld h im h ig h a g ain st h is c h est w ith t h e h ead u nder h is
ch in a n d t h e t a il f lo ppin g a g ain st h is t h ig hs.
Sev era l m en w ere p oundin g t h e y oung m an o n t h e b ack a n d p uttin g t h eir
arm s a ro und h im a n d a w om an f ro m t h e f is h m ark et k is se d h im . T hen t h e g ir l
had h er a rm s a ro und h im a n d k is se d h im a n d h e s a id , “ D id y ou s e e h im ?”
Then t h ey a ll w en t o ver t o s e e h im l a id o ut o n t h e s id e o f t h e r o ad s ilv er
as a s a lm on a n d d ark g unm eta l s h in in g o n h is b ack . H e w as a h an dso m e
beau tif u lly b uilt f is h w ith g re at l iv e e y es a n d h e b re ath ed s lo w ly a n d
bro ken ly .
“W hat i s h e?”
“A
l o up,
” h e s a id . “ T hat’ s a s e a b ass. T hey c all t h em
b ar
t o o. T hey ’re a
wonderfu l f is h . T his i s t h e b ig gest o ne I ’v e e v er s e en .”
The w aite r, w hose n am e w as A ndré , c am e o ver a n d p ut h is a rm s a ro und
Dav id a n d k is se d h im a n d t h en h e k is se d t h e g ir l.
“M ad am e, i t i s n ecessa ry ,” h e s a id . “ It i s t r u ly n ecessa ry . N o o ne e v er
cau ght s u ch a f is h o n s u ch t a ck le .”
“W e b ette r h av e h im w eig hed ,” D av id s a id .
They w ere a t t h e c afe n ow . T he y oung m an h ad p ut t h e t a ck le a w ay , a fte r
th e w eig hin g, a n d w ash ed u p a n d t h e f is h w as o n a b lo ck o f i c e t h at h ad c o m e
in t h e
c a m io n
f ro m N îm es t o i c e t h e m ack ere l c atc h . T he f is h h ad w eig hed a
little o ver f if te en p ounds. O n t h e i c e h e w as s till s ilv er a n d b eau tif u l b ut t h e
co lo r o n h is b ack h ad c h an ged t o g ra y . O nly h is e y es s till l o oked a liv e. T he
mack ere l f is h in g b oats w ere c o m in g i n n ow a n d t h e w om en w ere u nlo ad in g
th e s h in in g b lu e a n d g re en a n d s ilv er m ack ere l f ro m t h e b oats i n to b ask ets
an d c arry in g t h e h eav y b ask ets o n t h eir h ead s t o t h e f is h h ouse . I t w as a v ery
good c atc h a n d t h e t o w n w as b usy a n d h ap py.
“W hat a re w e g oin g t o d o w ith t h e b ig f is h ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“T hey ’re g oin g t o t a k e h im i n a n d s e ll h im ,” t h e y oung m an s a id . “ H e’s
to o b ig t o c o ok h ere a n d t h ey s a y i t w ould b e w ic k ed t o c u t h im u p. M ay be

he’ll g o r ig ht u p t o P aris . H e’ll e n d i n s o m e b ig r e sta u ra n t. O r s o m eb ody v ery
ric h w ill b uy h im .”
“H e w as s o b eau tif u l i n t h e w ate r,” s h e s a id . “ A nd w hen A ndré h eld h im
up. I c o uld n’t b elie v e h im w hen I s a w h im o ut o f t h e w in dow a n d y ou w ith
your m ob f o llo w in g y ou.”
“W e’ll g et a s m all o ne f o r u s t o e at. T hey ’re r e ally w onderfu l. A s m all
one o ught t o b e g rille d w ith b utte r a n d w ith h erb s. T hey ’re l ik e s tr ip ed b ass a t
hom e.”
“I’m e x cite d a b out t h e f is h ,” s h e s a id . “ D on’t w e h av e w onderfu l s im ple
fu n?”
They w ere h ungry f o r l u nch a n d t h e b ottle o f w hite w in e w as c o ld a n d
th ey d ra n k i t a s t h ey a te t h e c ele ry
r é m oula de
a n d t h e s m all r a d is h es a n d t h e
hom e p ic k le d m ush ro om s f ro m t h e b ig g la ss j a r. T he b ass w as g rille d a n d t h e
grill m ark s s h ow ed o n t h e s ilv er s k in a n d t h e b utte r m elte d o n t h e h ot p la te .
There w as s lic ed l e m on t o p re ss o n t h e b ass a n d f re sh b re ad f ro m t h e b ak ery
an d t h e w in e c o ole d t h eir t o ngues o f t h e h eat o f t h e f rie d p ota to es. I t w as
good l ig ht, d ry , c h eerfu l u nknow n w hite w in e a n d t h e r e sta u ra n t w as p ro ud o f
it.
“W e’re n ot g re at c o nvers a tio nalis ts a t m eals ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ D o I b ore
you, d arlin g?”
The y oung m an l a u ghed .
“D on’t l a u gh a t m e, D av id .”
“I w asn ’t. N o. Y ou d on’t b ore m e. I ’d b e h ap py l o okin g a t y ou i f y ou
nev er s a id a w ord .”
He p oure d h er a n oth er s m all g la ss o f t h e w in e a n d f ille d h is o w n.
“I h av e a b ig s u rp ris e . I d id n’t t e ll y ou, d id I ? ” t h e g ir l s a id .
“W hat s o rt o f s u rp ris e ?”
“O h i t’ s v ery s im ple b ut i t’ s v ery c o m plic ate d .”
“T ell m e.”
“N o. Y ou m ig ht l ik e i t a n d m ay be y ou c o uld n’t s ta n d i t.”
“It s o unds t o o d an gero us.”
“It’ s d an gero us,” s h e s a id . “ B ut d on’t a sk m e. I ’m g oin g u p t o t h e r o om i f
I m ay .”
The y oung m an p aid f o r t h e l u nch a n d d ra n k t h e w in e t h at w as l e ft i n t h e
bottle . T hen h e w en t u psta ir s . T he g ir l’ s c lo th es w ere f o ld ed o n o ne o f t h e
Van G ogh c h air s a n d s h e w as w aitin g f o r h im i n t h e b ed w ith t h e s h eet o ver
her. H er h air w as s p re ad o ut o ver t h e p illo w a n d h er e y es w ere l a u ghin g a n d

he l if te d t h e s h eet a n d s h e s a id , “ H ello , d arlin g. D id y ou h av e a n ic e l u nch ?”
Afte rw ard s t h ey l a y t o geth er w ith h is a rm u nder h er h ead a n d w ere h ap py
an d l a zy a n d h e f e lt h er t u rn h er h ead f ro m s id e t o s id e a n d s tr o ke i t a g ain st
his c h eek . I t f e lt s ilk y a n d b are ly r o ughen ed f ro m t h e s u n a n d t h e s e a. T hen
with h er h air a ll f o rw ard o ver h er f a ce s o i t t o uch ed h im a s h er h ead m oved
sh e s ta rte d t o p la y w ith h im l ig htly a n d e x plo rin gly a n d t h en w ith d elig ht a n d
sh e s a id , “ Y ou d o l o ve m e, d on’t y ou?”
He n odded a n d k is se d t h e t o p o f h er h ead a n d t h en t u rn ed h er h ead a n d
held i t a n d k is se d h er l ip s.
“O h,” s h e s a id . “ O h.”
A l o ng t im e l a te r t h ey w ere l y in g e ach h old in g t h e o th er c lo se a n d s h e
sa id , “ A nd y ou l o ve m e j u st t h e w ay I a m ? Y ou’re s u re .”
“Y es,” h e s a id . “ S o m uch y es.”
“B ecau se I ’m g oin g t o b e c h an ged .”
“N o,” h e s a id . “ N o. N ot c h an ged .”
“I’m g oin g t o ,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s f o r y ou. I t’ s f o r m e t o o. I w on’t p re te n d i t’ s
not. B ut i t w ill d o s o m eth in g t o y ou. I ’m s u re b ut I s h ould n’t s a y i t.”
“I l ik e s u rp ris e s b ut I l ik e e v ery th in g t h e w ay i t i s j u st n ow a t t h is
min ute .”
“T hen m ay be I s h ould n’t d o i t,” s h e s a id . “ O h I ’m s a d . I t w as s u ch a
wonderfu l d an gero us s u rp ris e . I t h ought a b out i t f o r d ay s a n d I d id n’t d ecid e
until t h is m orn in g.”
“If i t’ s s o m eth in g y ou r e ally w an t.”
“It i s ,” s h e s a id . “ A nd I ’m g oin g t o d o i t. Y ou’v e l ik ed e v ery th in g w e’v e
done s o f a r h av en ’t y ou?”
“Y es.”
“A ll r ig ht.”
She s lip ped o ut o f b ed a n d s to od s tr a ig ht w ith h er l o ng b ro w n l e g s a n d
her b eau tif u l b ody t a n ned e v en ly f ro m t h e f a r b each w here t h ey s w am
with out s u its . S he h eld h er s h ould ers b ack a n d h er c h in u p a n d s h e s h ook h er
head s o h er h eav y t a w ny h air s la p ped a ro und h er c h eek s a n d t h en b ow ed
fo rw ard s o i t a ll f e ll f o rw ard a n d c o vere d h er f a ce. S he p ulle d t h e s tr ip ed s h ir t
over h er h ead a n d t h en s h ook h er h air b ack a n d t h en s a t i n t h e c h air i n f ro nt
of t h e m ir ro r o n t h e d re sse r a n d b ru sh ed i t b ack l o okin g a t i t c ritic ally . I t f e ll
to t h e t o p o f h er s h ould ers . S he s h ook h er h ead a t t h e m ir ro r. T hen s h e p ulle d
on h er s la ck s a n d b elte d t h em a n d p ut o n h er f a d ed b lu e r o pe-s o le d s h oes.
“I h av e t o r id e u p t o A ig ues M orte s,” s h e s a id .

“G ood,” h e s a id . “ I’ll c o m e t o o.”
“N o. I h av e t o g o a lo ne. I t’ s a b out t h e s u rp ris e .”
She k is se d h im g oodbye a n d w en t d ow n a n d h e w atc h ed h er m ount h er
bic y cle a n d g o u p t h e r o ad r id in g s m ooth ly a n d e asily , h er h air b lo w in g i n t h e
win d.
The a fte rn oon s u n w as i n t h e w in dow n ow a n d t h e r o om w as t o o w arm .
The y oung m an w ash ed a n d p ut o n h is c lo th es a n d w en t d ow n t o w alk o n t h e
beach . H e k new h e s h ould s w im b ut h e w as t ir e d a n d a fte r h e h ad w alk ed
alo ng t h e b each a n d t h en a lo ng a p ath t h ro ugh t h e s a lt g ra ss t h at l e d i n la n d
fo r a w ay h e w en t b ack a lo ng t h e b each t o t h e p ort a n d c lim bed u p t o t h e
cafe . I n t h e c afe h e f o und t h e p ap er a n d o rd ere d h im se lf a
f in e à l ’ e a u
becau se h e f e lt e m pty a n d h ollo w f ro m m ak in g l o ve.
They h ad b een m arrie d t h re e w eek s a n d h ad c o m e d ow n o n t h e t r a in f ro m
Paris t o A vig non w ith t h eir b ic y cle s, a s u itc ase w ith t h eir t o w n c lo th es, a n d a
ru ck sa ck a n d a m use tte b ag . T hey s ta y ed a t a g ood h ote l i n A vig non a n d l e ft
th e s u itc ase t h ere a n d h ad t h ought t h at t h ey w ould r id e t o t h e P ont d u G ard .
But t h e m is tr a l w as b lo w in g s o t h ey r o de w ith t h e m is tr a l d ow n t o N îm es a n d
sta y ed t h ere a t t h e I m pera to r a n d t h en h ad r id den d ow n t o A ig ues M orte s s till
with t h e h eav y w in d b eh in d t h em a n d t h en o n t o l e G ra u d u R oi. T hey h ad
been t h ere e v er s in ce.
It h ad b een w onderfu l a n d t h ey h ad b een t r u ly h ap py a n d h e h ad n ot
know n t h at y ou c o uld l o ve a n yone s o m uch t h at y ou c are d a b out n oth in g e ls e
an d o th er t h in gs s e em ed i n ex is te n t. H e h ad m an y p ro ble m s w hen h e m arrie d
but h e h ad t h ought o f n one o f t h em h ere n or o f w ritin g n or o f a n yth in g b ut
bein g w ith t h is g ir l w hom h e l o ved a n d w as m arrie d t o a n d h e d id n ot h av e
th e s u dden d ead ly c la rity t h at h ad a lw ay s c o m e a fte r i n te rc o urs e . T hat w as
gone. N ow w hen t h ey h ad m ad e l o ve t h ey w ould e at a n d d rin k a n d m ak e l o ve
ag ain . I t w as a v ery s im ple w orld a n d h e h ad n ev er b een t r u ly h ap py i n a n y
oth er. H e t h ought t h at i t m ust b e t h e s a m e w ith h er a n d c erta in ly s h e a cte d i n
th at w ay b ut t o day t h ere h ad b een t h is t h in g a b out t h e c h an ge a n d t h e
su rp ris e . B ut m ay be i t w ould b e a h ap py c h an ge a n d a g ood s u rp ris e . T he
bra n dy a n d w ate r a s h e d ra n k i t a n d r e ad t h e l o cal p ap er m ad e h im l o ok
fo rw ard t o w hate v er i t w as.
This w as t h e f ir s t t im e s in ce t h ey h ad c o m e o n t h e w ed din g t r ip t h at h e
had t a k en a d rin k o f b ra n dy o r w his k ey w hen t h ey w ere n ot t o geth er. B ut h e
was n ot w ork in g a n d h is o nly r u le s a b out d rin kin g w ere n ev er t o d rin k b efo re
or w hile h e w as w ork in g. I t w ould b e g ood t o w ork a g ain b ut t h at w ould

co m e s o on e n ough a s h e w ell k new a n d h e m ust r e m em ber t o b e u nse lf is h
ab out i t a n d m ak e i t a s c le ar a s h e c o uld t h at t h e e n fo rc ed l o nelin ess w as
re g re tta b le a n d t h at h e w as n ot p ro ud o f i t. H e w as s u re s h e w ould b e f in e
ab out i t a n d s h e h ad h er o w n r e so urc es b ut h e h ate d t o t h in k o f i t, t h e w ork ,
sta rtin g w hen t h ey w ere a s t h ey w ere n ow . I t n ev er c o uld s ta rt o f c o urs e
with out t h e c la rity a n d h e w ondere d i f s h e k new t h at a n d i f t h at w as w hy s h e
dro ve b ey ond w hat t h ey h ad f o r s o m eth in g n ew t h at n oth in g c o uld b re ak . B ut
what c o uld i t b e? T hey c o uld n ot b e h eld t ig hte r t o geth er t h an t h ey w ere n ow
an d t h ere w as n o b ad ness a fte rw ard s. T here w as o nly h ap pin ess a n d l o vin g
each o th er a n d t h en h unger a n d r e p le n is h in g a n d s ta rtin g o ver.
He f o und t h at h e h ad d ru nk t h e
f in e à l ’ e a u
a n d t h at i t w as g ettin g l a te i n
th e a fte rn oon. H e o rd ere d a n oth er a n d s ta rte d t o c o ncen tr a te o n t h e p ap er. B ut
th e p ap er d id n ot i n te re st h im a s i t s h ould a n d h e w as l o okin g o ut a t t h e s e a
with l a te a fte rn oon s u n h eav y o n i t w hen h e h eard h er c o m e i n to t h e c afe a n d
sa y i n h er t h ro aty v oic e, “ H ello d arlin g.”
She c am e q uic k ly t o t h e t a b le a n d s a t d ow n a n d l if te d h er c h in a n d l o oked
at h im w ith t h e l a u ghin g e y es a n d t h e g old en f a ce w ith t h e t in y f re ck le s. H er
hair w as c ro pped a s s h ort a s a b oy’s . I t w as c u t w ith n o c o m pro m is e s. I t w as
bru sh ed b ack , h eav y a s a lw ay s, b ut t h e s id es w ere c u t s h ort a n d t h e e ars t h at
gre w c lo se t o h er h ead w ere c le ar a n d t h e t a w ny l in e o f h er h air w as c ro pped
clo se t o h er h ead a n d s m ooth a n d s w eep in g b ack . S he t u rn ed h er h ead a n d
lif te d h er b re asts a n d s a id , “ K is s m e p le ase .”
He k is se d h er a n d l o oked a t h er f a ce a n d a t h er h air a n d h e k is se d h er
ag ain .
“D o y ou l ik e i t? F eel i t h ow s m ooth . F eel i t i n b ack ,” s h e s a id . H e f e lt i t
in b ack .
“F eel o n m y c h eek a n d f e el i n f ro nt o f m y e ar. R un y our f in gers u p a t t h e
sid es.
“Y ou s e e,” s h e s a id . “ T hat’ s t h e s u rp ris e . I ’m a g ir l. B ut n ow I ’m a b oy
to o a n d I c an d o a n yth in g a n d a n yth in g a n d a n yth in g.”
“S it h ere b y m e,” h e s a id . “ W hat d o y ou w an t, b ro th er.”
“O h t h an k y ou,” s h e s a id . “ I’ll t a k e w hat y ou’re h av in g. Y ou s e e w hy i t’ s
dan gero us, d on’t y ou?”
“Y es. I s e e.”
“B ut w asn ’t I g ood t o d o i t? ”
“M ay be.”
“N ot m ay be. N o. I t h ought a b out i t. I ’v e t h ought a ll a b out i t. W hy d o w e

hav e t o g o b y e v ery one e ls e ’s r u le s? W e’re u s.”
“W e w ere h av in g a g ood t im e a n d I d id n’t f e el a n y r u le s.”
“W ould y ou p le ase j u st p ut y our h an d o ver i t a g ain .”
He d id a n d h e k is se d h er.
“O h y ou’re s w eet,” s h e s a id . “ A nd y ou d o l ik e i t. I c an f e el a n d I c an t e ll.
You d on’t h av e t o l o ve i t. J u st l ik e i t a t f ir s t.”
“I l ik e i t,” h e s a id . “ A nd y ou h av e s u ch a b eau tif u lly s h ap ed h ead t h at i t i s
very b eau tif u l w ith t h e l o vely b ones o f y our f a ce.”
“D on’t y ou l ik e i t a t t h e s id es? ” s h e a sk ed . “ It i s n ’t f a k ed o r p hony. I t’ s a
tr u e b oy’s h air c u t a n d n ot f ro m a n y b eau ty s h op.”
“W ho c u t i t? ”
“T he c o if fe u r a t A ig ues M orte s. T he o ne w ho c u t y our h air a w eek a g o.
You t o ld h im h ow y ou w an te d y ours c u t t h en a n d I t o ld h im t o c u t m in e j u st
th e s a m e a s y ours . H e w as v ery n ic e a n d w asn ’t a t a ll s u rp ris e d . H e w asn ’t
worrie d a t a ll. H e s a id e x actly l ik e y ours ? A nd I s a id e x actly . D oesn ’t i t d o
an yth in g t o y ou, D av id ?”
“Y es,” h e s a id .
“S tu pid p eo ple w ill t h in k i t i s s tr a n ge. B ut w e m ust b e p ro ud. I l o ve t o b e
pro ud.”
“S o d o I ,” h e s a id . “ W e’ll s ta rt b ein g p ro ud n ow .”
They s a t t h ere i n t h e c afe a n d w atc h ed t h e r e fle ctio n o f t h e s e ttin g s u n
over t h e w ate r a n d w atc h ed t h e d usk c o m e t o t h e t o w n a n d t h ey d ra n k t h e
f in e
à l ’ e a u.
P eo ple c am e b y t h e c afe w ith out b ein g r u de t o s e e t h e g ir l b ecau se
th ey h ad b een t h e o nly f o re ig ners i n t h e v illa g e a n d h ad b een t h ere n ow
nearly t h re e w eek s a n d s h e w as a g re at b eau ty a n d t h ey l ik ed h er. T hen t h ere
had b een t h e b ig f is h t o day a n d o rd in arily t h ere w ould h av e b een m uch t a lk
ab out t h at b ut t h is o th er w as a b ig t h in g i n t h e v illa g e t o o. N o d ecen t g ir ls h ad
ev er h ad t h eir h air c u t s h ort l ik e t h at i n t h is p art o f t h e c o untr y a n d e v en i n
Paris i t w as r a re a n d s tr a n ge a n d c o uld b e b eau tif u l o r c o uld b e v ery b ad . I t
co uld m ean t o o m uch o r i t c o uld o nly m ean s h ow in g t h e b eau tif u l s h ap e o f a
head t h at c o uld n ev er b e s h ow n a s w ell.
They a te a s te ak f o r d in ner, r a re , w ith m ash ed p ota to es a n d f la g eo le ts a n d
a s a la d a n d t h e g ir l a sk ed i f t h ey m ig ht d rin k T av el. “ It i s a g re at w in e f o r
peo ple t h at a re i n l o ve,” s h e s a id .
She h ad a lw ay s l o oked , h e t h ought, e x actly h er a g e w hic h w as n ow
tw en ty -o ne. H e h ad b een v ery p ro ud o f h er f o r t h at. B ut t o nig ht s h e d id n ot
lo ok i t. T he l in es o f h er c h eek bones s h ow ed c le ar a s h e h ad n ev er s e en t h em

befo re a n d s h e s m ile d a n d h er f a ce w as h eartb re ak in g.

In t h e r o om i t w as d ark w ith o nly a l ittle l ig ht f ro m o uts id e. I t w as c o ol n ow
with t h e b re eze a n d t h e t o p s h eet w as g one f ro m t h e b ed .
“D av e, y ou d on’t m in d i f w e’v e g one t o t h e d ev il, d o y ou?”
“N o, g ir l,” h e s a id .
“D on’t c all m e g ir l.”
“W here I ’m h old in g y ou y ou a re a g ir l,” h e s a id . H e h eld h er t ig ht a ro und
her b re asts a n d h e o pen ed a n d c lo se d h is f in gers f e elin g h er a n d t h e h ard
ere ct f re sh ness b etw een h is f in gers .
“T hey ’re j u st m y d ow ry ,” s h e s a id . “ T he n ew i s m y s u rp ris e . F eel. N o
le av e t h em . T hey ’ll b e t h ere . F eel m y c h eek s a n d t h e b ack o f m y n eck . O h i t
fe els s o w onderfu l a n d g ood a n d c le an a n d n ew . P le ase l o ve m e D av id t h e
way I a m . P le ase u nders ta n d a n d l o ve m e.”
He h ad s h ut h is e y es a n d h e c o uld f e el t h e l o ng l ig ht w eig ht o f h er o n h im
an d h er b re asts p re ssin g a g ain st h im a n d h er l ip s o n h is . H e l a y t h ere a n d f e lt
so m eth in g a n d t h en h er h an d h old in g h im a n d s e arc h in g l o w er a n d h e h elp ed
with h is h an ds a n d t h en l a y b ack i n t h e d ark a n d d id n ot t h in k a t a ll a n d o nly
fe lt t h e w eig ht a n d t h e s tr a n gen ess i n sid e a n d s h e s a id , “ N ow y ou c an ’t t e ll
who i s w ho c an y ou?”
“N o.”
“Y ou a re c h an gin g,” s h e s a id . “ O h y ou a re . Y ou a re . Y es y ou a re a n d
you’re m y g ir l C ath erin e. W ill y ou c h an ge a n d b e m y g ir l a n d l e t m e t a k e
you?”
“Y ou’re C ath erin e.”
“N o. I ’m P ete r. Y ou’re m y w onderfu l C ath erin e. Y ou’re m y b eau tif u l
lo vely C ath erin e. Y ou w ere s o g ood t o c h an ge. O h t h an k y ou, C ath erin e, s o
much . P le ase u nders ta n d. P le ase k now a n d u nders ta n d. I ’m g oin g t o m ak e
lo ve t o y ou f o re v er.”
At t h e e n d t h ey w ere b oth d ead a n d e m pty b ut i t w as n ot o ver. T hey l a y
sid e b y s id e i n t h e d ark w ith t h eir l e g s t o uch in g a n d h er h ead w as o n h is a rm .
The m oon h ad r is e n a n d t h ere w as a l ittle m ore l ig ht i n t h e r o om . S he r a n h er
han d e x plo rin gly d ow n o ver h is b elly w ith out l o okin g a n d s a id , “ Y ou d on’t
th in k I ’m w ic k ed ?”
“O f c o urs e n ot. B ut h ow l o ng h av e y ou t h ought a b out t h at? ”
“N ot a ll t h e t im e. B ut q uite a l o t. Y ou w ere s o w onderfu l t o l e t i t
hap pen .”

The y oung m an p ut h is a rm s a ro und t h e g ir l a n d h eld h er v ery t ig ht t o
him a n d f e lt h er l o vely b re asts a g ain st h is c h est a n d k is se d h er o n h er d ear
mouth . H e h eld h er c lo se a n d h ard a n d i n sid e h im se lf h e s a id g oodbye a n d
th en g oodbye a n d g oodbye.
“L et’ s l ie v ery s till a n d q uie t a n d h old e ach o th er a n d n ot t h in k a t a ll,” h e
sa id a n d h is h eart s a id g oodbye C ath erin e g oodbye m y l o vely g ir l g oodbye
an d g ood l u ck a n d g oodbye.

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H e s to od u p a n d l o oked u p a n d d ow n t h e b each , c o rk ed t h e b ottle o f o il a n d
p ut i t i n a s id e p ock et o f t h e r u ck sa ck a n d t h en w alk ed d ow n t o t h e s e a
f e elin g t h e s a n d g ro w c o ol u nder h is f e et. H e l o oked a t t h e g ir l o n h er b ack o n
t h e s lo pin g b each , h er e y es c lo se d , h er a rm s a g ain st h er s id es, a n d b eh in d h er
t h e s la n te d s q uare o f c an vas a n d t h e f ir s t t u fts o f b each g ra ss. S he o ught n ot
t o s ta y t o o l o ng i n t h at p ositio n w ith t h e s u n s tr a ig ht u p a n d d ow n o n h er, h e
t h ought. T hen h e w alk ed o ut a n d d ove f la t i n to t h e c le ar c o ld w ate r a n d
t u rn ed o n h is b ack a n d s w am b ack str o ke o ut t o s e a w atc h in g t h e b each
b ey ond t h e s te ad y b eat o f h is l e g s a n d f e et. H e t u rn ed i n t h e w ate r a n d s w am
d ow n t o t h e b otto m a n d t o uch ed t h e c o ars e s a n d a n d f e lt t h e h eav y r id ges o f
i t a n d t h en c am e u p t o t h e s u rfa ce a n d s w am s te ad ily i n , s e ein g h ow s lo w h e
c o uld k eep t h e b eat o f h is c ra w l. H e w alk ed u p t o t h e g ir l a n d s a w t h at s h e
w as a sle ep . H e f o und h is w ris tw atc h i n t h e r u ck sa ck t o c h eck t h e t im e w hen
h e s h ould w ak e h er. T here w as a c o ld b ottle o f w hite w in e w ra p ped i n a
n ew sp ap er a n d w ith t h eir t o w els a ro und i t. H e u nco rk ed i t w ith out r e m ovin g
t h e p ap er o r t h e t o w els a n d t o ok a c o ol d ra u ght f ro m t h e a w kw ard b undle .
T hen h e s a t d ow n t o w atc h t h e g ir l a n d t o l o ok o ut t o s e a.
This s e a w as a lw ay s c o ld er t h an i t l o oked , h e t h ought. I t d id n ot r e ally
w arm u ntil t h e m id dle o f s u m mer e x cep t o n t h e s h allo w b each es. T his b each
d ro pped o ff q uite s u dden ly a n d t h e w ate r h ad b een s h arp ly c o ld u ntil t h e
s w im min g w arm ed h im . H e l o oked o ut a t t h e s e a a n d t h e h ig h c lo uds a n d
n otic ed h ow f a r t h e f is h in g f le et w as w ork in g t o t h e w estw ard . T hen h e
l o oked a t t h e g ir l s le ep in g o n t h e s a n d t h at w as q uite d ry n ow a n d b eg in nin g
t o b lo w d elic ate ly w ith t h e r is in g w in d w hen h is f e et s tir re d .

Durin g t h e n ig ht h e h ad f e lt h er h an ds t o uch in g h im . A nd w hen h e w oke
it w as i n t h e m oonlig ht a n d s h e h ad m ad e t h e d ark m ag ic o f t h e c h an ge a g ain
an d h e d id n ot s a y n o w hen s h e s p oke t o h im a n d a sk ed t h e q uestio ns a n d h e
fe lt t h e c h an ge s o t h at i t h urt h im a ll t h ro ugh a n d w hen i t w as f in is h ed a fte r
th ey w ere b oth e x hau ste d s h e w as s h ak in g a n d s h e w his p ere d t o h im , “ N ow
we h av e d one i t. N ow w e r e ally h av e d one i t.”
Yes, h e t h ought. N ow w e h av e r e ally d one i t. A nd w hen s h e w en t t o s le ep
su dden ly l ik e a t ir e d y oung g ir l a n d l a y b esid e h im l o vely i n t h e m oonlig ht
th at s h ow ed t h e b eau tif u l n ew s tr a n ge l in e o f h er h ead a s s h e s le p t o n h er s id e
he l e an ed o ver a n d s a id t o h er b ut n ot a lo ud, “ I’m w ith y ou. N o m atte r w hat
els e y ou h av e i n y our h ead I ’m w ith y ou a n d I l o ve y ou.”
In t h e m orn in g h e h ad b een v ery h ungry f o r b re ak fa st b ut h e w aite d f o r
her t o w ak e. H e k is se d h er f in ally a n d s h e w oke a n d s m ile d a n d g ot u p
sle ep ily a n d w ash ed i n t h e b ig b asin a n d s lo uch ed i n f ro nt o f t h e m ir ro r o f t h e
arm oir e a n d b ru sh ed h er h air a n d l o oked a t t h e m ir ro r u nsm ilin g a n d t h en
sm ile d a n d t o uch ed h er c h eek s w ith t h e t ip s o f h er f in gers a n d p ulle d a
str ip ed s h ir t o ver h er h ead a n d t h en k is se d h im . S he s to od s tr a ig ht s o h er
bre asts p ush ed a g ain st h is c h est a n d s h e s a id , “ D on’t w orry , D av id . I ’m y our
good g ir l c o m e b ack a g ain .”
But h e w as v ery w orrie d n ow a n d h e t h ought w hat w ill b eco m e o f u s i f
th in gs h av e g one t h is w ild ly a n d t h is d an gero usly a n d t h is f a st? W hat c an
th ere b e t h at w ill n ot b urn o ut i n a f ir e t h at r a g es l ik e t h at? W e w ere h ap py
an d I a m s u re s h e w as h ap py. B ut w ho e v er k now s? A nd w ho a re y ou t o
ju dge a n d w ho p artic ip ate d a n d w ho a ccep te d t h e c h an ge a n d l iv ed i t? I f t h at
is w hat s h e w an ts w ho a re y ou n ot t o w is h h er t o h av e i t? Y ou’re l u ck y t o
hav e a w if e l ik e h er a n d a s in i s w hat y ou f e el b ad a fte r a n d y ou d on’t f e el
bad . N ot w ith t h e w in e y ou d on’t f e el b ad , h e t o ld h im se lf , a n d w hat w ill y ou
drin k w hen t h e w in e w on’t c o ver f o r y ou?
He t o ok t h e b ottle o f o il o ut o f t h e r u ck sa ck a n d p ut a l ittle o il o n t h e
gir l’ s c h in a n d o n h er c h eek s a n d o n h er n ose a n d f o und a b lu e f a d ed
patte rn ed h an dkerc h ie f i n t h e c an vas p ock et o f t h e r u ck sa ck a n d l a id i t a cro ss
her b re ast.
“M ust I s to p?” t h e g ir l a sk ed . “ I’m h av in g t h e m ost w onderfu l d re am .”
“F in is h t h e d re am ,” h e s a id .
“T han k y ou.”
In a f e w m in ute s s h e b re ath ed v ery d eep ly a n d s h ook h er h ead a n d s a t u p.
“L et’ s g o i n n ow ,” s h e s a id .

They w en t i n t o geth er a n d s w am o ut a n d t h en p la y ed u nder w ate r l ik e
porp ois e s. W hen t h ey s w am i n t h ey d rie d e ach o th er o ff w ith t o w els a n d h e
han ded h er t h e b ottle o f w in e t h at w as s till c o ol i n t h e r o lle d n ew sp ap er a n d
th ey e ach t o ok a d rin k a n d s h e l o oked a t h im a n d l a u ghed .
“It’ s n ic e t o d rin k i t f o r t h ir s t,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou d on’t r e ally m in d b ein g
bro th ers d o y ou?”
“N o.” H e t o uch ed h er f o re h ead a n d h er n ose a n d t h en h er c h eek s a n d c h in
with t h e o il a n d t h en p ut i t c are fu lly a b ove a n d b eh in d h er e ars .
“I w an t t o g et b eh in d m y e ars a n d n eck t a n ned a n d o ver m y c h eek bones.
All t h e n ew p la ces.”
“Y ou’re a w fu lly d ark , b ro th er,” h e s a id . “ Y ou d on’t k now h ow d ark .”
“I l ik e i t,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ B ut I w an t t o b e d ark er.”
They l a y o n t h e b each o n t h e f ir m s a n d t h at w as d ry n ow b ut s till c o ol
afte r t h e h ig h t id e h ad f a lle n . T he y oung m an p ut s o m e o il o n t h e p alm o f h is
han d a n d s p re ad i t l ig htly w ith h is f in gers o ver t h e g ir l’ s t h ig hs a n d t h ey
glo w ed w arm a s t h e s k in t o ok t h e o il. H e w en t o n s p re ad in g i t o ver h er b elly
an d b re asts a n d t h e g ir l s a id s le ep ily , “ W e d on’t l o ok v ery m uch l ik e b ro th ers
when w e’re t h is w ay d o w e?”
“N o.”
“I’m t r y in g t o b e s u ch a v ery g ood g ir l,” s h e s a id . “ T ru ly y ou d on’t h av e
to w orry d arlin g u ntil n ig ht. W e w on’t l e t t h e n ig ht t h in gs c o m e i n t h e d ay .”

At t h e h ote l t h e p ostm an w as h av in g a d rin k w hile h e w aite d f o r t h e g ir l t o
sig n f o r a l a rg e f o rw ard in g e n velo pe h eav y w ith e n clo se d l e tte rs f ro m h er
ban k i n P aris . T here w ere t h re e l e tte rs r e -a d dre sse d f ro m h is b an k, t o o. I t w as
th e f ir s t m ail s in ce t h ey h ad s e n t t h e h ote l a s a f o rw ard in g a d dre ss. T he y oung
man g av e t h e p ostm an f iv e f ra n cs a n d a sk ed h im t o h av e a n oth er g la ss o f
win e w ith h im a t t h e z in c b ar. T he g ir l u nhooked t h e k ey f ro m t h e b oard a n d
sa id , “ I’ll g o u p t o t h e r o om a n d g et c le an ed u p a n d m eet y ou a t t h e c afe .”
Afte r h e f in is h ed h is g la ss h e s a id g oodbye t o t h e p ostm an a n d w alk ed
dow n a lo ng t h e c an al t o t h e c afe . I t w as g ood t o s it i n t h e s h ad e a fte r w alk in g
back b are h ead ed i n t h e s u n f ro m t h e f a r b each a n d i t w as p le asa n t a n d c o ol i n
th e c afe . H e o rd ere d a v erm outh a n d s o da a n d t o ok o ut h is p ock et k nif e a n d
slit o pen h is l e tte rs . A ll t h re e e n velo pes w ere f ro m h is p ublis h ers a n d t w o o f
th em w ere f a t w ith c lip pin gs a n d t h e p ro ofs o f a d vertis e m en ts . H e g la n ced a t
th e c lip pin gs a n d t h en r e ad t h e l o ng l e tte r. I t w as c h eerfu l a n d g uard ed ly
optim is tic . I t w as t o o e arly t o t e ll h ow t h e b ook w ould d o b ut e v ery th in g

lo oked g ood. M ost o f t h e r e v ie w s w ere e x celle n t. O f c o urs e t h ere w ere s o m e.
But t h at w as t o b e e x pecte d . S en te n ces h ad b een u nderlin ed i n t h e r e v ie w s
th at w ould p ro bab ly b e u se d i n t h e f u tu re a d vertis e m en ts . H is p ublis h er
wis h ed h e c o uld s a y m ore a b out h ow t h e b ook w ould d o b ut h e n ev er m ad e
pre d ic tio ns a s t o s a le s. I t w as b ad p ra ctic e. T he p oin t w as t h at t h e b ook c o uld
not h av e b een b ette r r e ceiv ed . T he r e cep tio n w as s e n sa tio nal r e ally . B ut h e
would s e e t h e c lip pin gs. T he f ir s t p rin tin g h ad b een f iv e t h ousa n d c o pie s a n d
on t h e s tr e n gth o f t h e r e v ie w s a s e co nd p rin tin g h ad b een o rd ere d . T he
upco m in g a d vertis e m en ts w ould c arry t h e p hra se
N ow i n I ts S eco nd P rin tin g.
His p ublis h er h oped t h at h e w as a s h ap py a s h e d ese rv ed t o b e a n d t a k in g t h e
re st t h at h e s o r ic h ly d ese rv ed . H e s e n t h is b est g re etin gs t o h is w if e .
The y oung m an b orro w ed a p en cil f ro m t h e w aite r a n d c o m men ced t o
multip ly $ 2.5 0 b y o ne t h ousa n d. T hat w as e asy . T en p erc en t o f t h at w as t w o
hundre d a n d f if ty d olla rs . F iv e t im es t h at w as t w elv e h undre d a n d f if ty
dolla rs . D ed uct s e v en h undre d a n d f if ty d olla rs f o r t h e a d van ce. T hat l e ft f iv e
hundre d d olla rs e arn ed b y t h e f ir s t p rin tin g.
Now t h ere w as t h e s e co nd p rin tin g. S ay t h at w as t w o t h ousa n d. T hat w as
tw elv e a n d a h alf p erc en t o f f iv e t h ousa n d d olla rs . I f t h at w as h ow t h e
co ntr a ct w as. T hat w ould b e s ix h undre d a n d t w en ty -fiv e d olla rs . B ut m ay be
it d id n ot g o u p t o t w elv e a n d a h alf p erc en t u ntil t e n t h ousa n d. W ell i t w as
still f iv e h undre d d olla rs . T hat w ould s till l e av e a t h ousa n d.
He s ta rte d t o r e ad t h e r e v ie w s a n d f o und t h at h e h ad d ru nk t h e v erm outh
with out e v er n otic in g i t. H e o rd ere d a n oth er a n d r e tu rn ed t h e p en cil t o t h e
waite r. H e w as s till r e ad in g t h e r e v ie w s w hen t h e g ir l c am e i n b rin gin g h er
heav y e n velo pe o f l e tte rs .
“I d id n’t k now t h ey ’d c o m e,” s h e s a id . “ L et m e s e e t h em . P le ase l e t m e
se e t h em .”
The w aite r b ro ught h er a v erm outh a n d p uttin g i t d ow n s a w t h e p ic tu re a s
th e g ir l u nfo ld ed a c lip pin g.
“ C ’e st M onsie u r?
” h e a sk ed .
“Y es i t i s ,” t h e g ir l s a id a n d h eld i t u p f o r h im t o s e e.
“B ut d if fe re n tly d re sse d ,” t h e w aite r s a id . “ D o t h ey w rite a b out t h e
marria g e? M ay I s e e a p ic tu re o f M ad am e?”
“N ot a b out t h e m arria g e. C ritic is m s o f a b ook b y M onsie u r.”
“M ag nif ic en t,” s a id t h e w aite r w ho w as d eep ly m oved . “ Is M ad am e a ls o
a w rite r? ”
“N o,” t h e g ir l s a id n ot l o okin g u p f ro m t h e c lip pin gs. “ M ad am e i s a

house w if e .”
The w aite r l a u ghed p ro udly . “ M ad am e i s p ro bab ly i n t h e c in em a.”
They b oth r e ad c lip pin gs a n d t h en t h e g ir l p ut t h e o ne s h e w as r e ad in g
dow n a n d s a id , “ I’m f rig hte n ed b y t h em a n d a ll t h e t h in gs t h ey s a y . H ow c an
we b e u s a n d h av e t h e t h in gs w e h av e a n d d o w hat w e d o a n d y ou b e t h is
th at’ s i n t h e c lip pin gs? ”
“I’v e h ad t h em b efo re ,” t h e y oung m an s a id . “ T hey ’re b ad f o r y ou b ut i t
doesn ’t l a st.”
“T hey ’re t e rrib le ,” s h e s a id . “ T hey c o uld d estr o y y ou i f y ou t h ought
ab out t h em o r b elie v ed t h em . Y ou d on’t t h in k I m arrie d y ou b ecau se y ou a re
what t h ey s a y y ou a re i n t h ese c lip pin gs d o y ou?”
“N o. I w an t t o r e ad t h em a n d t h en w e’ll s e al t h em u p i n t h e e n velo pe.”
“I k now y ou h av e t o r e ad t h em . I d on’t w an t t o b e s tu pid a b out t h em . B ut
ev en i n a n e n velo pe i t’ s a w fu l t o h av e t h em w ith u s. I t’ s l ik e b rin gin g a lo ng
so m eb ody’s a sh es i n a j a r.”
“P le n ty o f p eo ple w ould b e h ap py i f t h eir d am ned h usb an ds h ad g ood
re v ie w s.”
“I’m n ot p le n ty o f p eo ple a n d y ou’re n ot m y d am ned h usb an d. I k now
I’m a v io le n t g ir l a n d y ou’re v io le n t t o o. P le ase l e t’ s n ot f ig ht. Y ou r e ad t h em
an d i f t h ere ’s a n yth in g g ood y ou t e ll m e a n d i f t h ey s a y a n yth in g a b out t h e
book t h at’ s i n te llig en t t h at w e d on’t k now y ou t e ll m e.”
“T he b ook’s m ad e s o m e m oney a lr e ad y,” h e t o ld h er.
“T hat’ s w onderfu l. I ’m s o g la d . B ut w e k now i t’ s g ood. I f t h e r e v ie w s
had s a id i t w as w orth le ss a n d i t n ev er m ad e a c en t I w ould h av e b een j u st a s
pro ud a n d j u st a s h ap py.”
I w ould n’t, t h e y oung m an t h ought. B ut h e d id n ot s a y i t. H e w en t o n
re ad in g t h e r e v ie w s, u nfo ld in g t h em a n d f o ld in g t h em u p a g ain a n d p uttin g
th em b ack i n t h e e n velo pe. T he g ir l s a t o pen in g e n velo pes a n d r e ad in g h er
le tte rs w ith out i n te re st. T hen s h e l o oked o ut o f t h e c afe a t t h e s e a. H er f a ce
was a d ark g old b ro w n a n d s h e h ad b ru sh ed h er h air s tr a ig ht b ack f ro m h er
fo re h ead t h e w ay t h e s e a h ad p ulle d i t w hen s h e h ad c o m e o ut o f t h e w ate r
an d w here i t w as c ro pped c lo se a n d o n h er c h eek s t h e s u n h ad b urn ed i t t o
white g old a g ain st t h e b ro w n o f h er s k in . S he l o oked o ut a t t h e s e a a n d h er
ey es w ere v ery s a d . T hen s h e w en t b ack t o o pen in g l e tte rs . T here w as o ne
lo ng t y pew ritte n o ne t h at s h e r e ad w ith c o ncen tr a tio n. T hen s h e w en t o n
open in g a n d r e ad in g t h e o th er l e tte rs . T he y oung m an l o oked a t h er a n d
th ought s h e l o oked a l ittle a s t h ough s h e w ere s h ellin g p eas.

“W hat w as i n t h e l e tte rs ? ” t h e y oung m an a sk ed .
“T here w ere c h eck s i n s o m e.”
“B ig o nes? ”
“T w o.”
“T hat’ s f in e,” h e s a id .
“D on’t g o a w ay l ik e t h at. Y ou a lw ay s s a id i t n ev er m ad e a n y d if fe re n ce.”
“H av e I s a id a n yth in g?”
“N o. Y ou j u st w en t a w ay .”
“I’m s o rry ,” h e s a id . “ H ow b ig a re t h ey ?”
“N ot m uch r e ally . B ut g ood f o r u s. T hey ’v e b een d ep osite d . I t’ s b ecau se
I’m m arrie d . I t o ld y ou i t w as t h e b est t h in g f o r u s t o b e m arrie d . I k now i t
doesn ’t m ean a n yth in g a s c ap ita l b ut t h is i s s p en dab le . W e c an s p en d i t a n d i t
doesn ’t h urt a n ybody a n d i t’ s f o r t h at. I t d oesn ’t h av e a n yth in g t o d o w ith
re g ula r i n co m e n or w hat I g et i f I l iv e t o b e t w en ty -fiv e o r i f I e v er l iv e t o b e
th ir ty . T his i s o urs f o r a n yth in g w e w an t t o d o. N eith er o f u s w ill h av e t o
worry a b out b ala n ces f o r a w hile . I t’ s t h at s im ple .”
“T he b ook h as p aid b ack t h e a d van ce a n d m ad e a b out a t h ousa n d
dolla rs ,” h e s a id .
“Is n ’t t h at a w fu lly g ood w hen i t’ s o nly j u st c o m e o ut? ”
“It’ s a ll r ig ht. S hould w e h av e a n oth er o ne o f t h ese ?” h e a sk ed .
“L et’ s d rin k s o m eth in g e ls e .”
“H ow m uch v erm outh d id y ou d rin k?”
“O nly t h e o ne. I m ust s a y i t w as d ull.”
“I d ra n k t w o a n d d id n’t e v en t a ste t h em .”
“W hat i s t h ere t h at’ s r e al? ” s h e s a id .
“D id y ou e v er d rin k A rm ag nac a n d s o da? T hat’ s r e al e n ough.”
“G ood. L et’ s t r y t h at.”
The w aite r b ro ught t h e A rm ag nac a n d t h e y oung m an t o ld h im t o b rin g a
co ld b ottle o f P errie r w ate r i n ste ad o f t h e s y phon. T he w aite r p oure d t w o
la rg e A rm ag nacs a n d t h e y oung m an p ut i c e i n t h e b ig g la sse s a n d p oure d i n
th e P errie r.
“T his w ill f ix u s,” h e s a id . “ It’ s a h ell o f a t h in g t o d rin k b efo re l u nch
th ough.”
The g ir l t o ok a l o ng s ip . “ It’ s g ood,” s h e s a id . “ It h as a f re sh c le an
health y u gly t a ste .” S he t o ok a n oth er l o ng s ip . “ I c an r e ally f e el i t. C an y ou?”
“Y es,” h e s a id a n d t o ok a d eep b re ath . “ I c an f e el i t.”
She d ra n k f ro m t h e g la ss a g ain a n d s m ile d a n d t h e l a u gh w rin kle s c am e a t

th e c o rn er o f h er e y es. T he c o ld P errie r h ad m ad e t h e h eav y b ra n dy a liv e.
“F or h ero es,” h e s a id .
“I d on’t m in d b ein g a h ero ,” s h e s a id . “ W e’re n ot l ik e o th er p eo ple . W e
don’t h av e t o c all e ach o th er d arlin g o r m y d ear o r m y l o ve n or a n y o f t h at t o
mak e a p oin t. D arlin g a n d m y d eare st a n d m y v ery d eare st a n d a ll t h at a re
obsc en e t o m e a n d w e c all e ach o th er b y o ur C hris tia n n am es. Y ou k now
what I ’m t r y in g t o s a y . W hy d o w e h av e t o d o o th er t h in gs l ik e e v ery one
does? ”
“Y ou’re a v ery i n te llig en t g ir l.”
“A ll r ig ht D av ie ,” s h e s a id . “ W hy d o w e h av e t o b e s tu ffy ? W hy d on’t w e
keep o n a n d t r a v el n ow w hen i t c an n ev er b e m ore f u n? W e’ll d o e v ery th in g
you w an t. I f y ou’d b een a E uro pean w ith a l a w yer m y m oney w ould h av e
been y ours a n yw ay . I t
i s
y ours .”
“T he h ell w ith i t.”
“A ll r ig ht. T he h ell w ith i t. B ut w e’ll s p en d i t a n d I t h in k i t’ s w onderfu l.
You c an w rite a fte rw ard s. T hat w ay w e c an h av e t h e f u n b efo re I h av e a b ab y
fo r o ne t h in g. H ow d o I k now w hen I ’ll h av e a b ab y e v en ? N ow i t’ s a ll
gettin g d ull a n d d usty t a lk in g a b out i t. C an ’t w e j u st d o i t a n d n ot t a lk a b out
it? ”
“W hat i f I w an t t o w rite ? T he m in ute y ou’re n ot g oin g t o d o s o m eth in g i t
will p ro bab ly m ak e y ou w an t t o d o i t.”
“T hen w rite , s tu pid . Y ou d id n’t s a y y ou w ould n’t w rite . N obody s a id
an yth in g a b out w orry in g i f y ou w ro te . D id t h ey ?”
But s o m ew here s o m eth in g h ad b een s a id a n d n ow h e c o uld n ot r e m em ber
it b ecau se h e h ad b een t h in kin g a h ead .
“If y ou w an t t o w rite g o a h ead a n d I ’ll a m use m yse lf . I d on’t h av e t o
le av e y ou w hen y ou w rite d o I ? ”
“B ut w here w ould y ou l ik e u s t o g o n ow w hen p eo ple b eg in t o c o m e
here ?”
“A nyw here y ou w an t t o g o. W ill y ou d o i t, D av id ?”
“F or h ow l o ng?”
“F or a s l o ng a s w e w an t. S ix m onth s. N in e m onth s. A y ear.”
“A ll r ig ht,” h e s a id .
“R eally ?”
“S ure .”
“Y ou’re a w fu lly g ood. I f I d id n’t l o ve y ou f o r a n yth in g e ls e I ’d l o ve y ou
fo r d ecis io ns.”

“T hey ’re e asy t o m ak e w hen y ou h av en ’t s e en h ow t o o m an y o f t h em c an
tu rn o ut.”
He d ra n k t h e h ero d rin k b ut i t d id n ot t a ste s o g ood a n d h e o rd ere d a f re sh
bottle o f c o ld P errie r a n d m ad e a s h ort d rin k w ith out i c e.
“M ak e m e o ne p le ase . S hort l ik e y ours . A nd t h en l e t’ s l e t i t s ta rt a n d h av e
lu nch .”

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T hat n ig ht i n b ed w hen t h ey w ere s till a w ak e s h e s a id i n t h e d ark , “ W e d on’t
a lw ay s h av e t o d o t h e d ev il t h in gs e ith er. P le ase k now t h at.”
“I k now .”
“I l o ve i t t h e w ay w e w ere b efo re a n d I ’m a lw ay s y our g ir l. D on’t e v er b e
l o nely . Y ou k now t h at. I ’m h ow y ou w an t b ut I ’m h ow I w an t t o o a n d i t i s n ’t
a s t h ough i t w asn ’t f o r u s b oth . Y ou d on’t h av e t o t a lk . I ’m o nly t e llin g a
s to ry t o p ut y ou t o s le ep b ecau se y ou’re m y g ood l o vely h usb an d a n d m y
b ro th er t o o. I l o ve y ou a n d w hen w e g o t o A fric a I ’ll b e y our A fric an g ir l
t o o.”
“A re w e g oin g t o A fric a?”
“A re n ’t w e? D on’t y ou r e m em ber? T hat w as w hat i t w as a b out t o day . S o
w e c o uld g o t h ere o r a n yw here . I s n ’t t h at w here w e’re g oin g?”
“W hy d id n’t y ou s a y i t? ”
“I d id n’t w an t t o i n te rfe re . I s a id w here v er y ou w an te d . I ’d g o a n yw here .
B ut I t h ought t h at w as w here y ou w an te d .”
“It’ s t o o e arly t o g o t o A fric a n ow . I t’ s t h e b ig r a in s a n d a fte rw ard s t h e
g ra ss i s t o o h ig h a n d i t’ s v ery c o ld .”
“W e c o uld g o t o b ed a n d k eep w arm a n d h ear t h e r a in o n a t in r o of.”
“N o, i t’ s t o o e arly . T he r o ad s t u rn t o m ud a n d y ou c an ’t g et a ro und a n d
e v ery th in g i s l ik e a s w am p a n d t h e g ra ss g ets s o t a ll y ou c an ’t s e e.”
“T hen w here s h ould w e g o?”
“W e c an g o t o S pain b ut S ev illa i s o ver a n d s o i s S an I s id ro i n M ad rid
a n d i t’ s e arly f o r t h ere t o o. I t’ s t o o e arly f o r t h e B asq ue c o ast. I t’ s s till c o ld
a n d r a in y. I t r a in s e v ery w here t h ere n ow .”

“Is n ’t t h ere a h ot p art w here w e c o uld s w im t h e w ay w e d o h ere ?”
“Y ou c an ’t s w im i n S pain t h e w ay w e d o h ere . Y ou’d g et a rre ste d .”
“W hat a b ore . L et’ s w ait t o g o t h ere t h en b ecau se I w an t u s t o g et
dark er.”
“W hy d o y ou w an t t o b e s o d ark ?”
“I d on’t k now . W hy d o y ou w an t a n yth in g? R ig ht n ow i t’ s t h e t h in g t h at I
wan t m ost. T hat w e d on’t h av e I m ean . D oesn ’t i t m ak e y ou e x cite d t o h av e
me g ettin g s o d ark ?”
“U h-h uh. I l o ve i t.”
“D id y ou t h in k I c o uld e v er b e t h is d ark ?”
“N o, b ecau se y ou’re b lo nd.”
“I c an b ecau se I ’m l io n c o lo r a n d t h ey c an g o d ark . B ut I w an t e v ery p art
of m e d ark a n d i t’ s g ettin g t h at w ay a n d y ou’ll b e d ark er t h an a n I n dia n a n d
th at t a k es u s f u rth er a w ay f ro m o th er p eo ple . Y ou s e e w hy i t’ s i m porta n t.”
“W hat w ill w e b e?”
“I d on’t k now . M ay be w e’ll j u st b e u s. O nly c h an ged . T hat’ s m ay be t h e
best t h in g. A nd w e w ill k eep o n w on’t w e?”
“S ure . W e c an g o o ver b y t h e E sté re l a n d e x plo re a n d f in d a n oth er p la ce
th e w ay w e f o und t h is o ne.”
“W e c an d o t h at. T here a re l o ts o f w ild p la ces a n d n obody i s t h ere i s t h e
su m mer. W e c o uld g et a c ar a n d t h en w e c o uld g o e v ery w here . S pain t o o
when w e w an t. O nce w e’re r e ally d ark i t w on’t b e h ard t o k eep u nle ss w e h ad
to l iv e i n t o w ns. W e d on’t w an t t o b e i n t o w ns i n t h e s u m mer.”
“H ow d ark a re y ou g oin g t o g et? ”
“A s d ark a s I c an . W e’ll h av e t o s e e. I w is h I h ad s o m e I n dia n b lo od. I ’m
goin g t o b e s o d ark y ou w on’t b e a b le t o s ta n d i t. I c an ’t w ait t o g o u p o n t h e
beach t o m orro w .”
She w en t t o s le ep t h at w ay w ith h er h ead b ack a n d h er c h in u p a s t h ough
sh e w ere i n t h e s u n o n t h e b each , b re ath in g s o ftly , a n d t h en s h e c u rle d t o w ard
him o n h er s id e a n d t h e y oung m an l a y a w ak e a n d t h ought a b out t h e d ay . I t i s
very p ossib le t h at I c o uld n’t g et s ta rte d , h e t h ought, a n d i t p ro bab ly i s s o und
to n ot t h in k a b out i t a t a ll a n d j u st e n jo y w hat w e h av e. W hen I h av e t o w ork
I w ill. N oth in g c an s to p t h at. T he l a st b ook i s g ood a n d I m ust m ak e a b ette r
one n ow . T his n onse n se t h at w e d o i s f u n a lth ough I d on’t k now h ow m uch
of i t i s n onse n se a n d h ow m uch i s s e rio us. D rin kin g b ra n dy a t n oon i s n o
dam n g ood a n d a lr e ad y t h e s im ple a p eritif s m ean n oth in g. T hat i s n ot a g ood
sig n. S he c h an ges f ro m a g ir l i n to a b oy a n d b ack t o a g ir l c are le ssly a n d

hap pily . S he s le ep s e asily a n d b eau tif u lly a n d y ou w ill s le ep t o o b ecau se a ll
you t r u ly k now i s t h at y ou f e el g ood. Y ou d id n ot s e ll a n yth in g f o r t h e
money , h e t h ought. E very th in g s h e s a id a b out t h e m oney w as t r u e. A ctu ally i t
all w as t r u e. E very th in g w as f re e f o r a t im e.
What w as i t t h at s h e h ad s a id a b out d estr u ctio n? H e c o uld n ot r e m em ber
th at. S he’d s a id i t b ut h e c o uld n ot r e m em ber i t.
Then h e w as t ir e d o f t r y in g t o r e m em ber a n d h e l o oked a t t h e g ir l a n d
kis se d h er c h eek v ery l ig htly a n d s h e d id n ot w ak e. H e l o ved h er v ery m uch
an d e v ery th in g a b out h er a n d h e w en t t o s le ep t h in kin g a b out h er c h eek
ag ain st h is l ip s a n d h ow t h e n ex t d ay t h ey w ould b oth b e d ark er f ro m t h e s u n
an d h ow d ark c an s h e b eco m e, h e t h ought, a n d h ow d ark w ill s h e e v er r e ally
be?

4
I t w as l a te a fte rn oon a n d t h e s m all l o w c ar c am e d ow n f ro m t h e b la ck r o ad
a cro ss t h e h ills a n d h ead la n ds w ith t h e d ark b lu e o cean a lw ay s o n t h e r ig ht
o nto a d ese rte d b oule v ard t h at b ord ere d a f la t b each o f t w o m ile s o f y ello w
s a n d a t H en day e. W ell a h ead o n t h e o cean s id e w as t h e b ulk o f a b ig h ote l
a n d a c asin o a n d o n t h e l e ft t h ere w ere n ew ly p la n te d t r e es a n d B asq ue v illa s
w hite w ash ed a n d b ro w n t im bere d s e t i n t h eir o w n t r e es a n d p la n tin gs. T he
t w o y oung p eo ple i n t h e c ar r o de d ow n t h e b oule v ard s lo w ly l o okin g o ut a t
t h e m ag nif ic en t b each a n d a t t h e m ounta in s o f S pain t h at s h ow ed b lu e i n t h is
l ig ht a s t h e c ar p asse d t h e c asin o a n d t h e b ig h ote l a n d w en t o n t o w ard t h e
e n d o f t h e b oule v ard . A head w as t h e m outh o f t h e r iv er t h at f lo w ed i n to t h e
o cean . T he t id e w as o ut a n d a cro ss t h e b rig ht s a n d t h ey s a w t h e a n cie n t
S pan is h t o w n a n d t h e g re en h ills a cro ss t h e b ay a n d, a t t h e f a r p oin t, t h e
l ig hth ouse . T hey s to pped t h e c ar.
“It’ s a l o vely p la ce,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“T here ’s a c afe w ith t a b le s u nder t h e t r e es,” t h e y oung m an s a id . “ O ld
t r e es.”
“T he t r e es a re s tr a n ge,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ It’ s a ll n ew p la n tin g. I w onder w hy
t h ey p la n te d m im osa s.”
“T o c o m pete w ith w here w e’v e c o m e f ro m .”
“I s u ppose s o . I t a ll l o oks a w fu lly n ew . B ut i t’ s a w onderfu l b each . I
n ev er s a w s u ch a b ig b each i n F ra n ce n or w ith s u ch s m ooth a n d f in e s a n d.
B ia rritz i s a h orro r. L et’ s d riv e u p b y t h e c afe .”
They d ro ve b ack u p t h e r ig ht s id e o f t h e r o ad . T he y oung m an p ulle d t h e
c ar t o t h e c u rb a n d k ille d t h e i g nitio n. T hey c ro sse d t o t h e o utd oor c afe a n d i t

was p le asa n t t o e at b y t h em se lv es a n d b e c o nsc io us o f t h e p eo ple t h at t h ey
did n ot k now e atin g a t t h e o th er t a b le s.
That n ig ht t h e w in d r o se a n d i n t h eir c o rn er r o om h ig h u p i n t h e b ig h ote l
th ey h eard t h e h eav y f a ll o f t h e s u rf o n t h e b each . I n t h e d ark t h e y oung m an
pulle d a l ig ht b la n ket u p o ver t h e s h eet a n d t h e g ir l s a id , “ A re n ’t y ou g la d w e
decid ed t o s ta y ?”
“I l ik e t o h ear t h e s u rf p ound.”
“S o d o I .”
They l a y c lo se t o geth er a n d l is te n ed t o t h e s e a. H er h ead w as o n h is c h est
an d s h e m oved i t a g ain st h is c h in a n d t h en m oved u p i n t h e b ed a n d p ut h er
ch eek a g ain st h is a n d p re sse d i t t h ere . S he k is se d h im a n d h e c o uld f e el h er
han d t o uch in g h im .
“T hat’ s g ood,” s h e s a id i n t h e d ark ness. “ T hat’ s l o vely . Y ou’re s u re y ou
don’t w an t m e t o c h an ge?”
“N ot n ow . N ow I ’m c o ld . P le ase h old m e w arm .”
“I l o ve y ou w hen y ou f e el c o ld a g ain st m e.”
“If i t g ets t h is c o ld h ere a t n ig ht w e’ll h av e t o w ear p yja m a t o ps. T hat w ill
be f u n f o r b re ak fa st i n b ed .”
“It’ s t h e A tla n tic o cean ,” s h e s a id . “ L is te n t o i t.”
“W e’ll h av e a g ood t im e w hile w e’re h ere ,” h e t o ld h er. “ If y ou w an t
we’ll s ta y a w hile . I f y ou w an t w e’ll g o. T here a re p le n ty o f p la ces t o g o.”
“W e m ig ht s ta y a f e w d ay s a n d s e e.”
“G ood. I f w e d o I ’d l ik e t o s ta rt t o w rite .”
“T hat w ould b e w onderfu l. W e’ll l o ok a ro und t o m orro w . Y ou c o uld w ork
here i n t h e r o om i f I w ere o ut c o uld n’t y ou? U ntil w e f o und s o m e p la ce?”
“S ure .”
“Y ou k now y ou m ust n ev er w orry a b out m e b ecau se I l o ve y ou a n d w e’re
us a g ain st a ll t h e o th ers . P le ase k is s m e,” s h e s a id .
He k is se d h er.
“Y ou k now I h av en ’t d one a n yth in g b ad t o u s. I h ad t o d o i t. Y ou k now
th at.”
He d id n ot s a y a n yth in g a n d l is te n ed t o t h e w eig ht o f t h e s u rf f a llin g o n
th e h ard w et s a n d i n t h e n ig ht.

The n ex t m orn in g t h ere w as s till h eav y s u rf a n d t h e r a in c am e i n g usts . T hey
co uld n ot s e e t h e S pan is h c o ast a n d w hen i t c le are d b etw een t h e d riv en
sq ualls o f r a in a n d t h ey c o uld s e e a cro ss t h e a n gry s e a i n t h e b ay t h ere w ere

heav y c lo uds t h at c am e d ow n t o t h e b ase o f t h e m ounta in s. C ath erin e h ad
gone o ut i n a r a in co at a fte r b re ak fa st a n d h ad l e ft h im t o w ork i n t h e r o om . I t
had g one s o s im ply a n d e asily t h at h e t h ought i t w as p ro bab ly w orth le ss. B e
care fu l, h e s a id t o h im se lf , i t i s a ll v ery w ell f o r y ou t o w rite s im ply a n d t h e
sim ple r t h e b ette r. B ut d o n ot s ta rt t o t h in k s o d am ned s im ply . K now h ow
co m plic ate d i t i s a n d t h en s ta te i t s im ply . D o y ou s u ppose t h e G ra u d u R oi
tim e w as a ll s im ple b ecau se y ou c o uld w rite a l ittle o f i t s im ply ?
He w en t o n w ritin g i n p en cil i n t h e c h eap , l in ed , s c h ool n ote b ook t h at
was c alle d a
c a hie r
a n d a lr e ad y n um bere d o ne i n r o m an n um era l. H e s to pped
fin ally a n d p ut t h e n ote b ook i n a s u itc ase w ith a c ard board b ox o f p en cils a n d
th e c o ne-s h ap ed s h arp en er, l e av in g t h e f iv e p en cils h e h ad d ulle d t o p oin t u p
fo r t h e n ex t d ay , a n d t o ok h is r a in co at f ro m t h e h an ger i n t h e c lo se t a n d
walk ed d ow n t h e s ta ir s t o t h e l o bby o f t h e h ote l. H e l o oked i n to t h e h ote l b ar
whic h w as g lo om y a n d p le asa n t i n t h e r a in a n d a lr e ad y h ad s o m e c u sto m ers
an d l e ft h is k ey a t t h e d esk . T he a ssis ta n t c o ncie rg e r e ach ed i n to t h e m ailb ox
as h e h ung u p t h e k ey a n d s a id , “ M ad am e l e ft t h is f o r M onsie u r.”
He o pen ed t h e n ote w hic h s a id , D av id , d id n’t w an t t o d is tu rb y ou a m a t
th e c afe l o ve C ath erin e. H e p ut o n t h e o ld t r e n ch c o at, f o und a
b oin a
i n t h e
pock et a n d w alk ed o ut o f t h e h ote l i n to t h e r a in .
She w as a t a c o rn er t a b le i n t h e s m all c afe a n d b efo re h er w as a c lo uded
yello w -tin ged d rin k a n d a p la te w ith o ne s m all d ark r e d f re sh w ate r c ra y fis h
an d t h e d eb ris o f o th ers . S he w as v ery f a r a h ead o f h im . “ W here h av e y ou
been , s tr a n ger? ”
“Ju st d ow n t h e r o ad a p ie ce.” H e n otic ed t h at h er f a ce w as r a in -w ash ed
an d h e c o ncen tr a te d o n w hat r a in d id t o h eav ily t a n ned s k in . S he l o oked v ery
nic e t o o i n s p ite o f i t a n d h e w as h ap py t o s e e h er t h is w ay .
“D id y ou g et g oin g?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“G ood e n ough.”
“Y ou w ork ed t h en . T hat’ s f in e.”
The w aite r h ad b een s e rv in g t h re e S pan ia rd s w ho w ere s ittin g a t a t a b le
nex t t o t h e d oor. H e c am e o ver n ow h old in g a g la ss a n d a n o rd in ary P ern od
bottle a n d a s m all n arro w -lip ped p itc h er o f w ate r. T here w ere l u m ps o f i c e i n
th e w ate r. “
P our M onsie u r a ussi?
” h e a sk ed .
“Y es,” t h e y oung m an s a id . “ P le ase .”
The w aite r p oure d t h eir h ig h g la sse s h alf f u ll o f t h e o ff-y ello w l iq uid a n d
sta rte d t o p our t h e w ate r s lo w ly i n to t h e g ir l’ s g la ss. B ut t h e y oung m an s a id ,
“I’ll d o i t,” a n d t h e w aite r t o ok t h e b ottle a w ay . H e s e em ed r e lie v ed t o b e

ta k in g i t a w ay a n d t h e y oung m an p oure d t h e w ate r i n a v ery t h in s tr e am a n d
th e g ir l w atc h ed t h e a b sin th e c lo ud o pale sc en tly . I t f e lt w arm a s h er f in gers
held t h e g la ss a n d t h en a s i t l o st t h e y ello w c ast a n d b eg an t o l o ok m ilk y i t
co ole d s h arp ly a n d t h e y oung m an l e t t h e w ate r f a ll i n a d ro p a t a t im e.
“W hy d oes i t h av e t o g o i n s o s lo w ly ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“It b re ak s u p a n d g oes t o p ie ces i f t h e w ate r p ours i n t o o f a st,” h e
ex pla in ed . “ T hen i t’ s f la t a n d w orth le ss. T here o ught t o b e a g la ss o n t o p w ith
ic e a n d j u st a l ittle h ole f o r t h e w ate r t o d rip . B ut e v ery body w ould k now
what i t w as t h en .”
“I h ad t o d rin k u p f a st b efo re b ecau se t w o G .N .’ s w ere i n ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“G .N .’ s ? ”
“W haty oum acallits n atio nals . I n k hak i w ith b ic y cle s a n d b la ck l e ath er
pis to l h ols te rs . I h ad t o e n gulp t h e e v id en ce.”
“E ngulp ?”
“S orry . O nce I e n gulp ed i t I c an ’t s a y i t.”
“Y ou w an t t o b e c are fu l a b out a b sin th e.”
“It o nly m ak es m e f e el e asie r a b out t h in gs.”
“A nd n oth in g e ls e d oes? ”
He f in is h ed m ak in g t h e a b sin th e f o r h er, h old in g i t w ell s h ort o f m ild ness.
“G o a h ead ,” h e t o ld h er. “ D on’t w ait f o r m e.” S he t o ok a l o ng s ip a n d t h en h e
to ok h er g la ss f ro m h er a n d d ra n k a n d s a id , “ T han k y ou, M a’a m . T hat p uts
heart i n a m an .”
“S o m ak e y our o w n, y ou c lip pin g r e ad er,” s h e s a id .
“W hat w as t h at? ” t h e y oung m an s a id t o h er.
“I d id n’t s a y i t.”
But s h e h ad s a id i t a n d h e s a id t o h er, “ W hy d on’t y ou j u st s h ut u p a b out
th e c lip pin gs.”
“W hy?” s h e s a id , l e an in g t o w ard h im a n d s p eak in g t o o l o udly . “ W hy
sh ould I s h ut u p? J u st b ecau se y ou w ro te t h is m orn in g? D o y ou t h in k I
marrie d y ou b ecau se y ou’re a w rite r? Y ou a n d y our c lip pin gs.”
“A ll r ig ht,” t h e y oung m an s a id . “ C an y ou t e ll m e t h e r e st o f i t w hen
we’re b y o urs e lv es? ”
“D on’t e v er t h in k f o r a m om en t I w on’t,” s h e s a id .
“I g uess n ot,” h e s a id .
“D on’t g uess,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou c an b e c erta in .”
Dav id B ourn e s to od u p a n d w en t o ver t o t h e h an ger a n d l if te d h is r a in co at
an d w en t o ut t h e d oor w ith out l o okin g b ack .

At t h e t a b le C ath erin e r a is e d h er g la ss a n d t a ste d t h e a b sin th e v ery
care fu lly a n d w en t o n t a stin g i t i n l ittle s ip s.
The d oor o pen ed a n d D av id c am e b ack i n a n d w alk ed u p t o t h e t a b le . H e
was w earin g h is t r e n ch c o at a n d h ad h is
b oin a
p ulle d l o w o n h is f o re h ead .
“D o y ou h av e t h e k ey s t o t h e c ar? ”
“Y es,” s h e s a id .
“M ay I h av e t h em ?”
She g av e t h em t o h im b ut s a id , “ D on’t b e s tu pid , D av id . I t w as t h e r a in
an d y ou b ein g t h e o nly o ne w ho h ad w ork ed . S it d ow n.”
“D o y ou w an t m e t o ?”
“P le ase ,” s h e s a id .
He s a t d ow n. T hat d id n’t m ak e m uch s e n se , h e t h ought. Y ou g ot u p t o g o
out a n d t a k e t h e d am ned c ar a n d s ta y o ut a n d t h e h ell w ith h er a n d t h en y ou
co m e b ack i n a n d h av e t o a sk f o r t h e k ey a n d t h en s it d ow n l ik e a s lo b. H e
pic k ed u p h is g la ss a n d t o ok a d rin k. T he d rin k w as g ood a n yw ay .
“W hat a re y ou g oin g t o d o a b out l u nch ?” h e a sk ed .
“Y ou s a y w here a n d I ’ll e at i t w ith y ou. Y ou d o s till l o ve m e, d on’t y ou?”
“D on’t b e s illy .”
“T hat w as a s o rd id q uarre l,” C ath erin e s a id .
“T he f ir s t o ne t o o.”
“It w as m y f a u lt a b out t h e c lip pin gs.”
“L et’ s n ot m en tio n t h e g od d am ned c lip pin gs.”
“T hat’ s w hat i t w as a ll a b out.”
“It w as y ou t h in kin g a b out t h em w hen y ou w ere d rin kin g. B rin gin g t h em
up b ecau se y ou w ere d rin kin g.”
“It s o unds l ik e r e g urg ita tin g,” s h e s a id . “ A wfu l. A ctu ally m y t o ngue j u st
slip ped m ak in g a j o ke.”
“Y ou h ad t o h av e t h em i n y our h ead t o b rin g t h em o ut t h at w ay .”
“A ll r ig ht,” s h e s a id . “ I t h ought m ay be i t w as a ll o ver.”
“It i s .”
“W ell w hy d o y ou k eep o n i n sis tin g a n d i n sis tin g a b out i t f o r t h en ?”
“W e s h ould n’t h av e t a k en t h is d rin k.”
“N o. O f c o urs e n ot. E sp ecia lly m e. B ut y ou c erta in ly n eed ed i t. D o y ou
th in k i t w ill d o y ou a n y g ood?”
“D o w e h av e t o d o t h is n ow ?” h e a sk ed .
“I’m c erta in ly g oin g t o s to p i t. I t b ore s m e.”
“T hat’ s t h e o ne d am ned w ord i n t h e l a n guag e I c an ’t s ta n d.”

“L uck y y ou w ith o nly o ne w ord l ik e t h at i n t h e l a n guag e.”
“O h s h it,” h e s a id . “ E at l u nch b y y ours e lf .”
“N o. I w on’t. W e’ll e at l u nch t o geth er a n d b eh av e l ik e h um an b ein gs.”
“A ll r ig ht.”
“I’m s o rry . I t r e ally w as a j o ke a n d i t j u st m is fir e d . T ru ly D av id t h at w as
all.”

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T he t id e w as f a r o ut w hen D av id B ourn e w oke a n d t h e s u n w as b rig ht o n t h e
b each a n d t h e s e a w as a d ark b lu e. T he h ills s h ow ed g re en a n d n ew w ash ed
a n d t h e c lo uds h ad g one f ro m t h e m ounta in s. C ath erin e w as s till s le ep in g a n d
h e l o oked a t h er a n d w atc h ed h er r e g ula r b re ath in g a n d t h e s u n o n h er f a ce
a n d t h ought, h ow s tr a n ge t h at t h e s u n o n h er e y es s h ould n ot w ak e h er.
Afte r h e h ad t a k en a s h ow er a n d b ru sh ed h is t e eth a n d s h av ed , h e w as
h ungry f o r b re ak fa st b ut h e p ulle d o n a p air o f s h orts a n d a s w eate r a n d f o und
h is n ote b ook a n d p en cils a n d t h e s h arp en er a n d s a t a t t h e t a b le b y t h e w in dow
t h at l o oked o ut o ver t h e e stu ary o f t h e r iv er t o S pain . H e s ta rte d t o w rite a n d
h e f o rg ot a b out C ath erin e a n d w hat h e s a w f ro m t h e w in dow a n d t h e w ritin g
w en t b y i ts e lf a s i t d id w ith h im w hen h e w as l u ck y. H e w ro te i t e x actly a n d
t h e s in is te r p art o nly s h ow ed a s t h e l ig ht f e ath erin g o f a s m ooth s w ell o n a
c alm d ay m ark in g t h e r e ef b en eath .
When h e h ad w ork ed f o r a t im e, h e l o oked a t C ath erin e, s till s le ep in g, h er
l ip s s m ilin g n ow a n d t h e r e cta n gle o f s u nlig ht f ro m t h e o pen w in dow f a llin g
a cro ss t h e b ro w n o f h er b ody a n d l ig htin g h er d ark f a ce a n d t a w ny h ead
a g ain st t h e r u m ple d w hite o f t h e s h eet a n d t h e u nuse d p illo w . I t’ s t o o l a te t o
g et b re ak fa st n ow , h e t h ought. I ’ll l e av e a n ote a n d g o d ow n t o t h e c afe a n d
g et a c afé c rè m e a n d s o m eth in g. B ut w hile h e w as p uttin g h is w ork a w ay
C ath erin e w oke a n d c am e o ver t o h im a s h e w as c lo sin g t h e s u itc ase a n d p ut
h er a rm s a ro und h im a n d k is se d h im o n t h e b ack o f h is n eck a n d s a id , “ I’m
y our l a zy n ak ed w if e .”
“W hat d id y ou w ak e u p f o r? ”
“I d on’t k now . B ut t e ll m e w here y ou’re g oin g a n d I ’ll b e t h ere i n f iv e

min ute s.”
“I’m g oin g t o t h e c afe t o g et s o m e b re ak fa st.”
“G o a h ead a n d I ’ll j o in y ou. Y ou w ork ed d id n’t y ou?”
“S ure .”
“W ere n ’t y ou w onderfu l t o a fte r y este rd ay a n d e v ery th in g. I ’m s o p ro ud.
Kis s m e a n d l o ok a t u s i n t h e m ir ro r o n t h e b ath ro om d oor.”
He k is se d h er a n d t h ey l o oked i n to t h e f u ll l e n gth m ir ro r.
“It’ s s o n ic e n ot t o f e el o verd re sse d ,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou b e g ood a n d d on’t
get i n a n y t r o uble o n y our w ay t o t h e c afe . O rd er m e a n
o eu f a u j a m bon
t o o.
Don’t w ait f o r m e. I ’m s o rry I m ad e y ou w ait s o l o ng f o r b re ak fa st.”
At t h e c afe h e f o und t h e m orn in g p ap er a n d t h e P aris p ap ers o f t h e d ay
befo re a n d h ad h is c o ffe e a n d m ilk a n d t h e B ay onne h am w ith a b ig
beau tif u lly f re sh e g g t h at h e g ro und c o ars e p ep per o ver s p ars e ly a n d s p re ad a
little m usta rd o n b efo re h e b ro ke t h e y olk . W hen C ath erin e h ad n ot c o m e a n d
her e g g w as i n d an ger o f g ettin g c o ld h e a te i t t o o, s w ab bin g t h e f la t d is h
cle an w ith a p ie ce o f t h e f re sh b ak ed b re ad .
“H ere c o m es M ad am e,” t h e w aite r s a id . “ I’ll b rin g a n oth er
p la t
f o r h er.”
She h ad p ut o n a s k ir t a n d c ash m ere s w eate r a n d p earls a n d t o w ele d h er
head b ut c o m bed i t d am p a n d s tr a ig ht a n d w et a n d t h e t a w ny c o lo r o f h er h air
did n ot s h ow t o m ak e t h e c o ntr a st w ith h er i n cre d ib ly d ark en ed f a ce. “ It’ s
su ch a b eau tif u l d ay ,” s h e s a id . “ I’m s o rry t o b e l a te .”
“W here a re y ou d re sse d f o r? ”
“B ia rritz . I t h ought I ’d d riv e i n . D o y ou w an t t o c o m e?”
“Y ou w an t t o g o a lo ne.”
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ B ut y ou’re w elc o m e.”
As h e s to od s h e s a id , “ I’m g oin g t o b rin g y ou b ack a s u rp ris e .”
“N o, d on’t.”
“Y es. A nd y ou’ll l ik e i t.”
“L et m e g o a lo ng a n d k eep y ou f ro m d oin g a n yth in g c ra zy .”
“N o. I t’ s b ette r i f I d o i t a lo ne. I ’ll b e b ack i n t h e a fte rn oon. A nd d on’t
wait f o r l u nch .”
Dav id r e ad t h e p ap ers a n d t h en w alk ed o ut t h ro ugh t h e t o w n l o okin g f o r
ch ale ts t h at m ig ht b e f o r r e n t o r f o r a p art o f t o w n t h at m ig ht b e g ood t o l iv e
in a n d f o und t h e n ew ly b uilt u p a re a p le asa n t b ut d ull. H e l o ved t h e v ie w
acro ss t h e b ay a n d t h e e stu ary t o t h e S pan is h s id e a n d t h e o ld g ra y s to ne o f
Fuen te rra b iá a n d s h in in g w hite o f t h e h ouse s t h at s p re ad o ut f ro m i t a n d t h e
bro w n m ounta in s w ith t h e b lu e s h ad ow s. H e w ondere d w hy t h e s to rm h ad

gone s o q uic k ly a n d t h ought i t m ust h av e b een o nly t h e n orth ern e d ge o f a
sto rm t h at c am e i n a cro ss t h e B ay o f B is c ay . B is c ay w as V iz cay a b ut t h at w as
th e B asq ue p ro vin ce f u rth er d ow n t h e c o ast w ell b ey ond S an S eb astia n . T he
mounta in s t h at h e s a w b ey ond t h e r o ofs o f t h e b ord er t o w n o f I ru n w ere i n
Guip úzco a a n d b ey ond t h em w ould b e N av arra a n d N av arra w as N av arre .
And w hat a re w e d oin g h ere , h e t h ought, a n d w hat a m I d oin g w alk in g
th ro ugh a b each r e so rt t o w n l o okin g a t n ew ly p la n te d m ag nolia s a n d b lo ody
mim osa s a n d w atc h in g f o r t o -re n t s ig ns o n p hony B asq ue v illa s? Y ou d id n’t
work h ard e n ough t h is m orn in g t o m ak e y our b ra in t h at s tu pid o r a re y ou j u st
hung o ver f ro m y este rd ay ? Y ou d id n’t w ork a t a ll r e ally . A nd y ou b ette r s o on
becau se e v ery th in g’s g oin g t o o f a st a n d y ou’re g oin g w ith i t a n d y ou’ll b e
th ro ugh b efo re e v er y ou k now i t. M ay be y ou’re t h ro ugh n ow . A ll r ig ht. D on’t
sta rt. A t l e ast y ou r e m em ber t h at m uch . A nd h e w alk ed o n t h ro ugh t h e t o w n,
his v is io n s h arp en ed b y s p le en a n d t e m pere d b y t h e a sh b eau ty o f t h e d ay .

The b re eze f ro m t h e s e a w as b lo w in g t h ro ugh t h e r o om a n d h e w as r e ad in g
with h is s h ould ers a n d t h e s m all o f h is b ack a g ain st t w o p illo w s a n d a n oth er
fo ld ed b eh in d h is h ead . H e w as s le ep y a fte r l u nch b ut h e f e lt h ollo w w ith
waitin g f o r h er a n d h e r e ad a n d w aite d . T hen h e h eard t h e d oor o pen a n d s h e
cam e i n a n d f o r a n i n sta n t h e d id n ot k now h er. S he s to od t h ere w ith h er
han ds b elo w h er b re asts o n t h e c ash m ere s w eate r a n d b re ath in g a s t h ough s h e
had b een r u nnin g.
“O h, n o,” s h e s a id . “ N o.”
Then s h e w as o n t h e b ed p ush in g h er h ead a g ain st h im s a y in g, “ N o. N o.
Ple ase D av id . D on’t y ou a t a ll? ”
He h eld h er h ead c lo se a g ain st h is c h est a n d f e lt i t s m ooth c lo se c lip ped
an d c o ars e ly s ilk y a n d s h e p ush ed i t h ard a g ain st h im a g ain a n d a g ain .
“W hat d id y ou d o, D ev il? ”
She r a is e d h er h ead a n d l o oked a t h im a n d h er l ip s p re sse d a g ain st h is a n d
sh e m oved t h em f ro m s id e t o s id e a n d m oved o n t h e b ed s o h er b ody w as
pre sse d a g ain st h is .
“N ow I c an t e ll,” s h e s a id . “ I’m s o g la d . I t w as s u ch a b ig c h an ce. I ’m
your n ew g ir l n ow s o w e’d b ette r f in d o ut.”
“L et m e s e e.”
“I’ll s h ow y ou b ut l e t m e g o a m in ute .”
She c am e b ack a n d s to od b y t h e b ed w ith t h e s u n o n h er t h ro ugh t h e
win dow . S he h ad d ro pped t h e s k ir t a n d w as b are fo ot w earin g o nly t h e

sw eate r a n d t h e p earls .
“T ak e a g ood l o ok,” s h e s a id . “ B ecau se t h is i s h ow I a m .”
He t o ok a g ood l o ok a t t h e l o ng d ark l e g s t h e s tr a ig ht s ta n din g b ody t h e
dark f a ce a n d t h e s c u lp tu re d t a w ny h ead a n d s h e l o oked a t h im a n d s a id ,
“T han k y ou.”
“H ow d id y ou d o i t? ”
“C an I t e ll y ou i n b ed ?”
“If y ou t e ll m e i n a h urry .”
“N o. N ot i n a h urry . L et m e t e ll. F ir s t I h ad t h e i d ea o n t h e r o ad
so m ew here a fte r A ix e n P ro ven ce. A t N îm es w hen w e w ere w alk in g i n t h e
gard en I t h in k. B ut I d id n’t k now h ow i t w ould w ork o r h ow t o t e ll t h em h ow
to d o i t. T hen I t h ought i t o ut a n d y este rd ay I d ecid ed .”
Dav id s tr o ked h is h an d o ver h er h ead f ro m h er n eck o ver t h e t o p o f h er
head t o h er f o re h ead .
“L et m e t e ll,” s h e s a id . “ I k new t h ey m ust h av e g ood c o if fe u rs i n B ia rritz
becau se o f t h e E nglis h . S o w hen I g ot t h ere I w en t t o t h e b est p la ce a n d I t o ld
th e c o if fe u r t h at I w an te d i t a ll b ru sh ed f o rw ard a n d h e b ru sh ed i t a n d i t c am e
dow n t o m y n ose a n d I c o uld h ard ly s e e t h ro ugh i t a n d I s a id I w an te d i t c u t
lik e a b oy w hen h e w ould f ir s t g o t o p ublic s c h ool. H e a sk ed m e w hat s c h ool
so I s a id E to n o r W in ch este r b ecau se t h ey w ere t h e o nly s c h ools I c o uld
re m em ber e x cep t R ugby a n d I d id n’t w an t R ugby c erta in ly . H e s a id w hic h .
So I s a id E to n b ut f o rw ard a ll t h e w ay . S o a fte r h e w as f in is h ed a n d I l o oked
lik e t h e m ost a ttr a ctiv e g ir l w ho e v er w en t t o E to n I j u st h ad h im k eep o n
sh orte n in g i t u ntil E to n w as a ll g one a n d t h en I h ad h im k eep o n s h orte n in g i t.
Then h e s a id v ery s e v ere ly t h at i s
n ot
a n E to n c ro p, M ad em ois e lle . A nd I s a id
I d id n’t w an t a n E to n c ro p, M onsie u r. T hat w as t h e o nly w ay I k new h ow t o
ex pla in w hat I w an te d a n d i t i s M ad am e n ot M ad em ois e lle . S o t h en I h ad h im
sh orte n i t s o m e m ore a n d t h en I k ep t h im s h orte n in g i t a n d i t i s e ith er
wonderfu l o r t e rrib le . Y ou d on’t m in d i t o n m y f o re h ead ? W hen i t w as E to n i t
fe ll i n m y e y e.”
“It’ s w onderfu l.”
“It’ s a w fu lly c la ssic ,” s h e s a id . “ B ut i t f e els l ik e a n a n im al. F eel i t.”
He f e lt i t.
“D on’t w orry a b out i t b ein g t o o c la ssic ,” s h e s a id . “ M y m outh b ala n ces i t.
Now c an w e m ak e l o ve?”
She b en t h er h ead f o rw ard a n d h e p ulle d t h e s w eate r o ver h er h ead a n d
dow n o ff h er a rm s a n d b en t o ver h er n eck t o u nhook t h e s a fe ty c la sp .

“N o l e av e t h em .”
She l a y b ack o n t h e b ed h er b ro w n l e g s t ig ht t o geth er a n d h er h ead
ag ain st t h e f la t s h eet t h e p earls s la n te d a w ay f ro m t h e d ark r is e o f h er b re asts .
Her e y es w ere s h ut a n d h er a rm s w ere b y h er s id es. S he
w as
a n ew g ir l a n d
he s a w h er m outh w as c h an ged t o o. S he w as b re ath in g v ery c are fu lly a n d s h e
sa id , “ Y ou d o e v ery th in g. F ro m t h e b eg in nin g. F ro m t h e v ery b eg in nin g.”
“Is t h is t h e b eg in nin g?”
“O h y es. A nd d on’t w ait t o o l o ng. N o d on’t w ait— ”



In t h e n ig ht s h e l a y c u rle d a ro und h im w ith h er h ead b elo w h is c h est a n d
str o ked i t s o ftly a cro ss h im f ro m o ne f la n k t o a n oth er a n d t h en c am e u p t o p ut
her l ip s o n h is a n d p ut h er a rm s a ro und h im a n d s a id , “ Y ou’re s o l o vely a n d
lo yal w hen y ou a re a sle ep a n d y ou d id n’t w ak e a n d d id n’t w ak e. I t h ought
you w ould n’t a n d i t w as l o vely . Y ou w ere s o l o yal t o m e. D id y ou t h in k i t
was a d re am ? D on’t w ak e. I ’m g oin g t o s le ep b ut i f I d on’t I ’ll b e a w ild g ir l.
She s ta y s a w ak e a n d t a k es c are o f y ou. Y ou s le ep a n d k now I ’m h ere . P le ase
sle ep .”
In t h e m orn in g w hen h e w oke t h ere w as t h e l o vely b ody t h at h e k new
clo se a g ain st h im a n d h e l o oked a n d s a w t h e w ax ed -w ood d ark s h ould ers a n d
neck a n d t h e f a ir t a w ny h ead c lo se a n d s m ooth l y in g a s a s m all a n im al a n d h e
sh if te d d ow n i n t h e b ed a n d t u rn ed t o w ard h er a n d k is se d h er f o re h ead w ith
her h air u nder h is l ip s a n d t h en h er e y es a n d t h en g en tly , h er m outh .
“I’m a sle ep .”
“S o w as I .”
“I k now . F eel h ow s tr a n ge. A ll n ig ht i t w as w onderfu l h ow s tr a n ge.”
“N ot s tr a n ge.”
“S ay s o i f y ou w an t. O h w e f it s o w onderfu lly . C an w e b oth g o t o s le ep ?”
“D o y ou w an t t o b e a sle ep ?”
“U s b oth a sle ep .”
“I’ll t r y .”
“A re y ou a sle ep ?”
“N o.”
“P le ase t r y .”
“I’m t r y in g.”
“S hut y our e y es t h en . H ow c an y ou s le ep i f y ou w on’t s h ut y our e y es? ”

“I l ik e t o s e e y ou i n t h e m orn in g a ll n ew a n d s tr a n ge.”
“W as I g ood t o i n ven t i t? ”
“D on’t t a lk .”
“It’ s t h e o nly w ay t o s lo w t h in gs. I h av e a lr e ad y. C ould n’t y ou t e ll? O f c o urs e
you c o uld . C ould n’t y ou t e ll n ow a n d n ow a n d n ow l ik e o ur h earts b eatin g
to geth er i t i s t h e s a m e I k now i t’ s o nly t h at t h at c o unts b ut w e d on’t c o unt i t’ s
so l o vely a n d s o g ood s o g ood a n d l o vely — ”

She c am e b ack t o t h e b ig r o om a n d w en t t o t h e m ir ro r a n d s a t a n d b ru sh ed
her h air l o okin g a t h ers e lf c ritic ally .
“L et’ s h av e b re ak fa st i n b ed ,” s h e s a id . “ A nd c an w e h av e c h am pag ne i f
it’ s n ot w ic k ed ? I n t h e b ru t t h ey h av e L an so n a n d P errie r-J o uët o f t h e g ood.
May I r in g?”
“Y es,” h e s a id a n d w en t u nder t h e s h ow er. B efo re h e p ut i t o n f u ll f o rc e
he c o uld h ear h er v oic e o n t h e t e le p hone.
When h e c am e o ut s h e w as s ittin g b ack v ery f o rm ally a g ain st t w o p illo w s
with a ll t h e p illo w s n eatly s h ak en o ut a n d p la ced t w o a n d t w o a t t h e h ead o f
th e b ed .
“D o I l o ok a ll r ig ht w ith m y h ead w et? ”
“It’ s j u st d am p. Y ou d rie d i t w ith t h e t o w el.”
“I c an c u t i t s h orte r o n t h e f o re h ead . I c an d o t h at m yse lf . O r y ou c an .”
“I’d l ik e i t i f i t c am e o ver y our e y es.”
“M ay be i t w ill,” s h e s a id . “ W ho k now s? M ay be w e’ll g et t ir e d o f b ein g
cla ssic al. A nd t o day w e’ll s ta y o n t h e b each a ll t h ro ugh n oon. W e’ll g o w ay
fa r d ow n i t a n d w e c an t a n r e ally w hen t h e p eo ple a ll c o m e i n f o r l u nch a n d
th en w e’ll r id e t o S t. J e an t o e at w hen w e’re h ungry a t t h e B ar B asq ue. B ut
fir s t y ou’ll m ak e u s g o t o t h e b each b ecau se w e n eed t o .”
“G ood.”
Dav id m oved a c h air o ver a n d p ut h is h an d c lo se o n h ers a n d s h e l o oked
at h im a n d s a id , “ T w o d ay s a g o I u nders to od e v ery th in g a n d t h en t h e a b sin th e
mad e m e t u rn o n i t.”
“I k now ,” D av id t o ld h er. “ Y ou c o uld n’t h elp i t.”
“B ut I h urt y ou a b out t h e c lip pin gs.”
“N o,” h e s a id . “ Y ou t r ie d . Y ou d id n’t m ak e i t.”
“I’m s o s o rry , D av id . P le ase b elie v e m e.”
“E very body h as s tr a n ge t h in gs t h at m ean t h in gs t o t h em . Y ou c o uld n’t
help i t.”

“N o,” t h e g ir l s a id a n d s h ook h er h ead .
“It’ s a ll r ig ht t h en ,” D av id s a id . “ D on’t c ry . I t’ s a ll r ig ht.”
“I n ev er c ry ,” s h e s a id . “ B ut I c an ’t h elp i t.”
“I k now i t a n d y ou’re b eau tif u l w hen y ou c ry .”
“N o. D on’t s a y i t. B ut I n ev er c rie d b efo re d id I ? ”
“N ev er.”
“B ut w ill i t b e b ad f o r y ou i f w e s ta y h ere j u st t w o d ay s o n t h e b each ? W e
hav en ’t h ad a n y c h an ce t o s w im a n d i t w ould b e s illy t o h av e b een h ere a n d
not t o s w im . W here a re w e g oin g t o g o w hen w e l e av e h ere ? O h. W e h av en ’t
decid ed y et. W e’ll p ro bab ly d ecid e t o nig ht o r i n t h e m orn in g. W here w ould
you s u ggest? ”
“I t h in k a n yw here w ould b e f in e,” D av id s a id .
“W ell m ay be t h at’ s w here w e w ill g o.”
“It’ s a b ig p la ce.”
“It’ s n ic e t o b e a lo ne t h ough a n d I ’ll p ack u s n ic ely .”
“T here ’s n oth in g m uch t o d o e x cep t p ut i n t o ile t t h in gs a n d c lo se t w o
bag s.”
“W e c an l e av e i n t h e m orn in g i f y ou w an t. T ru ly I d on’t w an t t o d o
an yth in g t o y ou o r h av e a n y b ad e ffe ct o n y ou.”
The w aite r k nock ed o n t h e d oor.
“T here w as n o m ore P errie r-J o uët, M ad am e, s o I b ro ught t h e L an so n.”
She h ad s to pped c ry in g a n d D av id ’s h an d w as s till c lo se o n h ers a n d h e
sa id , “ I k now .”

6
T hey h ad s p en t t h e m orn in g a t t h e P ra d o a n d n ow w ere s ittin g a t a p la ce i n a
b uild in g w ith t h ic k s to ne w alls . I t w as c o ol a n d v ery o ld . T here w ere w in e
c ask s a ro und t h e w alls . T he t a b le s w ere o ld a n d t h ic k a n d t h e c h air s w ere
w orn . T he l ig ht c am e f ro m t h e d oor. T he w aite r b ro ught t h em g la sse s o f
m an zan illa f ro m t h e l o w la n d n ear C ád iz c alle d t h e M aris m as w ith t h in s lic es
o f
j a m ón s e rra no,
a s m oky, h ard c u re d h am f ro m p ig s t h at f e d o n a co rn s, a n d
b rig ht r e d s p ic y
s a lc h ic h ón,
a n oth er e v en s p ic ie r d ark s a u sa g e f ro m a t o w n
c alle d V ic h a n d a n ch ovie s a n d g arlic o liv es. T hey a te t h ese a n d d ra n k m ore
o f t h e m an zan illa , w hic h w as l ig ht a n d n utty t a stin g.
Cath erin e h ad a S pan is h -E nglis h M eth od b ook w ith a g re en c o ver o n t h e
t a b le c lo se t o h er h an d a n d D av id h ad a s ta ck o f t h e m orn in g p ap ers . I t w as a
h ot d ay b ut c o ol i n t h e o ld b uild in g a n d t h e w aite r a sk ed , “ D o y ou w an t
g azp ach o?” H e w as a n o ld m an a n d h e f ille d t h eir g la sse s a g ain .
“D o y ou t h in k t h e s e ñ orita w ould l ik e i t? ”
“T ry h er,” t h e w aite r s a id g ra v ely a s t h ough h e w ere s p eak in g o f a m are .
It c am e i n a l a rg e b ow l w ith i c e f lo atin g w ith t h e s lic es o f c ris p
c u cu m ber, t o m ato , g arlic b re ad , g re en a n d r e d p ep pers , a n d t h e c o ars e ly
p ep pere d l iq uid t h at t a ste d l ig htly o f o il a n d v in eg ar.
“It’ s a s a la d s o up,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It’ s d elic io us.”
“E s g azp ach o,”
th e w aite r s a id .
They d ra n k V ald ep eñ as n ow f ro m a b ig p itc h er a n d i t s ta rte d t o b uild
w ith t h e f o undatio n o f t h e
m aris m eñ o
o nly h eld b ack t e m pora rily b y t h e
d ilu tio n o f t h e g azp ach o w hic h i t m oved i n o n c o nfid en tly . I t b uilt s o lid ly .
“W hat i s t h is w in e?” C ath erin e a sk ed .

“It’ s a n A fric an w in e,” D av id s a id .
“T hey a lw ay s s a y t h at A fric a b eg in s a t t h e P yre n ees,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I
re m em ber h ow i m pre sse d I w as w hen I f ir s t h eard i t.”
“T hat’ s o ne o f t h ose e asy s a y in gs,” D av id s a id . “ It’ s m ore c o m plic ate d
th an t h at. J u st d rin k i t.”
“B ut h ow c an I t e ll a b out w here A fric a b eg in s i f I ’v e n ev er b een t h ere ?
Peo ple a re a lw ay s t e llin g y ou t r ic k y t h in gs.”
“S ure . Y ou c an t e ll.”
“T he B asq ue c o untr y c erta in ly w asn ’t l ik e A fric a o r a n yth in g I e v er h eard
ab out A fric a.”
“N eith er i s A stu ria s n or G alic ia b ut o nce y ou’re i n f ro m t h e c o ast i t g ets
to b e A fric a f a st e n ough.”
“B ut w hy d id n’t t h ey e v er p ain t t h at c o untr y ?” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ In a ll
th e b ack gro unds i t i s a lw ay s t h e m ounta in s o ut b y t h e E sc o ria l.”
“T he s ie rra ,” D av id s a id . “ N obody w an te d t o b uy p ic tu re s o f C astilla t h e
way y ou s a w i t. T hey n ev er d id h av e l a n dsc ap e p ain te rs . T he p ain te rs p ain te d
what w as o rd ere d .”
“E xcep t G re co ’s T ole d o. I t’ s t e rrib le t o h av e s u ch a w onderfu l c o untr y
an d n o g ood p ain te rs e v er p ain t i t,” C ath erin e s a id .
“W hat s h ould w e e at a fte r t h e g azp ach o?” D av id s a id . T he p ro prie to r,
who w as a s h ort m id dle -a g ed m an , h eav ily b uilt a n d s q uare f a ced , h ad c o m e
over. “ H e t h in ks w e o ught t o h av e m eat o f s o m e k in d.”
“H ay s o lo m illo m uy b uen o,”
th e o w ner i n sis te d .
“N o, p le ase ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Ju st a s a la d .”
“W ell, a t l e ast d rin k a l ittle w in e,” t h e p ro prie to r s a id a n d r e fille d t h e
pitc h er f ro m t h e s p ig ot o f t h e c ask b eh in d t h e b ar.
“I s h ould n’t d rin k,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m s o rry I ’m t a lk in g s o m uch . I ’m
so rry i f I t a lk ed s tu pid ly . I u su ally d o.”
“Y ou t a lk v ery i n te re stin gly a n d a w fu lly w ell f o r a h ot d ay l ik e t h is . D oes
th e w in e m ak e y ou t a lk ativ e?”
“It’ s a d if fe re n t s o rt o f t a lk ativ e t h an a b sin th e,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It
doesn ’t f e el d an gero us. I ’v e s ta rte d o n m y g ood n ew l if e a n d I ’m r e ad in g
now a n d l o okin g o utw ard a n d t r y in g n ot t o t h in k a b out m yse lf s o m uch a n d
I’m g oin g t o k eep i t u p b ut w e o ught n ot t o b e i n a n y t o w n t h is t im e o f y ear.
May be w e’ll g o. T he w hole w ay h ere I s a w w onderfu l t h in gs t o p ain t a n d I
can ’t p ain t a t a ll a n d n ev er c o uld . B ut I k now w onderfu l t h in gs t o w rite a n d I
can ’t e v en w rite a l e tte r t h at i s n ’t s tu pid . I n ev er w an te d t o b e a p ain te r n or a

write r u ntil I c am e t o t h is c o untr y . N ow i t’ s j u st l ik e b ein g h ungry a ll t h e t im e
an d t h ere ’s n oth in g y ou c an e v er d o a b out i t.”
“T he c o untr y i s h ere . Y ou d on’t h av e t o d o a n yth in g a b out i t. I t’ s a lw ay s
here . T he P ra d o’s h ere ,” D av id s a id .
“T here ’s n oth in g e x cep t t h ro ugh y ours e lf ,” s h e s a id . “ A nd I d on’t w an t t o
die a n d i t b e g one.”
“Y ou h av e e v ery m ile w e d ro ve. A ll t h e y ello w c o untr y a n d t h e w hite
hills a n d t h e c h aff b lo w in g a n d t h e l o ng l in es o f p opla rs b y t h e r o ad . Y ou
know w hat y ou s a w a n d w hat y ou f e lt a n d i t’ s y ours . D on’t y ou h av e l e G ra u
du R oi a n d A ig ues M orte s a n d a ll t h e C am arg ue t h at w e r o de t h ro ugh o n o ur
bik es? T his w ill b e t h e s a m e.”
“B ut w hat a b out w hen I ’m d ead ?”
“T hen y ou’re d ead .”
“B ut I c an ’t s ta n d t o b e d ead .”
“T hen d on’t l e t i t h ap pen t ill i t h ap pen s. L ook a t t h in gs a n d l is te n a n d
fe el.”
“W hat i f I c an ’t r e m em ber? ”
He h ad s p oken a b out d eath a s t h ough i t d id n ot m atte r. S he d ra n k t h e
win e a n d l o oked a t t h e t h ic k s to ne w alls i n w hic h t h ere w ere o nly s m all
win dow s w ith b ars h ig h u p t h at g av e o nto a n arro w s tr e et w here t h e s u n d id
not s h in e. T he d oorw ay , t h ough, g av e o nto a n a rc ad e a n d t h e b rig ht s u nlig ht
on t h e w orn s to nes o f t h e s q uare .
“W hen y ou s ta rt t o l iv e o uts id e y ours e lf ,” C ath erin e s a id , “ it’ s a ll
dan gero us. M ay be I ’d b ette r g o b ack i n to o ur w orld , y our a n d m y w orld t h at I
mad e u p; w e m ad e u p I m ean . I w as a g re at s u ccess i n t h at w orld . I t w as o nly
fo ur w eek s a g o. I t h in k m ay be I w ill b e a g ain .”
The s a la d c am e a n d t h en t h ere w as i ts g re en ness o n t h e d ark t a b le a n d t h e
su n o n t h e p la za b ey ond t h e a rc ad e.
“D o y ou f e el b ette r? ” D av id a sk ed .
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ I w as t h in kin g s o m uch a b out m yse lf t h at I w as g ettin g
im possib le a g ain , l ik e a p ain te r a n d I w as m y o w n p ic tu re . I t w as a w fu l. N ow
th at I ’m a ll r ig ht a g ain I h ope i t s till l a sts .”

It h ad r a in ed h ard a n d n ow t h e h eat w as b ro ken . T hey w ere i n t h e c o ol
sh utte r-s la tte d d im ness o f t h e b ig r o om i n T he P ala ce a n d h ad b ath ed t o geth er
in t h e d eep w ate r i n t h e l o ng d eep t u b a n d t h en h ad t u rn ed t h e p lu g a n d l e t t h e
fu ll f o rc e o f t h e w ate r s p la sh a n d f lo w o ver t h em , s w ir lin g a s i t d ra in ed a w ay .

They h ad b lo tte d e ach o th er w ith t h e h uge t o w els a n d t h en c o m e t o t h e b ed .
As t h ey l a y o n t h e b ed t h ere w as a c o ol b re eze t h at c am e t h ro ugh t h e s la ts o f
th e b lin ds a n d m oved o ver t h em . C ath erin e l a y p ro pped o n h er e lb ow s w ith
her c h in o n h er h an ds. “ D o y ou t h in k i t w ould b e f u n i f I w en t b ack t o b ein g a
boy a g ain ? I t w ould n’t b e a n y t r o uble .”
“I l ik e y ou t h e w ay y ou a re n ow .”
“It’ s s o rt o f t e m ptin g. B ut I s h ould n’t d o i t i n S pain I s u ppose . I t’ s s u ch a
fo rm al c o untr y .”
“S ta y t h e w ay y ou a re .”
“W hat m ak es y our v oic e b e d if fe re n t w hen y ou s a y i t? I t h in k I ’ll d o i t.”
“N o. N ot n ow .”
“T han k y ou f o r t h e n ot n ow . S hould I m ak e l o ve t h is t im e a s a g ir l a n d
th en d o i t? ”
“Y ou’re a g ir l. Y ou a re a g ir l. Y ou’re m y l o vely g ir l C ath erin e.”
“Y es I a m y our g ir l a n d I l o ve y ou a n d I l o ve y ou a n d I l o ve y ou.”
“D on’t t a lk .”
“Y es I w ill. I ’m y our g ir l C ath erin e a n d I l o ve y ou p le ase I l o ve y ou
alw ay s a lw ay s a lw ay s— ”
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o k eep s a y in g i t. I c an t e ll.”
“I l ik e t o s a y i t a n d I h av e t o s a y i t a n d I ’v e b een a f in e g ir l a n d a g ood
gir l a n d I w ill a g ain . I p ro m is e I w ill a g ain .”
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o s a y i t.”
“O h y es I d o. I s a y i t a n d I s a id i t a n d y ou s a id i t. Y ou n ow p le ase . P le ase
you.”

They l a y q uie t f o r a l o ng t im e a n d s h e s a id , “ I l o ve y ou s o m uch a n d y ou’re
su ch a g ood h usb an d.”
“Y ou b le sse d .”
“W as I w hat y ou w an te d ?”
“W hat d o y ou t h in k?”
“I h ope I w as.”
“Y ou w ere .”
“I p ro m is e d t r u ly a n d I w ill a n d I ’ll k eep i t. N ow c an I b e a b oy a g ain ?”
“W hy?”
“Ju st f o r a l ittle w hile .”
“W hy?”
“I l o ved i t a n d I d on’t m is s i t b ut I ’d l ik e t o b e a g ain i n b ed a t n ig ht i f i t

is n ’t b ad f o r y ou. C an I b e a g ain ? I f i t’ s n ot b ad f o r y ou?”
“T he h ell w ith i f i t’ s b ad f o r m e.”
“T hen c an I ? ”
“D o y ou r e ally w an t t o ?”
He h ad k ep t f ro m s a y in g h av e t o s o s h e s a id , “ I d on’t h av e t o b ut p le ase i f
it’ s a ll r ig ht. C an I p le ase ?”
“A ll r ig ht.” H e k is se d h er a n d h eld h er t o h im .
“N obody c an t e ll w hic h w ay I a m b ut u s. I ’ll o nly b e a b oy a t n ig ht a n d
won’t e m barra ss y ou. D on’t w orry a b out i t p le ase .”
“A ll r ig ht, b oy.”
“I l ie d w hen I s a id I d id n’t h av e t o . I t c am e s o s u dden ly t o day .”
He s h ut h is e y es a n d d id n ot t h in k a n d s h e k is se d h im a n d i t h ad g one
fu rth er n ow a n d h e c o uld t e ll a n d f e el t h e d esp era te n ess.
“N ow y ou c h an ge. P le ase . D on’t m ak e m e c h an ge y ou. M ust I ? A ll r ig ht
I w ill. Y ou’re c h an ged n ow . Y ou a re . Y ou d id i t t o o. Y ou a re . Y ou d id i t t o o.
I d id i t t o y ou b ut y ou d id i t. Y es y ou d id . Y ou’re m y s w eet d eare st d arlin g
Cath erin e. Y ou’re m y s w eet m y l o vely C ath erin e. Y ou’re m y g ir l m y d eare st
only g ir l. O h t h an k y ou t h an k y ou m y g ir l— ”

She l a y t h ere a l o ng t im e a n d h e t h ought t h at s h e h ad g one t o s le ep . T hen s h e
moved a w ay v ery s lo w ly l if tin g h ers e lf l ig htly o n h er e lb ow s a n d s a id , “ I
hav e a w onderfu l s u rp ris e f o r m yse lf f o r t o m orro w . I ’m g oin g t o t h e P ra d o i n
th e m orn in g a n d s e e a ll t h e p ic tu re s a s a b oy.”
“I g iv e u p,” D av id s a id .

7
I n t h e m orn in g h e g ot u p w hile s h e w as s till s le ep in g a n d w en t o ut i n to t h e
b rig ht e arly m orn in g f re sh ness o f t h e h ig h p la te au a ir . H e w alk ed i n t h e s tr e et
u p t h e h ill t o t h e P la za S an ta A na a n d h ad b re ak fa st a t a c afe a n d r e ad t h e
l o cal p ap ers . C ath erin e h ad w an te d t o b e a t t h e P ra d o a t t e n w hen i t o pen ed
a n d b efo re h e l e ft h e h ad s e t t h e a la rm t o w ak e h er a t n in e. O uts id e o n t h e
s tr e et, w alk in g u p t h e h ill h e h ad t h ought o f h er s le ep in g, t h e b eau tif u l
r u m ple d h ead t h at l o oked l ik e a n a n cie n t c o in l y in g a g ain st t h e w hite s h eet,
t h e p illo w p ush ed a w ay , t h e u pper s h eet s h ow in g t h e c u rv es o f h er b ody. I t
l a ste d a m onth , h e t h ought, o r a lm ost. A nd t h e o th er t im e f ro m l e G ra u d u
R oi t o H en day e w as t w o m onth s. N o, l e ss, b ecau se s h e s ta rte d t h in kin g o f i t
i n N îm es. I t w asn ’t t w o m onth s. W e’v e b een m arrie d t h re e m onth s a n d t w o
w eek s a n d I h ope I m ak e h er h ap py a lw ay s b ut i n t h is I d o n ot t h in k a n ybody
c an t a k e c are o f a n ybody. I t’ s e n ough t o s ta y i n i t. T he d if fe re n ce i s t h at s h e
a sk ed t h is t im e, h e t o ld h im se lf . S he d id a sk .
When h e h ad r e ad t h e p ap ers a n d t h en p aid f o r h is b re ak fa st a n d w alk ed
o ut i n to t h e h eat t h at h ad c o m e b ack t o t h e p la te au w hen t h e w in d h ad
c h an ged , h e m ad e h is w ay t o t h e c o ol, f o rm al, s a d p olite n ess o f t h e b an k,
w here h e f o und m ail t h at h ad b een f o rw ard ed f ro m P aris . H e o pen ed a n d r e ad
m ail w hile h e w aite d t h ro ugh t h e l e n gth y, m an y-w in dow ed f o rm alitie s o f
c ash in g a d ra ft w hic h h ad b een s e n t f ro m h is b an k t o t h is , t h eir M ad rid
c o rre sp onden t.
Fin ally w ith t h e h eav y n ote s b utto ned i n to h is j a ck et p ock et h e c am e o ut
i n to t h e g la re a g ain a n d s to pped a t t h e n ew ssta n d t o b uy t h e E nglis h a n d
A m eric an p ap ers t h at h ad c o m e i n o n t h e m orn in g S ud E xpre ss. H e b ought

so m e b ullf ig ht w eek lie s t o w ra p t h e E nglis h l a n guag e p ap ers i n a n d t h en
walk ed d ow n t h e C arre ra S an G ero nim o t o t h e c o ol f rie n dly m orn in g g lo om
of t h e B uffe t I ta lia n os. T here w as n o o ne i n t h e p la ce y et a n d h e r e m em bere d
th at h e h ad m ad e n o r e n dezv ous w ith C ath erin e.
“W hat w ill y ou d rin k?” t h e w aite r a sk ed h im .
“B eer,” h e s a id .
“T his i s n ’t a b eer p la ce.”
“D on’t y ou h av e b eer? ”
“Y es. B ut i t’ s n ot a b eer p la ce.”
“U p y ours ,” h e s a id a n d r e -ro lle d t h e p ap ers a n d w en t o ut a n d w alk ed
acro ss t h e s tr e et a n d b ack o n t h e o th er s id e t o t u rn t o t h e l e ft i n to t h e C alle
Vitto ria a n d o n t o t h e C erv ezería A lv are z. H e s a t a t a t a b le u nder t h e a w nin g
in t h e p assa g ew ay a n d d ra n k a b ig c o ld g la ss o f t h e d ra ft b eer.
The w aite r w as p ro bab ly o nly m ak in g c o nvers a tio n, h e t h ought, a n d w hat
th e m an s a id w as q uite t r u e. I t i s n ’t a b eer p la ce. H e w as j u st b ein g l ite ra l. H e
wasn ’t b ein g i n so le n t. T hat w as a v ery b ad t h in g t o s a y a n d h e h ad n o d efe n se
ag ain st i t. I t w as a s h itty t h in g t o d o. H e d ra n k a s e co nd b eer a n d c alle d t h e
waite r t o p ay .
“Y l a S eñ ora ?”
th e w aite r s a id .
“A t t h e M use o d el P ra d o. I ’m g oin g t o g et h er.”
“W ell, u ntil y ou g et b ack ,” t h e w aite r s a id .
He w alk ed b ack t o t h e h ote l b y a d ow nhill s h ortc u t. T he k ey w as a t t h e
desk s o h e r o de u p t o t h eir f lo or a n d l e ft t h e p ap ers a n d t h e m ail o n a t a b le i n
th e r o om a n d l o ck ed m ost o f t h e m oney i n h is s u itc ase . T he r o om w as m ad e
up a n d t h e s h utte rs w ere l o w ere d a g ain st t h e h eat s o t h at t h e r o om w as
dark en ed . H e w ash ed a n d t h en s o rte d t h ro ugh h is m ail a n d t o ok f o ur l e tte rs
out a n d p ut t h em i n h is h ip p ock et. H e t o ok t h e P aris e d itio ns o f
T he N ew
York H era ld ,
t h e
C hic a go T rib une
a n d t h e
L ondon D aily M ail
d ow n w ith h im
to t h e b ar o f t h e h ote l s to ppin g a t t h e d esk t o l e av e t h e k ey a n d t o a sk t h e
cle rk t o t e ll M ad am e, w hen s h e c am e i n , t h at h e w as i n t h e b ar.
He s a t o n a s to ol a t t h e b ar a n d o rd ere d a
m aris m eñ o
a n d o pen ed a n d r e ad
his l e tte rs w hile h e a te t h e g arlic -fla v ore d o liv es f ro m t h e s a u cer t h e b arte n der
had p la ced b efo re h im w ith h is g la ss. O ne o f t h e l e tte rs h ad t w o c u ttin gs o f
re v ie w s o f h is n ovel f ro m m onth ly m ag azin es a n d h e r e ad t h em w ith n o
fe elin g t h at t h ey d ealt w ith h im o r w ith a n yth in g t h at h e h ad w ritte n .
He p ut t h e c u ttin gs b ack i n t h e e n velo pe. T hey h ad b een u nders ta n din g
an d p erc ep tiv e r e v ie w s b ut t o h im t h ey h ad m ean t n oth in g. H e r e ad t h e l e tte r

fro m t h e p ublis h er w ith t h e s a m e d eta ch m en t. T he b ook h ad s o ld w ell a n d
th ey t h ought t h at i t m ig ht c o ntin ue s e llin g o n i n to t h e f a ll a lth ough n obody
co uld e v er t e ll a b out s u ch t h in gs. C erta in ly , s o f a r, i t h ad r e ceiv ed a n
ex tr a o rd in arily f in e c ritic al r e cep tio n a n d t h e w ay w ould b e o pen f o r h is n ex t
book. I t w as a g re at a d van ta g e t h at t h is w as h is s e co nd a n d n ot h is f ir s t n ovel.
It w as t r a g ic h ow o fte n f ir s t n ovels w ere t h e o nly g ood n ovels A m eric an
write rs h ad i n t h em . B ut t h is , h is p ublis h er w en t o n, h is s e co nd, v alid ate d a ll
th e p ro m is e h is f ir s t h ad s h ow n. I t w as a n u nusu al s u m mer i n N ew Y ork , c o ld
an d w et. O h C hris t, D av id t h ought, t h e h ell w ith h ow i t w as i n N ew Y ork a n d
th e h ell w ith t h at t h in -lip ped b asta rd C oolid ge f is h in g f o r t r o ut i n a h ig h s tif f
co lla r i n a f is h h atc h ery i n t h e B la ck H ills w e s to le f ro m t h e S io ux a n d t h e
Chey en ne a n d b ath tu b-g in ned -u p w rite rs w onderin g i f t h eir b ab y d oes t h e
Charle sto n. A nd t h e h ell w ith t h e p ro m is e h e h ad v alid ate d . W hat p ro m is e t o
whom ? T o
T he D ia l,
t o
T he B ookm an,
t o
T he N ew R ep ublic ?
N o, h e h ad
sh ow n i t. L et m e s h ow y ou m y p ro m is e t h at I ’m g oin g t o v alid ate i t. W hat
sh it.
“H ello , y oung m an ,” s a id a v oic e. “ W hat a re y ou l o okin g s o i n dig nan t
ab out? ”
“H ello , C olo nel,” D av id s a id a n d f e lt s u dden ly h ap py. “ W hat t h e h ell a re
you d oin g h ere ?”
The C olo nel, w ho h ad d eep b lu e e y es, s a n dy h air a n d a t a n ned f a ce t h at
lo oked a s t h ough i t h ad b een c arv ed o ut o f f lin t b y a t ir e d s c u lp to r w ho h ad
bro ken h is c h is e l o n i t, p ic k ed u p D av id ’s g la ss a n d t a ste d t h e
m aris m eñ o.
“B rin g m e a b ottle o f w hate v er t h is y oung m an i s d rin kin g t o t h at t a b le ,”
he s a id t o t h e b arte n der. “ B rin g a c o ld b ottle . Y ou d on’t n eed t o i c e i t. B rin g
it i m med ia te ly .”
“Y es s ir ,” s a id t h e b arte n der. “ V ery g ood s ir .”
“C om e a lo ng,” t h e C olo nel s a id t o D av id , l e ad in g h im t o t h e t a b le i n t h e
co rn er o f t h e r o om . “ Y ou’re l o okin g v ery w ell.”
“S o a re y ou.”
Colo nel J o hn B oyle w as w earin g a d ark b lu e s u it o f a c lo th t h at l o oked
stif f b ut c o ol a n d a b lu e s h ir t a n d b la ck t ie . “ I’m a lw ay s w ell,” h e s a id . “ D o
you w an t a j o b?”
“N o,” s a id D av id .
“Ju st l ik e t h at. D on’t e v en a sk w hat i t i s .” H is v oic e s o unded a s t h ough h e
had h aw ked i t u p o ut o f a d usty t h ro at.
The w in e c am e a n d t h e w aite r f ille d t w o g la sse s a n d p ut d ow n s a u cers o f

th e g arlic o liv es a n d o f h azeln uts .
“N o a n ch ovie s? ” t h e C olo nel a sk ed . “ W hat s o rt o f a
f o nda
i s t h is ? ”
The b arte n der s m ile d a n d w en t f o r t h e a n ch ovie s.
“E xcelle n t w in e,” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ F ir s t r a te . I a lw ay s h oped y our t a ste
would i m pro ve. N ow w hy d on’t y ou w an t a j o b? Y ou’v e j u st f in is h ed a
book.”
“I’m o n m y h oney m oon.”
“S illy e x pre ssio n,” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ I n ev er l ik ed i t. I t s o unds s tic k y.
Why d id n’t y ou s a y y ou’v e j u st b een m arrie d ? I t m ak es n o d if fe re n ce. Y ou’d
be w orth le ss i n a n y e v en t.”
“W hat w as t h e j o b?”
“N o u se t a lk in g a b out i t n ow . W ho d id y ou m arry ? A nyone I k now ?”
“C ath erin e H ill.”
“K new h er f a th er. V ery o dd t y pe. K ille d h im se lf i n a c ar. H is w if e t o o.”
“I n ev er k new t h em .”
“Y ou n ev er k new h im ?”
“N o.”
“S tr a n ge. B ut p erfe ctly u nders ta n dab le . H e’s n o l o ss t o y ou a s a f a th er-in -
la w . T he m oth er w as v ery l o nely t h ey s a y . S tu pid w ay f o r g ro w n u p p eo ple t o
be k ille d . W here d id y ou m eet t h is g ir l? ”
“In P aris .”
“S he h as a s illy u ncle w ho l iv es t h ere . H e’s r e ally w orth le ss. D o y ou
know h im ?”
“I’v e s e en h im a t t h e r a ces.”
“A t L ongch am ps a n d A ute u il. H ow c o uld y ou h elp i t? ”
“I d id n’t m arry h er f a m ily .”
“O f c o urs e n ot. B ut y ou a lw ay s d o. D ead o r a liv e.”
“N ot t h e u ncle s a n d a u nts .”
“W ell a n yw ay , h av e f u n. Y ou k now , I l ik ed t h e b ook. H as i t d one w ell? ”
“It’ s d one p re tty w ell.”
“It m oved m e v ery d eep ly ,” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ Y ou’re a d ecep tiv e s o n o f
a b itc h .”
“S o a re y ou, J o hn.”
“I h ope s o ,” t h e C olo nel s a id .
Dav id s a w C ath erin e a t t h e d oor a n d s to od u p. S he c am e o ver t o t h em a n d
Dav id s a id , “ T his i s C olo nel B oyle .”
“H ow d o y ou d o, m y d ear? ”

Cath erin e l o oked a t h im a n d s m ile d a n d s a t d ow n a t t h e t a b le . D av id
watc h ed h er a n d i t s e em ed a s t h ough s h e w ere h old in g h er b re ath .
“A re y ou t ir e d ?” D av id a sk ed .
“I t h in k s o .”
“H av e a g la ss o f t h is ,” t h e C olo nel s a id .
“W ould i t b e a ll r ig ht i f I h ad a n a b sin th e?”
“O f c o urs e ,” D av id s a id . “ I’ll h av e o ne t o o.”
“N ot f o r m e,” t h e C olo nel s a id t o t h e b arte n der. “ T his b ottle ’s l o st i ts
fre sh ness. P ut i t b ack t o c h ill a n d b rin g m e a g la ss f ro m a c o ld b ottle .”
“D o y ou l ik e t h e r e al P ern od?” h e a sk ed C ath erin e.
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ I’m s h y w ith p eo ple a n d i t h elp s.”
“It’ s a n e x celle n t d rin k,” h e s a id . “ I’d j o in y ou b ut I h av e w ork I m ust d o
afte r l u nch .”
“I’m s o rry I f o rg ot t o m ak e a r e n dezv ous,” D av id s a id .
“T his i s v ery n ic e.”
“I s to pped b y f o r t h e m ail a t t h e b an k. T here ’s q uite a l o t f o r y ou. I l e ft i t
in t h e r o om .”
“I d on’t c are a b out i t,” s h e s a id .
“I s a w y ou i n t h e P ra d o l o okin g a t t h e G re co s,” t h e C olo nel s a id .
“I s a w y ou t o o,” s h e s a id . “ D o y ou a lw ay s l o ok a t p ic tu re s a s t h ough y ou
ow ned t h em a n d w ere d ecid in g h ow t o h av e t h em r e -h ung p ro perly ?”
“P ro bab ly ,” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ D o y ou a lw ay s l o ok a t t h em a s t h ough y ou
were t h e y oung c h ie f o f a w arrio r t r ib e w ho h ad g otte n l o ose f ro m h is
co uncillo rs a n d w as l o okin g a t t h at m arb le o f L ed a a n d t h e S w an ?”
Cath erin e b lu sh ed u nder h er d ark t a n a n d l o oked a t D av id a n d t h en a t t h e
Colo nel.
“I l ik e y ou,” s h e s a id . “ T ell m e s o m e m ore .”
“I l ik e y ou,” h e s a id . “ A nd I e n vy D av id . I s h e e v ery th in g y ou w an t? ”
“D on’t y ou k now ?”
“‘T o m e t h e v is ib le w orld i s v is ib le ,’ ” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ N ow g o o n a n d
ta k e a n oth er s ip o f t h at w orm wood-ta stin g t r u th s e ru m .”
“I d on’t n eed i t n ow .”
“A re n ’t y ou s h y n ow ? D rin k i t a n yw ay . I t’ s g ood f o r y ou. Y ou’re t h e
dark est w hite g ir l I ’v e e v er s e en . Y our f a th er w as v ery d ark t h ough.”
“I m ust h av e h is s k in . M y m oth er w as v ery f a ir .”
“I n ev er k new h er.”
“D id y ou k now m y f a th er w ell? ”

“Q uite w ell.”
“H ow w as h e?”
“H e w as a v ery d if fic u lt a n d c h arm in g m an . A re y ou r e ally s h y?”
“T ru ly . A sk D av id .”
“Y ou g et o ver i t a w fu lly q uic k ly .”
“Y ou r o de o ver i t. H ow w as m y f a th er? ”
“H e w as t h e s h yest m an I e v er k new a n d h e c o uld b e t h e m ost c h arm in g.”
“D id h e h av e t o u se P ern od t o o?”
“H e u se d e v ery th in g.”
“D o I r e m in d y ou o f h im ?”
“N ot a t a ll.”
“T hat’ s g ood. D oes D av id ?”
“N ot i n t h e l e ast.”
“T hat’ s e v en b ette r. H ow d id y ou k now I w as a b oy i n t h e P ra d o?”
“W hy s h ould n’t y ou b e?”
“I o nly s ta rte d i t a g ain l a st e v en in g. I w as a g ir l f o r a lm ost a m onth . A sk
Dav id .”
“Y ou d on’t n eed t o s a y a sk D av id . W hat a re y ou r ig ht n ow ?”
“A b oy i f i t’ s a ll r ig ht w ith y ou.”
“It’ s f in e w ith m e. B ut y ou’re n ot.”
“I j u st w an te d t o s a y i t,” s h e s a id . “ N ow t h at I s a id i t I d on’t h av e t o b e i t.
But i t w as w onderfu l i n t h e P ra d o. T hat w as w hy I w an te d t o t e ll D av id a b out
it.”
“Y ou’ll h av e p le n ty o f t im e t o t e ll D av id .”
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ W e h av e t im e f o r t h in gs.”
“T ell m e w here y ou g ot s o d ark ,” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ D o y ou k now h ow
dark y ou a re ?”
“T hat w as f ro m l e G ra u d u R oi a n d t h en n ot f a r f ro m l a N ap oule . T here
was a c o ve t h ere w ith a t r a il t h at w en t d ow n t o i t t h ro ugh t h e p in es. Y ou
co uld n’t s e e i t f ro m t h e r o ad .”
“H ow l o ng d id i t t a k e t o g et s o d ark ?”
“A bout t h re e m onth s.”
“A nd w hat a re y ou g oin g t o d o w ith i t? ”
“W ear i t,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s v ery b eco m in g i n b ed .”
“I s h ould n’t t h in k y ou’d w an t t o w aste i t i n t o w n.”
“T he P ra d o i s n ’t w astin g. I d on’t r e ally w ear i t. I t’ s m e. I r e ally a m t h is
dark . T he s u n j u st d ev elo ps i t. I w is h I w as d ark er.”

“Y ou p ro bab ly w ill b e t h en ,” t h e C olo nel s a id . “ D o y ou h av e o th er t h in gs
lik e t h at t o l o ok f o rw ard t o ?”
“Ju st e v ery d ay ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I l o ok f o rw ard t o e v ery d ay .”
“A nd h as t o day b een a g ood o ne?”
“Y es. Y ou k now i t h as. Y ou w ere t h ere .”
“W ill y ou a n d D av id l u nch w ith m e?”
“A ll r ig ht,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’ll g o u p a n d c h an ge. W ill y ou w ait f o r
me?”
“D on’t y ou w an t t o f in is h y our d rin k?” D av id a sk ed .
“I d on’t c are a b out i t,” s h e s a id . “ D on’t w orry a b out m e. I w on’t b e s h y.”
She w alk ed t o t h e d oor a n d t h ey b oth l o oked a fte r h er.
“W as I t o o r o ugh?” t h e C olo nel a sk ed . “ I h ope n ot. S he’s a v ery l o vely
gir l.”
“I j u st h ope I ’m g ood f o r h er.”
“Y ou a re . H ow a re y ou d oin g y ours e lf ? ”
“A ll r ig ht I t h in k.”
“A re y ou h ap py?”
“V ery .”
“R em em ber e v ery th in g i s r ig ht u ntil i t’ s w ro ng. Y ou’ll k now w hen i t’ s
wro ng.”
“Y ou t h in k s o ?”
“I’m q uite s u re . I f y ou d on’t i t d oesn ’t m atte r. N oth in g w ill m atte r t h en .”
“H ow f a st w ill i t g o?”
“I d id n’t s a y a n yth in g a b out s p eed . W hat a re y ou t a lk in g a b out? ”
“S orry .”
“It’ s w hat y ou h av e, s o h av e a l o vely t im e.”
“W e d o.”
“S o I s e e. T here ’s o nly o ne t h in g.”
“W hat? ”
“T ak e g ood c are o f h er.”
“T hat’ s a ll y ou’v e g ot t o t e ll m e?”
“O ne s m all t h in g m ore : T he g et’ s n o g ood.”
“T here i s n ’t a n y g et y et.”
“It’ s k in der t o s h oot t h e g et.”
“K in der? ”
“B ette r.”
They t a lk ed a b out p eo ple f o r a w hile , t h e C olo nel s p eak in g o utr a g eo usly ,

an d t h en D av id s a w C ath erin e c o m e t h ro ugh t h e d oor w earin g a w hite
sh ark sk in o utf it t o s h ow h ow r e ally d ark s h e w as.
“Y ou d o r e ally l o ok e x tr a o rd in arily b eau tif u l,” t h e C olo nel s a id t o
Cath erin e. “ B ut y ou m ust t r y t o g et d ark er.”
“T han k y ou. I w ill,” s h e s a id . “ W e d on’t h av e t o g o o ut n ow i n t h e h eat
do w e? C an ’t w e s it h ere i n t h e c o ol? W e c an e at h ere i n t h e g rill.”
“Y ou’re l u nch in g w ith m e,” t h e C olo nel s a id .
“N o p le ase . Y ou’re l u nch in g w ith u s.”
Dav id s to od u p u ncerta in ly . T here w ere m ore p eo ple a t t h e b ar n ow .
Lookin g d ow n a t t h e t a b le h e s a w t h at h e h ad d ru nk C ath erin e’s d rin k a s w ell
as h is o w n. H e d id n ot r e m em ber d rin kin g e ith er o f t h em .

It w as t h e s ie sta t im e a n d t h ey l a y o n t h e b ed a n d D av id w as r e ad in g b y t h e
lig ht t h at c am e i n t h e w in dow o n t h e l e ft o f t h e b ed w here h e h ad p ulle d u p
one o f t h e s la tte d c u rta in s a b out a t h ir d o f i ts l e n gth . T he l ig ht w as r e fle cte d
fro m t h e b uild in g a cro ss t h e s tr e et. T he c u rta in w as n ot p ulle d h ig h e n ough t o
sh ow t h e s k y.
“T he C olo nel l ik ed m e b ein g s o d ark ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e m ust g et t o
th e s e a a g ain . I h av e t o k eep i t.”
“W e’ll g o t h ere w hen ev er y ou w an t.”
“T hat w ill b e w onderfu l. C an I t e ll y ou s o m eth in g? I h av e t o .”
“W hat? ”
“I d id n’t c h an ge b ack t o b e a g ir l f o r l u nch . D id I b eh av e a ll r ig ht? ”
“Y ou d id n’t? ”
“N o. D o y ou m in d? B ut n ow I ’m y our b oy a n d I ’ll d o a n yth in g f o r y ou.”
Dav id c o ntin ued r e ad in g.
“A re y ou a n gry ?”
“N o.” S obere d , h e t h ought.
“It’ s s im ple r n ow .”
“I d on’t t h in k s o .”
“T hen I ’ll b e c are fu l. T his m orn in g e v ery th in g I d id f e lt s o r ig ht a n d
hap py, s o c le an a n d g ood i n t h e d ay lig ht. C ould n’t I t r y n ow a n d w e s e e?”
“I’d r a th er y ou d id n’t.”
“C an I k is s y ou a n d t r y ?”
“N ot i f y ou’re a b oy a n d I ’m a b oy.”
His c h est f e lt a s t h ough t h ere w ere a n i r o n b ar i n sid e i t f ro m o ne s id e t o
th e o th er. “ I w is h y ou h ad n’t t o ld t h e C olo nel.”

“B ut h e s a w m e, D av id . H e b ro ught i t u p a n d h e k new a ll a b out i t a n d
unders to od. I t w asn ’t s tu pid t o t e ll h im . I t w as b ette r. H e’s o ur f rie n d. I f I t o ld
him h e w ould n’t t a lk . I f I d id n’t t e ll h im h e h ad a r ig ht t o .”
“Y ou c an ’t t r u st a ll p eo ple l ik e t h at.”
“I d on’t c are a b out p eo ple . I o nly c are a b out y ou. I ’d n ev er m ak e s c an dals
with o th er p eo ple .”
“M y c h est f e els l ik e i t i s l o ck ed i n i r o n.”
“I’m s o rry . M in e f e els s o h ap py.”
“M y d eare st C ath erin e.”
“T hat’ s g ood. Y ou c all m e C ath erin e a lw ay s w hen y ou w an t. I a m y our
Cath erin e t o o. I ’m a lw ay s C ath erin e w hen y ou n eed h er. W e’d b ette r g o t o
sle ep o r s h ould w e s ta rt a n d s e e w hat h ap pen s? ”
“L et’ s f ir s t l ie v ery q uie t i n t h e d ark ,” D av id s a id a n d l o w ere d t h e l a ttic ed
sh ad e a n d t h ey l a y s id e b y s id e o n t h e b ed i n t h e b ig r o om i n T he P ala ce i n
Mad rid w here C ath erin e h ad w alk ed i n t h e M use o d el P ra d o i n t h e l ig ht o f
day a s a b oy a n d n ow s h e w ould s h ow t h e d ark t h in gs i n t h e l ig ht a n d t h ere
would , i t s e em ed t o h im , b e n o e n d t o t h e c h an ge.

8
I n t h e B uen R etir o i n t h e m orn in g i t w as a s f re sh a s t h ough i t w as a f o re st. I t
w as g re en a n d t h e t r u nks o f t h e t r e es w ere d ark a n d t h e d is ta n ces w ere a ll
n ew . T he l a k e w as n ot w here i t h ad b een a n d w hen t h ey s a w i t t h ro ugh t h e
t r e es i t w as q uite c h an ged .
“Y ou w alk a h ead ,” s h e s a id . “ I w an t t o l o ok a t y ou.”
So h e t u rn ed a w ay f ro m h er a n d w alk ed t o w here t h ere w as a b en ch a n d
s a t d ow n. H e c o uld s e e a l a k e a t a l o ng d is ta n ce a n d k new i t w as t o o f a r t o
e v er w alk t o . H e s a t t h ere o n t h e b en ch a n d s h e s a t d ow n b esid e h im a n d s a id ,
“ It’ s a ll r ig ht.”
But r e m ors e h ad b een t h ere t o m eet h im i n t h e R etir o a n d n ow i t w as s o
b ad h e t o ld C ath erin e t h at h e w ould m eet h er a t t h e c afe o f T he P ala ce.
“A re y ou a ll r ig ht? D o y ou w an t m e t o c o m e w ith y ou?”
“N o. I ’m a ll r ig ht. I j u st h av e t o g o.”
“I’ll s e e y ou t h ere ,” s h e s a id .
She l o oked p artic u la rly b eau tif u l t h at m orn in g a n d s h e s m ile d a t t h eir
s e cre t a n d h e s m ile d a t h er a n d t h en t o ok h is r e m ors e t o t h e c afe . H e d id n ot
t h in k h e w ould m ak e i t b ut h e d id a n d l a te r w hen C ath erin e c am e h e w as
f in is h in g h is s e co nd a b sin th e a n d t h e r e m ors e w as g one.
“H ow a re y ou, D ev il? ” h e s a id .
“I’m y our d ev il,” s h e s a id . “ C ould I h av e o ne o f t h ose t o o?”
The w aite r w en t a w ay p le ase d t o s e e h er l o okin g s o h an dso m e a n d s o
h ap py a n d s h e s a id , “ W hat w as i t? ”
“I j u st f e lt r o tte n b ut I f e el f in e n ow .”
“W as i t t h at b ad ?”

“N o,” h e l ie d .
She s h ook h er h ead . “ I’m s o s o rry . I h oped t h ere w ould n’t b e a n y b ad a t
all.”
“It w en t a w ay .”
“T hat’ s g ood. I s n ’t i t l o vely t o b e h ere i n t h e s u m mer a n d n o o ne h ere ? I
th ought o f s o m eth in g.”
“A lr e ad y?”
“W e c an s ta y o n a n d n ot g o t o t h e s e a. T his i s o urs n ow . T he t o w n a n d
here . W e c o uld s ta y h ere a n d t h en d riv e b ack s tr a ig ht t h ro ugh t o l a N ap oule .”
“T here a re n ’t m an y m ore m oves t o m ak e.”
“D on’t. W e’v e o nly j u st s ta rte d .”
“Y es… we c an a lw ay s g o b ack w here w e s ta rte d .”
“O f c o urs e w e c an a n d w e w ill.”
“L et’ s n ot t a lk a b out i t,” h e s a id .
He h ad f e lt i t s ta rt t o c o m e b ack a n d h e t o ok a l o ng s ip o f h is d rin k.
“It’ s a v ery s tr a n ge t h in g,” h e s a id . “ T his d rin k t a ste s e x actly l ik e
re m ors e . I t h as t h e t r u e t a ste o f i t a n d y et i t t a k es i t a w ay .”
“I d on’t l ik e y ou t o h av e t o t a k e i t f o r t h at. W e a re n ’t l ik e t h at. W e
mustn ’t b e.”
“M ay be I a m .”
“Y ou m ustn ’t b e.” S he t o ok a l o ng s ip o ut o f h er g la ss a n d a n oth er l o ng
sip a n d l o oked a ro und a n d t h en a t h im . “ I c an d o i t. L ook a t m e a n d w atc h i t
hap pen . H ere i n t h e o utd oor c afe o f T he P ala ce i n M ad rid a n d y ou c an s e e t h e
Pra d o a n d t h e s tr e et a n d t h e s p rin kle rs u nder t h e t r e es s o i t’ s r e al. I t’ s a w fu lly
bru sq ue. B ut I c an d o i t. Y ou c an s e e. L ook. T he l ip s a re y our g ir l a g ain a n d
I’m a ll t h e t h in gs y ou r e ally w an t. H av en ’t I d one i t? T ell m e.”
“Y ou d id n’t h av e t o .”
“D o y ou l ik e m e a s a g ir l,” s h e s a id v ery s e rio usly a n d t h en s m ile d .
“Y es,” h e s a id .
“T hat’ s g ood,” s h e s a id . “ I’m g la d s o m eo ne l ik es i t b ecau se i t’ s a g od
dam ned b ore .”
“D on’t d o i t t h en .”
“D id n’t y ou h ear m e s a y I d id i t? D id n’t y ou w atc h m e d o i t? D o y ou
wan t m e t o w re n ch m yse lf a ro und a n d t e ar m yse lf i n t w o b ecau se y ou c an ’t
mak e u p y our m in d? B ecau se y ou w on’t s ta y w ith a n yth in g?”
“W ould y ou h old i t d ow n?”
“W hy s h ould I h old i t d ow n? Y ou w an t a g ir l d on’t y ou? D on’t y ou w an t

ev ery th in g t h at g oes w ith i t? S cen es, h yste ria , f a ls e a ccu sa tio ns, t e m pera m en t
is n ’t t h at i t? I ’m h old in g i t d ow n. I w on’t m ak e y ou u nco m fo rta b le i n f ro nt o f
th e w aite r. I w on’t m ak e t h e w aite r u nco m fo rta b le . I ’ll r e ad m y d am ned m ail.
Can w e s e n d u p a n d g et m y m ail? ”
“I’ll g o u p a n d g et i t.”
“N o. I s h ould n’t b e h ere b y m yse lf .”
“T hat’ s r ig ht,” h e s a id .
“Y ou s e e? T hat w as w hy I s a id t o s e n d f o r i t.”
“T hey w ould n’t g iv e a
b oto nes
t h e k ey t o t h e r o om . T hat w as w hy I s a id
I’d g o.”
“I’m o ver i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m n ot g oin g t o a ct t h at w ay . W hy s h ould
I a ct t h at w ay t o y ou? I t w as l u dic ro us a n d u ndig nif ie d . I t w as s o s illy I w on’t
ev en a sk y ou t o f o rg iv e m e. B esid es I h av e t o g o u p t o t h e r o om a n yw ay .”
“N ow ?”
“B ecau se I ’m a g od d am ned w om an . I t h ought i f I ’d b e a g ir l a n d s ta y a
gir l I ’d h av e a b ab y a t l e ast. N ot e v en t h at.”
“T hat c o uld b e m y f a u lt.”
“D on’t l e t’ s e v er t a lk a b out f a u lts . Y ou s ta y h ere a n d I ’ll b rin g b ack t h e
mail. W e’ll r e ad o ur m ail a n d b e n ic e g ood i n te llig en t A m eric an t o uris ts w ho
are d is a p poin te d b ecau se t h ey c am e t o M ad rid a t t h e w ro ng t im e o f y ear.”
At l u nch C ath erin e s a id , “ W e’ll g o b ack t o l a N ap oule . T here i s n o o ne
th ere a n d w e’ll b e q uie t a n d g ood a n d w ork a n d t a k e c are o f e ach o th er. W e
can d riv e t o A ix t o o a n d s e e a ll t h e C ézan ne c o untr y . W e d id n’t s ta y t h ere
lo ng e n ough b efo re .”
“W e’ll h av e a l o vely t im e.”
“It i s n ’t t o o s o on f o r y ou t o s ta rt t o w ork a g ain i s i t? ”
“N o. I t w ould b e g ood t o s ta rt n ow . I ’m s u re .”
“T hat w ill b e w onderfu l a n d I ’ll s tu dy S pan is h r e ally f o r w hen w e c o m e
back . A nd I h av e s o m uch I h av e t o r e ad .”
“W e h av e l o ts t o d o.”
“W e’ll d o i t t o o.”

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T he n ew p la n l a ste d a l ittle m ore t h an a m onth . T hey h ad t h re e r o om s a t t h e
e n d o f t h e l o ng l o w r o se -c o lo re d P ro ven çal h ouse w here t h ey h ad s ta y ed
b efo re . I t w as i n t h e p in es o n t h e E sté re l s id e o f l a N ap oule . O ut o f t h e
w in dow s t h ere w as t h e s e a a n d f ro m t h e g ard en i n f ro nt o f t h e l o ng h ouse
w here t h ey a te u nder t h e t r e es t h ey c o uld s e e t h e e m pty b each es, t h e h ig h
p ap yru s g ra ss a t t h e d elta o f t h e s m all r iv er a n d a cro ss t h e b ay w as t h e w hite
c u rv e o f C an nes w ith t h e h ills a n d t h e f a r m ounta in s b eh in d. T here w as n o
o ne s ta y in g a t t h e l o ng h ouse n ow i n s u m mer a n d t h e p ro prie to r a n d h is w if e
w ere p le ase d t o h av e t h em b ack .
Their b ed ro om w as t h e b ig r o om a t t h e e n d. I t h ad w in dow s o n t h re e
s id es a n d w as c o ol t h at s u m mer. A t n ig ht t h ey s m elle d t h e p in es a n d t h e s e a.
D av id w ork ed i n a r o om a t t h e f u rth er e n d. H e s ta rte d e arly e ach m orn in g a n d
w hen h e w as f in is h ed h e w ould f in d C ath erin e a n d t h ey w ould g o t o a c o ve i n
t h e r o ck s w here t h ere w as a s a n d b each t o s u n a n d t o s w im . S om etim es
C ath erin e w as g one w ith t h e c ar a n d h e w ould w ait f o r h er a n d h av e a d rin k
o ut o n t h e t e rra ce a fte r h is w ork . I t w as i m possib le t o d rin k p astis a fte r
a b sin th e a n d h e h ad t a k en t o d rin kin g w his k ey a n d P errie r w ate r. T his
p le ase d t h e p ro prie to r, w ho w as n ow d oin g a g ood d efe n siv e s u m mer
b usin ess w ith t h e p re se n ce o f t h e t w o B ourn es i n t h e d ead s u m mer s e aso n.
H e h ad n ot h ir e d a c o ok a n d h is w if e w as d oin g t h e c o okin g. O ne m aid
s e rv an t l o oked a fte r t h e r o om s a n d a n ep hew , w ho w as a n a p pre n tic e w aite r,
s e rv ed a t t a b le .
Cath erin e e n jo yed d riv in g t h e s m all c ar a n d w en t o n b uyin g a n d
c o lle ctin g t r ip s t o C an nes a n d t o N ic e. T he b ig w in te r s e aso n s h ops w ere

clo se d b ut s h e f o und e x tr a v ag an ces t o e at a n d s o lid v alu es t o d rin k a n d
lo cate d t h e p la ces w here s h e c o uld b uy b ooks a n d m ag azin es.
Dav id h ad w ork ed v ery h ard f o r f o ur d ay s. T hey h ad s p en t a ll t h e
afte rn oon i n t h e s u n o n t h e s a n d o f a n ew c o ve t h ey h ad f o und a n d t h ey h ad
been i n t h e w ate r u ntil t h ey w ere b oth t ir e d a n d t h en c o m e h om e i n t h e
ev en in g w ith s a lt d rie d o n t h eir b ack s a n d i n t h eir h air t o h av e a d rin k a n d
ta k e s h ow ers a n d c h an ge.
In b ed t h e b re eze c am e i n f ro m t h e s e a. I t w as c o ol a n d t h ey l a y s id e b y
sid e i n t h e d ark w ith t h e s h eet o ver t h em a n d C ath erin e s a id , “ Y ou s a id I w as
to t e ll y ou.”
“I k now .”
She l e an ed o ver h im a n d h eld h is h ead i n h er h an ds a n d k is se d h im . “ I
wan t t o s o m uch . C an I ? M ay I ? ”
“S ure .”
“I’m s o h ap py. I ’v e m ad e a l o t o f p la n s,” s h e s a id . “ A nd t h is t im e I ’m n ot
goin g t o s ta rt s o b ad a n d w ild .”
“W hat s o rt o f p la n s? ”
“I c an t e ll b ut i t w ould b e b ette r t o s h ow i t. W e c o uld d o i t t o m orro w .
Will y ou g o i n w ith m e?”
“W here ?”
“T o C an nes w here I w en t w hen w e w ere h ere b efo re . H e’s a v ery g ood
co if fe u r. W e’re f rie n ds a n d h e’s b ette r t h an t h e o ne i n B ia rritz b ecau se h e
unders to od r ig ht a w ay .”
“W hat h av e y ou b een d oin g?”
“I w en t t o s e e h im t h is m orn in g w hile y ou w ere w ork in g a n d I e x pla in ed
an d h e s tu die d i t a n d u nders to od a n d t h ought i t w ould b e f in e. I t o ld h im I
had n’t d ecid ed b ut t h at i f I d id I ’d t r y t o g et y ou t o h av e y ours c u t t h e s a m e
way .”
“H ow i s i t c u t? ”
“Y ou’ll s e e. W e’ll g o t o geth er. I t’ s s o rt o f b ev elle d b ack f ro m t h e n atu ra l
lin e. H e’s v ery e n th usia stic . I t h in k i t’ s b ecau se h e’s c ra zy a b out t h e B ugatti.
Are y ou a fra id ?”
“N o.”
“I c an ’t w ait. H e w an ts t o l ig hte n i t r e ally b ut w e w ere a fra id y ou m ig ht
not l ik e i t.”
“T he s u n a n d t h e s a lt w ate r l ig hte n i t.”
“T his w ould b e m uch f a ir e r. H e s a id h e c o uld m ak e i t a s f a ir a s

Scan din av ia n . T hin k h ow t h at w ould b e w ith o ur d ark s k in . A nd w e c o uld
mak e y ours l ig hte r t o o.”
“N o. I ’d f e el f u nny.”
“W ho d o y ou k now h ere t h at m ak es a n y d if fe re n ce? Y ou’d g et l ig hte r
sw im min g a ll s u m mer a n yw ay .”
He d id n ot s a y a n yth in g a n d s h e s a id , “ Y ou w on’t h av e t o . W e’ll j u st d o
min e a n d m ay be y ou’ll w an t t o . W e c an s e e.”
“D on’t m ak e p la n s, D ev il. T om orro w I ’ll g et u p v ery e arly a n d w ork a n d
you s le ep a s l a te a s y ou c an .”
“T hen w rite f o r m e t o o,” s h e s a id . “ N o m atte r i f i t’ s w here I ’v e b een b ad
put i n h ow m uch I l o ve y ou.”
“I’m n early u p t o n ow .”
“C an y ou p ublis h i t o r w ould i t b e b ad t o ?”
“I’v e o nly t r ie d t o w rite i t.”
“C an I e v er r e ad i t? ”
“If I e v er g et i t r ig ht.”
“I’m s o p ro ud o f i t a lr e ad y a n d w e w on’t h av e a n y c o pie s f o r s a le a n d
none f o r r e v ie w ers a n d t h en t h ere ’ll n ev er b e c lip pin gs a n d y ou’ll n ev er b e
se lf c o nsc io us a n d w e’ll a lw ay s h av e i t j u st f o r u s.”

Dav id B ourn e w oke w hen i t w as l ig ht a n d p ut o n s h orts a n d a s h ir t a n d w en t
outs id e. T he b re eze h ad d ie d . T he s e a w as c alm a n d t h e d ay s m elle d o f t h e
dew a n d t h e p in es. H e w alk ed b are f o ote d a cro ss t h e f la g sto nes o f t h e t e rra ce
to t h e r o om a t t h e f a r e n d o f t h e l o ng h ouse a n d w en t i n a n d s a t d ow n a t t h e
ta b le w here h e w ork ed . T he w in dow s h ad b een o pen o vern ig ht a n d t h e r o om
was c o ol a n d f u ll o f e arly m orn in g p ro m is e .
He w as w ritin g a b out t h e r o ad f ro m M ad rid t o Z ara g ossa a n d t h e r is in g
an d f a llin g o f t h e r o ad a s t h ey c am e a t s p eed i n to t h e c o untr y o f t h e r e d b utte s
an d t h e l ittle c ar o n t h e t h en d usty r o ad p ic k ed u p t h e E xpre ss t r a in a n d
Cath erin e p asse d i t g en tly c ar b y c ar, t h e t e n der, a n d t h en t h e e n gin eer a n d
fir e m an , a n d f in ally t h e n ose o f t h e e n gin e, a n d t h en s h e s h if te d a s t h e r o ad
sw itc h ed l e ft a n d t h e t r a in d is a p peare d i n to a t u nnel.
“I h ad i t,” s h e h ad s a id . “ B ut i t w en t t o g ro und. T ell m e i f I c an g et i t
ag ain .”
He h ad l o oked a t t h e M ic h elin m ap a n d s a id , “ N ot f o r a w hile .”
“I’ll l e t i t g o t h en a n d w e’ll s e e t h e c o untr y .” A s t h e r o ad c lim bed t h ere
were p opla r t r e es a lo ng t h e r iv er a n d t h e r o ad c lim bed s te ep ly a n d h e f e lt t h e

car a ccep t i t a n d t h en C ath erin e s h if t a g ain h ap pily a s i t f la tte n ed t h e s te ep
gra d e.
Late r, w hen h e h eard h er v oic e i n t h e g ard en , h e s to pped w ritin g. H e
lo ck ed t h e s u itc ase w ith t h e c ah ie rs o f m an usc rip t a n d w en t o ut l o ck in g t h e
door a fte r h im . T he g ir l w ould u se t h e p ass k ey t o c le an t h e r o om .
Cath erin e w as s ittin g a t b re ak fa st o n t h e t e rra ce. T here w as a r e d -a n d-
white c h eck ed c lo th o n t h e t a b le . S he w ore h er o ld G ra u d u R oi s tr ip ed s h ir t
fre sh -w ash ed a n d s h ru nk n ow a n d m uch f a d ed , n ew g ra y f la n nel s la ck s, a n d
esp ad rille s.
“H ello ,” s h e s a id . “ I c o uld n’t s le ep l a te .”
“Y ou l o ok l o vely .”
“T han k y ou. I f e el l o vely .”
“W here d id y ou g et t h ose s la ck s? ”
“I h ad t h em m ad e i n N ic e. B y a g ood t a ilo r. A re t h ey a ll r ig ht? ”
“T hey ’re v ery w ell c u t. T hey j u st l o ok n ew . A re y ou g oin g t o w ear t h em
in to t o w n?”
“N ot t o w n. C an nes i n t h e o ff s e aso n. E very body w ill n ex t y ear. P eo ple
are w earin g o ur s h ir ts n ow . T hey ’re n o g ood w ith s k ir ts . Y ou d on’t m in d d o
you?”
“N ot a t a ll. T hey l o ok r ig ht. T hey j u st l o oked s o w ell c re ase d .”
Afte r b re ak fa st w hile D av id s h av ed a n d s h ow ere d a n d t h en p ulle d o n a
pair o f o ld f la n nels a n d a f is h erm an ’s s h ir t a n d f o und h is e sp ad rille s
Cath erin e p ut o n a b lu e l in en s h ir t w ith a n o pen c o lla r a n d a h eav y w hite
lin en s k ir t.
“W e’re b ette r t h is w ay . E ven i f t h e s la ck s a re r ig ht f o r h ere t h ey ’re t o o
sh ow -o ff f o r t h is m orn in g. W e’ll s a v e t h em .”

It w as v ery f rie n dly a n d o ffh an d a t t h e c o if fe u r’s b ut v ery p ro fe ssio nal.
Monsie u r J e an , w ho w as a b out D av id ’s a g e a n d l o oked m ore I ta lia n t h an
Fre n ch , s a id , “ I w ill c u t i t a s s h e a sk s. D o y ou a g re e, M onsie u r? ”
“I d on’t b elo ng t o t h e s y ndic ate ,” D av id s a id . “ I l e av e i t t o y ou t w o.”
“P erh ap s w e s h ould e x perim en t o n M onsie u r,” M onsie u r J e an s a id . “ In
case a n yth in g g oes w ro ng.”
But M onsie u r J e an b eg an c u ttin g C ath erin e’s h air v ery c are fu lly a n d
sk illf u lly a n d D av id w atc h ed h er d ark s e rio us f a ce a b ove t h e s m ock t h at
cam e c lo se a ro und h er n eck . S he l o oked i n to t h e h an d m ir ro r a n d w atc h ed t h e
co m b a n d s c is so rs l if tin g a n d s n ip pin g. T he m an w as w ork in g l ik e a s c u lp to r,

ab so rb ed a n d s e rio us. “ I t h ought a b out i t a ll l a st n ig ht a n d t h is m orn in g,” t h e
co if fe u r s a id . “ If y ou d on’t b elie v e t h at, M onsie u r, I u nders ta n d. B ut t h is i s a s
im porta n t t o m e a s y our m étie r i s t o y ou.”
He s te p ped b ack t o l o ok a t t h e s h ap e h e w as m ak in g. T hen h e s n ip ped
more r a p id ly a n d f in ally t u rn ed t h e c h air s o t h e b ig m ir ro r w as r e fle cte d i n t h e
sm all o ne C ath erin e h eld .
“D o y ou w an t i t c u t t h at w ay a b ove t h e e ars ? ” s h e a sk ed t h e c o if fe u r.
“A s y ou l ik e. I c an m ak e i t m ore d ég ag é i f y ou w is h . B ut i t w ill b e
beau tif u l a s i s i f w e a re g oin g t o m ak e i t t r u ly f a ir .”
“I w an t i t f a ir ,” C ath erin e s a id .
He s m ile d . “ M ad am e a n d I h av e s p oken o f i t. B ut I s a id i t m ust b e
Monsie u r’s d ecis io n.”
“M onsie u r g av e h is d ecis io n,” C ath erin e s a id .
“H ow f a ir d id M onsie u r s a y h e w is h ed i t t o b e?”
“A s f a ir a s y ou c an m ak e i t,” s h e s a id .
“D on’t s a y t h at,” M onsie u r J e an s a id . “ Y ou m ust t e ll m e.”
“A s f a ir a s m y p earls ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou’v e s e en t h em p le n ty o f
tim es.”
Dav id h ad c o m e o ver a n d w as w atc h in g M onsie u r J e an s tir a l a rg e
gla ssfu l o f t h e s h am poo w ith a w ooden s p oon. “ I h av e t h e s h am poos m ad e u p
with c astile s o ap ,” t h e c o if fe u r s a id . “ It’ s w arm . P le ase c o m e o ver h ere t o t h e
basin . S it f o rw ard ,” h e s a id t o C ath erin e, “ an d p ut t h is c lo th a cro ss y our
fo re h ead .”
“B ut i t i s n ’t e v en r e ally a b oy’s h air c u t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I w an te d i t t h e
way w e p la n ned . E very th in g’s g oin g w ro ng.”
“It c o uld n’t b e m ore a b oy’s h air c u t. Y ou m ust b elie v e m e.”
He w as l a th erin g h er h ead n ow w ith t h e f o am y t h ic k s h am poo w ith t h e
acrid o dor.
When h er h ead h ad b een s h am pooed a n d r in se d a g ain a n d a g ain i t l o oked
to D av id a s t h ough i t h ad n o c o lo r a n d t h e w ate r t u nnelle d t h ro ugh i t s h ow in g
only a w et p ale n ess. T he c o if fe u r p ut a t o w el o ver i t a n d r u bbed i t s o ftly . H e
was v ery s u re a b out i t.
“D on’t b e d esp era te , M ad am e,” h e s a id . “ W hy w ould I d o a n yth in g
ag ain st y our b eau ty ?”
“I
a m
d esp era te a n d t h ere i s n ’t a n y b eau ty .”
He d rie d h er h ead g en tly a n d t h en k ep t t h e t o w el o ver h er h ead a n d
bro ught a h an d b lo w er a n d b eg an t o p la y i t t h ro ugh h er h air a s h e c o m bed i t

fo rw ard .
“N ow w atc h ,” h e s a id .
As t h e a ir d ro ve t h ro ugh h er h air i t w as t u rn in g f ro m d am p d ra b t o a
silv ery n orth ern s h in in g f a ir n ess. A s t h e w in d o f t h e b lo w er m oved t h ro ugh i t
th ey w atc h ed i t c h an ge.
“Y ou s h ould n’t h av e d esp air e d ,” M onsie u r J e an s a id , n ot s a y in g
M adam e
an d t h en r e m em berin g. “ M ad am e w an te d i t f a ir ? ”
“It’ s b ette r t h an t h e p earls ,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou’re a g re at m an a n d I w as
te rrib le .”
Then h e r u bbed h is h an ds t o geth er w ith s o m eth in g f ro m a j a r. “ I’ll j u st
to uch i t w ith t h is ,” h e s a id . H e s m ile d a t C ath erin e v ery h ap pily a n d p asse d
his h an ds l ig htly o ver h er h ead .
Cath erin e s to od u p a n d l o oked a t h ers e lf v ery s e rio usly i n t h e m ir ro r. H er
fa ce h ad n ev er b een s o d ark a n d h er h air w as l ik e t h e b ark o f a y oung w hite
bir c h t r e e.
“I l ik e i t s o m uch ,” s h e s a id . “ T oo m uch .”
She l o oked i n t h e m ir ro r a s t h ough s h e h ad n ev er s e en t h e g ir l s h e w as
lo okin g a t.
“N ow w e m ust d o M onsie u r,” t h e c o if fe u r s a id . “ D oes M onsie u r w is h t h e
cu t? I t’ s v ery c o nse rv ativ e b ut i t’ s a ls o s p ortif .”
“T he c u t,” D av id s a id . “ I d on’t t h in k I ’v e h ad a h air c u t i n a m onth .”
“P le ase m ak e i t t h e s a m e a s m in e,” C ath erin e s a id .
“B ut s h orte r,” D av id s a id .
“N o. P le ase j u st t h e s a m e.”
When i t w as c u t D av id s to od u p a n d r a n h is h an d o ver h is h ead . I t f e lt
co ol a n d c o m fo rta b le .
“A re n ’t y ou g oin g t o l e t h im l ig hte n i t? ”
“N o. W e’v e h ad e n ough m ir a cle s f o r o ne d ay .”
“Ju st a l ittle ?”
“N o.”
Dav id l o oked a t C ath erin e a n d t h en a t h is o w n f a ce i n t h e m ir ro r. H is w as
as b ro w n a s h ers a n d i t w as h er h air c u t.
“Y ou r e ally w an t i t t h at m uch ?”
“Y es I d o, D av id . T ru ly . J u st t o t r y i t a l ittle b it. P le ase .”
He l o oked o nce m ore i n t h e m ir ro r a n d w alk ed o ver t h en a n d s a t d ow n.
The c o if fe u r l o oked a t C ath erin e.
“G o a h ead a n d d o i t,” s h e s a id .

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T he p atr o n w as s ittin g a t o ne o f h is t a b le s o n t h e t e rra ce o f t h e l o ng h ouse
w ith a b ottle o f w in e, a g la ss a n d a n e m pty c o ffe e c u p r e ad in g t h e
É cla ir e u r
d e N ic e
w hen t h e b lu e c ar c am e u p i n a r u sh o n t h e g ra v el a n d C ath erin e a n d
D av id g ot o ut a n d c am e w alk in g d ow n t h e f la g sto nes t o t h e t e rra ce. H e h ad
n ot e x pecte d t h em b ack s o s o on a n d h e w as n early a sle ep b ut h e s to od u p a n d
s a id t h e f ir s t t h in g t h at c am e i n h is h ead a s t h ey w ere o pposite h im .
“M adam e e t M onsie u r o nt f a it d éco lo re r l e s c h eveu x. C ’e st b ie n .”
“M erc i M onsie u r. O n l e f a it t o ujo urs d ans l e m ois d ’a oût.”
“C ’e st b ie n . C ’e st t r è s b ie n .”
“T hat’ s n ic e,” s a id C ath erin e t o D av id . “ W e’re g ood c lie n ts . W hat t h e
g ood c lie n t d oes i s t r è s b ie n . Y ou’re t r è s b ie n . M y G od y ou a re .”
In t h eir r o om a g ood s a ilin g b re eze w as b lo w in g i n f ro m t h e s e a a n d t h e
r o om w as c o ld .
“I l o ve t h at b lu e s h ir t,” D av id s a id . “ S ta n d t h ere l ik e t h at i n i t.”
“It’ s t h e c o lo r o f t h e c ar,” s h e s a id . “ W ould i t l o ok n ic er w ith out a s k ir t? ”
“E very th in g o n y ou l o oks n ic er w ith out a s k ir t,” h e s a id . “ I’m g oin g o ut
a n d s e e t h at o ld g oat a n d b e a n e v en b ette r c lie n t.”
He c am e b ack w ith a b uck et o f i c e a n d a b ottle o f t h e c h am pag ne t h at t h e
p ro prie to r h ad o rd ere d f o r t h em a n d t h at t h ey h ad d ru nk s o s e ld om a n d h e
h eld t w o g la sse s o n a s m all t r a y i n h is o th er h an d.
“T his o ught t o b e f a ir w arn in g f o r t h em ,” h e s a id .
“W e d id n’t n eed i t,” C ath erin e s a id .
“W e c an j u st t r y i t. I t w on’t t a k e f if te en m in ute s t o c o ol.”
“D on’t t e ase . P le ase c o m e t o b ed a n d l e t m e s e e y ou a n d f e el y ou.”

She w as t a k in g h is s h ir t u p o ver h is h ead a n d h e s to od u p a n d h elp ed h er.

Afte r s h e w as a sle ep D av id g ot u p a n d l o oked a t h im se lf i n t h e b ath ro om
mir ro r. H e p ic k ed u p a b ru sh a n d b ru sh ed h is h air . T here w as n o o th er w ay t o
bru sh i t b ut t h e w ay i t h ad b een c u t. I t w ould d is a rra n ge a n d m uss b ut i t h ad
to f a ll t h at w ay a n d t h e c o lo r w as t h e s a m e a s C ath erin e’s . H e w en t t o t h e
door a n d l o oked a t h er o n t h e b ed . T hen h e c am e b ack a n d p ic k ed u p h er b ig
han d m ir ro r.
“S o t h at’ s h ow i t i s ,” h e s a id t o h im se lf . “ Y ou’v e d one t h at t o y our h air
an d h ad i t c u t t h e s a m e a s y our g ir l’ s a n d h ow d o y ou f e el? ” H e a sk ed t h e
mir ro r. “ H ow d o y ou f e el? S ay i t.”
“Y ou l ik e i t,” h e s a id .
He l o oked a t t h e m ir ro r a n d i t w as s o m eo ne e ls e h e s a w b ut i t w as l e ss
str a n ge n ow .
“A ll r ig ht. Y ou l ik e i t,” h e s a id . “ N ow g o t h ro ugh w ith t h e r e st o f i t
whate v er i t i s a n d d on’t e v er s a y a n yone t e m pte d y ou o r t h at a n yone b itc h ed
you.”
He l o oked a t t h e f a ce t h at w as n o l o nger s tr a n ge t o h im a t a ll b ut w as h is
fa ce n ow a n d s a id , “ Y ou l ik e i t. R em em ber t h at. K eep t h at s tr a ig ht. Y ou
know e x actly h ow y ou l o ok n ow a n d h ow y ou a re .”
Of c o urs e h e d id n ot k now e x actly h ow h e w as. B ut h e m ad e a n e ffo rt
aid ed b y w hat h e h ad s e en i n t h e m ir ro r.



They a te d in ner o n t h e t e rra ce i n f ro nt o f t h e l o ng h ouse t h at n ig ht a n d w ere
very e x cite d a n d q uie t a n d e n jo yed l o okin g a t e ach o th er i n t h e s h ad ed l ig ht
on t h e t a b le . A fte r d in ner C ath erin e s a id t o t h e b oy w ho h ad b ro ught t h eir
co ffe e, “ F in d t h e p ail f o r t h e c h am pag ne i n o ur r o om a n d i c e a n ew b ottle
ple ase .”
“D o w e w an t a n oth er? ” D av id a sk ed .
“I t h in k s o . D on’t y ou?”
“S ure .”
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o .”
“D o y ou w an t a
f in e?

“N o. I ’d r a th er d rin k t h e w in e. D o y ou h av e t o w ork t o m orro w ?”

“W e’ll s e e.”
“P le ase w ork i f y ou f e el l ik e i t.”
“A nd t o nig ht? ”
“W e’ll s e e a b out t o nig ht. I t’ s b een s u ch a n a rd uous d ay .”

In t h e n ig ht i t w as v ery d ark a n d t h e w in d h ad r is e n a n d t h ey c o uld h ear i t i n
th e p in es.
“D av id ?”
“Y es.”
“H ow a re y ou g ir l? ”
“I’m f in e.”
“L et m e f e el y our h air g ir l. W ho c u t i t? W as i t J e an ? I t’ s c u t s o f u ll a n d
has s o m uch b ody a n d i t’ s t h e s a m e a s m in e. L et m e k is s y ou g ir l. O h y ou
hav e l o vely l ip s. S hut y our e y es g ir l.”
He d id n ot s h ut h is e y es b ut i t w as d ark i n t h e r o om a n d o uts id e t h e w in d
was h ig h i n t h e t r e es.
“Y ou k now i t i s n ’t s o e asy t o b e a g ir l i f y ou’re r e ally o ne. I f y ou r e ally
fe el t h in gs.”
“I k now .”
“N obody k now s. I t e ll y ou s o w hen y ou’re m y g ir l. I t’ s n ot t h at y ou’re
in sa tia b le . I ’m s a tia b le s o e asily . I t’ s j u st s o m e f e el a n d o th ers d on’t. P eo ple
lie a b out i t I t h in k. B ut i t’ s s o n ic e j u st t o f e el a n d h old y ou. I ’m s o h ap py.
Ju st b e m y g ir l a n d l o ve m e t h e w ay I l o ve y ou. L ove m e m ore . T he w ay y ou
can n ow . Y ou n ow . Y es y ou. P le ase y ou.”

They w ere d ro ppin g d ow n t h e s lo pe t o w ard C an nes a n d t h e w in d w as h eav y
as t h ey c am e o nto t h e p la in a n d s k ir te d t h e d ese rte d b each es, t h e t a ll g ra ss
ben din g a n d f la tte n in g a s t h ey c ro sse d t h e b rid ge o ver t h e r iv er a n d p ic k ed u p
sp eed o n t h e l a st s tr e tc h o f f a st r o ad b efo re t h e t o w n. D av id f o und t h e b ottle ,
whic h w as c o ld a n d w ra p ped i n a t o w el, a n d t o ok a l o ng d rin k a n d f e lt t h e c ar
le av e t h e w ork b eh in d a n d m ove a w ay a n d u p t h e s m all r is e t h e b la ck r o ad
was m ak in g. H e h ad n ot w ork ed t h is m orn in g a n d n ow w hen s h e h ad d riv en
th em t h ro ugh t h e t o w n a n d b ack i n to t h e c o untr y , h e u nco rk ed t h e b ottle a n d
dra n k a g ain a n d o ffe re d i t t o h er.
“I d on’t n eed i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I f e el t o o g ood.”
“V ery w ell.”

They p asse d G olf e -J u an w ith t h e g ood b is tr o a n d t h e s m all o pen b ar a n d
th en w ere t h ro ugh t h e p in e w oods a n d m ovin g a lo ng t h e r a w y ello w b each o f
Ju an -le s-P in s. T hey c ro sse d t h e s m all p en in su la o n t h e f a st b la ck r o ad a n d
passe d t h ro ugh A ntib es d riv in g b esid e t h e r a ilw ay a n d t h en o ut t h ro ugh t h e
to w n a n d b ey ond t h e p ort a n d t h e s q uare t o w er o f t h e o ld d efe n se s a n d c am e
out a g ain i n to o pen c o untr y . “ It n ev er l a sts ,” s h e s a id . “ I a lw ay s e at t h at
str e tc h t o o f a st.”
They s to pped a n d a te l u nch i n t h e l e e o f a n o ld s to ne w all t h at w as p art o f
th e r u in o f s o m e b uild in g h ard b y t h e s id e o f a c le ar s tr e am t h at c am e o ut o f
th e m ounta in s a n d c ro sse d t h e w ild p la in o n i ts w ay t o t h e s e a. T he w in d
cam e h ard o ut o f a f u nnel i n t h e m ounta in s. T hey h ad s p re ad a b la n ket o n t h e
gro und a n d t h ey s a t c lo se t o geth er a g ain st t h e w all a n d l o oked o ut a cro ss t h e
waste c o untr y t o t h e s e a t h at w as f la t a n d s c o ure d b y t h e w in d.
“It w asn ’t m uch o f a p la ce t o c o m e t o ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I d on’t k now
what I t h ought i t w ould b e l ik e.”
They s to od u p a n d l o oked u p a t t h e h ills w ith t h eir p ois e d v illa g es a n d t h e
gra y a n d p urp le m ounta in s b eh in d. T he w in d w hip ped i n t h eir h air a n d
Cath erin e p oin te d o ut a r o ad t h at s h e h ad o nce d riv en i n to t h e h ig h c o untr y .
“W e c o uld h av e g one s o m ew here u p i n t h ere ,” s h e s a id . “ B ut i t’ s s o
clo se d i n a n d p ic tu re sq ue. I h ate t h ose h an gin g v illa g es.”
“T his i s a g ood p la ce,” D av id s a id . “ It’ s a f in e s tr e am a n d w e c o uld n’t
hav e a b ette r w all.”
“Y ou’re b ein g n ic e. Y ou d on’t h av e t o b e.”
“It’ s a g ood l e e a n d I l ik e t h e p la ce. W e’ll t u rn o ur b ack o n a ll t h e
pic tu re sq ue.”
They a te s tu ffe d e g gs, r o ast c h ic k en , p ic k le s, f re sh l o ng b re ad t h at t h ey
bro ke i n p ie ces a n d s p re ad S ovora m usta rd o n a n d t h ey d ra n k r o sé .
“D o y ou f e el g ood n ow ?” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“S ure .”
“A nd y ou h av en ’t f e lt b ad ?”
“N o.”
“N ot e v en a b out a n yth in g I s a id ?”
Dav id t o ok a d rin k o f t h e w in e a n d s a id , “ N o. I h av en ’t t h ought a b out i t.”
She s to od u p a n d l o oked i n to t h e w in d s o t h at i t b le w h er s w eate r a g ain st
her b re asts a n d w hip ped h er h air a n d t h en s h e l o oked d ow n a t h im w ith h er
bla ck b ro w n f a ce a n d s m ile d . S he t u rn ed a ro und t h en a n d l o oked o ut t o w ard
th e s e a t h at w as f la tte n ed a n d w rin kle d b y t h e w in d.

“L et’ s g o g et t h e p ap ers i n C an nes a n d r e ad t h em i n t h e c afe ,” s h e s a id .
“Y ou w an t t o s h ow o ff.”
“W hy s h ould n’t I ? I t’ s t h e f ir s t t im e w e’v e b een o ut t o geth er. D o y ou
min d i f w e d o?”
“N o, D ev il. W hy w ould I ? ”
“I d id n’t w an t t o i f y ou d id n’t.”
“Y ou s a id y ou w an te d t o .”
“I w an t t o d o w hat y ou w an t. I c an ’t b e m ore c o m plia n t t h an t h at c an I ? ”
“N obody w an ts y ou t o b e c o m plia n t.”
“C an w e s to p i t? A ll I w an te d t o b e w as g ood t o day . W hy s p oil
ev ery th in g?”
“L et’ s c le an u p h ere a n d g o.”
“W here ?”
“A nyw here . T he g od d am n c afe .”

They b ought t h e p ap ers i n C an nes a n d a n ew F re n ch
V ogue,
t h e
C hasse u r
Fra nça is
a n d t h e
M ir o ir d es S ports
a n d s a t a t a t a b le i n f ro nt o f t h e c afe o ut
of t h e w in d a n d r e ad a n d h ad t h eir d rin ks a n d w ere f rie n ds a g ain . D av id
dra n k H aig p in ch b ottle a n d P errie r a n d C ath erin e h ad A rm ag nac a n d P errie r.
Tw o g ir ls w ho h ad d riv en u p a n d p ark ed o n t h e s tr e et c am e o ver t o t h e
cafe a n d s a t d ow n a n d o rd ere d a C ham bery C assis a n d a
f in e à l ’ e a u.
I t w as
th e b eau ty o f t h e t w o w ho t o ok t h e b ra n dy a n d s o da.
“W ho a re t h ose t w o?” C ath erin e s a id . “ D o y ou k now ?”
“I’v e n ev er s e en t h em .”
“I h av e. T hey m ust l iv e a ro und h ere s o m ew here . I s a w t h em i n N ic e.”
“T he o ne g ir l’ s h an dso m e,” D av id s a id . “ S he h as f in e l e g s t o o.”
“T hey ’re s is te rs ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hey ’re b oth n ic e l o okin g r e ally .”
“B ut t h e o ne’s a b eau ty . T hey ’re n ot A m eric an s.”
The t w o g ir ls w ere a rg uin g a n d C ath erin e s a id t o D av id , “ It’ s a b ig r o w , I
th in k.”
“H ow d id y ou k now t h ey w ere s is te rs ? ”
“I t h ought t h ey w ere i n N ic e. N ow I ’m n ot s u re . T he c ar h as S w is s
pla te s.”
“It’ s a n o ld I s o tta .”
“S hould w e w ait a n d s e e w hat h ap pen s? W e h av en ’t s e en a n y d ra m a f o r a
lo ng t im e.”
“I t h in k i t’ s j u st a b ig I ta lia n r o w .”

“It m ust b e g ettin g s e rio us b ecau se i t’ s q uie te r.”
“It w ill f la re u p. T he o ne i s a d am ned h an dso m e g ir l.”
“Y es, s h e i s . A nd h ere s h e c o m es o ver.”
Dav id s to od u p.
“I’m s o rry ,” t h e g ir l s a id i n E nglis h . “ P le ase f o rg iv e m e. P le ase s it
dow n,” s h e s a id t o D av id .
“W ill y ou s it d ow n?” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“I s h ould n’t. M y f rie n d i s f u rio us w ith m e. B ut I t o ld h er y ou w ould
unders ta n d. Y ou w ill f o rg iv e m e?”
“S hould w e f o rg iv e h er? ” C ath erin e s a id t o D av id .
“L et’ s f o rg iv e h er.”
“I k new y ou w ould u nders ta n d,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ It’ s o nly t o t e ll m e w here
you h ad y our h air c u t.” S he b lu sh ed . “ O r i s i t l ik e c o pyin g a d re ss? M y f rie n d
sa id i t w as m ore o ffe n siv e.”
“I’ll w rite i t d ow n f o r y ou,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I’m v ery a sh am ed ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ Y ou’re n ot o ffe n ded ?”
“O f c o urs e n ot,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W ould y ou h av e a d rin k w ith u s? ”
“I s h ould n’t. M ay I a sk m y f rie n d?”
She w en t b ack t o h er t a b le f o r a m om en t a n d t h ere w as a s h ort a n d
vic io us l o w -p itc h ed e x ch an ge.
“M y f rie n d r e g re ts v ery m uch b ut s h e c an not c o m e o ver,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“B ut I h ope w e w ill m eet a g ain . Y ou h av e b een s o v ery k in d.”
“H ow a b out t h at? ” C ath erin e s a id w hen t h e g ir l h ad g one b ack t o h er
frie n d. “ F or o n a w in dy d ay .”
“S he’ll b e b ack t o a sk w here y ou h ad y our s la ck s c u t.”
The r o w w as s till g oin g o n a t t h e o th er t a b le . T hen t h e t w o o f t h em s to od
up a n d c am e o ver.
“M ay I p re se n t m y f rie n d t h e— ”
“I a m N in a.”
“O ur n am e i s B ourn e,” D av id s a id . “ H ow v ery p le asa n t o f y ou t o j o in
us.”
“Y ou w ere v ery n ic e t o l e t u s c o m e o ver,” t h e h an dso m e o ne s a id . “ It w as
an i m puden t t h in g t o d o.” S he b lu sh ed .
“It’ s v ery f la tte rin g,” C ath erin e s a id . “ B ut h e’s a v ery g ood c o if fe u r.”
“H e m ust b e,” t h e h an dso m e o ne s a id . S he h ad a b re ath le ss w ay o f
sp eak in g a n d s h e b lu sh ed a g ain . “ W e s a w y ou i n N ic e,” s h e s a id t o
Cath erin e. “ I w an te d t o s p eak t o y ou t h en . I m ean a sk y ou.”

She c an ’t b lu sh a g ain , D av id t h ought. B ut s h e d id .
“W ho’s g oin g t o h av e t h eir h air c u t? ” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“I a m ,” t h e h an dso m e o ne s a id .
“I a m t o o, s tu pid ,” N in a s a id .
“Y ou s a id y ou w ere n ’t.”
“I c h an ged m y m in d.”
“I
r e a lly a m ,
” t h e h an dso m e o ne s a id . “ W e m ust g o n ow . D o y ou c o m e
here t o t h is c afe ?”
“S om etim es,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I h ope w e’ll s e e y ou s o m etim e t h en ,” t h e h an dso m e o ne s a id .
“G oodbye a n d t h an k y ou f o r b ein g s o g ra cio us.”
The t w o g ir ls w en t t o t h eir t a b le a n d N in a c alle d t h e w aite r a n d t h ey p aid
an d w ere g one.
“T hey ’re n ot I ta lia n ,” D av id s a id . “ T he o ne i s n ic e b ut s h e c o uld m ak e
you n erv ous b lu sh in g.”
“S he’s i n l o ve w ith y ou.”
“S ure . S he s a w
m e
i n N ic e.”
“W ell I c an ’t h elp i t i f s h e i s w ith m e. I t i s n ’t t h e f ir s t g ir l t h at e v er w as
an d a l o t o f g ood i t d id t h em .”
“H ow a b out N in a?”
“T hat b itc h ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“S he w as a w olf . I s u ppose i t s h ould b e a m usin g.”
“I d id n’t t h in k i t w as a m usin g,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I t h ought i t w as s a d .”
“S o d id I .”
“W e’ll f in d a n oth er c afe ,” s h e s a id . “ T hey ’re g one n ow a n yw ay .”
“T hey w ere s p ooky.”
“I k now ,” s h e s a id . “ F or m e t o o. B ut t h e o ne g ir l w as n ic e. S he h ad
beau tif u l e y es. D id y ou s e e?”
“S he w as a n a w fu l b lu sh er t h ough.”
“I l ik ed h er. D id n’t y ou?”
“I s u ppose s o .”
“P eo ple t h at c an ’t b lu sh a re w orth le ss.”
“N in a b lu sh ed o nce,” D av id s a id .
“I c o uld b e a w fu lly r u de t o N in a.”
“It w ould n’t t o uch h er.”
“N o. S he’s w ell a rm ore d .”
“D o y ou w an t a n oth er d rin k b efo re w e g o h om e?”

“I d on’t n eed o ne. B ut y ou h av e o ne.”
“I d on’t n eed o ne.”
“H av e a n oth er. Y ou u su ally h av e t w o i n t h e e v en in g. I ’ll t a k e a s m all o ne
to k eep c o m pan y.”
“N o. L et’ s g o h om e.”
In t h e n ig ht h e w oke a n d h eard t h e w in d h ig h a n d w ild a n d t u rn ed a n d
pulle d t h e s h eet o ver h is s h ould er a n d s h ut h is e y es a g ain . H e f e lt h er
bre ath in g a n d s h ut h is e y es a g ain . H e f e lt h er b re ath in g s o ftly a n d r e g ula rly
an d t h en h e w en t b ack t o s le ep .

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I t w as t h e s e co nd d ay o f t h e w in d a n d i t h ad n ot s la ck en ed . H e l e ft t h e
o ngoin g n arra tiv e o f t h eir j o urn ey w here i t w as t o w rite a s to ry t h at h ad c o m e
t o h im f o ur o r f iv e d ay s b efo re a n d h ad b een d ev elo pin g, p ro bab ly , h e
t h ought, i n t h e l a st t w o n ig hts w hile h e h ad s le p t. H e k new i t w as b ad t o
i n te rru pt a n y w ork h e w as e n gag ed i n b ut h e f e lt c o nfid en t a n d s u re o f h ow
w ell h e w as g oin g a n d h e t h ought h e c o uld l e av e t h e l o nger n arra tiv e a n d
w rite t h e s to ry w hic h h e b elie v ed h e m ust w rite n ow o r l o se .
The s to ry s ta rte d w ith n o d if fic u lty a s a s to ry d oes w hen i t i s r e ad y t o b e
w ritte n a n d h e g ot p ast t h e m id dle o f i t a n d k new h e s h ould b re ak o ff a n d
l e av e i t u ntil t h e n ex t d ay . I f h e c o uld n ot k eep a w ay f ro m i t a fte r h e h ad
t a k en a b re ak h e w ould d riv e t h ro ugh a n d f in is h i t. B ut h e h oped h e c o uld
k eep a w ay f ro m i t a n d h it i t f re sh t h e n ex t d ay . I t w as a g ood s to ry a n d n ow
h e r e m em bere d h ow l o ng h e h ad i n te n ded t o w rite i t. T he s to ry h ad n ot c o m e
t o h im i n t h e p ast f e w d ay s. H is m em ory h ad b een i n accu ra te i n t h at. I t w as
t h e n ecessity t o w rite i t t h at h ad c o m e t o h im . H e k new h ow t h e s to ry e n ded
n ow . H e h ad a lw ay s k now n t h e w in d a n d s a n d-s c o ure d b ones b ut t h ey w ere
g one n ow a n d h e w as i n ven tin g a ll o f i t. I t w as a ll t r u e n ow b ecau se i t
h ap pen ed t o h im a s h e w ro te a n d o nly i ts b ones w ere d ead a n d s c atte re d a n d
b eh in d h im . I t s ta rte d n ow w ith t h e e v il i n t h e s h am ba a n d h e h ad t o w rite i t
a n d h e w as v ery w ell i n to i t.
He w as t ir e d a n d h ap py f ro m h is w ork w hen h e f o und C ath erin e’s n ote
t h at s h e h ad n ot w an te d t o d is tu rb h im , h ad g one o ut a n d w ould b e b ack f o r
l u nch . H e l e ft t h e r o om a n d o rd ere d b re ak fa st a n d, a s h e w aite d f o r i t,
M onsie u r A uro l, t h e p ro prie to r, c am e i n a n d t h ey s p oke a b out t h e w eath er.

Monsie u r A uro l s a id t h e w in d c am e t h is w ay s o m etim es. I t w as n ot a t r u e
mis tr a l, t h e s e aso n g uara n te ed t h at, b ut i t w ould p ro bab ly b lo w f o r t h re e d ay s.
The w eath er w as i n sa n e n ow . M onsie u r h ad u ndoubte d ly n otic ed t h at. I f
an yone k ep t t r a ck o f i t t h ey w ould k now t h at i t h ad n ot b een n orm al s in ce t h e
war.
Dav id s a id h e h ad n ot b een a b le t o k eep t r a ck o f i t b ecau se h e h ad b een
tr a v ellin g b ut t h ere w as n o d oubt t h at t h e w eath er w as s tr a n ge. N ot o nly t h e
weath er, s a id M onsie u r A uro l, e v ery th in g w as c h an ged a n d w hat w as n ot
ch an ged w as c h an gin g f a st. I t m ig ht v ery w ell a ll b e f o r t h e b est a n d h e, f o r
one, d id n ot o ppose i t. M onsie u r, a s a m an o f t h e w orld , p ro bab ly s a w i t i n
th e s a m e w ay .
Undoubte d ly , s a id D av id , s e ek in g f o r a d ecis iv e a n d t e rm in al i d io cy , i t
was n ecessa ry t o r e v ie w t h e
c a dre s.
Pre cis e ly , s a id M onsie u r A uro l.
They l e ft i t a t t h at a n d D av id f in is h ed h is c afé c rè m e a n d r e ad t h e
M ir o ir
des S ports
a n d b eg an t o m is s C ath erin e. H e w en t i n to t h e r o om a n d f o und
Far A w ay a nd L ong A go
a n d c am e o ut o nto t h e t e rra ce a n d s e ttle d h im se lf i n
th e s u n b y t h e t a b le o ut o f t h e w in d t o r e ad t h e l o vely b ook. C ath erin e h ad
se n t t o G alig nan i’ s i n P aris f o r t h e D en t e d itio n f o r a p re se n t f o r h im a n d
when t h e b ooks h ad c o m e t h ey h ad m ad e h im f e el t r u ly r ic h . T he f ig ure s i n
his b an k b ala n ces, t h e f ra n c a n d d olla r a cco unts , h ad , e v er s in ce G ra u d u R oi,
se em ed c o m ple te ly u nre al a n d h e h ad n ev er c o nsid ere d t h em a s a ctu al
money . B ut t h e b ooks o f W . H . H udso n h ad m ad e h im f e el r ic h a n d w hen h e
to ld C ath erin e t h is s h e w as v ery p le ase d .
Afte r h e h ad r e ad a n h our h e s ta rte d t o m is s C ath erin e v ery b ad ly a n d h e
fo und t h e b oy w ho s e rv ed a t t a b le a n d a sk ed h im t o b rin g a w his k ey a n d
Perrie r. L ate r h e h ad a n oth er. I t w as w ell p ast l u nch w hen h e h eard t h e c ar
co m e u p t h e h ill.
They c am e a lo ng t h e w alk a n d h e h eard t h eir v oic es. T hey w ere e x cite d
an d h ap py, t h en t h e g ir l w as s u dden ly s ile n t, a n d C ath erin e s a id , “ L ook w ho I
bro ught t o s e e y ou.”
“P le ase , I k now I s h ould n ot h av e c o m e,” t h e g ir l s a id . I t w as t h e d ark
han dso m e o ne o f t h e t w o t h ey h ad m et a t t h e c afe y este rd ay ; t h e o ne w ho
blu sh ed .
“H ow a re y ou?” D av id s a id . S he h ad e v id en tly b een t o t h e c o if fe u r’s a n d
her h air h ad b een c ro pped s h ort t h e w ay C ath erin e’s h ad b een a t B ia rritz . “ I
se e y ou f o und t h e p la ce.”

The g ir l b lu sh ed a n d l o oked a t C ath erin e f o r c o ura g e.
“L ook a t h er,” C ath erin e s a id . “ G o m uss h er h ead u p.”
“O h C ath erin e,” t h e g ir l s a id . T hen s h e s a id t o D av id , “ Y ou c an i f y ou
wan t.”
“D on’t b e f rig hte n ed ,” h e s a id . “ W hat d o y ou t h in k y ou’v e g ot i n to ?”
“I d on’t k now ,” s h e s a id . “ I’m j u st s o h ap py t o b e h ere .”
“W here h av e y ou t w o b een ?” D av id a sk ed C ath erin e.
“Je an ’s o f c o urs e . T hen w e j u st s to pped a n d h ad a d rin k a n d I a sk ed
Marita i f s h e’d c o m e t o l u nch . A re n ’t y ou g la d t o s e e u s? ”
“I’m d elig hte d . W ill y ou h av e a n oth er d rin k?”
“W ould y ou m ak e m artin is ? ” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ O ne w on’t h urt y ou,” s h e
sa id t o t h e g ir l.
“N o p le ase . I h av e t o d riv e.”
“D o y ou w an t a s h erry ?”
“N o p le ase .”
Dav id w en t b eh in d t h e b ar a n d f o und g la sse s a n d s o m e i c e a n d m ad e t w o
martin is .
“I’ll t a ste y ours i f I m ay ,” t h e g ir l s a id t o h im .
“Y ou’re n ot a fra id o f h im n ow a re y ou?” C ath erin e a sk ed h er.
“N ot a t a ll,” t h e g ir l s a id . S he b lu sh ed a g ain . “ It t a ste s v ery g ood b ut
te rrib ly s tr o ng.”
“T hey a re s tr o ng,” D av id s a id . “ B ut t h ere ’s a s tr o ng w in d t o day a n d w e
drin k a cco rd in g t o t h e w in d.”
“O h,” s a id t h e g ir l. “ D o a ll A m eric an s d o t h at? ”
“O nly t h e o ld est f a m ilie s,” C ath erin e s a id . “ U s, t h e M org an s, t h e
Woolw orth s, t h e J e lk se s, t h e J u kese s. Y ou k now .”
“It’ s r u gged i n t h e b liz zard s a n d i n h urric an e m onth s,” D av id s a id .
“S om etim es I w onder i f w e’ll g et t h ro ugh t h e a u tu m nal e q uin ox.”
“I’d l ik e t o h av e o ne s o m etim e w hen I d id n’t h av e t o d riv e,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o d rin k b ecau se w e d o,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A nd d on’t
min d t h at w e m ak e j o kes a ll t h e t im e. L ook a t h er D av id . A re n ’t y ou g la d I
bro ught h er? ”
“I l o ve i t t h at y ou m ak e j o kes,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ Y ou m ust f o rg iv e m e t h at
I’m s o h ap py t o b e h ere .”
“Y ou w ere n ic e t o c o m e,” D av id s a id .
When t h ey w ere a t l u nch i n t h e d in in g r o om o ut o f t h e w in d, D av id
ask ed , “ W hat a b out y our f rie n d N in a?”

“S he’s g one a w ay .”
“S he w as h an dso m e,” D av id s a id .
“Y es. W e h ad a v ery b ig f ig ht a n d s h e w en t a w ay .”
“S he w as a b itc h ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ B ut t h en I t h in k a lm ost e v ery one i s a
bitc h .”
“U su ally t h ey a re ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I a lw ay s h ope n ot b ut t h ey a re .”
“I k now p le n ty o f w om en w ho a re n ’t b itc h es,” D av id s a id .
“Y es. Y ou w ould ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“W as N in a h ap py?” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“I h ope s h e w ill b e h ap py,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ H ap pin ess i n i n te llig en t p eo ple
is t h e r a re st t h in g I k now .”
“Y ou h av en ’t h ad s u ch a l o ng t im e t o f in d o ut a b out i t.”
“If y ou m ak e m is ta k es y ou f in d o ut f a ste r,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“Y ou’v e b een h ap py a ll m orn in g,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e h ad a w onderfu l
tim e.”
“Y ou d on’t n eed t o t e ll m e,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ A nd I ’m h ap pie r n ow t h an I
can r e m em ber e v er.”
Late r, o ver s a la d D av id a sk ed t h e g ir l, “ A re y ou s ta y in g f a r f ro m h ere
alo ng t h e c o ast? ”
“I d on’t t h in k I ’m s ta y in g.”
“R eally ? T hat’ s t o o b ad ,” h e s a id a n d f e lt t h e t e n sio n c o m e t o t h e t a b le
an d d ra w t a u t a s a h aw se r. H e l o oked f ro m t h e g ir l w ith h er e y ela sh es d ow n
so t h ey t o uch ed h er c h eek s t o C ath erin e a n d s h e l o oked a t h im v ery s tr a ig ht
an d s a id , “ S he w as g oin g b ack t o P aris a n d I s a id w hy n ot s ta y h ere i f A uro l
has a r o om ? C om e o n u p t o l u nch a n d s e e i f D av id l ik es y ou a n d i f y ou l ik e
th e p la ce. D av id d o y ou l ik e h er? ”
“It’ s n ot a c lu b,” D av id s a id . “ It’ s a h ote l.” C ath erin e l o oked a w ay a n d h e
moved f a st t o h elp h er, g oin g o n a s t h ough i t h ad n ot b een s ta te d . “ W e l ik e
you v ery m uch a n d I ’m s u re A uro l h as r o om . H e s h ould b e d elig hte d t o h av e
so m eo ne e ls e h ere .”
The g ir l s a t a t t h e t a b le w ith h er e y es d ow n. “ I t h in k I ’d b ette r n ot.”
“P le ase s ta y a f e w d ay s,” C ath erin e s a id . “ D av id a n d I w ould b oth l o ve t o
hav e y ou. I ’v e n o o ne h ere t o k eep m e c o m pan y w hile h e w ork s. W e’d h av e
good t im es t h e w ay w e d id t h is m orn in g. T ell h er D av id .”
The h ell w ith h er, D av id t h ought. F uck h er.
“D on’t b e s illy ,” h e s a id . “ C all M onsie u r A uro l p le ase ,” h e t o ld t h e b oy
who s e rv ed . “ W e’ll f in d o ut a b out a r o om .”

“Y ou w on’t m in d t r u ly ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“W e w ould n’t h av e a sk ed y ou i f w e m in ded ,” D av id s a id . “ W e l ik e y ou
an d y ou’re v ery d eco ra tiv e.”
“I’ll b e u se fu l i f I c an ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I h ope I ’ll f in d o ut h ow t o b e.”
“B e h ap py t h e w ay y ou w ere w hen y ou c am e i n ,” D av id t o ld h er. “ T hat’ s
use fu l.”
“I a m n ow ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I w is h I ’d t a k en t h e m artin i n ow t h at I d on’t
hav e t o d riv e.”
“Y ou c an h av e o ne t o nig ht,” C ath erin e s a id .
“T hat w ill b e l o vely . C an w e g o a n d s e e t h e r o om s n ow a n d g et i t o ver
with ?”



Dav id h ad d riv en h er d ow n t o r e tr ie v e t h e b ig o ld I s o tta c o nvertib le a n d h er
bag s f ro m w here t h e c ar h ad b een p ark ed i n f ro nt o f t h e c afe i n C an nes.
On t h e w ay s h e s a id , “ Y our w if e i s w onderfu l a n d I ’m i n l o ve w ith h er.”
She w as s ittin g b esid e h im a n d D av id d id n ot l o ok t o s e e i f s h e b lu sh ed .
“I’m i n l o ve w ith h er t o o,” h e s a id .
“I’m i n l o ve w ith y ou a ls o ,” s h e s a id . “ Is t h at a ll r ig ht? ”
He d ro pped h is a rm a n d c lo se d h is h an d o n h er s h ould er a n d s h e l e an ed
clo se a g ain st h im .
“W e’ll h av e t o s e e a b out t h at,” h e s a id .
“I’m g la d I ’m s m alle r.”
“S m alle r t h an w ho?”
“C ath erin e,” s h e s a id .
“T hat’ s a h ell o f a t h in g t o s a y ,” h e s a id .
“I m ean I t h ought y ou m ig ht l ik e s o m eo ne o f m y s iz e. O r d o y ou o nly
care f o r t a ll g ir ls ? ”
“C ath erin e’s n ot a t a ll g ir l.”
“O f c o urs e n ot. I o nly m ean t t h at I w as n ot a s t a ll.”
“Y es a n d y ou’re v ery d ark t o o.”
“Y es. W e’ll l o ok w ell t o geth er.”
“W ho w ill? ”
“C ath erin e a n d I a n d y ou a n d I .”
“W e’ll h av e t o .”
“W hat d oes t h at m ean ?”

“I m ean w e c an ’t e sc ap e l o okin g w ell t o geth er c an w e, i f w e l o ok w ell
an d w e a re t o geth er? ”
“W e’re t o geth er n ow .”
“N o.” H e w as d riv in g w ith o nly o ne h an d o n t h e w heel, l e an in g b ack a n d
lo okin g u p t h e r o ad a h ead a t t h e j u nctu re w ith t h e N .7 . S he h ad p ut h er h an d
on h im . “ W e’re j u st r id in g i n t h e s a m e c ar,” h e s a id .
“B ut I c an f e el t h at y ou l ik e m e.”
“Y es. I ’m v ery r e lia b le t h at w ay b ut i t d oesn ’t m ean a t h in g.”
“It d oes m ean s o m eth in g.”
“Ju st w hat i t s a y s.”
“It’ s a v ery n ic e t h in g t o s a y ,” s h e s a id a n d d id n ot s a y a n yth in g m ore n or
ta k e h er h an d a w ay u ntil t h ey h ad t u rn ed a t t h e B oule v ard a n d p ulle d u p
beh in d t h e o ld I s o tta F ra sc h in i p ark ed i n f ro nt o f t h e c afe u nder t h e o ld t r e es.
Then s h e h ad s m ile d a t h im a n d g ot o ut o f t h e s m all b lu e c ar.
Now , a t t h e h ote l i n t h e p in es t h at w ere s till b ein g b lo w n b y t h e w in d,
Dav id a n d C ath erin e w ere a lo ne i n t h eir r o om a fte r s h e f in ally c am e i n f ro m
se ttlin g t h e g ir l i n t h e t w o r o om s t h at s h e h ad t a k en .
“I t h in k s h e’ll b e c o m fo rta b le ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ O f c o urs e t h e b est r o om
besid e o ur o w n i s t h e o ne a t t h e f a r e n d w here y ou w ork .”
“A nd I ’m g oin g t o k eep i t,” D av id s a id . “ I’m g oin g d am n w ell a n d I
won’t c h an ge m y w ork r o om f o r a n i m porte d b itc h !”
“W hy a re y ou b ein g s o v io le n t? ” C ath erin e s a id . “ N o o ne a sk ed y ou t o
giv e i t u p. I j u st s a id i t w as t h e b est. B ut t h e t w o n ex t d oor t o i t w ork o ut v ery
well.”
“W ho i s t h is g ir l a n yw ay ?”
“D on’t b e s o v io le n t. S he’s a n ic e g ir l a n d I l ik e h er. I k now i t w as
unfo rg iv ab le t o b rin g h er u p w ith out s p eak in g t o y ou a n d I ’m s o rry . B ut I d id
it a n d i t’ s d one. I t h ought y ou’d l ik e t o h av e s o m eo ne p le asa n t a n d a ttr a ctiv e
fo r m e t o h av e a s a f rie n d t o g o a ro und w ith w hile y ou’re w ork in g.”
“I d o i f y ou w an t s o m eo ne.”
“I d id n’t
w ant
s o m eo ne. I j u st r a n i n to s o m eo ne t h at I l ik ed a n d t h ought
you w ould l ik e a n d i t w ould b e p le asa n t f o r h er t o b e h ere f o r a l ittle w hile .”
“B ut w ho i s s h e?”
“I h av en ’t e x am in ed h er p ap ers . Y ou i n te rro gate h er i f y ou n eed t o .”
“W ell, s h e’s d eco ra tiv e a t l e ast. B ut w hose g ir l i s s h e?”
“D on’t b e r o ugh. S he’s n obody’s .”
“T ell m e s tr a ig ht.”

“A ll r ig ht. S he’s i n l o ve w ith u s b oth u nle ss I ’m c ra zy .”
“Y ou’re n ot c ra zy .”
“N ot y et m ay be.”
“S o w hat’ s t h e d rill? ”
“I w ould n’t k now ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I w ould n’t e ith er.”
“It’ s s o rt o f s tr a n ge a n d f u n.”
“I w ould n’t k now ,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou w an t t o g o t o s w im ? W e m is se d
it y este rd ay .”
“L et’ s s w im . S hould w e a sk h er? I t w ould o nly b e p olite .”
“W e’d h av e t o w ear s u its .”
“It w ould n’t m atte r w ith t h is w in d. I t’ s n o d ay t o b e o n t h e s a n d t o t a n .”
“I h ate t o w ear s u its w ith y ou.”
“M e t o o. B ut m ay be t o m orro w t h e w in d w ill b e o ver.”
Then o n t h e E sté re l r o ad w ith D av id d riv in g t h e b ig o ld I s o tta , f e elin g
an d c o ndem nin g t h e t o o s u dden b ra k es a n d f in din g h ow b ad ly t h e m oto r
need ed t o b e w ork ed o ver, t h e t h re e o f t h em s a t t o geth er a n d C ath erin e s a id ,
“T here a re t w o o r t h re e d if fe re n t c o ves w here w e s w im w ith out s u its w hen
we’re a lo ne. T hat’ s t h e o nly w ay t o g et r e ally d ark .”
“It’ s n ot a g ood d ay t o t a n ,” D av id s a id . “ It’ s t o o w in dy.”
“W e c an s w im t h ough w ith out s u its i f y ou l ik e,” C ath erin e s a id t o t h e
gir l. “ If D av id d oesn ’t m in d. I t m ig ht b e f u n.”
“I’d l o ve t o ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ D o y ou m in d?” s h e a sk ed D av id .

In t h e e v en in g D av id m ad e m artin is a n d t h e g ir l s a id , “ Is e v ery th in g a lw ay s
as w onderfu l a s i t h as b een t o day ?”
“It’ s b een a p le asa n t d ay ,” D av id s a id . C ath erin e h ad n ot y et c o m e o ut
fro m t h eir r o om a n d h e a n d t h e g ir l w ere s ittin g i n f ro nt o f t h e s m all b ar M .
Auro l h ad i n sta lle d t h e p re v io us w in te r i n t h e c o rn er o f t h e b ig P ro ven çal
ro om .
“W hen I d rin k I w an t t o s a y t h in gs I s h ould n ev er s a y ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“T hen d on’t s a y t h em .”
“T hen w hat’ s t h e u se o f d rin kin g?”
“It i s n ’t t h ese . Y ou’v e o nly h ad o ne.”
“W ere y ou e m barra sse d w hen w e s w am ?”
“N o. S hould I h av e b een ?”
“N o,” s h e s a id . “ I l o ved t o s e e y ou.”

“T hat’ s g ood,” h e s a id . “ H ow ’s t h e m artin i? ”
“It’ s v ery s tr o ng b ut I l ik e i t. D id y ou a n d C ath erin e n ev er s w im b efo re
lik e t h at w ith a n yone?”
“N o. W hy s h ould w e?”
“I’ll g et r e ally b ro w n.”
“I’m s u re y ou w ill.”
“W ould y ou r a th er I w as n ot s o d eep ly b ro w n?”
“Y ou’re a n ic e c o lo r. G et t h at c o lo r a ll o ver i f y ou l ik e.”
“I t h ought p erh ap s y ou’d l ik e o ne o f y our g ir ls l ig hte r t h an t h e o th er.”
“Y ou’re n ot m y g ir l.”
“I a m ,” s h e s a id . “ I t o ld y ou b efo re .”
“Y ou d on’t b lu sh a n ym ore .”
“I g ot o ver i t w hen w e w en t b ath in g. I h ope I w on’t n ow f o r a l o ng t im e.
That’ s w hy I s a id e v ery th in g— to g et o ver i t. T hat’ s w hy I t o ld y ou.”
“Y ou l o ok n ic e i n t h at c ash m ere s w eate r,” D av id s a id .
“C ath erin e s a id w e’d b oth w ear t h em . Y ou d on’t d is lik e m e b ecau se I
to ld y ou?”
“I f o rg et w hat y ou t o ld m e.”
“T hat I l o ve y ou.”
“D on’t t a lk r o t.”
“D on’t y ou b elie v e i t h ap pen s t o p eo ple l ik e t h at? T he w ay i t h ap pen ed t o
me a b out y ou t w o?”
“Y ou d on’t f a ll i n l o ve w ith t w o p eo ple a t o nce.”
“Y ou d on’t k now ,” s h e s a id .
“It’ s r o t,” h e s a id . “ It’ s j u st a w ay o f t a lk in g.”
“It i s n ’t a t a ll. I t’ s t r u e.”
“Y ou j u st t h in k i t i s . I t’ s n onse n se .”
“A ll r ig ht,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s n onse n se . B ut I ’m h ere .”
“Y es. Y ou’re h ere ,” h e s a id . H e w as w atc h in g C ath erin e a s s h e c ro sse d
th e r o om , s m ilin g a n d h ap py.
“H ello s w im mers ,” s h e s a id . “ O h w hat a s h am e. I d id n’t g et t o s e e M arita
hav e h er f ir s t m artin i.”
“T his i s s till i t,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“H ow d id i t a ffe ct h er, D av id ?”
“M ad e h er t a lk r o t.”
“W e’ll s ta rt w ith a f re sh o ne. W ere n ’t y ou g ood t o r e su sc ita te t h is b ar.
It’ s s u ch a s o rt o f t e n ta tiv e b ar. W e’ll g et a m ir ro r f o r i t. A b ar’s n o g ood

with out a m ir ro r.”
“W e c an g et o ne t o m orro w ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I’d l ik e t o g et i t.”
“D on’t b e r ic h ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e’ll b oth g et i t a n d t h en w e c an a ll s e e
each o th er w hen w e t a lk r o t a n d k now h ow r o tty i t i s . Y ou c an ’t f o ol a b ar
mir ro r.”
“It’ s w hen I s ta rt l o okin g q uiz zic al i n o ne t h at I k now I ’v e l o st,” D av id
sa id .
“Y ou n ev er l o se . H ow c an y ou l o se w ith t w o g ir ls ? ” C ath erin e s a id .
“I t r ie d t o t e ll h im ,” t h e g ir l s a id a n d b lu sh ed f o r t h e f ir s t t im e t h at
ev en in g.
“S he’s y our g ir l a n d I ’m y our g ir l,” C ath erin e s a id . “ N ow s to p b ein g
stu ffy a n d b e n ic e t o y our g ir ls . D on’t y ou l ik e t h e w ay t h ey l o ok? I ’m t h e
very f a ir o ne y ou m arrie d .”
“Y ou’re d ark er a n d f a ir e r t h an t h e o ne I m arrie d .”
“S o a re y ou a n d I b ro ught y ou a d ark g ir l f o r a p re se n t. D on’t y ou l ik e
your p re se n t? ”
“I l ik e m y p re se n t v ery m uch .”
“H ow d o y ou l ik e y our f u tu re ?”
“I d on’t k now a b out m y f u tu re .”
“It i s n ’t a d ark f u tu re i s i t? ” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“V ery g ood,” C ath erin e s a id . “ S he’s n ot o nly b eau tif u l a n d r ic h a n d
health y a n d a ffe ctio nate . S he c an m ak e j o kes. A re n ’t y ou p le ase d w ith w hat I
bro ught y ou?”
“I’d r a th er b e a d ark p re se n t t h an a d ark f u tu re ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“S he d id i t a g ain ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ G iv e h er a k is s D av id a n d m ak e h er a
fa ir p re se n t.”
Dav id p ut h is a rm a ro und t h e g ir l a n d k is se d h er a n d s h e s ta rte d t o k is s
him a n d t u rn ed h er h ead a w ay . T hen s h e w as c ry in g w ith h er h ead d ow n a n d
both h an ds h old in g t h e b ar.
“M ak e a g ood j o ke n ow ,” D av id s a id t o C ath erin e.
“I’m a ll r ig ht,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ D on’t l o ok a t m e. I ’m a ll r ig ht.”
Cath erin e p ut h er a rm a ro und h er a n d k is se d h er a n d s tr o ked h er h ead .
“I’ll b e a ll r ig ht,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ P le ase , I k now I ’ll b e a ll r ig ht.”
“I’m s o s o rry ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“L et m e g o p le ase ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I h av e t o g o.”
“W ell,” D av id s a id w hen t h e g ir l w as g one a n d C ath erin e h ad c o m e b ack
to t h e b ar.

“Y ou d on’t n eed t o s a y i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m s o rry D av id .”
“S he’ll b e b ack .”
“Y ou d on’t t h in k i t’ s a ll a f a k e n ow d o y ou?”
“T hey w ere r e al t e ars i f t h at’ s w hat y ou m ean .”
“D on’t b e s tu pid . Y ou a re n ’t s tu pid .”
“I k is se d h er v ery c are fu lly .”
“Y es. O n t h e m outh .”
“W here d id y ou e x pect m e t o k is s h er? ”
“Y ou w ere a ll r ig ht. I h av en ’t c ritic iz ed y ou.”
“I’m g la d y ou d id n’t a sk m e t o k is s h er w hen w e w ere a t t h e b each .”
“I t h ought o f i t,” C ath erin e s a id . S he l a u ghed a n d i t w as l ik e t h e o ld d ay s
befo re a n yone h ad m ix ed i n t h eir l if e . “ D id y ou t h in k I w as g oin g t o ?”
“I t h ought y ou w ere s o I d ove i n .”
“G ood t h in g y ou d id .”
They l a u ghed a g ain .
“W ell, w e’v e c h eere d u p,” C ath erin e s a id .
“T han k G od,” D av id s a id . “ I l o ve y ou, D ev il, a n d r e ally I d id n’t k is s h er
to m ak e a ll t h at.”
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o t e ll m e,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I s a w y ou. I t w as a
mis e ra b le e ffo rt.”
“I w is h s h e’d g o a w ay .”
“D on’t b e h eartle ss,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A nd I d id e n co ura g e h er.”
“I t r ie d n ot t o .”
“I e g ged h er o n a b out y ou. I ’ll g o o ut a n d f in d h er.”
“N o. W ait a l ittle w hile . S he’s t o o s u re o f h ers e lf .”
“H ow c an y ou s a y t h at, D av id ? Y ou j u st b ro ke h er a ll u p.”
“I d id n ot.”
“W ell s o m eth in g d id . I ’m g oin g t o g o a n d g et h er.”
But i t w asn ’t n ecessa ry b ecau se t h e g ir l c am e b ack t o t h e b ar w here t h ey
were s ta n din g a n d b lu sh ed a n d s a id , “ I’m s o rry .” H er f a ce w as w ash ed a n d
sh e h ad b ru sh ed h er h air a n d s h e c am e u p t o D av id a n d k is se d h im o n t h e
mouth v ery q uic k ly a n d s a id , “ I l ik e m y p re se n t. D id s o m eo ne t a k e m y
drin k?”
“I t h re w i t o ut,” C ath erin e s a id . “ D av id w ill m ak e a n ew o ne.”
“I h ope y ou s till l ik e h av in g t w o g ir ls ,” s h e s a id . “ B ecau se I a m y ours a n d
I’m g oin g t o b e C ath erin e’s t o o.”
“I d on’t g o i n f o r g ir ls ,” C ath erin e s a id . I t w as v ery q uie t a n d h er v oic e

did n ot s o und r ig ht e ith er t o h ers e lf o r t o D av id .
“D on’t y ou e v er? ”
“I n ev er h av e.”
“I c an b e y our g ir l, i f y ou e v er w an t o ne, a n d D av id ’s t o o.”
“D on’t y ou t h in k t h at’ s s o rt o f a v ast u nderta k in g?” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“T hat’ s w hy I c am e h ere ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I t h ought t h at w as w hat y ou
wan te d .”
“I’v e n ev er h ad a g ir l,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I’m s o s tu pid ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I d id n’t k now . I s i t t r u e? Y ou’re n ot
mak in g f u n o f m e?”
“I’m n ot m ak in g f u n o f y ou.”
“I d on’t k now h ow I c o uld b e s o s tu pid ,” t h e g ir l s a id . S he m ean s
mis ta ken
D av id t h ought a n d C ath erin e t h ought i t t o o.

That n ig ht i n b ed C ath erin e s a id , “ I n ev er s h ould h av e l e t y ou i n f o r a n y o f i t.
Not f o r a n y p art o f i t.”
“I w is h w e’d n ev er s e en h er.”
“It m ig ht h av e b een s o m eth in g w ors e . M ay be t o g o t h ro ugh w ith i t a n d
get r id o f i t t h at w ay i s b est.”
“Y ou c o uld s e n d h er a w ay .”
“I d on’t t h in k t h at’ s t h e w ay t o c le ar i t n ow . D oesn ’t s h e d o a n yth in g t o
you?”
“O h s u re .”
“I k new s h e d id . B ut I l o ve y ou a n d a ll t h is i s n oth in g. Y ou k now i t i s
to o.”
“I d on’t k now a b out i t, D ev il.”
“W ell w e w on’t b e s o le m n. I c an a lr e ad y t e ll i t’ s d eath i f y ou’re s o le m n.”

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I t w as t h e t h ir d d ay o f t h e w in d b ut i t w as n ot a s h eav y n ow a n d h e s a t a t t h e
t a b le a n d r e ad t h e s to ry o ver f ro m t h e s ta rt t o w here h e h ad l e ft o ff, c o rre ctin g
a s h e r e ad . H e w en t o n w ith t h e s to ry , l iv in g i n i t a n d n ow here e ls e , a n d w hen
h e h eard t h e v oic es o f t h e t w o g ir ls o uts id e h e d id n ot l is te n . W hen t h ey w en t
b y t h e w in dow h e l if te d h is h an d a n d w av ed . T hey w av ed a n d t h e d ark g ir l
s m ile d a n d C ath erin e p ut h er f in gers t o h er l ip s. T he g ir l l o oked v ery p re tty i n
t h e m orn in g, h er f a ce s h in in g a n d h er c o lo r h ig h. C ath erin e w as b eau tif u l a s
a lw ay s. H e h eard t h e c ar s ta rt a n d n ote d i t w as t h e B ugatti. H e w en t b ack i n to
t h e s to ry . I t w as a g ood s to ry a n d h e f in is h ed i t s h ortly b efo re n oon.
It w as t o o l a te t o h av e b re ak fa st a n d h e w as t ir e d a fte r w ork in g a n d d id
n ot w an t t o d riv e t h e o ld I s o tta i n to t o w n w ith i ts b ad b ra k es a n d h uge
m alf u nctio nin g m oto r a lth ough t h e k ey w as w ith a n ote C ath erin e h ad l e ft
s a y in g t h ey h ad g one t o N ic e a n d w ould l o ok i n a t t h e c afe f o r h im o n t h eir
w ay h om e.
What I w ould l ik e, h e t h ought, i s a t a ll c o ld l ite r o f b eer i n a t h ic k h eav y
g la ss a n d a
p om me à l ’ h uile
w ith c o ars e g ro und p ep perc o rn s o n i t. B ut t h e
b eer o n t h is c o ast w as w orth le ss a n d h e t h ought h ap pily o f P aris a n d o th er
p la ces h e h ad b een a n d w as p le ase d h e h ad w ritte n s o m eth in g h e k new w as
g ood a n d t h at h e h ad f in is h ed i t. T his w as t h e f ir s t w ritin g h e h ad f in is h ed
s in ce t h ey w ere m arrie d . F in is h in g i s w hat y ou h av e t o d o, h e t h ought. I f y ou
d on’t f in is h , n oth in g i s w orth a d am n. T om orro w I ’ll p ic k u p t h e n arra tiv e
w here I l e ft i t a n d k eep r ig ht o n u ntil I f in is h i t. A nd h ow a re y ou g oin g t o
f in is h i t? H ow a re y ou g oin g t o f in is h i t n ow ?
As s o on a s h e s ta rte d t o t h in k b ey ond h is w ork , e v ery th in g t h at h e h ad

lo ck ed o ut b y t h e w ork c am e b ack t o h im . H e t h ought o f t h e n ig ht b efo re a n d
of C ath erin e a n d t h e g ir l t o day o n t h e r o ad t h at h e a n d C ath erin e h ad d riv en
tw o d ay s b efo re a n d h e f e lt s ic k . T hey s h ould b e o n t h e w ay b ack n ow . I t’ s
afte rn oon. M ay be t h ey ’re a t t h e c afe . D on’t b e s o le m n, s h e h ad s a id . B ut s h e
mean t s o m eth in g e ls e t o o. M ay be s h e k now s w hat s h e’s d oin g. M ay be s h e
know s h ow i t c an t u rn o ut. M ay be s h e d oes k now . Y ou d on’t.
So y ou w ork ed a n d n ow y ou w orry . Y ou’d b ette r w rite a n oth er s to ry .
Write t h e h ard est o ne t h ere i s t o w rite t h at y ou k now . G o a h ead a n d d o t h at.
You h av e t o l a st y ours e lf i f y ou’re t o b e a n y g ood t o h er. W hat g ood h av e
you b een t o h er? P le n ty , h e s a id . N o, n ot p le n ty . P le n ty m ean s e n ough. G o
ah ead a n d s ta rt t h e n ew o ne t o m orro w . T he h ell w ith t o m orro w . W hat a w ay
to b e.
T om orro w .
G o i n a n d s ta rt i t n ow .
He p ut t h e n ote a n d t h e k ey i n h is p ock et a n d w en t b ack i n to t h e w ork
ro om a n d s a t d ow n a n d w ro te t h e f ir s t p ara g ra p h o f t h e n ew s to ry t h at h e h ad
alw ay s p ut o ff w ritin g s in ce h e h ad k now n w hat a s to ry w as. H e w ro te i t i n
sim ple d ecla ra tiv e s e n te n ces w ith a ll o f t h e p ro ble m s a h ead t o b e l iv ed
th ro ugh a n d m ad e t o c o m e a liv e. T he v ery b eg in nin g w as w ritte n a n d a ll h e
had t o d o w as g o o n. T hat’ s a ll, h e s a id . Y ou s e e h ow s im ple w hat y ou c an not
do i s ? T hen h e c am e o ut o nto t h e t e rra ce a n d s a t d ow n a n d o rd ere d a w his k ey
an d P errie r.
The p ro prie to r’s y oung n ep hew b ro ught t h e b ottle s a n d i c e a n d a g la ss
fro m t h e b ar a n d s a id , “ M onsie u r h ad n o b re ak fa st.”
“I w ork ed t o o l o ng.”
“C ’e st d om mage,”
th e b oy s a id . “ C an I b rin g a n yth in g? A s a n dw ic h ?”
“In o ur s to re ro om y ou w ill f in d a t in o f M aq uere au V in B la n c C ap ita in e
Cook. O pen i t u p a n d b rin g m e t w o o n a p la te .”
“T hey w on’t b e c o ld .”
“It m ak es n o d if fe re n ce. B rin g t h em .”
He s a t a n d a te t h e m aq uere au v in b la n c a n d d ra n k t h e w his k ey a n d
min era l w ate r. I t d id m ak e a d if fe re n ce t h at t h ey w ere n ot c o ld . H e r e ad t h e
morn in g p ap er w hile h e a te .
We a lw ay s a te f re sh f is h a t l e G ra u d u R oi, h e t h ought, b ut t h at w as a
lo ng t im e a g o. H e s ta rte d t o r e m em ber G ra u d u R oi a n d t h en h e h eard t h e c ar
co m in g u p t h e h ill.
“T ak e t h is a w ay ,” h e s a id t o t h e b oy a n d h e s to od u p a n d w alk ed i n to t h e
bar a n d p oure d h im se lf a w his k ey , p ut i c e i n i t a n d f ille d t h e g la ss w ith
Perrie r. T he t a ste o f t h e w in e-s p ic ed f is h w as i n h is m outh a n d h e p ic k ed u p

th e b ottle o f m in era l w ate r a n d d ra n k f ro m i t.
He h eard t h eir v oic es a n d t h en t h ey c am e i n t h e d oor a s h ap py a n d g ay a s
yeste rd ay . H e s a w C ath erin e’s b ir c h b rig ht h ead a n d h er d ark f a ce l o vin g a n d
ex cite d a n d t h e o th er g ir l d ark , t h e w in d s till i n h er h air , h er e y es v ery b rig ht
an d t h en s u dden ly s h y a g ain a s s h e c am e c lo se r.
“W e d id n’t s to p w hen w e s a w y ou w ere n ’t a t t h e c afe ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I w ork ed l a te . H ow a re y ou, D ev il? ”
“I’m v ery w ell. D on’t a sk m e h ow t h is o ne i s .”
“D id y ou w ork w ell, D av id ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“T hat’ s b ein g a g ood w if e ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I f o rg ot t o a sk .”
“W hat d id y ou d o i n N ic e?”
“C an w e h av e a d rin k a n d t h en t e ll? ”
They w ere c lo se t o h im o n e ach s id e a n d h e f e lt t h em b oth .
“D id y ou w ork w ell, D av id ?” s h e a sk ed a g ain .
“O f c o urs e h e d id ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hat’ s t h e o nly w ay h e e v er w ork s,
stu pid .”
“D id y ou, D av id ?”
“Y es,” h e s a id a n d r u m ple d h er h ead . “ T han ks.”
“D on’t w e g et a d rin k?” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ W e d id n’t w ork a t a ll. W e j u st
bought t h in gs a n d o rd ere d t h in gs a n d m ad e s c an dal.”
“W e d id n’t m ak e a n y r e al s c an dal.”
“I d on’t k now ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I d on’t c are e ith er.”
“W hat w as t h e s c an dal? ” D av id a sk ed .
“It w asn ’t a n yth in g,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“I d id n’t m in d i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I l ik ed i t.”
“S om eo ne s a id s o m eth in g a b out h er s la ck s i n N ic e.”
“T hat’ s n ot a s c an dal,” D av id s a id . “ It’ s a b ig t o w n. Y ou h ad t o e x pect
th at i f y ou w en t t h ere .”
“D o I l o ok a n y d if fe re n t? ” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ I w is h t h ey ’d b ro ught t h e
mir ro r. D o I l o ok a n y d if fe re n t t o y ou?”
“N o.” D av id l o oked a t h er. S he l o oked v ery b lo nd a n d d is h ev ele d a n d
dark er t h an e v er a n d v ery e x cite d a n d d efia n t.
“T hat’ s g ood,” s h e s a id . “ B ecau se I t r ie d i t.”
“Y ou d id n’t d o a n yth in g,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“I d id a n d I l ik ed i t a n d I w an t a n oth er d rin k.”
“S he d id n’t d o a n yth in g, D av id ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“T his m orn in g I s to pped t h e c ar o n t h e l o ng c le ar s tr e tc h a n d k is se d h er

an d s h e k is se d m e a n d o n t h e w ay b ack f ro m N ic e t o o a n d w hen w e g ot o ut
of t h e c ar j u st n ow .” C ath erin e l o oked a t h im l o vin gly b ut r e b ellio usly a n d
th en s a id , “ It w as f u n a n d I l ik ed i t. Y ou k is s h er t o o. T he b oy’s n ot h ere .”
Dav id t u rn ed t o t h e g ir l a n d s h e c lu ng t o h im s u dden ly a n d t h ey k is se d .
He h ad n ot m ean t t o k is s h er a n d h e h ad n ot k now n i t w ould b e l ik e t h is w hen
he d id i t.
“T hat’ s e n ough,” C ath erin e s a id .
“H ow a re y ou?” D av id s a id t o t h e g ir l. S he w as s h y a n d h ap py a g ain .
“I’m h ap py t h e w ay y ou s a id t o b e,” t h e g ir l t o ld h im .
“E very body i s h ap py n ow ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e’v e s h are d a ll t h e g uilt.”
They h ad a v ery g ood l u nch a n d d ra n k c o ld T av el t h ro ugh t h e h ors
d’o eu vre s, t h e p oule t a n d t h e r a ta to uille , t h e s a la d a n d t h e f ru it a n d c h eese .
They w ere a ll h ungry a n d t h ey m ad e j o kes a n d n o o ne w as s o le m n.
“T here ’s a t e rrif ic s u rp ris e f o r d in ner o r b efo re ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ S he
sp en ds m oney l ik e a d ru nken o il- le ase I n dia n , D av id .”
“A re t h ey n ic e?” t h e g ir l a sk ed . “ O r a re t h ey l ik e M ah ara ja s? ”
“D av id w ill t e ll y ou a b out t h em . H e c o m es f ro m O kla h om a.”
“I t h ought h e c am e f ro m E ast A fric a.”
“N o. S om e o f h is a n cesto rs e sc ap ed f ro m O kla h om a a n d t o ok h im t o E ast
Afric a w hen h e w as v ery y oung.”
“It m ust h av e b een v ery e x citin g.”
“H e w ro te a n ovel a b out b ein g i n E ast A fric a w hen h e w as a b oy.”
“I k now .”
“Y ou r e ad i t? ” D av id a sk ed h er.
“I d id ,” s h e s a id . “ D o y ou w an t t o a sk m e a b out i t? ”
“N o,” h e s a id . “ I’m f a m ilia r w ith i t.”
“It m ad e m e c ry ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ W as t h at y our f a th er i n i t? ”
“S om e w ay s.”
“Y ou m ust h av e l o ved h im v ery m uch .”
“I d id .”
“Y ou n ev er t a lk ed t o m e a b out h im ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“Y ou n ev er a sk ed m e.”
“W ould y ou h av e?”
“N o,” h e s a id .
“I l o ved t h e b ook,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“D on’t o verre ach ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I w asn ’t.”

“W hen y ou k is se d h im — ”
“Y ou a sk ed m e t o .”
“W hat I w an te d t o s a y w hen y ou i n te rru pte d ,” C ath erin e s a id , “ w as d id
you t h in k o f h im a s a w rite r w hen y ou k is se d h im a n d l ik ed i t s o m uch ?”
Dav id p oure d a g la ss o f T av el a n d d ra n k s o m e o f i t.
“I d on’t k now ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I d id n’t t h in k.”
“I’m g la d ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I w as a fra id i t w as g oin g t o b e l ik e t h e
clip pin gs.”
The g ir l l o oked r e ally m ystif ie d a n d C ath erin e e x pla in ed , “ T he p re ss
cu ttin gs a b out t h e s e co nd b ook. H e’s w ritte n t w o y ou k now .”
“I o nly r e ad
T he R ift.

“T he s e co nd o ne i s a b out f ly in g. I n t h e w ar. I t’ s t h e o nly g ood t h in g
an yone e v er w ro te a b out f ly in g.”
“B alls ,” D av id s a id .
“W ait u ntil y ou r e ad i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It’ s a b ook y ou h ad t o d ie t o
write a n d y ou h ad t o b e c o m ple te ly d estr o yed . D on’t e v er t h in k I d on’t k now
ab out h is b ooks j u st b ecau se I d on’t t h in k h e’s a w rite r w hen I k is s h im .”
“I t h in k w e o ught t o t a k e a s ie sta ,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou o ught t o t a k e a n ap ,
Dev il. Y ou’re t ir e d .”
“I t a lk ed t o o m uch ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It w as a n ic e l u nch a n d I ’m s o rry i f
I t a lk ed t o o m uch a n d b oaste d .”
“I l o ved y ou w hen y ou t a lk ed a b out t h e b ooks,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ Y ou w ere
ad m ir a b le .”
“I d on’t f e el a d m ir a b le . I a m t ir e d ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H av e y ou p le n ty t o
re ad , M arita ?”
“I h av e t w o b ooks s till,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ L ate r I ’ll b orro w s o m e i f I m ay .”
“M ay I c o m e i n t o s e e y ou l a te r? ”
“If y ou w an t,” t h e g ir l s a id .
Dav id d id n ot l o ok a t t h e g ir l a n d s h e d id n ot l o ok a t h im .
“I w on’t d is tu rb y ou?” C ath erin e s a id .
“N oth in g t h at I d o i s i m porta n t,” t h e g ir l s a id .

Cath erin e a n d D av id l a y s id e b y s id e o n t h e b ed i n t h eir r o om w ith t h e w in d
blo w in g i ts l a st d ay o uts id e a n d i t w as n ot l ik e s ie sta i n t h e o ld d ay s.
“C an I t e ll y ou n ow ?”
“I’d r a th er s k ip i t.”
“N o, l e t m e t e ll. T his m orn in g w hen I s ta rte d t h e c ar I w as f rig hte n ed a n d

I t r ie d t o d riv e v ery w ell a n d I f e lt h ollo w i n sid e. T hen I c o uld s e e C an nes u p
ah ead o n t h e h ill a n d t h e r o ad w as c le ar a ll u p a h ead b y t h e s e a a n d I l o oked
beh in d a n d i t w as c le ar a n d I p ulle d o ut f ro m t h e r o ad i n to t h e b ru sh . W here
it’ s l ik e t h e s a g eb ru sh . I k is se d h er a n d s h e k is se d m e a n d w e s a t i n t h e c ar
an d I f e lt v ery s tr a n ge a n d t h en w e d ro ve i n to N ic e a n d I d on’t k now w heth er
peo ple c o uld t e ll i t o r n ot. I d id n’t c are b y t h en a n d w e w en t e v ery w here a n d
bought e v ery th in g. S he l o ves t o b uy t h in gs. S om eo ne m ad e a r u de r e m ark b ut
it w as n oth in g r e ally . T hen w e s to pped o n t h e w ay h om e a n d s h e s a id i t w as
bette r i f I w as h er g ir l a n d I s a id I d id n’t c are e ith er w ay a n d r e ally I w as g la d
becau se I a m a g ir l n ow a n yw ay a n d I d id n’t k now w hat t o d o. I n ev er f e lt s o
not k now in g e v er. B ut s h e’s n ic e a n d s h e w an te d t o h elp m e I t h in k. I d on’t
know . A nyw ay s h e w as n ic e a n d I w as d riv in g a n d s h e w as s o p re tty a n d
hap py a n d s h e w as j u st g en tle t h e w ay w e a re s o m etim es o r m e t o y ou o r
eith er o f u s a n d I s a id I c o uld n’t d riv e i f s h e d id t h at s o w e s to pped . I o nly
kis se d h er b ut I k now i t h ap pen ed w ith m e. S o w e w ere t h ere f o r a w hile a n d
th en I d ro ve s tr a ig ht h om e. I k is se d h er b efo re w e c am e i n a n d w e w ere
hap py a n d I l ik ed i t a n d I s till l ik e i t.”
“S o n ow y ou’v e d one i t,” D av id s a id c are fu lly , “ an d y ou’re t h ro ugh w ith
it.”
“B ut I ’m n ot. I l ik ed i t a n d I ’m g oin g t o r e ally d o i t.”
“N o. Y ou d on’t h av e t o .”
“I d o a n d I ’m g oin g t o d o i t u ntil I ’m t h ro ugh w ith i t a n d I ’m o ver i t.”
“W ho s a y s y ou’ll b e o ver i t? ”
“I d o. B ut I r e ally h av e t o , D av id . I d id n’t k now I ’d e v er b e l ik e t h is .”
He d id n ot s a y a n yth in g.
“I’ll b e b ack ,” s h e s a id . “ I k now I ’ll g et o ver i t a s w ell a s I k now
an yth in g. P le ase t r u st m e.”
He d id n ot s a y a n yth in g.
“S he’s w aitin g f o r m e. D id n’t y ou h ear m e a sk h er? I t’ s l ik e s to ppin g i n
th e m id dle o f a n yth in g.”
“I’m g oin g u p t o P aris ,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou c an r e ach m e t h ro ugh t h e
ban k.”
“N o,” s h e s a id . “ N o. Y ou h av e t o h elp m e.”
“I c an ’t h elp y ou.”
“Y ou c an . Y ou c an ’t g o a w ay . I c o uld n’t s ta n d i t i f y ou w en t a w ay . I
don’t w an t t o b e w ith h er. I t’ s o nly s o m eth in g t h at I h av e t o d o. C an ’t y ou
unders ta n d? P le ase u nders ta n d. Y ou a lw ay s u nders ta n d.”

“N ot t h is p art.”
“P le ase t r y . Y ou a lw ay s u nders to od b efo re . Y ou k now y ou d id .
Every th in g. D id n’t y ou?”
“Y es. B efo re .”
“It s ta rte d w ith u s a n d t h ere ’ll o nly b e u s w hen I g et t h is f in is h ed . I ’m n ot
in l o ve w ith a n yone e ls e .”
“D on’t d o i t.”
“I h av e t o . E ver s in ce I w en t t o s c h ool a ll I e v er h ad w as c h an ces t o d o i t
an d p eo ple w an tin g t o d o i t w ith m e. A nd I n ev er w ould a n d n ev er d id . B ut
now I h av e t o .”
He s a id n oth in g.
“P le ase k now h ow i t i s .”
He d id n ot s a y a n yth in g.
“A nyw ay s h e’s i n l o ve w ith y ou a n d y ou c an h av e h er a n d w ash
ev ery th in g a w ay t h at w ay .”
“Y ou’re t a lk in g c ra zy , D ev il.”
“I k now i t,” s h e s a id . “ I’ll s to p.”
“T ak e a n ap ,” h e s a id . “ Ju st l ie c lo se a n d q uie t a n d w e’ll b oth g o t o
sle ep .”
“I l o ve y ou s o ,” s h e s a id . “ A nd y ou’re m y t r u e p artn er t h e w ay I t o ld h er.
I’v e t o ld h er t o o m uch a b out y ou b ut t h at’ s a ll s h e l ik es t o t a lk a b out. I ’m
quie t n ow s o I ’m g oin g t o g o.”
“N o. D on’t.”
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou w ait f o r m e. I w on’t b e v ery l o ng.”

When s h e c am e b ack t o t h e r o om D av id w as n ot t h ere a n d s h e s to od a l o ng
tim e a n d l o oked a t t h e b ed a n d t h en w en t t o t h e b ath ro om d oor a n d o pen ed i t
an d s to od a n d l o oked i n t h e l o ng m ir ro r. H er f a ce h ad n o e x pre ssio n a n d s h e
lo oked a t h ers e lf f ro m h er h ead d ow n t o h er f e et w ith n o e x pre ssio n o n h er
fa ce a t a ll. T he l ig ht w as n early g one w hen s h e w en t i n to t h e b ath ro om a n d
sh ut t h e d oor b eh in d h er.

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D av id d ro ve u p f ro m C an nes i n t h e d usk . T he w in d h ad f a lle n a n d h e l e ft t h e
c ar i n t h e u su al p la ce a n d w alk ed u p t h e p ath t o w here t h e l ig ht c am e o ut o nto
t h e p atio a n d t h e g ard en . M arita c am e o ut o f t h e d oorw ay a n d w alk ed t o w ard
h im .
“C ath erin e f e els t e rrib ly ,” s h e s a id . “ P le ase b e k in d t o h er.”
“T he h ell w ith b oth o f y ou,” D av id s a id .
“W ith m e, y es. B ut n ot w ith h er. Y ou m ustn ’t, D av id .”
“D on’t t e ll m e w hat I m ust a n d w hat I m ustn ’t.”
“D on’t y ou w an t t o t a k e c are o f h er? ”
“N ot p artic u la rly .”
“I d o.”
“Y ou c erta in ly h av e.”
“D on’t b e a f o ol,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou’re n ot a f o ol. I t e ll y ou t h is i s s e rio us.”
“W here i s s h e?”
“In t h ere w aitin g f o r y ou.”
Dav id w en t i n t h e d oor. C ath erin e w as s ittin g a t t h e e m pty b ar.
“H ello ,” s h e s a id . “ T hey d id n’t b rin g t h e m ir ro r.”
“H ello , D ev il,” h e s a id . “ I’m s o rry I w as l a te .”
He w as s h ock ed a t t h e d ead w ay s h e l o oked a n d a t h er t o nele ss v oic e.
“I t h ought y ou’d g one a w ay ,” s h e s a id .
“D id n’t y ou s e e I h ad n’t t a k en a n yth in g?”
“I d id n’t l o ok. Y ou w ould n’t n eed t o t a k e a n yth in g t o g o a w ay .”
“N o,” D av id s a id . “ I j u st w en t i n to t o w n.”
“O h,” s h e s a id a n d l o oked a t t h e w all.

“T he w in d’s d ro ppin g,” h e s a id . “ It w ill b e a g ood d ay t o m orro w .”
“I d on’t c are a b out t o m orro w .”
“S ure y ou d o.”
“N o I d on’t. D on’t a sk m e t o .”
“I w on’t a sk y ou t o ,” h e s a id . “ H av e y ou h ad a d rin k?”
“N o.”
“I’ll m ak e o ne.”
“It w on’t d o a n y g ood.”
“It m ig ht. W e’re s till u s.” H e w as m ak in g t h e d rin k a n d s h e w atc h ed h im
mech an ic ally a s h e s tir re d a n d t h en p oure d i n to t h e g la sse s.
“P ut i n t h e g arlic o liv e,” s h e s a id .
He h an ded h er o ne o f t h e g la sse s a n d l if te d h is a n d t o uch ed i t a g ain st
hers . “ H ere ’s t o u s.”
She p oure d h er g la ss o ut o n t h e b ar a n d l o oked a t i t f lo w a lo ng t h e w ood.
Then s h e p ic k ed u p t h e o liv e a n d p ut i t i n h er m outh . “ T here i s n ’t a n y u s,”
sh e s a id . “ N ot a n ym ore .”
Dav id t o ok a h an dkerc h ie f o ut o f h is p ock et a n d w ip ed t h e b ar a n d m ad e
an oth er d rin k.
“It’ s a ll s h it,” C ath erin e s a id . D av id h an ded h er t h e d rin k a n d s h e l o oked
at i t a n d t h en p oure d i t o n t h e b ar. D av id m opped i t u p a g ain a n d w ru ng o ut
his h an dkerc h ie f. T hen h e d ra n k h is o w n m artin i a n d m ad e t w o m ore .
“T his o ne y ou d rin k,” h e s a id . “ Ju st d rin k i t.”
“Ju st d rin k,” s h e s a id . S he l if te d t h e g la ss a n d s a id , “ H ere ’s t o y ou a n d
your g od d am ned h an dkerc h ie f.”
She d ra n k t h e g la ss o ff a n d t h en h eld i t, l o okin g a t i t, a n d D av id w as s u re
th at s h e w as g oin g t o t h ro w i t i n h is f a ce. T hen s h e p ut i t d ow n a n d p ic k ed
th e g arlic o liv e o ut o f i t a n d a te i t v ery c are fu lly a n d h an ded D av id t h e p it.
“S em i- p re cio us s to ne,” s h e s a id . “ P ut i t i n y our p ock et. I ’ll h av e a n oth er
one i f y ou’ll m ak e i t.”
“B ut d rin k t h is o ne s lo w ly .”
“O h I ’m q uite a ll r ig ht n ow ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou p ro bab ly w on’t n otic e
th e d if fe re n ce. I ’m s u re i t h ap pen s t o e v ery body.”
“D o y ou f e el b ette r? ”
“M uch b ette r r e ally . Y ou j u st l o se s o m eth in g a n d i t’ s g one t h at’ s a ll. A ll
we l o se w as a ll t h at w e h ad . B ut w e g et s o m e m ore . T here ’s n o p ro ble m i s
th ere ?”
“A re y ou h ungry ?”

“N o. B ut I ’m s u re e v ery th in g w ill b e a ll r ig ht. Y ou s a id i t w ould d id n’t
you?”
“O f c o urs e i t w ill.”
“I w is h I c o uld r e m em ber w hat i t w as w e l o st. B ut i t d oesn ’t m atte r d oes
it? Y ou s a id i t d id n’t m atte r.”
“N o.”
“T hen l e t’ s b e c h eerfu l. I t’ s j u st g one w hate v er i t w as.”
“It m ust h av e b een s o m eth in g w e f o rg ot,” h e s a id . “ W e’ll f in d i t.”
“I d id s o m eth in g I k now . B ut i t’ s g one n ow .”
“T hat’ s g ood.”
“It w asn ’t a n yone e ls e ’s f a u lt w hate v er i t w as.”
“D on’t t a lk a b out f a u lts .”
“I k now w hat i t w as n ow ,” s h e s m ile d . “ B ut I w asn ’t u nfa ith fu l. R eally
Dav id . H ow c o uld I b e? I c o uld n’t b e. Y ou k now t h at. H ow c o uld y ou s a y I
was? W hy d id y ou s a y i t? ”
“Y ou w ere n ’t.”
“O f c o urs e I w asn ’t. I w is h y ou h ad n’t s a id i t t h ough.”
“I d id n’t s a y i t, D ev il.”
“S om eb ody d id . B ut I w asn ’t. I j u st d id w hat I s a id I ’d d o. W here ’s
Marita ?”
“S he’s i n h er r o om I t h in k.”
“I’m g la d I ’m a ll r ig ht a g ain . O nce y ou t o ok i t b ack I w as a ll r ig ht. I w is h
it w as y ou h ad d one i t s o I c o uld t a k e i t b ack a b out y ou. W e’re u s a g ain
are n ’t w e? I d id n’t k ill i t.”
“N o.”
She s m ile d a g ain . “ T hat’ s g ood. I ’ll g o a n d g et h er. D o y ou m in d? S he
was w orrie d a b out m e. B efo re y ou c am e b ack .”
“S he w as? ”
“I t a lk ed a l o t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I a lw ay s t a lk t o o m uch . S he’s a w fu lly
nic e, D av id , i f y ou k new h er. S he w as v ery g ood t o m e.”
“T he h ell w ith h er.”
“N o. Y ou t o ok a ll t h at b ack . R em em ber? I d on’t w an t t o h av e a ll t h at
ag ain . D o y ou? I t’ s t o o c o nfu sin g. T ru ly .”
“A ll r ig ht b rin g h er. S he’ll b e g la d t o s e e y ou’re f e elin g g ood a g ain .”
“I k now s h e w ill a n d y ou m ust m ak e h er f e el g ood t o o.”
“S ure . D oes s h e f e el b ad ly ?”
“O nly w hen I d id . W hen I k new I w as u nfa ith fu l. I n ev er w as b efo re y ou

know . Y ou g o a n d b rin g h er, D av id . T hen s h e w on’t f e el b ad . N o d on’t
both er, I ’ll g o.”
Cath erin e w en t o ut t h e d oor a n d D av id w atc h ed h er g o. H er m ovem en ts
were l e ss m ech an ic al a n d h er v oic e w as b ette r. W hen s h e c am e b ack s h e w as
sm ilin g a n d h er v oic e w as a lm ost n atu ra l.
“S he’s c o m in g i n j u st a m in ute ,” s h e s a id . “ S he’s l o vely , D av id . I ’m s o
gla d y ou b ro ught h er.”
The g ir l c am e i n a n d D av id s a id , “ W e w ere w aitin g f o r y ou.”
She l o oked a t h im a n d l o oked a w ay . T hen s h e l o oked b ack a t h im a n d
held h ers e lf v ery s tr a ig ht a n d s a id , “ I’m s o rry t o b e l a te .”
“Y ou l o ok v ery h an dso m e,” D av id s a id a n d i t w as q uite t r u e b ut s h e h ad
th e s a d dest e y es h e h ad e v er s e en .
“M ak e h er a d rin k p le ase , D av id . I h ad t w o,” C ath erin e s a id t o t h e g ir l.
“I’m g la d y ou f e el b ette r,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“D av id m ad e m e f e el g ood a g ain ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I t o ld h im a ll a b out
ev ery th in g a n d h ow l o vely i t w as a n d h e u nders ta n ds p erfe ctly . H e r e ally
ap pro ves.”
The g ir l l o oked a t D av id a n d h e s a w t h e w ay h er t e eth b it h er u pper l ip
an d w hat s h e s a id t o h im w ith h er e y es. “ It w as d ull i n t o w n. I m is se d t h e
sw im min g,” h e s a id .
“Y ou d on’t k now w hat y ou m is se d ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou m is se d
ev ery th in g. I t w as w hat I w an te d t o d o a ll m y l if e a n d n ow I ’v e d one i t a n d I
lo ved i t.”
The g ir l w as l o okin g d ow n a t h er g la ss.
“T he m ost w onderfu l t h in g i s t h at I f e el s o g ro w n u p n ow . B ut i t’ s
ex hau stin g. O f c o urs e i t’ s w hat I w an te d a n d n ow I ’v e d one i t a n d I k now I ’m
ju st a n a p pre n tic e b ut I w on’t a lw ay s b e.”
“A ppre n tic e a llo w an ce c la im ed ,” D av id s a id a n d t o ok a c h an ce t h en a n d
sa id v ery c h eerfu lly , “ D on’t y ou e v er t a lk o n a n y o th er s u bje cts ? P erv ers io n’s
dull a n d o ld f a sh io ned . I d id n’t k now p eo ple l ik e u s e v en k ep t u p o n i t.”
“I s u ppose i t’ s o nly r e ally i n te re stin g t h e f ir s t t im e o ne d oes i t,” C ath erin e
sa id .
“A nd t h en o nly t o t h e p ers o n w ho d oes i t a n d a b lo ody b ore t o e v ery one
els e ,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou a g re e, H eir e ss? ”
“D o y ou c all h er H eir e ss? ” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ T hat’ s a n ic e f u nny n am e.”
“I c an ’t v ery w ell c all h er M a’a m o r H ig hness,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou
ag re e, H eir e ss? A bout p erv ers io n?”

“I a lw ay s t h ought i t w as o verra te d a n d s illy ,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s o nly
so m eth in g g ir ls d o b ecau se t h ey h av e n oth in g b ette r.”
“B ut o ne’s f ir s t t im e a t a n yth in g i s i n te re stin g,” C ath erin e s a id .
“Y es,” D av id s a id . “ B ut w ould y ou w an t t o a lw ay s t a lk a b out y our f ir s t
rid e a t S te ep le ch ase P ark o r h ow y ou, y ours e lf , p ers o nally s o lo ed a lo ne a ll b y
yours e lf i n a p la n e a b so lu te ly a w ay f ro m t h e e arth a n d u p i n t h e s k y?”
“I’m a sh am ed ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ L ook a t m e a n d s e e i f I ’m n ot a sh am ed .”
Dav id p ut h is a rm a ro und h er.
“D on’t b e a sh am ed ,” h e s a id . “ Ju st r e m em ber h ow y ou’d l ik e t o h ear o ld
Heir e ss h ere r e call h ow s h e w en t u p i n t h at p la n e, j u st h ers e lf a n d t h e p la n e,
an d t h ere w as n oth in g b etw een h er a n d t h e e arth , i m ag in e t h e E arth , w ith a
big E , b ut j u st h er
p la ne
a n d t h ey m ig ht h av e b een
k ille d
a n d s m ash ed t o
horrib le
b its
b oth o f t h em a n d s h e l o se h er m oney a n d h er h ealth a n d h er
sa n ity a n d h er l if e w ith a c ap ita l L a n d h er l o ved o nes o r m e o r y ou o r J e su s,
all w ith c ap ita l l e tte rs , i f s h e “ cra sh ed ”— put t h e w ord
c ra sh ed
i n q uote s.”
“D id y ou e v er s o lo , H eir e ss? ”
“N o,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I d on’t h av e t o n ow . B ut I w ould l ik e a n oth er d rin k. I
lo ve y ou, D av id .”
“K is s h er a g ain t h e w ay y ou d id b efo re ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“S om etim e,” D av id s a id . “ I’m m ak in g d rin ks.”
“I’m s o g la d w e’re a ll f rie n ds a g ain a n d e v ery th in g i s f in e,” C ath erin e
sa id . S he w as v ery a n im ate d n ow a n d h er v oic e w as n atu ra l a n d a lm ost
re la x ed .
“I f o rg ot a b out t h e s u rp ris e t h at H eir e ss b ought t h is m orn in g. I ’ll g o a n d
get i t.”
When C ath erin e w as g one, t h e g ir l t o ok D av id ’s h an d a n d h eld i t v ery
tig ht a n d t h en k is se d i t. T hey s a t a n d l o oked a t e ach o th er. S he t o uch ed h is
han d w ith h er f in gers a lm ost a b se n tm in ded ly . S he c u rle d h er f in gers a ro und
his a n d t h en r e le ase d t h em . “ W e d on’t n eed t o t a lk ,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou d on’t
wan t m e t o m ak e a s p eech d o y ou?”
“N o. B ut w e h av e t o t a lk s o m etim e.”
“W ould y ou l ik e m e t o g o a w ay ?”
“Y ou’d b e s m arte r t o g o a w ay .”
“W ould y ou k is s m e s o I k now t h at i t i s a ll r ig ht i f I s ta y ?”
Cath erin e h ad c o m e i n n ow w ith t h e y oung w aite r w ho c arrie d a l a rg e t in
of c av ia r i n a b ow l o f i c e o n a t r a y w ith a p la te o f t o ast. “ T hat w as a
wonderfu l k is s,” s h e s a id . “ E very one s a w i t s o t h ere ’s n o l o nger a n y f e ar o f

sc an dal o r a n yth in g,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hey ’re c u ttin g u p s o m e e g g w hite s
an d s o m e o nio n.”
It w as v ery l a rg e f ir m g ra y c av ia r a n d C ath erin e d ip ped i t o nto t h e p ie ces
of t h in t o ast.
“H eir e ss b ought y ou a c ase o f B ollin ger B ru t a n d t h ere i s s o m e i c ed .
Don’t y ou t h in k w e s h ould d rin k a b ottle w ith t h is ? ”
“S ure ,” s a id D av id . “ L et’ s h av e i t a ll t h ro ugh t h e m eal.”
“Is n ’t i t l u ck y H eir e ss a n d I a re r ic h s o y ou’ll n ev er h av e a n yth in g t o
worry a b out? W e’ll t a k e g ood c are o f h im w on’t w e H eir e ss? ”
“W e m ust t r y v ery h ard ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I’m t r y in g t o s tu dy h is n eed s.
This w as a ll w e c o uld f in d f o r t o day .”

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H e h ad s le p t a b out t w o h ours w hen t h e d ay lig ht w oke h im a n d h e l o oked a t
C ath erin e s le ep in g e asily a n d l o okin g h ap py i n h er s le ep . H e l e ft h er l o okin g
b eau tif u l a n d y oung a n d u nsp oile d a n d t h en w en t i n to t h e b ath ro om a n d
s h ow ere d a n d p ut o n a p air o f s h orts a n d w alk ed b are fo ot t h ro ugh t h e g ard en
t o t h e r o om w here h e w ork ed . T he s k y w as w ash ed c le an a fte r t h e w in d a n d i t
w as t h e f re sh e arly m orn in g o f a n ew d ay t o w ard t h e e n d o f s u m mer.
He s ta rte d i n a g ain o n t h e n ew a n d d if fic u lt s to ry a n d w ork ed a tta ck in g
e ach t h in g t h at f o r y ears h e h ad p ut o ff f a cin g. H e w ork ed u ntil n early e le v en
o ’c lo ck a n d w hen h e h ad f in is h ed f o r t h e d ay h e s h ut u p t h e r o om a n d w en t
o ut a n d f o und t h e t w o g ir ls p la y in g c h ess a t a t a b le i n t h e g ard en . T hey b oth
l o oked f re sh a n d y oung a n d a s a ttr a ctiv e a s t h e w in d-w ash ed m orn in g s k y.
“S he’s b eatin g m e a g ain ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H ow a re y ou, D av id ?”
The g ir l s m ile d a t h im v ery s h yly .
They a re t h e t w o l o velie st g ir ls I ’v e e v er s e en , D av id t h ought. N ow w hat
w ill t h is d ay b rin g. “ H ow a re y ou t w o?” h e s a id .
“W e’re v ery w ell,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ D id y ou h av e g ood l u ck ?”
“It’ s a ll u phill b ut i t’ s g oin g w ell,” h e s a id .
“Y ou h av en ’t h ad a n y b re ak fa st.”
“It’ s t o o l a te f o r b re ak fa st,” D av id s a id .
“N onse n se ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou’re w if e o f t h e d ay , H eir e ss. M ak e h im
e at b re ak fa st.”
“W ould n’t y ou l ik e c o ffe e a n d s o m e f ru it, D av id ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed . “ Y ou
o ught t o e at s o m eth in g.”
“I’ll h av e s o m e b la ck c o ffe e,” D av id s a id .

“I’ll b rin g y ou s o m eth in g,” t h e g ir l s a id a n d w en t o ff i n to t h e h ote l.
Dav id s a t b y C ath erin e a t t h e t a b le a n d s h e p ut t h e c h essm en a n d t h e
board o n a c h air . S he m usse d h is h air a n d s a id , “ H av e y ou f o rg otte n y ou h av e
a s ilv er h ead l ik e m in e?”
“Y es,” h e s a id .
“It’ s g oin g t o b e l ig hte r a n d l ig hte r a n d I ’ll b e f a ir e r a n d f a ir e r a n d d ark er
in t h e b ody t o o.”
“T hat w ill b e w onderfu l.”
“Y es a n d I ’m a ll o ver e v ery th in g.”
The p re tty d ark g ir l w as b rin gin g a t r a y w ith a s m all b ow l r o unded w ith
cav ia r, a h alf l e m on, a s p oon a n d t w o p ie ces o f t o ast a n d t h e y oung w aite r
had a b uck et w ith a b ottle o f t h e B ollin ger a n d a t r a y w ith t h re e g la sse s.
“T his w ill b e g ood f o r D av id ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ T hen w e c an g o s w im min g
befo re l u nch .”

Afte r t h e s w im min g a n d l y in g i n t h e s u n o n t h e b each a n d a b ig l o ng l u nch
with m ore o f t h e B ollin ger, C ath erin e s a id , “ I’m r e ally t ir e d a n d s le ep y.”
“Y ou s w am a l o ng w ay ,” D av id s a id . “ W e’ll m ak e a s ie sta .”
“I w an t t o r e ally s le ep ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“D o y ou f e el w ell, C ath erin e?” t h e g ir l a sk ed .
“Y es. J u st d ead ly s le ep y.”
“W e’ll p ut y ou t o b ed ,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou h av e a t h erm om ete r? ” h e
ask ed t h e g ir l.
“I’m s u re I h av en ’t a n y f e v er,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I j u st w an t t o s le ep f o r a
lo ng t im e.”
When s h e w as i n b ed t h e g ir l b ro ught i n t h e t h erm om ete r a n d D av id t o ok
Cath erin e’s t e m pera tu re a n d h er p uls e . T he t e m pera tu re w as n orm al a n d t h e
puls e w as o ne h undre d a n d f iv e.
“T he p uls e i s a l ittle h ig h,” h e s a id . “ B ut I d on’t k now y our n orm al
puls e .”
“I d on’t e ith er b ut i t’ s p ro bab ly t o o f a st.”
“I d on’t t h in k t h e p uls e m ean s m uch w ith t h e t e m pera tu re n orm al,” D av id
sa id . “ B ut i f y ou h av e a f e v er I ’ll b rin g a d octo r u p f ro m C an nes.”
“I d on’t w an t a d octo r,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I j u st w an t t o s le ep . C an I s le ep
now ?”
“Y es, m y b eau ty . Y ou c all i f y ou w an t m e.”
They s to od a n d w atc h ed h er g o t o s le ep a n d t h en w en t o ut v ery q uie tly

an d D av id w alk ed a lo ng t h e s to nes a n d l o oked t h ro ugh t h e w in dow .
Cath erin e w as s le ep in g q uie tly a n d h er b re ath in g w as r e g ula r. H e b ro ught
tw o c h air s u p a n d a t a b le a n d t h ey s a t i n t h e s h ad e n ear C ath erin e’s w in dow
an d l o oked o ut t h ro ugh t h e p in es t o t h e b lu e s e a. “ W hat d o y ou t h in k?” D av id
ask ed .
“I d on’t k now . S he w as h ap py t h is m orn in g. J u st a s y ou s a w h er w hen
you f in is h ed w ritin g.”
“W hat a b out n ow ?”
“M ay be j u st a r e actio n f ro m y este rd ay . S he’s a v ery n atu ra l g ir l, D av id ,
an d t h is i s n atu ra l.”
“Y este rd ay w as l ik e l o vin g s o m eo ne w hen s o m eo ne’s d ie d ,” h e s a id . “ It
wasn ’t r ig ht.” H e s to od u p a n d w alk ed t o t h e w in dow a n d l o oked i n .
Cath erin e w as s le ep in g i n t h e s a m e p ositio n a n d b re ath in g l ig htly . “ S he’s
sle ep in g w ell,” h e t o ld t h e g ir l. “ W ould n’t y ou l ik e t o t a k e a n ap ?”
“I t h in k s o .”
“I’m g oin g d ow n t o m y r o om w here I w ork ,” h e s a id . “ T here ’s a d oor t o
yours t h at b olts o n e ach s id e.” H e w alk ed d ow n a lo ng t h e s to nes a n d
unlo ck ed t h e d oor o f h is r o om a n d t h en u nbolte d t h e d oor b etw een t h e t w o
ro om s. H e s to od a n d w aite d a n d t h en h eard t h e b olt t u rn o n t h e o th er s id e o f
th e d oor a n d t h en t h e d oor o pen ed . T hey s a t s id e b y s id e o n t h e b ed a n d h e
put h is a rm a ro und h er. “ K is s m e,” D av id s a id .
“I l o ve t o k is s y ou,” s h e s a id ; “ I l o ve i t s o v ery m uch . B ut I c an ’t d o t h e
oth er.”
“N o?”
“N o, I c an ’t.”
Then s h e s a id , “ Is n ’t t h ere a n yth in g I c an d o f o r y ou n ow ? I ’m s o
ash am ed a b out t h e o th er b ut y ou k now h ow i t c o uld m ak e t r o uble .”
“Ju st l ie h ere b y m e.”
“I’d l o ve t h at.”
“D o w hat y ou l ik e.”
“I w ill,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou t o o p le ase . D o w hat w e c an .”

Cath erin e s le p t a ll t h ro ugh t h e a fte rn oon a n d e arly e v en in g. D av id a n d t h e
gir l w ere s ittin g a t t h e b ar h av in g a d rin k t o geth er a n d t h e g ir l s a id , “ T hey
nev er d id b rin g t h e m ir ro r.”
“D id y ou a sk o ld m an A uro l a b out i t? ”
“Y es. H e w as p le ase d .”

“I’d b ette r p ay h im c o rk ag e o n t h at B ollin ger o r s o m eth in g.”
“I g av e h im f o ur b ottle s a n d t w o v ery g ood b ottle s o f
f in e.
H e’s t a k en
care o f. I t w as M ad am e I w as a fra id o f a b out t r o uble .”
“Y ou w ere a b so lu te ly r ig ht.”
“I d on’t w an t t o m ak e t r o uble , D av id .”
“N o,” h e s a id . “ I d on’t t h in k y ou d o.”
The y oung w aite r h ad c o m e i n w ith m ore i c e a n d D av id m ad e t w o
martin is a n d g av e h er o ne. T he w aite r p ut i n t h e g arlic o liv es a n d t h en w en t
back t o t h e k itc h en .
“I’ll g o a n d s e e h ow C ath erin e i s ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ T hin gs w ill t u rn o ut o r
th ey w on’t.”
She w as g one f o r a b out t e n m in ute s a n d h e f e lt o f t h e g ir l’ s d rin k a n d
decid ed t o d rin k i t b efo re i t g ot w arm . H e t o ok i t i n h is h an d a n d r a is e d i t t o
his l ip s a n d h e f o und a s i t t o uch ed h is l ip s t h at i t g av e h im p le asu re b ecau se i t
was h ers . I t w as c le ar a n d u nden ia b le . T hat’ s a ll y ou n eed , h e t h ought. T hat’ s
all y ou n eed t o m ak e t h in gs r e ally p erfe ct. B e i n l o ve w ith b oth o f t h em .
What’ s h ap pen ed t o y ou s in ce l a st M ay ? W hat a re y ou a n ym ore a n yw ay ? B ut
he t o uch ed t h e g la ss t o h is l ip s a g ain a n d t h ere w as t h e s a m e r e actio n a s
befo re . A ll r ig ht, h e s a id , r e m em ber t o d o t h e w ork . T he w ork i s w hat y ou
hav e l e ft. Y ou b ette r f o rk u p w ith t h e w ork .
The g ir l c am e b ack a n d w hen h e s a w h er c o m e i n , h er f a ce h ap py, h e
knew h ow h e f e lt a b out h er.
“S he’s g ettin g d re sse d ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ S he f e els f in e. I s n ’t i t w onderfu l? ”
“Y es,” h e s a id , l o vin g C ath erin e t o o a s a lw ay s.
“W hat h ap pen ed t o m y d rin k?”
“I d ra n k i t,” h e s a id . “ B ecau se i t w as y ours .”
“T ru ly , D av id ?” S he b lu sh ed a n d w as h ap py.
“T hat’ s a s w ell a s I c an p ut i t,” h e s a id . “ H ere ’s a n ew o ne.”
She t a ste d i t a n d p asse d h er l ip s v ery l ig htly o ver t h e r im a n d t h en p asse d
it t o h im a n d h e d id t h e s a m e a n d t o ok a l o ng s ip .
“Y ou’re v ery b eau tif u l,” h e s a id . “ A nd I l o ve y ou.”

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H e h eard t h e B ugatti s ta rt a n d t h e n ois e c am e a s a s u rp ris e a n d a n i n tr u sio n
b ecau se t h ere w as n o m oto r n ois e i n t h e c o untr y w here h e w as l iv in g. H e w as
c o m ple te ly d eta ch ed f ro m e v ery th in g e x cep t t h e s to ry h e w as w ritin g a n d h e
w as l iv in g i n i t a s h e b uilt i t. T he d if fic u lt p arts h e h ad d re ad ed h e n ow f a ced
o ne a fte r a n oth er a n d a s h e d id t h e p eo ple , t h e c o untr y , t h e d ay s a n d t h e
n ig hts , a n d t h e w eath er w ere a ll t h ere a s h e w ro te . H e w en t o n w ork in g a n d
h e f e lt a s t ir e d a s i f h e h ad s p en t t h e n ig ht c ro ssin g t h e b ro ken v olc an ic d ese rt
a n d t h e s u n h ad c au ght h im a n d t h e o th ers w ith t h e d ry g ra y l a k es s till a h ead .
H e c o uld f e el t h e w eig ht o f t h e h eav y d ouble -b arre le d r if le c arrie d o ver h is
s h ould er, h is h an d o n t h e m uzzle , a n d h e t a ste d t h e p eb ble i n h is m outh .
A cro ss t h e s h im mer o f t h e d ry l a k es h e c o uld s e e t h e d is ta n t b lu e o f t h e
e sc arp m en t. A head o f h im t h ere w as n o o ne, a n d b eh in d w as t h e l o ng l in e o f
p orte rs w ho k new t h at t h ey h ad r e ach ed t h is p oin t t h re e h ours t o o l a te .
It w as n ot h im , o f c o urs e , w ho h ad s to od t h ere t h at m orn in g; n or h ad h e
e v en w orn t h e p atc h ed c o rd uro y j a ck et f a d ed a lm ost w hite n ow , t h e a rm pits
r o tte d t h ro ugh b y s w eat, t h at h e t o ok o ff t h en a n d h an ded t o h is K am ba
s e rv an t a n d b ro th er w ho s h are d w ith h im t h e g uilt a n d k now le d ge o f t h e
d ela y , w atc h in g h im s m ell t h e s o ur, v in eg ary s m ell a n d s h ak e h is h ead i n
d is g ust a n d t h en g rin a s h e s w ung t h e j a ck et o ver h is b la ck s h ould er h old in g
i t b y t h e s le ev es a s t h ey s ta rte d o ff a cro ss t h e d ry -b ak ed g ra y , t h e g un
m uzzle s i n t h eir r ig ht h an ds, t h e b arre ls b ala n ced o n t h eir s h ould ers , t h e
h eav y s to ck s p oin tin g b ack t o w ard t h e l in e o f p orte rs .
It w as n ot h im , b ut a s h e w ro te i t w as a n d w hen s o m eo ne r e ad i t, f in ally ,
i t w ould b e w hoev er r e ad i t a n d w hat t h ey f o und w hen t h ey s h ould r e ach t h e

esc arp m en t, i f t h ey r e ach ed i t, a n d h e w ould m ak e t h em r e ach i ts b ase b y
noon o f t h at d ay ; t h en w hoev er r e ad i t w ould f in d w hat t h ere w as t h ere a n d
hav e i t a lw ay s.
All y our f a th er f o und h e f o und f o r y ou t o o, h e t h ought, t h e g ood, t h e
wonderfu l, t h e b ad , t h e v ery b ad , t h e r e ally v ery b ad , t h e t r u ly b ad a n d t h en
th e m uch w ors e . I t w as a s h am e a m an w ith s u ch a t a le n t f o r d is a ste r a n d f o r
delig ht s h ould h av e g one t h e w ay h e w en t, h e t h ought. I t a lw ay s m ad e h im
hap py t o r e m em ber h is f a th er a n d h e k new h is f a th er w ould h av e l ik ed t h is
sto ry .
It w as n early n oon w hen h e c am e o ut o f t h e r o om a n d w alk ed b are fo ot o n
th e s to nes o f t h e p atio t o t h e e n tr a n ce o f t h e h ote l. I n t h e b ig r o om w ork m en
were p uttin g u p a m ir ro r o n t h e w all b eh in d t h e b ar. M onsie u r A uro l a n d t h e
young w aite r w ere w ith t h em a n d h e s p oke t o t h em a n d w en t o ut i n t h e
kitc h en w here h e f o und M ad am e.
“H av e y ou a n y b eer, M ad am e?” h e a sk ed h er.
“M ais c erta in em en t, M onsie u r B ourn e,”
sh e s a id a n d b ro ught a c o ld
bottle f ro m t h e i c e c h est.
“I’ll d rin k i t f ro m t h e b ottle ,” h e s a id .
“A s M onsie u r w is h es,” s h e s a id . “ T he l a d ie s d ro ve t o N ic e I b elie v e.
Monsie u r w ork ed w ell? ”
“V ery w ell.”
“M onsie u r w ork s t o o h ard . I t’ s n ot g ood n ot t o t a k e b re ak fa st.”
“Is t h ere a n y o f t h at c av ia r l e ft i n t h e t in ?”
“I’m s u re t h ere i s .”
“I’ll t a k e a c o uple o f s p oonsfu l.”
“M onsie u r i s o dd,” M ad am e s a id . “ Y este rd ay y ou a te i t w ith c h am pag ne.
Today w ith b eer.”
“I’m a lo ne t o day ,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou k now i f m y b ic y cle tte i s s till i n
th e
r e m is e
? ”
“It s h ould b e,” M ad am e s a id .
Dav id t o ok a s p oonfu l o f t h e c av ia r a n d o ffe re d t h e t in t o M ad am e. “ H av e
so m e, M ad am e. I t’ s v ery g ood.”
“I s h ould n’t,” s h e s a id .
“D on’t b e s illy ,” h e t o ld h er. “ T ak e s o m e. T here ’s s o m e t o ast. T ak e a
gla ss o f c h am pag ne. T here ’s s o m e i n t h e i c e b ox.”
Mad am e t o ok a s p oonfu l o f c av ia r a n d p ut i t o n a p ie ce o f t o ast l e ft f ro m
bre ak fa st a n d p oure d h ers e lf a g la ss o f r o sé .

“It i s e x celle n t,” s h e s a id . “ N ow w e m ust p ut i t a w ay .”
“D o y ou f e el a n y g ood e ffe ct? ” D av id a sk ed . “ I’m g oin g t o h av e o ne
more s p oon.”
“A h, M onsie u r. Y ou m ustn ’t j o ke l ik e t h at.”
“W hy n ot? ” D av id s a id . “ M y j o kin g p artn ers a re a w ay . I f t h ose t w o
beau tif u l w om en c o m e b ack t e ll t h em I w en t f o r a s w im w ill y ou?”
“C erta in ly . T he l ittle o ne i s a b eau ty . N ot a s b eau tif u l a s M ad am e o f
co urs e .”
“I f in d h er n ot t o o u gly ,” D av id s a id .
“S he’s a b eau ty , M onsie u r, a n d v ery c h arm in g.”
“S he’ll d o u ntil s o m eth in g e ls e c o m es a lo ng,” D av id s a id . “ If y ou t h in k
sh e’s p re tty .”
“M onsie u r,” s h e s a id i n d eep est r e p ro of.
“W hat a re a ll t h e a rc h ite ctu ra l r e fo rm s? ” D av id a sk ed .
“T he n ew
m ir o ir
f o r t h e b ar? I t’ s s u ch a c h arm in g g if t t o t h e m ais o n.”
“E very one’s f u ll o f c h arm ,” D av id s a id . “ C harm a n d s tu rg eo n e g gs. A sk
th e b oy t o l o ok a t m y t ir e s w hile I p ut s o m eth in g o n m y f e et a n d f in d a c ap ,
will y ou p le ase ?”
“M onsie u r l ik es t o g o b are fo ot. M e t o o i n s u m mer.”
“W e’ll g o b are fo ot t o geth er s o m etim e.”
“M onsie u r,” s h e s a id g iv in g i t e v ery th in g.
“Is A uro l j e alo us? ”
“Sans b la gue,”
sh e s a id . “ I’ll t e ll t h e t w o b eau tif u l l a d ie s y ou’v e g one
sw im min g.”
“K eep t h e c av ia r a w ay f ro m A uro l,” D av id s a id .
“ À b ie n tô t, c h ère
Madam e.”
“À t o ut à l ’ h eu re , M onsie u r.”
On t h e s h in y b la ck r o ad t h at m ounte d t h ro ugh t h e p in es a s h e l e ft t h e
hote l h e f e lt t h e p ull i n h is a rm s a n d h is s h ould ers a n d t h e r o undin g t h ru st o f
his f e et a g ain st t h e p ed als a s h e c lim bed i n t h e h ot s u n w ith t h e s m ell o f t h e
pin es a n d t h e l ig ht b re eze t h at c am e f ro m t h e s e a. H e b en t h is b ack f o rw ard
an d p ulle d l ig htly a g ain st h is h an ds a n d f e lt t h e c ad en ce t h at h ad b een r a g ged
as h e f ir s t m ounte d b eg in t o s m ooth o ut a s h e p asse d t h e h undre d -m ete r
sto nes a n d t h en t h e f ir s t r e d -to pped k ilo m ete r m ark er a n d t h en t h e s e co nd. A t
th e h ead la n d t h e r o ad d ip ped t o b ord er t h e s e a a n d h e b ra k ed a n d d is m ounte d
an d p ut t h e b ic y cle o ver h is s h ould er a n d w alk ed d ow n w ith i t a lo ng t h e t r a il
to t h e b each . H e p ro pped i t a g ain st a p in e t r e e t h at g av e o ff t h e r e sin s m ell o f

th e h ot d ay a n d h e d ro pped d ow n t o t h e r o ck s, s tr ip ped a n d p ut h is e sp ad rille s
on h is s h orts , s h ir t a n d c ap a n d h e d ove f ro m t h e r o ck s i n to t h e d eep c le ar
co ld s e a. H e c am e u p t h ro ugh t h e v ary in g l ig ht a n d w hen h is h ead c am e o ut
he s h ook i t t o c le ar h is e ars a n d t h en s w am o ut t o s e a. H e l a y o n h is b ack a n d
flo ate d a n d w atc h ed t h e s k y a n d t h e f ir s t w hite c lo uds t h at w ere c o m in g w ith
th e b re eze.
He s w am b ack i n t o t h e c o ve f in ally a n d c lim bed u p o n t h e d ark r e d r o ck s
an d s a t t h ere i n t h e s u n l o okin g d ow n i n to t h e s e a. H e w as h ap py t o b e a lo ne
an d t o h av e f in is h ed h is w ork f o r t h e d ay . T hen t h e l o nelin ess h e a lw ay s h ad
afte r w ork s ta rte d a n d h e b eg an t o t h in k a b out t h e g ir ls a n d t o m is s t h em ; n ot
to m is s t h e o ne n or t h e o th er a t f ir s t, b ut t o m is s t h em b oth . T hen h e t h ought
of t h em , n ot c ritic ally , n ot a s a n y p ro ble m o f l o ve o r f o ndness, n or o f
oblig atio n n or o f w hat h ad h ap pen ed o r w ould h ap pen , n or o f a n y p ro ble m o f
co nduct n ow o r t o c o m e, b ut s im ply o f h ow h e m is se d t h em . H e w as l o nely
fo r t h em b oth , a lo ne a n d t o geth er, a n d h e w an te d t h em b oth .
Sittin g i n t h e s u n o n t h e r o ck l o okin g d ow n i n to t h e s e a, h e k new i t w as
wro ng t o w an t t h em b oth b ut h e d id . N oth in g w ith e ith er o f t h ose t w o c an e n d
well a n d n eith er c an y ou n ow , h e t o ld h im se lf . B ut d o n ot s ta rt b la m in g w ho
you l o ve n or a p portio nin g b la m e. I t w ill a ll b e a p portio ned i n d ue t im e a n d
not b y y ou.
He l o oked d ow n i n to t h e s e a a n d t r ie d t o t h in k c le arly w hat t h e s itu atio n
was a n d i t d id n ot w ork o ut. T he w ors t w as w hat h ad h ap pen ed t o C ath erin e.
The n ex t w ors e w as t h at h e h ad b eg un t o c are f o r t h e o th er g ir l. H e d id n ot
hav e t o e x am in e h is c o nsc ie n ce t o k now t h at h e l o ved C ath erin e n or t h at i t
was w ro ng t o l o ve t w o w om en a n d t h at n o g ood c o uld e v er c o m e o f i t. H e d id
not y et k now h ow t e rrib le i t c o uld b e. H e o nly k new t h at i t h ad s ta rte d . T he
th re e o f y ou a re a lr e ad y e n m esh ed l ik e t h re e g ears t h at t u rn a w heel, h e t o ld
him se lf a n d a ls o t o ld h im se lf o ne g ear h ad b een s tr ip ped o r, a t l e ast, b ad ly
dam ag ed . H e d ove d eep d ow n i n to t h e c le ar c o ld w ate r w here h e m is se d n o
one a n d t h en c am e u p a n d s h ook h is h ead a n d s w am o ut f u rth er a n d t h en
tu rn ed t o s w im b ack t o t h e b each .
He d re sse d , s till w et f ro m t h e s e a a n d p ut h is c ap i n h is p ock et, t h en
clim bed u p t o t h e r o ad w ith h is b ic y cle a n d m ounte d , d riv in g t h e m ach in e u p
th e s h ort h ill f e elin g t h e l a ck o f t r a in in g i n h is t h ig hs a s h e p re sse d t h e b alls
of h is f e et o n t h e p ed als w ith t h e s te ad y c lim bin g t h ru st t h at c arrie d h im u p
th e b la ck r o ad a s t h ough h e a n d t h e r a cin g b ik e w ere s o m e w heele d a n im al.
Then h e c o aste d d ow n, h is h an ds f in gerin g t h e b ra k es, t a k in g t h e c u rv es f a st,

dro ppin g d ow n t h e s h in y d ark r o ad t h ro ugh t h e p in es, t o t h e t u rn off a t t h e
back c o urt o f t h e h ote l w here t h e s e a s h one s u m mer b lu e b ey ond t h e t r e es.
The g ir ls w ere n ot b ack y et a n d h e w en t i n to t h e r o om a n d t o ok a s h ow er,
ch an ged t o a f re sh s h ir t a n d s h orts a n d c am e o ut t o t h e b ar w ith i ts n ew a n d
han dso m e m ir ro r. H e c alle d t h e b oy a n d a sk ed h im t o b rin g a l e m on, a k nif e
an d s o m e i c e a n d s h ow ed h im h ow t o m ak e a T om C ollin s. T hen h e s a t o n
th e b ar s to ol a n d l o oked i n to t h e m ir ro r a s h e l if te d t h e t a ll d rin k. I d o n ot
know i f I ’d h av e a d rin k w ith y ou o r n ot i f I ’d m et y ou f o ur m onth s a g o, h e
th ought. T he b oy b ro ught h im t h e
É cla ir e u r d e N ic e
a n d h e r e ad i t w hile h e
waite d . H e h ad b een d is a p poin te d n ot t o f in d t h e g ir ls r e tu rn ed a n d h e m is se d
th em a n d b eg an t o w orry .
When t h ey c am e i n , f in ally , C ath erin e w as v ery g ay a n d e x cite d a n d t h e
gir l w as c o ntr ite a n d v ery q uie t.
“H ello d arlin g,” C ath erin e s a id t o D av id . “ O h l o ok a t t h e m ir ro r. T hey
did g et i t u p. I t’ s a v ery g ood o ne t o o. I t’ s a w fu lly c ritic al t h ough. I ’ll g o i n
an d c le an u p f o r l u nch . I ’m s o rry w e’re l a te .”
“W e s to pped i n t o w n a n d h ad a d rin k,” t h e g ir l s a id t o D av id . “ I’m s o rry
to h av e k ep t y ou w aitin g.”
“A d rin k?” D av id s a id .
The g ir l h eld u p t w o f in gers . S he p ut h er f a ce u p a n d k is se d h im a n d w as
gone. D av id w en t b ack t o r e ad in g t h e p ap er.
When C ath erin e c am e o ut s h e w as w earin g t h e d ark b lu e l in en s h ir t t h at
Dav id l ik ed a n d s la ck s a n d s h e s a id , “ D arlin g I h ope y ou’re n ot c ro ss. I t
wasn ’t r e ally o ur f a u lt. I s a w J e an a n d I a sk ed h im t o h av e a d rin k w ith u s
an d h e d id a n d w as s o n ic e.”
“T he c o if fe u r? ”
“Je an . O f c o urs e . W hat o th er J e an w ould I k now i n C an nes?
“H e w as s o n ic e a n d h e a sk ed a b out y ou. C an I h av e a m artin i, d arlin g?
I’v e o nly h ad o ne.”
“L unch m ust b e r e ad y b y n ow .”
“Ju st o ne, d arlin g. T hey o nly h av e u s f o r l u nch .”
Dav id m ad e t w o m artin is t a k in g h is t im e a n d t h e g ir l c am e i n . S he w as
wearin g a w hite s h ark sk in d re ss a n d s h e l o oked f re sh a n d c o ol. “ M ay I h av e
one t o o, D av id ? I t w as a v ery h ot d ay . H ow w as i t h ere ?”
“Y ou s h ould h av e s ta y ed h om e a n d l o oked a fte r h im ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I g ot a lo ng a ll r ig ht,” D av id s a id . “ T he s e a w as v ery g ood.”
“Y ou u se s u ch i n te re stin g a d je ctiv es,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hey m ak e

ev ery th in g s o v iv id .”
“S orry ,” D av id s a id .
“T hat’ s a n oth er d an dy w ord ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ E xpla in w hat d an dy
mean s t o y our n ew g ir l. I t’ s a n A m eric an is m .”
“I t h in k I k now i t,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ It’ s t h e t h ir d w ord i n ‘ Y an kee D oodle
Dan dy.’ D on’t p le ase b e c ro ss C ath erin e.”
“I’m n ot c ro ss,” C ath erin e s a id . “ B ut t w o d ay s a g o w hen y ou m ad e
passe s a t m e i t w as s im ply d an dy b ut t o day i f I f e lt t h at w ay t h e s lig hte st b it
you h ad t o a ct a s t h ough I w as a n I d on’t k now w hat.”
“I’m s o rry , C ath erin e,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“A noth er s o rry s o rry ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A s t h ough y ou h ad n’t t a u ght m e
what l ittle I k now .”
“S hould w e h av e l u nch ?” D av id s a id . “ It’ s b een a h ot d ay D ev il, a n d
you’re t ir e d .”
“I’m t ir e d o f e v ery body,” C ath erin e s a id . “ P le ase f o rg iv e m e.”
“T here ’s n oth in g t o f o rg iv e,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I’m s o rry I w as s tu ffy . I
did n’t c o m e h ere t o b e t h at w ay .” S he w alk ed o ver t o C ath erin e a n d k is se d
her v ery g en tly a n d l ig htly . “ N ow b e a g ood g ir l,” s h e s a id . “ S hould w e g o t o
th e t a b le ?”
“D id n’t w e h av e l u nch ?” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“N o, D ev il,” D av id s a id . “ W e’re g oin g t o h av e l u nch n ow .”
At t h e e n d o f l u nch C ath erin e w ho h ad m ad e s e n se t h ro ugh n early a ll o f i t
ex cep t f o r s o m e a b se n tm in ded ness s a id , “ P le ase e x cu se m e b ut I t h in k I
ought t o s le ep .”
“L et m e c o m e w ith y ou a n d s e e y ou g et t o s le ep ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“A ctu ally I t h in k I d ra n k t o o m uch ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I’ll c o m e i n a n d t a k e a n ap t o o,” D av id s a id .
“N o p le ase D av id . C om e i n w hen I ’m a sle ep i f y ou w an t,” C ath erin e s a id .
In a b out h alf a n h our t h e g ir l c am e o ut o f t h e r o om “ S he’s a ll r ig ht,” s h e
sa id . “ B ut w e m ust b e c are fu l a n d g ood w ith h er a n d o nly t h in k a b out h er.”
In t h e r o om C ath erin e w as a w ak e w hen D av id c am e i n a n d h e w en t o ver
an d s a t o n t h e b ed .
“I’m n ot a d am ned i n valid ,” s h e s a id . “ I j u st d ra n k t o o m uch . I k now . I ’m
so rry I l ie d t o y ou a b out i t. H ow c o uld I d o t h at, D av id ?”
“Y ou d id n’t r e m em ber.”
“N o. I d id i t o n p urp ose . W ill y ou t a k e m e b ack ? I ’m o ver a ll t h e
bitc h in ess.”

“Y ou n ev er w ere a w ay .”
“If y ou t a k e m e b ack i s a ll I w an t. I ’ll b e y our r e ally t r u e g ir l a n d r e ally
tr u ly b e. W ould y ou l ik e t h at? ”
He k is se d h er.
“R eally k is s m e.”
“O h,” s h e s a id . “ P le ase b e s lo w .”

They s w am a t t h e c o ve w here t h ey h ad g one t h e f ir s t d ay . D av id h ad p la n ned
to s e n d t h e t w o g ir ls t o s w im a n d t h en t o t a k e t h e o ld I s o tta d ow n t o C an nes
to h av e t h e b ra k es f ix ed a n d t h e i g nitio n o verh au le d . B ut C ath erin e h ad a sk ed
him t o p le ase s w im w ith t h em a n d t o d o t h e c ar t h e n ex t d ay a n d s h e s e em ed
so h ap py a n d s o und a n d c h eerfu l a g ain a fte r h er n ap a n d M arita h ad s a id v ery
se rio usly , “ W ill y ou p le ase c o m e?” S o h e h ad d riv en t h em t o t h e t u rn out f o r
th e c o ve a n d s h ow n t h em b oth o n t h e w ay h ow d an gero usly t h e b ra k es w ere
work in g.
“Y ou’d k ill y ours e lf w ith t h is c ar,” h e t o ld M arita . “ It’ s a c rim e t o d riv e i t
th e w ay i t i s .”
“H ad I o ught t o g et a n ew o ne?” s h e a sk ed .
“C hris t n o. J u st l e t m e f ix t h e b ra k es t o s ta rt w ith .”
“W e n eed a l a rg er c ar w ith r o om f o r a ll o f u s,” C ath erin e s a id .
“T his i s a f in e c ar,” D av id s a id . “ It j u st n eed s a h ell o f a l o t o f w ork d one
on i t. B ut i t’ s t o o m uch c ar f o r y ou.”
“Y ou s e e i f t h ey c an f ix i t p ro perly ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ If t h ey c an ’t w e’ll g et
th e t y pe o f c ar y ou w an t.”
Then t h ey w ere t a n nin g o n t h e b each a n d D av id s a id l a zily , “ C om e i n a n d
sw im .”
“P our s o m e w ate r o n m y h ead ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I b ro ught a s a n d b uck et
in t h e r u ck sa ck .”
“O h t h at f e els w onderfu l,” s h e s a id . “ C ould I h av e o ne m ore ? P our i t o n
my f a ce t o o.”
She l a y o n t h e h ard b each o n h er w hite r o be i n t h e s u n a n d D av id a n d t h e
gir l s w am o ut t o s e a a n d a ro und t h e r o ck s a t t h e m outh o f t h e c o ve. T he g ir l
was s w im min g a h ead a n d D av id o verh au le d h er. H e r e ach ed o ut a n d g ra b bed
a f o ot a n d t h en h eld h er c lo se i n h is a rm s a n d k is se d h er a s t h ey t r e ad ed
wate r. S he f e lt s lip pery a n d s tr a n ge i n t h e w ate r a n d t h ey s e em ed t h e s a m e
heig ht a s t h ey t r e ad ed w ate r w ith t h eir b odie s c lo se t o geth er a n d k is se d . T hen
her h ead w en t u nder a n d h e l e an ed b ack a n d s h e c am e u p l a u ghin g a n d

sh ak in g h er h ead t h at w as s le ek a s a s e al, a n d s h e b ro ught h er l ip s a g ain st h is
ag ain a n d t h ey k is se d u ntil t h ey b oth w en t u nder. T hey l a y s id e b y s id e a n d
flo ate d a n d t o uch ed a n d t h en k is se d h ard a n d h ap pily a n d w en t u nder a g ain .
“I d on’t w orry a b out a n yth in g n ow ,” s h e s a id , w hen t h ey c am e u p a g ain .
“Y ou m ustn ’t e ith er.”
“I w on’t,” h e s a id a n d t h ey s w am i n .
“Y ou b ette r g o i n , D ev il,” h e s a id t o C ath erin e. “ Y our h ead w ill g et t o o
hot.”
“A ll r ig ht. L et’ s g o i n ,” s h e s a id . “ L et H eir e ss d ark en n ow . L et m e p ut
so m e o il o n h er.”
“N ot t o o m uch ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ M ay I h av e a p ail o f w ate r o n m y h ead
to o?”
“Y our h ead ’s a s w et a s i t c an g et,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I j u st w an te d t o f e el i t,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“W ad e o ut, D av id , a n d g et a g ood c o ld o ne,” C ath erin e s a id . A nd a fte r h e
had p oure d t h e c le ar c o ol s e a w ate r o n M arita ’s h ead t h ey l e ft h er l y in g w ith
her f a ce o n h er a rm s a n d s w am o ut t o s e a. T hey f lo ate d e asily l ik e s e a
an im als a n d C ath erin e s a id , “ W ould n’t i t b e w onderfu l i f I w asn ’t c ra zy ?”
“Y ou’re n ot c ra zy .”
“N ot t h is a fte rn oon,” s h e s a id . “ A nyw ay n ot s o f a r. C an w e s w im
fu rth er? ”
“W e’re p re tty w ell o ut, D ev il.”
“A ll r ig ht. L et’ s s w im b ack i n . B ut t h e d eep w ate r’s b eau tif u l o ut h ere .”
“D o y ou w an t t o s w im d ow n o nce b efo re w e g o i n ?”
“Ju st o nce,” s h e s a id . “ In t h is v ery d eep p art.”
“W e’ll s w im d ow n u ntil w e j u st c an m ak e i t u p.”

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H e w oke w hen i t w as b are ly j u st l ig ht e n ough t o s e e t h e p in e t r u nks a n d h e
l e ft t h e b ed , c are fu l n ot t o w ak e C ath erin e, f o und h is s h orts a n d w en t, t h e
s o le s o f h is f e et w et f ro m t h e d ew o n t h e s to nes, a lo ng t h e l e n gth o f t h e h ote l
t o t h e d oor o f h is w ork r o om . A s h e o pen ed t h e d oor h e f e lt, a g ain , t h e t o uch
o f t h e a ir f ro m t h e s e a t h at p ro m is e d h ow t h e d ay w ould b e.
When h e s a t d ow n t h e s u n w as n ot y et u p a n d h e f e lt t h at h e h ad m ad e u p
s o m e o f t h e t im e t h at w as l o st i n t h e s to ry . B ut a s h e r e re ad h is c are fu l l e g ib le
h an d a n d t h e w ord s t o ok h im a w ay a n d i n to t h e o th er c o untr y , h e l o st t h at
a d van ta g e a n d w as f a ced w ith t h e s a m e p ro ble m a n d w hen t h e s u n r o se o ut o f
t h e s e a i t h ad , f o r h im , r is e n l o ng b efo re a n d h e w as w ell i n to t h e c ro ssin g o f
t h e g ra y , d rie d , b itte r l a k es h is b oots n ow w hite w ith c ru ste d a lk alis . H e f e lt
t h e w eig ht o f t h e s u n o n h is h ead a n d h is n eck a n d h is b ack . H is s h ir t w as w et
a n d h e f e lt t h e s w eat g o d ow n h is b ack a n d b etw een h is t h ig hs. W hen h e
s to od s tr a ig ht u p a n d r e ste d , b re ath in g s lo w ly , a n d h is s h ir t h ung a w ay f ro m
h is s h ould ers , h e c o uld f e el i t d ry i n t h e s u n a n d s e e t h e w hite p atc h es t h at t h e
s a lts o f h is b ody m ad e i n t h e d ry in g. H e c o uld f e el a n d s e e h im se lf s ta n din g
t h ere a n d k new t h ere w as n oth in g t o d o e x cep t g o o n.
At h alf p ast t e n h e h ad c ro sse d t h e l a k es a n d w as w ell b ey ond t h em . B y
t h en h e h ad r e ach ed t h e r iv er a n d t h e g re at g ro ve o f f ig t r e es w here t h ey
w ould m ak e t h eir c am p. T he b ark o f t h e t r u nks w as g re en a n d y ello w a n d t h e
b ra n ch es w ere h eav y. B ab oons h ad b een e atin g t h e w ild f ig s a n d t h ere w ere
b ab oon d ro ppin gs a n d b ro ken f ig s o n t h e g ro und. T he s m ell w as f o ul.
But t h e h alf p ast t e n w as o n t h e w atc h o n h is w ris t a s h e l o oked a t i t i n
t h e r o om w here h e s a t a t a t a b le f e elin g t h e b re eze f ro m t h e s e a n ow a n d t h e

re al t im e w as e v en in g a n d h e w as s ittin g a g ain st t h e y ello w g ra y b ase o f a
tr e e w ith a g la ss o f w his k ey a n d w ate r i n h is h an d a n d t h e r o lle d f ig s s w ep t
aw ay w atc h in g t h e p orte rs b utc h erin g o ut t h e K ongoni h e h ad s h ot i n t h e f ir s t
gra ssy s w ale t h ey p asse d b efo re t h ey c am e t o t h e r iv er.
I’ll l e av e t h em w ith m eat, h e t h ought a n d s o i t i s a h ap py c am p t o nig ht n o
matte r w hat c o m es a fte r. S o h e p ut h is p en cils a n d t h e n ote b ooks a w ay a n d
lo ck ed t h e s u itc ase a n d w en t o ut t h e d oor a n d w alk ed o n t h e s to nes, d ry a n d
warm n ow , t o t h e h ote l p atio .
The g ir l w as s ittin g a t o ne o f t h e t a b le s r e ad in g a b ook. S he w ore a
str ip ed f is h erm an ’s s h ir t a n d t e n nis s k ir t a n d e sp ad rille s a n d w hen s h e s a w
him s h e l o oked u p a n d D av id t h ought s h e w as g oin g t o b lu sh b ut s h e s e em ed
to c h eck i t a n d s a id , “ G ood m orn in g, D av id . D id y ou w ork w ell? ”
“Y es, b eau ty ,” h e s a id .
She s to od u p t h en a n d k is se d h im g ood m orn in g a n d s a id , “ I’m v ery
hap py t h en . C ath erin e w en t i n t o C an nes. S he s a id t o t e ll y ou I w as t o t a k e
you s w im min g.”
“D id n’t s h e w an t y ou t o g o i n t o w n w ith h er? ”
“N o. S he w an te d m e t o s ta y . S he s a id y ou g ot u p t e rrib ly e arly t o w ork
an d m ay be y ou’d b e l o nely w hen y ou f in is h ed . C an I o rd er s o m e b re ak fa st?
You s h ould n’t a lw ay s n ot e at b re ak fa st.”
The g ir l w en t i n to t h e k itc h en a n d s h e c am e o ut w ith
o eu fs a u p la t a vec
ja m bon
a n d E nglis h m usta rd a n d S ovora .
“W as i t d if fic u lt t o day ?” s h e a sk ed h im .
“N o,” h e s a id . “ It’ s a lw ay s d if fic u lt b ut i t’ s e asy t o o. I t w en t v ery w ell.”
“I w is h I c o uld h elp .”
“N obody c an h elp ,” h e s a id .
“B ut I c an h elp i n o th er t h in gs c an ’t I ? ”
He s ta rte d t o s a y t h ere a re n o o th er t h in gs b ut h e d id n ot s a y i t a n d i n ste ad
he s a id , “ Y ou h av e a n d y ou d o.”
He w ip ed t h e l a st o f t h e e g g a n d m usta rd u p f ro m t h e s h allo w d is h w ith a
sm all p ie ce o f b re ad a n d t h en d ra n k s o m e t e a. “ H ow d id y ou s le ep ?” h e
ask ed .
“V ery w ell,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I h ope t h at’ s n ot d is lo yal.”
“N o. T hat’ s i n te llig en t.”
“C an w e s to p b ein g s o p olite ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed . “ E very th in g w as s o s im ple
an d f in e u ntil n ow .”
“Y es, l e t’ s s to p. L et’ s s to p e v en t h e ‘ I c an ’t D av id ’ n onse n se ,” h e s a id .

“A ll r ig ht,” s h e s a id a n d s to od u p. “ If y ou w an t t o g o s w im min g I ’ll b e i n
my r o om .”
He s to od u p. “ P le ase d on’t g o,” h e s a id . “ I’v e s to pped b ein g a s h it.”
“D on’t s to p f o r m e,” s h e s a id . “ O h D av id h ow c o uld w e e v er g et i n a
th in g l ik e t h is ? P oor D av id . W hat w om en d o t o y ou.” S he w as s tr o kin g h is
head a n d s m ilin g a t h im . “ I’ll g et t h e s w im min g t h in gs i f y ou w an t t o s w im .”
“G ood,” h e s a id . “ I’ll g o g et m y e sp ad rille s.”
They l a y o n t h e s a n d w here D av id h ad s p re ad t h e b each r o bes a n d t h e
to w els i n t h e s h ad e o f a r e d r o ck a n d t h e g ir l s a id , “ Y ou g o i n a n d s w im a n d
th en I w ill.”
He l if te d v ery s lo w ly a n d g en tly u p o ut a n d a w ay f ro m h er a n d t h en
wad ed o ut f ro m t h e b each a n d d ove u nder w here t h e w ate r w as c o ld a n d
sw am d eep . W hen h e c am e u p h e s w am o ut a g ain st t h e c h op o f t h e b re eze
an d t h en s w am i n t o w here t h e g ir l w as w aitin g f o r h im s ta n din g u p t o h er
wais t i n t h e w ate r h er b la ck h ead s le ek a n d w et, h er l ig ht b ro w n b ody
drip pin g. H e h eld h er t ig ht a n d t h e w av es w ash ed a g ain st t h em .
They k is se d a n d s h e s a id , “ E very th in g o f o urs w ash ed i n to t h e o cean .”
“W e h av e t o g et b ack .”
“L et’ s g o u nder o nce t o geth er h old in g t ig ht.”
Back a t t h e h ote l C ath erin e h ad n ot a rriv ed a n d a fte r t h ey h ad t a k en s h ow ers
an d c h an ged D av id a n d M arita s a t a t t h e b ar w ith t w o m artin is . T hey l o oked
at e ach o th er i n t h e m ir ro r. T hey w atc h ed e ach o th er v ery c are fu lly a n d t h en
Dav id p asse d h is f in ger u nder h is n ose w hile h e l o oked a t h er a n d s h e
blu sh ed .
“I w an t t o h av e m ore t h in gs l ik e t h at,” s h e s a id . “ T hin gs t h at o nly w e
hav e s o I w on’t b e j e alo us.”
“I w ould n’t p ut o ut t o o m an y a n ch ors ,” h e s a id . “ Y ou m ig ht f o ul t h e
cab le s.”
“N o. I ’ll f in d t h in gs t o d o t h at w ill h old y ou.”
“T hat’ s a g ood p ra ctic al H eir e ss,” h e s a id .
“I w is h I c o uld c h an ge t h at n am e. D on’t y ou?”
“N am es g o t o t h e b one,” h e s a id .
“T hen l e t’ s r e ally c h an ge m in e,” s h e s a id . “ W ould y ou m in d t e rrib ly ?”
“N o… .
H aya .

“S ay i t a g ain p le ase .”
“H ay a.”
“Is i t g ood?”

“V ery g ood. I t’ s a s m all n am e b etw een u s. F or n obody e ls e e v er.”
“W hat d oes H ay a m ean ?”
“T he o ne w ho b lu sh es. T he m odest o ne.”
He h eld h er c lo se a n d t ig ht a n d s h e s e ttle d a g ain st h im a n d h er h ead w as
on h is s h ould er.
“K is s m e j u st o nce,” s h e s a id .

Cath erin e c am e i n to t h e b ig r o om d is h ev elle d , e x cite d a n d f u ll o f
acco m plis h m en t a n d g aie ty .
“Y ou
d id
t a k e h im s w im min g,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou b oth d o l o ok h an dso m e
en ough, t h ough s till w et f ro m t h e s h ow er. L et m e l o ok a t y ou.”
“L et m e l o ok a t
y o u,
” t h e g ir l s a id . “ W hat d id y ou d o t o y our h air ? ”
“It’ s
c en dre ,
” C ath erin e s a id . “ D o y ou l ik e i t? I t’ s a r in se t h at J e an ’s
ex perim en tin g w ith .”
“It’ s b eau tif u l,” t h e g ir l s a id .
Cath erin e’s h air w as s tr a n ge a n d e x altin g a g ain st h er d ark f a ce. S he
pic k ed u p M arita ’s d rin k a n d s ip pin g i t w atc h ed h ers e lf i n t h e m ir ro r a n d
sa id , “ D id y ou h av e f u n s w im min g?”
“W e b oth h ad a g ood s w im ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ B ut n ot a s l o ng a s y este rd ay .”
“T his i s s u ch a g ood d rin k, D av id ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W hat m ak es y our
martin is b ette r t h an a n yone e ls e ’s ? ”
“G in ,” D av id s a id .
“W ill y ou m ak e m e o ne p le ase ?”
“Y ou d on’t w an t o ne n ow , D ev il. W e’re g oin g t o h av e l u nch .”
“Y es I d o,” s h e s a id . “ I’m g oin g t o s le ep a fte r l u nch . Y ou d id n’t h av e t o
go t h ro ugh a ll t h e b le ach in g a n d r e -b le ach in g a n d a ll o f i t. I t’ s e x hau stin g.”
“W hat c o lo r i s y our h air r e ally n ow ?” D av id a sk ed .
“It’ s a lm ost l ik e w hite ,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou’d l ik e i t. B ut I w an t t o k eep t h is
so w e s e e h ow i t l a sts .”
“H ow w hite i s i t? ” D av id a sk ed .
“A bout l ik e t h e s o ap s u ds,” s h e s a id . “ D o y ou r e m em ber? ”

That e v en in g C ath erin e w as c o m ple te ly d if fe re n t f ro m t h e w ay s h e h ad b een
at m id -d ay . S he w as s ittin g a t t h e b ar w hen t h ey d ro ve u p f ro m s w im min g.
The g ir l h ad s to pped o ff a t h er r o om a n d w hen D av id c am e i n to t h e b ig m ain
ro om h e s a id , “ W hat h av e y ou d one t o y ours e lf n ow , D ev il? ”

“I s h am pooed a ll t h at n onse n se o ut,” s h e s a id . “ It m ad e g ra y s ta in s o n t h e
pillo w .”
She l o oked v ery s tr ik in g, h er h air a v ery l ig ht a lm ost t o nele ss s ilv er t h at
mad e h er f a ce d ark er t h an i t h ad e v er l o oked .
“Y ou’re t o o d am ned b eau tif u l,” h e s a id . “ B ut I w is h t h ey ’d n ev er t o uch ed
your h air .”
“It’ s t o o l a te f o r t h at n ow . C an I t e ll y ou s o m eth in g e ls e ?”
“S ure .”
“T om orro w I ’m n ot g oin g t o h av e d rin ks a n d I ’m g oin g t o s tu dy S pan is h
an d r e ad a g ain a n d s to p t h in kin g o nly a b out m yse lf .”
“M y G od,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou h ad a b ig d ay . H ere , l e t m e g et a d rin k a n d
go i n a n d c h an ge.”
“I’ll b e h ere ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ P ut o n y our d ark b lu e s h ir t w ill y ou? T he
one I g ot y ou l ik e t h e o ne o f m in e?”
Dav id t o ok h is t im e i n t h e s h ow er a n d c h an gin g a n d w hen h e c am e b ack
th e t w o g ir ls w ere t o geth er a t t h e b ar a n d h e w is h ed h e c o uld h av e a p ain tin g
of t h em .
“I t o ld H eir e ss e v ery th in g a b out m y n ew l e af,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T he o ne I
ju st t u rn ed o ver a n d h ow I w an t y ou t o l o ve h er t o o a n d y ou c an m arry h er
to o i f s h e’ll h av e y ou.”
“W e c o uld i n A fric a i f I w as r e g is te re d M oham med an . Y ou’re a llo w ed
th re e w iv es.”
“I t h in k i t w ould b e m uch n ic er i f w e w ere a ll m arrie d ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“T hen n o o ne c o uld c ritic iz e u s. W ill y ou r e ally m arry h im , H eir e ss? ”
“Y es,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“I’m s o p le ase d ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ E very th in g I w orrie d a b out i s s o
sim ple n ow .”
“W ould y ou r e ally ?” D av id a sk ed t h e d ark g ir l.
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ A sk m e.”
Dav id l o oked a t h er. S he w as v ery s e rio us a n d e x cite d . H e t h ought o f h er
fa ce w ith h er e y es c lo se d a g ain st t h e s u n a n d h er b la ck h ead a g ain st t h e
white n ess o f t h e t o w el r o be o n t h e y ello w s a n d a s i t h ad b een w hen t h ey h ad
mad e l o ve a t l a st. “ I’ll a sk y ou,” h e s a id . “ B ut n ot i n a n y d am ned b ar.”
“T his i s n ’t a n y d am ned b ar,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T his i s o ur o w n s p ecia l b ar
an d w e b ought t h e m ir ro r. I w is h w e c o uld m arry y ou t o nig ht.”
“D on’t t a lk b alls ,” D av id s a id .
“I’m n ot,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I r e ally m ean i t. T ru ly .”

“D o y ou w an t a d rin k?” D av id a sk ed .
“N o,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I w an t t o g et i t s a id r ig ht f ir s t. L ook a t m e a n d
se e.” T he g ir l w as l o okin g d ow n a n d D av id l o oked a t C ath erin e. “ I t h ought i t
all o ut t h is a fte rn oon,” s h e s a id . “ I r e ally d id . D id n’t I t e ll y ou, M arita ?”
“S he d id ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
Dav id s a w t h at s h e w as s e rio us a b out t h is a n d t h at t h ey h ad r e ach ed s o m e
unders ta n din g t h at h e d id n ot k now a b out.
“I’m s till y our w if e ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e’ll s ta rt w ith t h at. I w an t M arita
to b e y our w if e t o o t o h elp m e o ut a n d t h en s h e i n herits f ro m m e.”
“W hy d oes s h e h av e t o i n herit? ”
“P eo ple m ak e t h eir w ills ,” s h e s a id . “ A nd t h is i s m ore i m porta n t t h an a
will.”
“W hat a b out y ou?” D av id a sk ed t h e g ir l.
“I w an t t o d o i t i f y ou w an t m e t o .”
“G ood,” h e s a id . “ D o y ou m in d i f I h av e a d rin k?”
“Y ou h av e o ne p le ase ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou s e e I ’m n ot g oin g t o h av e
you r u in ed i f I ’m c ra zy a n d I w on’t b e a b le t o d ecid e. I ’m n ot g oin g t o b e
sh ut u p e ith er. I d ecid ed t h at t o o. S he l o ves y ou a n d y ou l o ve h er a l ittle . I
can t e ll. Y ou’d n ev er f in d a n ybody e ls e l ik e h er a n d I d on’t w an t y ou t o g o t o
so m e d am n b itc h o r b e l o nely .”
“C om e o n a n d c h eer u p,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou’re h ealth y a s a g oat.”
“W ell, w e’re g oin g t o d o i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e’ll w ork o ut
ev ery th in g.”

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T he s u n w as b rig ht n ow i n t h e r o om a n d i t w as a n ew d ay . Y ou b ette r g et t o
w ork , h e t o ld h im se lf . Y ou c an ’t c h an ge a n y o f i t b ack . O nly o ne p ers o n c an
c h an ge i t b ack a n d s h e c an ’t k now h ow s h e w ill w ak e n or i f s h e’ll b e t h ere
w hen s h e w ak es. I t d oesn ’t m atte r h ow y ou f e el. Y ou b ette r g et t o w ork . Y ou
h av e t o m ak e s e n se t h ere . Y ou d on’t m ak e a n y i n t h is o th er. N oth in g w ill
h elp y ou. N or w ould h av e e v er s in ce i t s ta rte d .
When h e f in ally g ot b ack i n to t h e s to ry t h e s u n w as w ell u p a n d h e h ad
f o rg otte n t h e t w o g ir ls . I t h ad b een n ecessa ry t o t h in k w hat h is f a th er w ould
h av e t h ought s ittin g t h at e v en in g w ith h is b ack a g ain st t h e g re en -y ello w t r u nk
o f t h e f ig t r e e w ith t h e e n am ele d c u p o f w his k ey a n d w ate r i n h is h an d. H is
f a th er h ad d ealt s o l ig htly w ith e v il, g iv in g i t n o c h an ce e v er a n d d en yin g i ts
i m porta n ce s o t h at i t h ad n o s ta tu s a n d n o s h ap e n or d ig nity . H e t r e ate d e v il
l ik e a n o ld e n tr u ste d f rie n d, D av id t h ought, a n d e v il, w hen s h e p oxed h im ,
n ev er k new s h e’d s c o re d . H is f a th er w as n ot v uln era b le h e k new a n d, u nlik e
m ost p eo ple h e h ad k now n, o nly d eath c o uld k ill h im . F in ally , h e k new w hat
h is f a th er h ad t h ought a n d k now in g i t, h e d id n ot p ut i t i n t h e s to ry . H e o nly
w ro te w hat h is f a th er d id a n d h ow h e f e lt a n d i n a ll t h is h e b ecam e h is f a th er
a n d w hat h is f a th er s a id t o M olo w as w hat h e s a id . H e s le p t w ell o n t h e
g ro und u nder t h e t r e e a n d h e w ak ed a n d h eard t h e l e o pard c o ugh. L ate r h e
d id n ot h ear t h e l e o pard i n t h e c am p b ut h e k new h e w as t h ere a n d h e w en t
b ack t o s le ep . T he l e o pard w as a fte r m eat a n d t h ere w as p le n ty o f m eat s o
t h ere w as n o p ro ble m . I n t h e m orn in g b efo re d ay lig ht s ittin g b y t h e a sh es o f
t h e f ir e w ith h is t e a i n t h e c h ip ped e n am ele d c u p h e a sk ed M olo i f t h e l e o pard
h ad t a k en m eat a n d M olo s a id , “ N diy o” a n d h e s a id , “ T here ’s p le n ty w here

we’re g oin g. G et t h em m ovin g s o w e c an s ta rt t h e c lim b.”
They w ere m ovin g f o r t h e s e co nd d ay t h ro ugh t h e h ig h w ooded a n d p ark -
lik e c o untr y a b ove t h e e sc arp m en t w hen h e s to pped f in ally a n d h e w as h ap py
with t h e c o untr y a n d t h e d ay a n d t h e d is ta n ce t h ey h ad m ad e. H e h ad h is
fa th er’s a b ility t o f o rg et n ow a n d n ot d re ad a n yth in g t h at w as c o m in g. T here
was a n oth er d ay a n d a n oth er n ig ht a h ead i n t h at n ew h ig h c o untr y w hen h e
sto pped a n d h e h ad l iv ed t w o d ay s a n d a n ig ht t o day .
Now t h at h e l e ft t h at c o untr y h is f a th er w as w ith h im s till a s h e l o ck ed t h e
door a n d w alk ed b ack t o t h e b ig r o om a n d t h e b ar.
He t o ld t h e b oy h e d id n ot w an t b re ak fa st a n d t o b rin g h im a w his k ey a n d
Perrie r a n d t h e m orn in g p ap er. I t w as p ast n oon a n d h e h ad i n te n ded t o d riv e
th e o ld I s o tta i n to C an nes a n d s e e t h at t h e r e p air s w ere m ad e b ut h e k new t h e
gara g es w ere c lo se d n ow a n d i t w as t o o l a te . I n ste ad h e s to od a t t h e b ar
becau se t h at’ s w here h e w ould h av e f o und h is f a th er a t t h at h our a n d, h av in g
ju st c o m e d ow n f ro m t h e h ig h c o untr y , h e m is se d h im . T he s k y o uts id e w as
very m uch t h e s k y t h at h e h ad l e ft. I t w as h ig h b lu e a n d t h e c lo uds w hite
cu m ulu s a n d h e w elc o m ed h is f a th er’s p re se n ce a t t h e b ar u ntil h e g la n ced i n
th e m ir ro r a n d s a w h e w as a lo ne. H e h ad i n te n ded t o a sk h is f a th er a b out t w o
th in gs. H is f a th er, w ho r a n h is l if e m ore d is a str o usly t h an a n y m an t h at h e
had e v er k now n, g av e m arv elo us a d vic e. H e d is tille d i t o ut o f t h e b itte r m ash
of a ll h is p re v io us m is ta k es w ith t h e f re sh en in g a d ditio n o f t h e n ew m is ta k es
he w as a b out t o m ak e a n d h e g av e i t w ith a n a ccu ra cy a n d p re cis io n t h at
carrie d t h e a u th ority o f a m an w ho h ad h eard a ll t h e m ore g ris ly p ro vis io ns o f
his s e n te n ce a n d g av e i t n o m ore i m porta n ce t h an h e h ad g iv en t o t h e f in e
prin t o n a t r a n sa tla n tic s te am sh ip t ic k et.
He w as s o rry t h at h is f a th er h ad n ot s ta y ed b ut h e c o uld h ear t h e a d vic e
cle arly e n ough a n d h e s m ile d . H is f a th er w ould h av e g iv en i t m ore e x actly
but h e, D av id , h ad s to pped w ritin g b ecau se h e w as t ir e d a n d, t ir e d , h e c o uld
not d o j u stic e t o h is f a th er’s s ty le . N o o ne c o uld , r e ally , a n d s o m etim es h is
fa th er c o uld n ot e ith er. H e k new n ow , m ore t h an e v er, w hy h e h ad a lw ay s p ut
off w ritin g t h is s to ry a n d h e k new h e m ust n ot t h in k a b out i t n ow t h at h e h ad
le ft i t o r h e w ould d am ag e h is a b ility t o w rite i t.
You m ust n ot w orry a b out i t b efo re y ou s ta rt n or w hen y ou s to p h e t o ld
him se lf . Y ou’re l u ck y t o h av e i t a n d d on’t s ta rt f u m blin g w ith i t n ow . I f y ou
can not r e sp ect t h e w ay y ou h an dle y our l if e t h en c erta in ly r e sp ect y our t r a d e.
You k now a b out y our t r a d e a t l e ast. B ut i t w as a r a th er a w fu l s to ry r e ally . B y
God i t w as.

He s ip ped t h e w his k ey a n d P errie r a g ain a n d l o oked o ut t h e d oor a t t h e
la te s u m mer d ay . H e w as c o olin g o ut a s h e a lw ay s d id a n d t h e g ia n t k ille r
mad e t h in gs b ette r. H e w ondere d w here t h e g ir ls w ere . T hey w ere l a te a g ain
an d h e h oped t h at t h is t im e i t w ould b e n oth in g b ad . H e w as n ot a t r a g ic
ch ara cte r, h av in g h is f a th er a n d b ein g a w rite r b arre d h im f ro m t h at, a n d a s h e
fin is h ed t h e w his k ey a n d P errie r h e f e lt e v en l e ss o f o ne. H e h ad n ev er k now n
a m orn in g w hen h e h ad n ot w ak ed h ap pily u ntil t h e e n orm ity o f t h e d ay h ad
to uch ed h im a n d h e h ad a ccep te d t h is d ay n ow a s h e h ad a ccep te d a ll t h e
oth ers f o r h im se lf . H e h ad l o st t h e c ap acity o f p ers o nal s u ffe rin g, o r h e
th ought h e h ad , a n d o nly c o uld b e h urt t r u ly b y w hat h ap pen ed t o o th ers . H e
belie v ed t h is , w ro ngly o f c o urs e s in ce h e d id n ot k now t h en h ow o ne’s
cap acitie s c an c h an ge, n or h ow t h e o th er c o uld c h an ge, a n d i t w as a
co m fo rta b le b elie f. H e t h ought o f t h e t w o g ir ls a n d w is h ed t h at t h ey w ould
tu rn u p. I t w as g ettin g t o o l a te t o s w im b efo re l u nch b ut h e w an te d t o s e e
th em . H e t h ought a b out t h em b oth . T hen h e w en t i n to h is a n d C ath erin e’s
ro om a n d t o ok a s h ow er a n d s h av ed . H e w as s h av in g w hen h e h eard t h e c ar
co m e u p a n d h e f e lt t h e s u dden e m pty f e elin g i n h is g ut. T hen h e h eard t h eir
voic es a n d h eard t h em l a u ghin g a n d h e f o und a f re sh p air o f s h orts a n d a s h ir t
an d p ulle d t h em o n a n d w en t o ut t o s e e h ow t h in gs w ould b e.
The t h re e o f t h em h ad q uie t d rin ks a n d t h en a l u nch t h at w as g ood b ut
lig ht a n d t h ey d ra n k T av el a n d w hen t h ey w ere e atin g c h eese a n d f ru it
Cath erin e s a id , “ S hould I t e ll h im ?”
“If y ou w an t,” t h e g ir l s a id . S he p ic k ed u p h er w in e a n d d ra n k p art o f i t
dow n.
“I f o rg ot h ow t o s a y i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e w aite d t o o l o ng.”
“C an ’t y ou r e m em ber i t? ” t h e g ir l s a id .
“N o, I ’v e f o rg otte n i t a n d i t w as w onderfu l. W e h ad i t a ll w ork ed o ut a n d
it w as r e ally w onderfu l.”
Dav id p oure d h im se lf a n oth er g la ss o f T av el.
“D o y ou w an t t o t r y f o r j u st t h e f a ctu al c o nte n t? ” h e a sk ed .
“I k now t h e f a ctu al c o nte n t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It’ s t h at y este rd ay y ou
mad e s ie sta w ith m e a n d t h en y ou w en t t o M arita ’s r o om b ut t o day y ou c an
ju st g o t h ere . B ut I ’v e s p oile d i t n ow a n d w hat I w is h i s w e c o uld a ll j u st
mak e s ie sta t o geth er.”
“N ot s ie sta ,” D av id h eard h im se lf s a y .
“I s u ppose n ot,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W ell I ’m s o rry I s a id i t a ll w ro ng a n d I
co uld n’t h elp s a y in g w hat I w is h ed .”

In t h e r o om h e s a id t o C ath erin e, “ T o h ell w ith h er.”
“N o, D av id . S he w an te d t o d o w hat I a sk ed h er. M ay be s h e c an t e ll y ou.”
“F uck h er.”
“W ell y ou h av e,” s h e s a id . “ T hat’ s n ot t h e p oin t. G o a n d t a lk w ith h er
Dav id . A nd i f y ou w an t t o f u ck h er t h en f u ck h er g ood f o r m e.”
“D on’t t a lk r o ugh.”
“Y ou u se d i t. I j u st k nock ed i t b ack . L ik e t e n nis .”
“A ll r ig ht,” D av id s a id . “ W hat’ s s h e s u ppose d t o s a y t o m e?”
“M y s p eech ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T he o ne I f o rg ot. D on’t l o ok s o s e rio us o r
I w on’t l e t y ou g o. Y ou’re a w fu lly a p pealin g w hen y ou’re s e rio us. Y ou’d
bette r g o b efo re s h e f o rg ets t h e s p eech .”
“T he h ell w ith y ou t o o.”
“T hat’ s g ood. N ow y ou’re r e actin g b ette r. I l ik e y ou w hen y ou a re m ore
care le ss. K is s m e g oodbye. I m ean g ood a fte rn oon. Y ou r e ally b ette r g o o r
sh e r e ally w ill f o rg et t h e s p eech . D on’t y ou s e e h ow r e aso nab le a n d g ood I
am ?”
“Y ou’re n ot r e aso nab le a n d g ood.”
“Y ou l ik e m e t h ough.”
“S ure .”
“D o y ou w an t m e t o t e ll y ou a s e cre t? ”
“A n ew o ne?”
“A n o ld o ne.”
“A ll r ig ht.”
“Y ou a re n ’t v ery h ard t o c o rru pt a n d y ou’re a n a w fu l l o t o f f u n t o
co rru pt.”
“Y ou o ught t o k now .”
“It w as j u st a j o ke s e cre t. T here i s n ’t a n y c o rru ptio n. W e j u st h av e f u n.
Go o n i n a n d h av e h er m ak e m y s p eech b efo re s h e f o rg ets i t t o o. G o o n a n d
be a g ood b oy D av id .”

In t h e r o om a t t h e f a r e n d o f t h e h ote l D av id l a y o n t h e b ed a n d s a id , “ W hat’ s
it a ll a b out r e ally ?”
“It’ s j u st w hat s h e s a id l a st n ig ht,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ S he r e ally m ean s i t. Y ou
don’t k now h ow m uch s h e m ean s i t.”
“D id y ou t e ll h er w e’d m ad e l o ve?”

“N o.”
“S he k new i t.”
“D oes i t m atte r? ”
“It d id n’t s e em t o .”
“T ak e a g la ss o f w in e, D av id , a n d b e c o m fo rta b le . I ’m n ot i n dif fe re n t,”
sh e s a id . “ I h ope y ou k now t h at.”
“I’m n ot e ith er,” h e s a id .
Then t h eir l ip s w ere t o geth er a n d h e f e lt h er b ody a g ain st h is a n d h er
bre asts a g ain st h is c h est a n d h er l ip s t ig ht a g ain st h is a n d t h en o pen , h er h ead
movin g f ro m s id e t o s id e a n d h er b re ath in g a n d t h e f e el o f h is b elt b uck le
ag ain st h is b elly a n d i n h is h an ds.

They l a y o n t h e b each a n d D av id w atc h ed t h e s k y a n d t h e m ovem en t o f t h e
clo uds a n d d id n ot t h in k a t a ll. T hin kin g d id n o g ood a n d w hen h e l a y d ow n
he h ad t h ought t h at i f h e d id n ot t h in k t h en e v ery th in g t h at w as w ro ng m ig ht
go a w ay . T he g ir ls w ere t a lk in g b ut h e d id n ot l is te n t o t h em . H e l a y a n d
watc h ed t h e S ep te m ber s k y a n d w hen t h e g ir ls h ad f a lle n s ile n t h e s ta rte d t o
th in k a n d w ith out l o okin g a t t h e g ir l h e a sk ed , “ W hat a re y ou t h in kin g?”
“N oth in g,” s h e s a id .
“A sk m e,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I c an g uess w hat y ou’re t h in kin g.”
“N o y ou c an ’t. I w as t h in kin g a b out t h e P ra d o.”
“H av e y ou b een t h ere ?” D av id a sk ed t h e g ir l.
“N ot y et,” s h e s a id .
“W e’ll g o,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W hen c an w e g o, D av id ?”
“A nytim e,” D av id s a id . “ I w an t t o f in is h t h is s to ry f ir s t.”
“W ill y ou w ork h ard o n t h e s to ry ?”
“T hat’ s w hat I ’m d oin g. I c an ’t w ork a n y h ard er.”
“I d id n’t m ean t o h urry i t.”
“I w on’t,” h e s a id . “ If y ou’re g ettin g b ore d h ere y ou t w o g o o n a h ead a n d
I’ll f in d y ou t h ere .”
“I d on’t w an t t o d o t h at,” M arita s a id .
“D on’t b e s illy ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H e’s j u st b ein g n oble .”
“N o. Y ou c an g o.”
“It w ould n’t b e a n y f u n w ith out y ou,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou k now t h at.
We t w o i n S pain w ould n’t b e f u n.”
“H e’s w ork in g, C ath erin e,” M arita s a id .

“H e c o uld w ork i n S pain ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ P le n ty o f S pan is h w rite rs
must h av e w ork ed i n S pain . I ’ll b et I c o uld w rite w ell i n S pain i f I w as a
write r.”
“I c an w rite i n S pain ,” D av id s a id . “ W hen d o y ou w an t t o g o?”
“D am n y ou, C ath erin e,” M arita s a id . “ H e’s i n t h e m id dle o f a s to ry .”
“H e’s b een w ritin g f o r o ver s ix w eek s,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W hy c an ’t w e
go t o M ad rid ?”
“I s a id w e c o uld ,” D av id s a id .
“D on’t y ou d are d o t h at,” t h e g ir l s a id t o C ath erin e. “ D on’t y ou d are t o
tr y t o d o t h at. H av en ’t y ou a n y c o nsc ie n ce a t a ll? ”
“Y ou’re a f in e o ne t o t a lk a b out c o nsc ie n ce,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I h av e a c o nsc ie n ce a b out s o m e t h in gs.”
“T hat’ s f in e. I ’m h ap py t o k now i t. N ow w ill y ou t r y t o b e p olite a n d n ot
in te rfe re w hen s o m eo ne i s t r y in g t o w ork o ut w hat’ s b est f o r e v ery one?”
“I’m g oin g t o s w im ,” D av id s a id .
The g ir l g ot u p a n d f o llo w ed h im a n d o uts id e t h e c o ve w hile t h ey t r e ad ed
wate r s h e s a id , “ S he’s c ra zy .”
“S o d on’t b la m e h er.”
“B ut w hat a re y ou g oin g t o d o?”
“F in is h t h e s to ry a n d s ta rt a n oth er.”
“S o w hat d o y ou a n d I d o?”
“W hat w e c an .”

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H e f in is h ed t h e s to ry i n f o ur d ay s. H e h ad i n i t a ll t h e p re ssu re t h at h ad b uilt
w hile h e w as w ritin g i t a n d t h e m odest p art o f h im w as a fra id t h at i t c o uld n ot
p ossib ly b e a s g ood a s h e b elie v ed i t t o b e. T he c o ld , h ard p art k new i t w as
b ette r.
“H ow w as i t t o day ?” t h e g ir l a sk ed h im .
“I f in is h ed .”
“C an I r e ad i t? ”
“If y ou w an t t o .”
“Y ou w ould n’t m in d t r u ly ?”
“It’ s i n t h ose t w o c ah ie rs i n t h e t o p o f t h e s u itc ase .” H e h an ded h er t h e
k ey a n d t h en s a t a t t h e b ar a n d d ra n k a w his k ey a n d P errie r a n d r e ad t h e
m orn in g p ap er. S he c am e b ack a n d s a t o n a s to ol a l ittle w ay d ow n f ro m h im
a n d r e ad t h e s to ry .
When s h e f in is h ed i t s h e s ta rte d t o r e ad i t o ver a g ain a n d h e m ad e h im se lf
a s e co nd w his k ey a n d s o da a n d w atc h ed h er r e ad . W hen s h e f in is h ed i t t h e
s e co nd t im e h e s a id , “ D o y ou l ik e i t? ”
“It’ s n ot a t h in g y ou l ik e o r n ot l ik e,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s y our f a th er i s n ’t i t? ”
“S ure .”
“W as t h is w hen y ou s to pped l o vin g h im ?”
“N o. I a lw ay s l o ved h im . T his w as w hen I g ot t o k now h im .”
“It’ s a t e rrib le s to ry a n d i t’ s w onderfu l.”
“I’m g la d y ou l ik e i t,” h e s a id .
“I’ll p ut i t b ack n ow ,” s h e s a id . “ I l ik e g oin g i n t h e r o om w hen t h e d oor i s
l o ck ed .”

“W e h av e t h at,” D av id s a id .

When t h ey c am e b ack f ro m t h e b each t h ey f o und C ath erin e i n t h e g ard en .
“S o y ou g ot b ack ,” s h e s a id .
“Y es,” D av id s a id . “ W e h ad a g ood s w im . I w is h y ou’d b een t h ere .”
“W ell, I w asn ’t,” s h e s a id . “ If i t’ s o f a n y i n te re st t o y ou.”
“W here d id y ou g o?” D av id a sk ed .
“I w as i n C an nes o n m y o w n b usin ess,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou’re b oth l a te f o r
lu nch .”
“I’m s o rry ,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou w an t t o h av e a n yth in g b efo re l u nch ?”
“P le ase e x cu se m e, C ath erin e,” M arita s a id . “ I’ll b e b ack i n a m om en t.”
“Y ou’re s till d rin kin g b efo re l u nch ?” C ath erin e a sk ed D av id .
“Y es,” h e s a id . “ I d on’t t h in k i t m atte rs i f y ou’re g ettin g a l o t o f
ex erc is e .”
“T here w as a n e m pty w his k ey g la ss o n t h e b ar w hen I c am e i n .”
“Y es,” s a id D av id . “ I h ad t w o w his k ey s a ctu ally .”
“A ctu ally ,” s h e m im ic k ed h im . “ Y ou’re v ery B ritis h t o day .”
“R eally ?” h e s a id . “ I d id n’t f e el v ery B ritis h . I f e lt s o rt o f h alf -a sse d
Tah itia n .”
“It’ s j u st y our w ay o f s p eak in g t h at i r rita te s m e,” s h e s a id . “ Y our c h oic e
of w ord s.”
“I s e e,” h e s a id . “ D id y ou w an t a s h ot b efo re t h ey b rin g t h e c h ow ?”
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o b e a c lo w n.”
“T he b est c lo w ns d on’t t a lk ,” h e s a id .
“N obody a ccu se d y ou o f b ein g t h e b est o f c lo w ns,” s h e s a id . “ Y es. I ’d
lik e a d rin k i f i t i s n ’t t o o m uch w ork f o r y ou t o m ak e i t.”
He m ad e t h re e m artin is , m easu rin g t h em e ach o ut s e p ara te ly a n d p ourin g
th em i n to t h e p itc h er w here t h ere w as a b ig c h unk o f i c e a n d t h en s tir rin g.
“W ho i s t h e t h ir d d rin k f o r? ”
“M arita .”
“Y our p ara m our? ”
“M y w hat? ”
“Y our p ara m our.”
“Y ou r e ally s a id i t,” D av id t o ld h er. “ I’d n ev er h eard t h at w ord
pro nounced a n d I h ad a b so lu te ly n o h ope o f e v er h earin g i t i n t h is l if e .
You’re r e ally w onderfu l.”
“It’ s a p erfe ctly c o m mon w ord .”

“It i s a t t h at,” D av id s a id . “ B ut t o h av e t h e s h eer, n ak ed c o ura g e t o u se i t
in c o nvers a tio n. D ev il, b e g ood n ow . C ould n’t y ou s a y ‘ y our d usk y
para m our’? ”
Cath erin e l o oked a w ay a s s h e r a is e d h er g la ss.
“A nd I u se d t o f in d t h is t y pe o f b an te r a m usin g,” s h e s a id .
“D o y ou w an t t o t r y t o b e d ecen t? ” D av id a sk ed . “ B oth o f u s d ecen t? ”
“N o,” s h e s a id . “ H ere c o m es y our w hate v er y ou c all h er l o okin g s w eet
an d i n nocen t a s e v er. I m ust s a y I ’m g la d I h ad h er b efo re y ou d id .
D ea r
Marita — te ll m e, d id D av id w ork b efo re h e s ta rte d d rin kin g t o day ?”
“D id y ou D av id ?” M arita a sk ed .
“I f in is h ed a s to ry ,” D av id s a id .
“A nd I s u ppose M arita ’s a lr e ad y r e ad i t? ”
“Y es, I d id .”
“Y ou k now , I ’v e n ev er r e ad a s to ry o f D av id ’s . I n ev er i n te rfe re . I ’v e
only t r ie d t o m ak e i t e co nom ic ally p ossib le f o r h im t o d o t h e b est w ork o f
whic h h e i s c ap ab le .”
Dav id t o ok a s ip o f h is d rin k a n d l o oked a t h er. S he w as t h e s a m e
wonderfu l d ark a n d b eau tif u l g ir l a s e v er a n d t h e i v ory w hite h air w as l ik e a
sc ar a cro ss h er f o re h ead . O nly h er e y es h ad c h an ged a n d h er l ip s t h at w ere
sa y in g t h in gs t h ey w ere i n cap ab le o f s a y in g.
“I t h ought i t w as a v ery g ood s to ry ,” M arita s a id . “ It w as s tr a n ge a n d h ow
do y ou s a y
p asto ra le .
T hen i t b ecam e t e rrib le i n a w ay I c o uld n ot e x pla in . I
th ought i t w as
m agnifiq ue.

“W ell— ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e a ll s p eak F re n ch y ou k now . Y ou m ig ht
hav e m ad e t h e w hole e m otio nal o utb urs t i n F re n ch .”
“I w as d eep ly m oved b y t h e s to ry ,” M arita s a id .
“B ecau se D av id w ro te i t o r b ecau se i t r e ally i s f ir s t r a te ?”
“B oth ,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“W ell,” C ath erin e s a id , “ is t h ere a n y r e aso n t h en w hy I c an ’t r e ad t h is
ex tr a o rd in ary s to ry ? I d id p ut u p t h e m oney f o r i t.”
“Y ou d id w hat? ” D av id a sk ed .
“P erh ap s n ot e x actly . Y ou d id h av e f if te en h undre d d olla rs w hen y ou
marrie d m e a n d t h at b ook a b out a ll t h e m ad f lie rs h as s o ld , h asn ’t i t? Y ou
nev er t e ll m e h ow m uch . B ut I d id p ut u p a s u bsta n tia l s u m a n d y ou m ust
ad m it y ou’v e l iv ed m ore c o m fo rta b ly t h an y ou d id b efo re y ou m arrie d m e.”
The g ir l d id n ot s a y a n yth in g a n d D av id w atc h ed t h e w aite r s e ttin g t h e
ta b le o n t h e t e rra ce. H e l o oked a t h is w atc h . I t w as a b out t w en ty m in ute s

befo re t h e t im e t h ey u su ally h ad l u nch . “ I’d l ik e t o g o i n a n d c le an u p i f I
may ,” h e s a id .
“D on’t b e s o b lo ody f a ls e p olite ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W hy c an ’t I r e ad t h e
sto ry ?”
“It’ s j u st w ritte n i n p en cil. I t h asn ’t e v en b een c o pie d . Y ou w ould n’t w an t
to r e ad i t t h at w ay .”
“M arita r e ad i t t h at w ay .”
“R ead i t a fte r l u nch t h en .”
“I w an t t o r e ad i t n ow , D av id .”
“I r e ally w ould n’t r e ad i t b efo re l u nch .”
“Is i t d is g ustin g?”
“It’ s a s to ry a b out A fric a b ack b efo re t h e W ar. I n t h e t im e o f t h e M aji-
Maji W ar. T he n ativ e r e b ellio n o f i n T an gan yik a.”
“I d id n’t k now y ou w ro te h is to ric al n ovels .”
“I w is h y ou’d l e av e i t a lo ne,” D av id s a id . “ It’ s a s to ry t h at h ap pen s i n
Afric a w hen I w as a b out e ig ht y ears o ld .”
“I w an t t o r e ad i t.”
Dav id h ad g one t o t h e f a r e n d o f t h e b ar a n d w as s h ak in g d ic e o ut o f a l e ath er
cu p. T he g ir l s a t o n a s to ol n ex t t o C ath erin e. H e w atc h ed h er w atc h in g
Cath erin e a s s h e r e ad .
“It s ta rts v ery w ell,” s h e s a id . “ T hough y our h an dw ritin g i s a tr o cio us.
The c o untr y i s s u perb . T he p assa g e. W hat M arita m is -c alle d t h e
p asto ra le
part.”
She p ut d ow n t h e f ir s t n ote b ook a n d t h e g ir l p ic k ed i t u p a n d h eld i t o n
her l a p , h er e y es s till w atc h in g C ath erin e.
Cath erin e r e ad o n a n d s a id n oth in g n ow . S he w as h alf w ay t h ro ugh t h e
se co nd p art. T hen s h e t o re t h e c ah ie r i n t w o a n d t h re w i t o n t h e f lo or.
“It’ s h orrib le ,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s b estia l. S o t h at w as w hat y our f a th er w as
lik e.”
“N o,” s a id D av id . “ B ut t h at w as o ne w ay h e w as. Y ou d id n’t f in is h i t.”
“N oth in g w ould m ak e m e f in is h i t.”
“I d id n’t w an t y ou t o r e ad i t a t a ll.”
“N o. Y ou b oth c o nsp ir e d t o m ak e m e r e ad i t.”
“M ay I h av e t h e k ey , D av id , t o l o ck i t u p?” t h e g ir l a sk ed . S he h ad
re tr ie v ed t h e t o rn h alv es o f t h e n ote b ook f ro m t h e f lo or. I t w as j u st r ip ped
ap art. I t w as n ot t o rn a cro ss. D av id g av e h er h is k ey .
“It’ s e v en m ore h orrib le w ritte n i n t h at c h ild ’s n ote b ook,” C ath erin e s a id .

“Y ou’re a m onste r.”
“It w as a v ery o dd r e b ellio n,” D av id s a id .
“Y ou’re a v ery o dd p ers o n t o w rite a b out i t,” s h e s a id .
“I a sk ed y ou n ot t o r e ad t h e s to ry .”
She w as c ry in g n ow . “ I h ate y ou,” s h e s a id .
They w ere i n t h eir r o om i n b ed a n d i t w as l a te .
“S he’ll g o a w ay a n d y ou’ll h av e m e s h ut u p o r p ut a w ay ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“N o. T hat i s n ’t t r u e.”
“B ut y ou s u ggeste d w e g o t o S w itz erla n d.”
“If y ou w ere w orrie d w e c o uld s e e a g ood d octo r. T he s a m e w ay w e’d g o
to t h e d en tis t.”
“N o. T hey ’d s h ut m e u p. I k now . E very th in g t h at’ s i n nocen t t o u s i s c ra zy
to t h em . I k now a b out t h ose p la ces.”
“It’ s a n e asy d riv e a n d b eau tif u l. W e’d g o b y A ix a n d S t. R em y a n d u p
th e R hone f ro m L yon t o G en ev a. W e’d s e e h im a n d g et s o m e g ood a d vic e
an d m ak e a f u n t r ip o ut o f i t.”
“I w on’t g o.”
“A v ery g ood i n te llig en t d octo r t h at— ”
“I w on’t g o. D id n’t y ou h ear m e? I w on’t g o. I w on’t g o. D o y ou w an t m e
to s c re am ?”
“A ll r ig ht. D on’t t h in k a b out i t n ow . J u st t r y t o s le ep .”
“If I d on’t h av e t o g o.”
“W e d on’t h av e t o .”
“I’ll s le ep t h en . A re y ou g oin g t o w ork i n t h e m orn in g?”
“Y es. I m ig ht a s w ell.”
“Y ou’ll w ork w ell,” s h e s a id . “ I k now y ou w ill. G ood n ig ht D av id . Y ou
sle ep w ell t o o.”
He d id n ot s le ep f o r a l o ng t im e. W hen h e d id h e h ad d re am s o f A fric a.
They w ere g ood d re am s u ntil t h e o ne t h at w oke h im . H e g ot u p t h en a n d w en t
dir e ct f ro m t h at d re am t o w ork . H e w as w ell i n to t h e n ew s to ry b efo re t h e s u n
cam e u p o ut o f t h e s e a a n d h e d id n ot l o ok u p f ro m w here h e w as t o s e e h ow
re d t h e s u n w as. I n t h e s to ry h e w as w aitin g f o r t h e m oon t o r is e a n d h e f e lt
his d og’s h air r is e u nder h is h an d a s h e s tr o ked h im t o b e q uie t a n d t h ey b oth
watc h ed a n d l is te n ed a s t h e m oon c am e u p a n d g av e t h em s h ad ow s. H is a rm
was a ro und t h e d og’s n eck n ow a n d h e c o uld f e el h im s h iv erin g. A ll o f t h e
nig ht s o unds h ad s to pped . T hey d id n ot h ear t h e e le p han t a n d D av id d id n ot
se e h im u ntil t h e d og t u rn ed h is h ead a n d s e em ed t o s e ttle i n to D av id . T hen

th e e le p han t’ s s h ad ow c o vere d t h em a n d h e m oved p ast m ak in g n o n ois e a t
all a n d t h ey s m elle d h im i n t h e l ig ht w in d t h at c am e d ow n f ro m t h e m ounta in .
He s m elle d s tr o ng b ut o ld a n d s o ur a n d w hen h e w as p ast D av id s a w t h at t h e
le ft t u sk w as s o l o ng i t s e em ed t o r e ach t h e g ro und. T hey w aite d b ut n o o th er
ele p han ts c am e b y a n d t h en D av id a n d t h e d og s ta rte d o ff r u nnin g i n t h e
moonlig ht. T he d og k ep t c lo se b eh in d h im a n d w hen D av id s to pped t h e d og
pre sse d h is m uzzle i n to t h e b ack o f h is k nee. D av id h ad t o s e e t h e b ull a g ain
an d t h ey c am e u p o n h im a t t h e e d ge o f t h e f o re st. H e w as t r a v ellin g t o w ard
th e m ounta in a n d s lo w ly n ow m ovin g i n to t h e s te ad y n ig ht b re eze. D av id
cam e c lo se e n ough t o s e e h im c u t o ff t h e m oon a g ain a n d t o s m ell t h e s o ur
old ness b ut h e c o uld n ot s e e t h e r ig ht t u sk . H e w as a fra id t o w ork c lo se r w ith
th e d og a n d h e t o ok h im b ack w ith t h e w in d a n d p ush ed h im d ow n a g ain st t h e
base o f a t r e e a n d t r ie d t o m ak e h im u nders ta n d. H e t h ought t h e d og w ould
sta y a n d h e d id b ut w hen D av id m oved u p t o w ard t h e b ulk o f t h e e le p han t
ag ain h e f e lt t h e w et m uzzle a g ain st t h e h ollo w o f h is k nee.
The t w o o f t h em f o llo w ed t h e e le p han t u ntil h e c am e t o a n o pen in g i n t h e
tr e es. H e s to od t h ere m ovin g h is h uge e ars . H is b ulk w as i n t h e s h ad ow b ut
th e m oon w ould b e o n h is h ead . D av id r e ach ed b eh in d h im a n d c lo se d t h e
dog’s j a w s g en tly w ith h is h an d a n d t h en m oved s o ftly a n d u nbre ath in g t o h is
rig ht a lo ng t h e e d ge o f t h e n ig ht b re eze f e elin g i t o n h is c h eek , e d gin g w ith i t,
nev er l e ttin g i t g et b etw een h im a n d t h e b ulk u ntil h e c o uld s e e t h e e le p han t’ s
head a n d t h e g re at e ars s lo w ly m ovin g. T he r ig ht t u sk w as a s t h ic k a s h is o w n
th ig h a n d i t c u rv ed d ow n a lm ost t o t h e g ro und.
He a n d t h e d og m oved b ack , t h e w in d o n h is n eck n ow , a n d t h ey
back tr a ck ed o ut o f t h e f o re st a n d i n to t h e o pen p ark c o untr y . T he d og w as
ah ead o f h im n ow a n d h e s to pped w here D av id h ad l e ft t h e t w o h untin g
sp ears b y t h e t r a il w hen t h ey h ad f o llo w ed t h e e le p han t. H e s w ung t h em o ver
his s h ould er i n t h eir t h ong a n d l e ath er c u p h arn ess a n d, w ith h is b est s p ear
th at h e h ad k ep t w ith h im a ll t h e t im e i n h is h an d, t h ey s ta rte d o n t h e t r a il f o r
th e s h am ba. T he m oon w as h ig h n ow a n d h e w ondere d w hy t h ere w as n o
dru m min g f ro m t h e s h am ba. S om eth in g w as s tr a n ge i f h is f a th er w as t h ere
an d t h ere w as n o d ru m min g.

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T hey w ere l y in g o n t h e f ir m s a n d o f t h e s m alle st o f t h e t h re e c o ves, t h e o ne
t h ey a lw ay s w en t t o w hen t h ey w ere a lo ne, a n d t h e g ir l s a id , “ S he w on’t g o t o
S w itz erla n d.”
“S he s h ould n’t g o t o M ad rid e ith er. S pain i s a b ad p la ce t o c ra ck u p.”
“I f e el a s t h ough w e’d b een m arrie d a ll o ur l iv es a n d n ev er h ad a n yth in g
b ut p ro ble m s.” S he p ush ed h is h air b ack f ro m h is f o re h ead a n d k is se d h im .
“ D o y ou w an t t o s w im n ow ?”
“Y es. L et’ s d iv e f ro m t h e h ig h r o ck . T he r e ally h ig h o ne.”
“Y ou d o,” s h e s a id . “ I’ll s w im o ut a n d y ou d iv e o ver m y h ead .”
“A ll r ig ht. B ut h old s till w hen I d iv e.”
“S ee h ow c lo se y ou c an c o m e.”
Lookin g u p, s h e w atc h ed h im p ois e d o n t h e h ig h r o ck , a rc ed b ro w n
a g ain st t h e b lu e s k y. T hen h e c am e t o w ard h er a n d t h e w ate r r o se i n a s p out
f ro m a h ole i n t h e w ate r b eh in d h er s h ould er. H e t u rn ed u nder w ate r a n d
c am e u p i n f ro nt o f h er a n d s h ook h is h ead . “ I c u t i t t o o f in e,” h e s a id .
They s w am o ut t o t h e p oin t a n d b ack a n d t h en w ip ed e ach o th er d ry a n d
d re sse d o n t h e b each .
“Y ou r e ally l ik ed m e d iv in g t h at c lo se ?”
“I l o ved i t.”
He k is se d h er a n d s h e f e lt c o ol a n d f re sh f ro m t h e s w im min g a n d s h e s till
t a ste d o f t h e s e a.

C ath erin e c am e i n w hile t h ey w ere s till s ittin g a t t h e b ar. S he w as t ir e d a n d
q uie t a n d p olite .

At t h e t a b le s h e s a id , “ I w en t t o N ic e a n d t h en d ro ve t h e l ittle C orn ic h e
an d I s to pped u p a b ove V ille fra n ch e a n d w atc h ed a b attle c ru is e r c o m e i n a n d
th en i t w as l a te .”
“Y ou w ere n ’t v ery l a te ,” M arita s a id .
“B ut i t w as v ery s tr a n ge,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A ll t h e c o lo rs w ere t o o b rig ht.
Even t h e g ra y s w ere b rig ht. T he o liv e t r e es w ere g litte ry .”
“T hat’ s t h e n oon l ig ht,” D av id s a id .
“N o. I d on’t t h in k s o ,” s h e s a id . “ It w asn ’t v ery n ic e a n d i t w as l o vely
when I s to pped t o w atc h t h e s h ip . S he d id n’t l o ok b ig t o h av e s u ch a b ig
nam e.”
“P le ase e at s o m e o f t h e s te ak ,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou’v e e ate n h ard ly
an yth in g.”
“I’m s o rry ,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s g ood. I l ik e t o urn ed os.”
“W ould y ou l ik e s o m eth in g i n ste ad o f t h e m eat? ”
“N o. I ’ll e at t h e s a la d . D o y ou t h in k w e c o uld h av e a b ottle o f t h e P errie r-
Jo uët? ”
“O f c o urs e .”
“It w as a lw ay s s u ch a n ic e w in e,” s h e s a id . “ A nd w e w ere a lw ay s s o
hap py w ith i t.”
Afte rw ard i n t h eir r o om C ath erin e s a id , “ D on’t w orry , D av id , p le ase . I t’ s
ju st s p eed ed u p s o m uch l a te ly .”
“H ow ?” h e a sk ed . H e w as s tr o kin g h er f o re h ead .
“I d on’t k now . A ll o f a s u dden I w as o ld t h is m orn in g a n d i t w asn ’t e v en
th e r ig ht t im e o f y ear. T hen t h e c o lo rs s ta rte d t o b e f a ls e . I w orrie d a n d
wan te d t o g et y ou t a k en c are o f.”
“Y ou t a k e w onderfu l c are o f e v ery body.”
“I’m g oin g t o b ut I w as s o t ir e d a n d t h ere w asn ’t a n y t im e a n d I k new i t
would b e s o h um ilia tin g i f t h e m oney r a n o ut a n d y ou h ad t o b orro w a n d I
had n’t f ix ed u p a n yth in g n or s ig ned a n yth in g a n d j u st b een s lo ppy t h e w ay
I’v e b een . T hen I w orrie d a b out y our d og.”
“M y d og?”
“Y es y our d og i n A fric a i n t h e s to ry . I w en t i n t h e r o om t o s e e i f y ou
need ed a n yth in g a n d I r e ad t h e s to ry . W hile y ou a n d M arita w ere t a lk in g i n
th e o th er r o om . I d id n’t l is te n . Y ou l e ft y our k ey s i n t h e s h orts y ou c h an ged
fro m .”
“It’ s a b out h alf t h ro ugh,” h e t o ld h er.
“It’ s w onderfu l,” s h e s a id . “ B ut i t f rig hte n s m e. T he e le p han t w as s o

str a n ge a n d y our f a th er t o o. I n ev er l ik ed h im b ut I l ik e t h e d og b ette r t h an
an yone e x cep t y ou D av id , a n d I ’m s o w orrie d a b out h im .”
“H e w as a w onderfu l d og. Y ou d on’t h av e t o w orry a b out h im .”
“C an I r e ad a b out w hat h ap pen ed t o h im t o day i n t h e s to ry ?”
“S ure , i f y ou w an t t o . B ut h e’s a t t h e s h am ba n ow a n d y ou d on’t n eed t o
worry a b out h im .”
“If h e’s a ll r ig ht I w on’t r e ad i t u ntil y ou g et b ack t o h im . K ib o. H e h ad a
lo vely n am e.”
“It’ s t h e n am e o f a m ounta in . T he o th er p art i s M aw en zi.”
“Y ou a n d K ib o. I l o ve y ou s o m uch . Y ou w ere s o m uch a lik e.”
“Y ou’re f e elin g b ette r, D ev il.”
“P ro bab ly ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I h ope s o . B ut i t w on’t l a st. D riv in g t h is
morn in g I w as s o v ery h ap py a n d t h en s u dden ly I w as o ld , s o o ld I d id n’t c are
an ym ore .”
“Y ou’re n ot o ld .”
“Y es I a m . I ’m o ld er t h an m y m oth er’s o ld c lo th es a n d I w on’t o utliv e
your d og. N ot e v en i n a s to ry .”

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D av id h ad f in is h ed w ritin g a n d h e w as e m pty a n d h ollo w -fe elin g f ro m h av in g
d riv en h im se lf l o ng p ast t h e p oin t w here h e s h ould h av e s to pped . H e d id n ot
t h in k i t m atte re d t h at d ay b ecau se i t w as t h e e x hau stio n p art o f t h e s to ry a n d
s o h e h ad f e lt t h e t ir e d ness a s s o on a s t h ey h ad p ic k ed u p t h e t r a il a g ain . F or a
l o ng t im e h e h ad b een f re sh er a n d i n b ette r s h ap e t h an t h e t w o m en a n d
i m patie n t w ith t h eir s lo w t r a ilin g a n d t h e r e g ula r h alts h is f a th er m ad e e ach
h our o n t h e h our. H e c o uld h av e m oved a h ead m uch f a ste r t h an J u m a a n d h is
f a th er b ut w hen h e s ta rte d t o t ir e t h ey w ere t h e s a m e a s e v er a n d a t n oon t h ey
t o ok o nly t h e u su al f iv e m in ute r e st a n d h e h ad s e en t h at J u m a w as i n cre asin g
t h e p ace a l ittle . P erh ap s h e w asn ’t. P erh ap s i t h ad o nly s e em ed f a ste r b ut t h e
d ung w as f re sh er n ow a lth ough i t w as n ot w arm y et t o t h e t o uch . J u m a g av e
h im t h e r if le t o c arry a fte r t h ey c am e o n t h e l a st p ile o f d ung b ut a fte r a n h our
h e l o oked a t h im a n d t o ok i t b ack . T hey h ad b een c lim bin g s te ad ily a cro ss a
s lo pe o f t h e m ounta in b ut n ow t h e t r a il w en t d ow n a n d f ro m a g ap i n t h e
f o re st h e s a w t h e b ro ken c o untr y a h ead .
“H ere ’s w here t h e t o ugh p art s ta rts , D av ey ,” h is f a th er s a id .
It w as t h en h e k new t h at h e s h ould h av e b een s e n t b ack t o t h e s h am ba
o nce h e h ad p ut t h em o n t h e t r a il. J u m a h ad k now n i t f o r a l o ng t im e. H is
f a th er k new i t n ow a n d t h ere w as n oth in g t o b e d one. I t w as a n oth er o f h is
m is ta k es a n d t h ere w as n oth in g t o d o n ow e x cep t g am ble . D av id l o oked
d ow n a t t h e b ig f la tte n ed c ir c le o f t h e p rin t o f t h e e le p han t f o ot a n d s a w
w here t h e b ra ck en h ad b een p re sse d d ow n a n d w here a b ro ken s te m o f a
f lo w erin g w eed w as d ry in g b ey ond t h e b re ak . J u m a p ic k ed i t u p a n d l o oked
a t t h e s u n. J u m a h an ded t h e b ro ken w eed t o D av id ’s f a th er a n d h is f a th er

ro lle d i t i n h is f in gers . D av id n otic ed t h e w hite f lo w ers t h at w ere d ro oped a n d
dry in g. B ut t h ey s till h ad n ot d rie d i n t h e s u n n or s h ed t h eir p eta ls .
“It’ s g oin g t o b e a b itc h ,” h is f a th er s a id . “ L et’ s g et g oin g.”
Late i n t h e a fte rn oon t h ey w ere s till t r a ck in g t h ro ugh t h e b ro ken c o untr y .
He h ad b een s le ep y n ow f o r a l o ng t im e a n d a s h e w atc h ed t h e t w o m en h e
knew t h at s le ep in ess w as h is r e al e n em y a n d h e f o llo w ed t h eir p ace a n d t r ie d
to m ove t h ro ugh a n d o ut o f t h e s le ep t h at d ead en ed h im . T he t w o m en
re lie v ed e ach o th er t r a ck in g o n t h e h our a n d t h e o ne w ho w as i n s e co nd p la ce
lo oked b ack a t h im a t r e g ula r i n te rv als t o c h eck i f h e w as w ith t h em . W hen
th ey m ad e a d ry c am p a t d ark i n t h e f o re st a g ain h e w en t t o s le ep a s s o on a s
he s a t d ow n a n d w oke w ith J u m a h old in g h is m occasin s a n d f e elin g h is b are
fe et f o r b lis te rs . H is f a th er h ad s p re ad h is c o at o ver h im a n d w as s ittin g b y
him w ith a p ie ce o f c o ld c o oked m eat a n d t w o b is c u its . H e o ffe re d h im a
wate r b ottle w ith c o ld t e a.
“H e’ll h av e t o f e ed , D av ey ,” h is f a th er s a id . “ Y our f e et a re i n g ood s h ap e.
They ’re a s s o und a s J u m a’s . E at t h is s lo w ly a n d d rin k s o m e t e a a n d g o t o
sle ep a g ain . W e h av en ’t a n y p ro ble m .”
“I’m s o rry I w as s o s le ep y.”
“Y ou a n d K ib o h unte d a n d t r a v elle d a ll l a st n ig ht. W hy s h ould n’t y ou b e
sle ep y? Y ou c an h av e a l ittle m ore m eat i f y ou w an t i t.”
“I’m n ot h ungry .”
“G ood. W e’re g ood f o r t h re e d ay s. W e’ll h it w ate r a g ain t o m orro w .
Ple n ty o f c re ek s c o m e o ff t h e m ounta in .”
“W here ’s h e g oin g?”
“Ju m a t h in ks h e k now s.”
“Is n ’t i t b ad ?”
“N ot t o o b ad , D av ey .”
“I’m g oin g b ack t o s le ep ,” D av id h ad s a id . “ I d on’t n eed y our c o at.”
“Ju m a a n d I a re a ll r ig ht,” h is f a th er s a id . “ I a lw ay s s le ep w arm y ou
know .”
Dav id w as a sle ep e v en b efo re h is f a th er s a id g ood n ig ht. T hen h e w oke
once w ith t h e m oonlig ht o n h is f a ce a n d h e t h ought o f t h e e le p han t w ith h is
gre at e ars m ovin g a s h e s to od i n t h e f o re st, h is h ead h ung d ow n w ith t h e
weig ht o f t h e t u sk s. D av id t h ought t h en i n t h e n ig ht t h at t h e h ollo w w ay h e
fe lt a s h e r e m em bere d h im w as f ro m w ak in g h ungry . B ut i t w as n ot a n d h e
fo und t h at o ut i n t h e n ex t t h re e d ay s.
In t h e s to ry h e h ad t r ie d t o m ak e t h e e le p han t c o m e a liv e a g ain a s h e a n d

Kib o h ad s e en h im i n t h e n ig ht w hen t h e m oon h ad r is e n . M ay be I c an , D av id
th ought, m ay be I c an . B ut a s h e l o ck ed u p t h e d ay ’s w ork a n d w en t o ut o f t h e
ro om a n d s h ut t h e d oor h e t o ld h im se lf , N o, y ou c an ’t d o i t. T he e le p han t w as
old a n d i f i t h ad n ot b een y our f a th er i t w ould h av e b een s o m eo ne e ls e . T here
is n oth in g y ou c an d o e x cep t t r y t o w rite i t t h e w ay t h at i t w as. S o y ou m ust
write e ach d ay b ette r t h an y ou p ossib ly c an a n d u se t h e s o rro w t h at y ou h av e
now t o m ak e y ou k now h ow t h e e arly s o rro w c am e. A nd y ou m ust a lw ay s
re m em ber t h e t h in gs y ou b elie v ed b ecau se i f y ou k now t h em t h ey w ill b e
th ere i n t h e w ritin g a n d y ou w on’t b etr a y t h em . T he w ritin g i s t h e o nly
pro gre ss y ou m ak e.
He w en t b eh in d t h e b ar a n d f o und t h e b ottle o f H aig a n d a c o ld h alf b ottle
of P errie r a n d m ad e h im se lf a d rin k a n d t o ok i t o ut i n t h e b ig k itc h en t o f in d
Mad am e. H e t o ld h er h e w as g oin g i n to C an nes a n d w ould n ot b e b ack f o r
lu nch . S he s c o ld ed h im a b out d rin kin g w his k ey o n a n e m pty s to m ach a n d h e
ask ed h er w hat s h e h ad c o ld t h at h e c o uld p ut i n t h e e m pty s to m ach w ith t h e
whis k ey . S he b ro ught o ut s o m e c o ld c h ic k en a n d s lic ed i t a n d p ut i t o n a p la te
an d m ad e a n e n div e s a la d a n d h e w en t i n to t h e b ar a n d m ad e a n oth er d rin k
an d c am e b ack t o s it d ow n a t t h e k itc h en t a b le .
“D on’t d rin k t h at n ow b efo re y ou e at, M onsie u r,” M ad am e s a id .
“It’ s g ood f o r m e,” h e t o ld h er. “ W e d ra n k i t a t t h e m ess l ik e w in e i n t h e
war.”
“It’ s a w onder y ou w ere n ’t a ll d ru nkard s.”
“L ik e t h e F re n ch ,” h e s a id a n d t h ey a rg ued F re n ch w ork in g c la ss d rin kin g
hab its , o n w hic h t h ey b oth a g re ed , a n d s h e t e ase d h im t h at h is w om en h ad
le ft h im . H e s a id t h at h e w as t ir e d o f t h em b oth a n d w asn ’t s h e r e ad y t o t a k e
th eir p la ce n ow ? N o, s h e s a id , h e w ould h av e t o s h ow m ore e v id en ce h e w as
a m an b efo re h e r o use d a w om an o f t h e M id i. H e s a id h e w as g oin g i n to
Can nes w here h e c o uld g et a p ro per m eal a n d w ould c o m e b ack l ik e a l io n
an d l e t t h e w om en o f t h e s o uth t a k e c are . T hey k is se d a ffe ctio nate ly w ith t h e
kis s o f t h e f a v oure d c lie n t a n d t h e b ra v e
f e m me
a n d t h en D av id w en t i n t o
ta k e a s h ow er, t o s h av e a n d t o c h an ge.
The s h ow er m ad e h im f e el g ood a n d h e w as c h eere d u p f ro m t a lk in g t o
Mad am e. I w onder w hat s h e w ould s a y i f s h e k new w hat i t w as a ll a b out, h e
th ought. T hin gs h ad c h an ged s in ce t h e w ar a n d b oth M onsie u r a n d M ad am e
had a s e n se o f s ty le a n d t h ey w is h ed t o m ove w ith t h e c h an ge. W e t h re e
clie n ts a re a ll
d e g en s t r è s b ie n .
S o l o ng a s i t p ay s a n d i s n ’t v io le n t t h ere i s
noth in g w ro ng w ith i t. T he R ussia n s a re g one, t h e B ritis h a re b eg in nin g t o b e

poor, t h e G erm an s a re r u in ed , a n d n ow t h ere i s t h is d is re g ard o f t h e
esta b lis h ed r u le s w hic h c an v ery w ell b e t h e s a lv atio n o f t h e w hole c o ast. W e
are p io neers i n o pen in g u p t h e s u m mer s e aso n w hic h i s s till r e g ard ed a s
mad ness. H e l o oked a t h is f a ce i n t h e m ir ro r w ith o ne s id e s h av ed . S till, h e
sa id t o h im se lf , y ou d on’t n eed t o b e s u ch a p io neer a s n ot t o s h av e t h e o th er
sid e. A nd t h en h e n ote d w ith c are fu l c ritic al d is ta ste t h e a lm ost s ilv ery
white n ess o f h is h air .
He h eard t h e B ugatti c o m e u p t h e l o ng s lo pe a n d t u rn o nto t h e g ra v el a n d
sto p.
Cath erin e c am e i n to t h e r o om . S he h ad a s c arf o ver h er h ead a n d
su ngla sse s o n a n d s h e t o ok t h em o ff a n d k is se d D av id . H e h eld h er c lo se a n d
sa id , “ H ow a re y ou?”
“N ot s o g ood,” s h e s a id . “ It w as t o o h ot.” S he s m ile d a t h im a n d p ut h er
fo re h ead o n h is s h ould er. “ I’m g la d I ’m h om e.”
He w en t o ut a n d m ad e a T om C ollin s a n d b ro ught i t i n t o C ath erin e w ho
had f in is h ed a c o ld s h ow er. S he t o ok t h e t a ll c o ld g la ss a n d s ip ped f ro m i t
an d t h en h eld i t a g ain st t h e s m ooth d ark s k in o f h er b elly . S he t o uch ed t h e
gla ss t o t h e t ip s o f e ach o f h er b re asts s o t h ey c am e e re ct a n d t h en t o ok a l o ng
sip a n d h eld t h e c o ld g la ss a g ain st h er b elly a g ain . “ T his i s w onderfu l,” s h e
sa id .
He k is se d h er a n d s h e s a id , “ O h, t h at’ s n ic e. I ’d f o rg otte n a b out t h at. I
don’t s e e a n y g ood r e aso n w hy I s h ould g iv e t h at u p. D o y ou?”
“N o.”
“W ell, I h av en ’t,” s h e s a id . “ I’m n ot g oin g t o t u rn y ou o ver t o s o m eo ne
els e p re m atu re ly . T hat w as a s illy i d ea.”
“G et d re sse d a n d c o m e o n o ut,” D av id s a id .
“N o. I w an t t o h av e f u n w ith y ou l ik e i n t h e o ld d ay s.”
“H ow ?”
“Y ou k now . T o m ak e y ou h ap py.”
“H ow h ap py?”
“T his .”
“B e c are fu l,” h e s a id .
“P le ase .”
“A ll r ig ht, i f y ou w an t.”
“T he w ay i t w as i n G ra u d u R oi t h e f ir s t t im e i t e v er h ap pen ed ?”
“If y ou w an t.”
“T han k y ou f o r g iv in g m e t h is t im e b ecau se — ”

“D on’t t a lk .”
“It’ s j u st l ik e G ra u d u R oi b ut i t’ s l o velie r b ecau se i t’ s i n t h e d ay tim e a n d
we l o ve e ach o th er m ore b ecau se I ’d g one a w ay . P le ase l e t’ s b e s lo w a n d
slo w a n d s lo w — ”
“Y es s lo w .”
“A re y ou— ”
“Y es.”
“A re y ou r e ally ?”
“Y es i f y ou w an t.”
“O h I w an t s o m uch a n d y ou a re a n d I h av e. P le ase b e s lo w a n d l e t m e
keep i t.”
“Y ou h av e i t.”
“Y es I d o. I d o h av e i t. O h y es I d o. I d o. P le ase c o m e n ow w ith m e.
Ple ase c an y ou n ow — ”
They l a y o n t h e s h eets a n d C ath erin e w ith h er b ro w n l e g o ver h is ,
to uch in g h is i n ste p l ig htly w ith h er t o es, r e ste d o n h er e lb ow s a n d l if te d h er
mouth f ro m h is a n d s a id , “ A re y ou g la d t o h av e m e b ack ?”
“Y ou,” h e s a id . “ Y ou d id c o m e b ack .”
“Y ou n ev er t h ought I w ould . Y este rd ay i t w as a ll g one a n d e v ery th in g
was o ver a n d n ow h ere I a m . A re y ou h ap py?”
“Y es.”
“D o y ou r e m em ber w hen a ll I w an te d w as t o b e s o d ark a n d n ow I ’m t h e
dark est w hite g ir l i n t h e w orld .”
“A nd t h e b lo ndest. Y ou’re j u st l ik e i v ory . T hat’ s h ow I a lw ay s t h in k.
You’re s m ooth a s i v ory t o o.”
“I’m s o h ap py a n d I w an t t o h av e f u n w ith y ou t h e w ay w e a lw ay s h ad .
But m in e i s m in e. I ’m n ot g oin g t o t u rn y ou o ver t o h er t h e w ay I w as d oin g
an d k eep n oth in g. T hat’ s o ver.”
“It’ s n ot a w fu lly c le ar,” D av id s a id . “ B ut y ou r e ally a re f in e a g ain , a re n ’t
you?”
“I r e ally a m ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m n ot g lo om y o r m orb id o r p itif u l.”
“Y ou’re n ic e a n d l o vely .”
“It’ s a ll w onderfu l a n d c h an ged . W e’re g oin g t o t a k e t u rn s,” C ath erin e
sa id . “ Y ou’re m in e t o day a n d t o m orro w . A nd y ou’re M arita ’s t h e n ex t t w o
day s. M y G od, I ’m h ungry . T his i s t h e f ir s t t im e I ’v e b een h ungry i n a w eek .”

When D av id a n d C ath erin e c am e b ack f ro m s w im min g i n t h e l a te a fte rn oon

th ey d ro ve i n to C an nes f o r t h e P aris p ap ers a n d t h en s a t a t t h e c afe a n d r e ad
an d t a lk ed b efo re t h ey c am e h om e. A fte r D av id h ad c h an ged h e f o und M arita
sittin g a t t h e b ar r e ad in g. H e r e co gniz ed t h e b ook a s h is o w n. T he o ne s h e
had n ot r e ad . “ D id y ou h av e a g ood s w im ?” s h e a sk ed .
“Y es. W e s w am a l o ng w ay o ut.”
“D id y ou d iv e f ro m t h e h ig h r o ck s? ”
“N o.”
“I’m g la d o f t h at,” s h e s a id . “ H ow i s C ath erin e?”
“M ore c h eerfu l.”
“Y es. S he i s v ery i n te llig en t.”
“H ow a re y ou? A re y ou a ll r ig ht? ”
“V ery w ell. I ’m r e ad in g t h is b ook.”
“H ow i s i t? ”
“I c an ’t t e ll y ou t ill d ay a fte r t o m orro w . I ’m r e ad in g v ery s lo w ly t o m ak e
it l a st.”
“W hat’ s t h at? T he p act? ”
“I s u ppose s o . B ut I w ould n’t w orry v ery m uch a b out t h e b ook n or h ow I
fe el a b out y ou. I t’ s n ot c h an ged .”
“A ll r ig ht,” D av id s a id . “ B ut I m is se d y ou v ery b ad ly t h is m orn in g.”
“D ay a fte r t o m orro w ,” s h e s a id . “ D on’t w orry .”

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T he n ex t d ay i n t h e s to ry w as v ery b ad b ecau se l o ng b efo re n oon h e k new
t h at i t w as n ot j u st t h e n eed f o r s le ep t h at m ad e t h e d if fe re n ce b etw een a b oy
a n d m en . F or t h e f ir s t t h re e h ours h e w as f re sh er t h an t h ey w ere a n d h e a sk ed
J u m a f o r t h e .3 03 r if le t o c arry b ut J u m a s h ook h is h ead . H e d id n ot s m ile a n d
h e h ad a lw ay s b een D av id ’s b est f rie n d a n d h ad t a u ght h im t o h unt. H e
o ffe re d i t t o m e y este rd ay , D av id t h ought, a n d I ’m i n m uch b ette r s h ap e t o day
t h an I w as y este rd ay . H e w as t o o b ut b y t e n o ’c lo ck h e k new t h e d ay w ould
b e b ad o r w ors e t h an t h e d ay b efo re . I t w as a s s illy f o r h im t o t h in k t h at h e
c o uld t r a il w ith h is f a th er a s t o t h in k h e c o uld f ig ht w ith h im . H e k new t o o
t h at i t w as n ot j u st t h at t h ey w ere m en . T hey w ere p ro fe ssio nal h unte rs a n d h e
k new n ow t h at w as w hy J u m a w ould n ot e v en w aste a s m ile . T hey k new
e v ery th in g t h e e le p han t h ad d one, p oin te d o ut t h e s ig ns o f i t t o e ach o th er
w ith out s p eak in g, a n d w hen t h e t r a ck in g b ecam e d if fic u lt h is f a th er a lw ay s
y ie ld ed t o J u m a. W hen t h ey s to pped t o f ill t h e w ate r b ottle s a t a s tr e am h is
f a th er s a id , “ Ju st l a st t h e d ay o ut, D av ey .” T hen w hen t h ey w ere f in ally p ast
t h e b ro ken c o untr y a n d c lim bin g a g ain t o w ard t h e f o re st t h e t r a ck s o f t h e
e le p han t t u rn ed o ff t o t h e r ig ht o nto a n o ld e le p han t t r a il. H e s a w h is f a th er
a n d J u m a t a lk in g a n d w hen h e g ot u p t o t h em J u m a w as l o okin g b ack o ver
t h e w ay t h ey h ad c o m e a n d t h en a t a f a r d is ta n t s to ny i s la n d o f h ills i n t h e d ry
c o untr y a n d s e em ed t o b e t a k in g a b earin g o f t h is a g ain st t h e p eak s o f t h re e
f a r b lu e h ills o n t h e h oriz o n.
“Ju m a k now s w here h e’s g oin g n ow ,” h is f a th er e x pla in ed . “ H e t h ought
h e k new b efo re b ut t h en h e d ro pped d ow n i n to t h is s tu ff.” H e l o oked b ack a t
t h e c o untr y t h ey h ad c o m e t h ro ugh a ll d ay . “ W here h e’s h ead ed n ow i s p re tty

good g oin g b ut w e’ll h av e t o c lim b.”
They h ad c lim bed u ntil i t w as d ark a n d t h en m ad e a n oth er d ry c am p.
Dav id h ad k ille d t w o s p ur f o w l w ith h is s lin gsh ot o ut o f a s m all f lo ck t h at
had w alk ed a cro ss t h e t r a il j u st b efo re t h e s u nse t. T he b ir d s h ad c o m e i n to t h e
old e le p han t t r a il t o d ust, w alk in g n eatly a n d p lu m ply , a n d w hen t h e p eb ble
bro ke t h e b ack o f o ne a n d t h e b ir d b eg an t o j e rk a n d t o ss w ith i ts w in gs
th um pin g, a n oth er b ir d r a n f o rw ard t o p eck a t i t a n d D av id p ouch ed a n oth er
peb ble a n d p ulle d i t b ack a n d s e n t i t a g ain st t h e r ib s o f t h e s e co nd b ir d . A s h e
ra n f o rw ard t o p ut h is h an d o n i t t h e o th er b ir d s w hir re d o ff. J u m a h ad l o oked
back a n d s m ile d t h is t im e a n d D av id p ic k ed u p t h e t w o b ir d s, w arm a n d
plu m p a n d s m ooth ly f e ath ere d a n d k nock ed t h eir h ead s a g ain st t h e h an dle o f
his h untin g k nif e .
Now w here t h ey w ere c am ped f o r t h e n ig ht h is f a th er s a id , “ I’v e n ev er
se en t h at t y pe o f F ra n co lin q uite s o h ig h. Y ou d id v ery w ell t o g et a d ouble
on t h em .”
Ju m a c o oked t h e b ir d s s p itte d o n a s tic k o ver t h e c o als o f a v ery s m all
fir e . H is f a th er d ra n k a w his k ey a n d w ate r f ro m t h e c u p t o p o f h is f la sk a s
th ey l a y a n d w atc h ed J u m a c o ok. A fte rw ard J u m a g av e t h em e ach a b re ast
with t h e h eart i n i t a n d a te t h e t w o n eck s a n d b ack s a n d t h e l e g s h im se lf .
“It m ak es a g re at d if fe re n ce, D av ey ,” h is f a th er s a id . “ W e’re v ery w ell o ff
on r a tio ns n ow .”
“H ow f a r a re w e b eh in d h im ?” D av id a sk ed .
“W e’re q uite c lo se a ctu ally ,” h is f a th er s a id . “ It a ll d ep en ds o n w heth er
he t r a v els w hen t h e m oon c o m es u p. I t’ s a n h our l a te r t o nig ht a n d t w o h ours
la te r t h an w hen y ou f o und h im .”
“W hy d oes J u m a t h in k h e k now s w here h e’s g oin g?”
“H e w ounded h im a n d k ille d h is
a sk a ri
n ot t o o f a r f ro m h ere .”
“W hen ?”
“F iv e y ears a g o, h e s a y s. T hat m ay m ean a n ytim e. W hen y ou w ere s till a
to to
h e s a y s.”
“H as h e b een a lo ne s in ce t h en ?”
“H e s a y s s o . H e h asn ’t s e en h im . O nly h eard o f h im .”
“H ow b ig d oes h e s a y h e i s ? ”
“C lo se t o t w o h undre d . B ig ger t h an a n yth in g I ’v e e v er s e en . H e s a y s
th ere ’s o nly b een o ne g re ate r e le p han t a n d h e c am e f ro m n ear h ere t o o.”
“I’d b ette r g et t o s le ep ,” D av id s a id . “ I h ope I ’ll b e b ette r t o m orro w .”
“Y ou w ere s p le n did t o day ,” h is f a th er s a id . “ I w as v ery p ro ud o f y ou. S o

was J u m a.”
In t h e n ig ht w hen h e w oke a fte r t h e m oon w as u p h e w as s u re t h ey w ere
not p ro ud o f h im e x cep t p erh ap s f o r h is d ex te rity i n k illin g t h e t w o b ir d s. H e
had f o und t h e e le p han t a t n ig ht a n d f o llo w ed h im t o s e e t h at h e h ad b oth o f
his t u sk s a n d t h en r e tu rn ed t o f in d t h e t w o m en a n d p ut t h em o n t h e t r a il.
Dav id k new t h ey w ere p ro ud o f t h at. B ut o nce t h e d ead ly f o llo w in g s ta rte d h e
was u se le ss t o t h em a n d a d an ger t o t h eir s u ccess j u st a s K ib o h ad b een t o
him w hen h e h ad g one u p c lo se t o t h e e le p han t i n t h e n ig ht, a n d h e k new t h ey
must e ach h av e h ate d t h em se lv es f o r n ot h av in g s e n t h im b ack w hen t h ere
was t im e. T he t u sk s o f t h e e le p han t w eig hed t w o h undre d p ounds a p ie ce.
Ever s in ce t h ese t u sk s h ad g ro w n b ey ond t h eir n orm al s iz e t h e e le p han t h ad
been h unte d f o r t h em a n d n ow t h e t h re e o f t h em w ould k ill h im . D av id w as
su re t h at t h ey w ould k ill h im n ow b ecau se h e, D av id , h ad l a ste d t h ro ugh t h e
day a n d k ep t u p a fte r t h e p ace h ad d estr o yed h im b y n oon. S o t h ey p ro bab ly
were p ro ud o f h im d oin g t h at. B ut h e h ad b ro ught n oth in g u se fu l t o t h e h unt
an d t h ey w ould h av e b een f a r b ette r o ff w ith out h im . M an y t im es d urin g t h e
day h e h ad w is h ed t h at h e h ad n ev er b etr a y ed t h e e le p han t a n d i n t h e
afte rn oon h e r e m em bere d w is h in g t h at h e h ad n ev er s e en h im . A wak e i n t h e
moonlig ht h e k new t h at w as n ot t r u e.
All m orn in g, w ritin g, h e h ad b een t r y in g t o r e m em ber t r u ly h ow h e f e lt
an d w hat h ad h ap pen ed o n t h at d ay . T he h ard est t o m ak e t r u ly w as h ow h e
had f e lt a n d k eep i t u ntin ctu re d b y h ow h e h ad f e lt l a te r. T he d eta ils o f t h e
co untr y w ere s h arp a n d c le ar a s t h e m orn in g u ntil t h e f o re sh orte n in g a n d
pro lo ngatio n o f e x hau stio n a n d h e h ad w ritte n t h at w ell. B ut h is f e elin g a b out
th e e le p han t h ad b een t h e h ard est p art a n d h e k new h e w ould h av e t o g et
aw ay f ro m i t a n d t h en c o m e b ack t o i t t o b e c erta in i t w as a s i t h ad b een , n ot
la te r, b ut o n t h at d ay . H e k new t h e f e elin g h ad b eg un t o f o rm b ut h e h ad b een
to o e x hau ste d t o r e m em ber i t e x actly .
Still i n volv ed i n t h is p ro ble m a n d l iv in g i n t h e s to ry h e l o ck ed u p h is
su itc ase a n d c am e o ut o f t h e r o om o nto t h e f la g sto nes t h at l e d d ow n t o t h e
te rra ce w here M arita w as s ittin g i n a c h air u nder o ne o f t h e p in es f a cin g o ut
to w ard t h e s e a. S he w as r e ad in g a n d a s h e w as w alk in g b are fo ote d s h e d id
not h ear h im . D av id l o oked a t h er a n d w as p le ase d t o s e e h er. T hen h e
re m em bere d t h e p re p oste ro us s itu atio n a n d t u rn ed i n to t h e h ote l a n d w alk ed
to h is a n d C ath erin e’s o w n r o om . S he w asn ’t i n t h e r o om a n d, s till f e elin g
Afric a t o b e c o m ple te ly r e al a n d a ll o f t h is w here h e w as t o b e u nre al a n d
fa ls e , h e w en t o ut o n t h e t e rra ce t o s p eak t o M arita .

“G ood m orn in g,” h e s a id . “ H av e y ou s e en C ath erin e?”
“S he w en t o ff s o m ew here ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ S he s a id t o t e ll y ou s h e’d b e
back .”
Sudden ly i t w as n ot u nre al a t a ll.
“Y ou d on’t k now w here s h e w en t? ”
“N o,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ S he w en t o ff o n h er b ik e.”
“M y G od,” D av id s a id . “ S he h asn ’t r id den a b ik e s in ce w e b ought t h e
Bug.”
“T hat’ s w hat s h e s a id . S he’s t a k in g i t u p a g ain . D id y ou h av e a g ood
morn in g?”
“I d on’t k now . I ’ll k now t o m orro w .”
“A re y ou e atin g b re ak fa st? ”
“I d on’t k now . I t’ s l a te .”
“I w is h y ou w ould .”
“I’ll g o i n a n d g et c le an ed u p,” h e t o ld h er.
He h ad t a k en a s h ow er a n d w as s h av in g w hen C ath erin e c am e i n . S he
was w earin g a n o ld G ra u d u R oi s h ir t a n d s h ort l in en s la ck s c h opped o ff
belo w t h e k nees a n d s h e w as h ot a n d h er s h ir t w as w et t h ro ugh.
“It’ s w onderfu l,” s h e s a id . “ B ut I ’d f o rg otte n w hat i t d oes t o y our u pper
th ig hs w hen y ou c lim b.”
“D id y ou r id e v ery f a r, D ev il? ”
“S ix k ilo m ete rs ,” s h e s a id . “ It w as n oth in g b ut I ’d f o rg otte n a b out t h e
cô te s.

“It’ s a w fu lly h ot t o r id e n ow u nle ss y ou g o i n t h e v ery e arly m orn in gs,”
Dav id s a id . “ I’m g la d y ou s ta rte d a g ain t h ough.”
She w as u nder t h e s h ow er n ow a n d w hen s h e c am e o ut s h e s a id , “ N ow
se e h ow d ark w e a re t o geth er. W e’re j u st t h e w ay w e p la n ned .”
“Y ou’re d ark er.”
“N ot m uch . Y ou’re t e rrib ly d ark t o o. L ook a t u s t o geth er.”
They l o oked a t e ach o th er s ta n din g t o uch in g i n t h e l o ng m ir ro r o n t h e
door.
“O h y ou l ik e u s,” s h e s a id . “ T hat’ s n ic e. S o d o I . T ouch h ere a n d s e e.”
She s to od v ery s tr a ig ht a n d h e p ut h is h an d o n h er b re asts .
“I’ll p ut o n o ne o f m y t ig ht s h ir ts s o y ou c an t e ll w hat I t h in k a b out
th in gs,” s h e s a id . “ Is n ’t i t f u nny o ur h air h asn ’t a n y c o lo r a t a ll w hen i t’ s w et?
It’ s p ale a s s e aw eed .”
She t o ok a c o m b a n d c o m bed h er h air s tr a ig ht b ack s o i t l o oked a s t h ough

sh e h ad j u st c o m e o ut o f t h e s e a.
“I’m g oin g t o w ear m in e t h is w ay n ow a g ain ,” s h e s a id . “ L ik e G ra u d u
Roi a n d h ere i n t h e s p rin g.”
“I l ik e i t a cro ss y our f o re h ead .”
“I’m t ir e d o f t h at. B ut I c an d o i t i f y ou l ik e. D o y ou t h in k w e c o uld g o
in to t o w n a n d h av e b re ak fa st a t t h e c afe ?”
“H av en ’t y ou h ad b re ak fa st? ”
“I w an te d t o w ait f o r y ou.”
“A ll r ig ht,” h e s a id . “ L et’ s g o i n a n d g et b re ak fa st. I ’m h ungry t o o.”
They h ad a v ery g ood b re ak fa st o f c afé a u l a it, b rio ch e a n d s tr a w berry
ja m a n d
o eu fs a u p la t a vec j a m bon
a n d w hen t h ey w ere f in is h ed C ath erin e
ask ed , “ W ould y ou c o m e o ver w ith m e t o J e an ’s ? I t’ s t h e d ay I g o t o g et m y
hair w ash ed a n d I ’m g oin g t o h av e i t c u t.”
“I’ll w ait h ere f o r y ou.”
“W ould n’t y ou p le ase c o m e? Y ou d id i t b efo re a n d i t w asn ’t b ad f o r
an ybody.”
“N o, D ev il. I d id o nce b ut t h at w as j u st o nce. L ik e g ettin g t a tto oed o r
so m eth in g. D on’t a sk m e t o .”
“It d oesn ’t m ean a n yth in g e x cep t t o m e. I w an t u s t o b e j u st t h e s a m e.”
“W e c an ’t b e t h e s a m e.”
“Y es w e c o uld i f y ou’d l e t u s.”
“I r e ally d on’t w an t t o d o i t.”
“N ot i f I s a y i t’ s a ll I w an t? ”
“W hy c an ’t y ou w an t s o m eth in g t h at m ak es s e n se ?”
“I d o. B ut I w an t u s t o b e t h e s a m e a n d y ou a lm ost a re a n d i t w ould n’t b e
an y t r o uble t o d o. T he s e a’s d one a ll t h e w ork .”
“T hen l e t t h e s e a d o i t.”
“I w an t i t f o r t o day .”
“T hen y ou’ll b e h ap py I s u ppose .”
“I’m h ap py n ow b ecau se y ou’re g oin g t o d o i t a n d I ’ll s ta y h ap py. Y ou
lo ve h ow I l o ok. Y ou k now y ou d o. T hin k o f i t t h at w ay .”
“It’ s s illy .”
“N o i t i s n ’t. N ot w hen i t’ s y ou a n d y ou d o i t t o p le ase m e.”
“H ow b ad ly w ill y ou f e el i f I d on’t? ”
“I d on’t k now . B ut v ery .”
“A ll r ig ht,” h e s a id . “ It r e ally m ean s a ll t h at t o y ou?”
“Y es,” s h e s a id . “ O h, t h an k y ou. I t w on’t t a k e v ery l o ng t h is t im e. I t o ld

Je an w e’d b e t h ere a n d h e’s s ta y in g o pen f o r u s.”
“A re y ou a lw ay s t h at c o nfid en t I ’ll d o t h in gs? ”
“I k new y ou w ould i f y ou k new h ow m uch I w an te d i t.”
“I w an te d v ery m uch n ot t o . Y ou s h ould n’t a sk i t.”
“Y ou w on’t c are . I t’ s n oth in g a n d a fte rw ard s i t w ill b e f u n. D on’t w orry
ab out M arita .”
“W hat a b out h er? ”
“S he s a id t h at i f y ou w ould n’t d o i t f o r m e t o a sk y ou i f y ou’d d o i t f o r
her.”
“D on’t m ak e t h in gs u p.”
“N o. S he s a id i t t h is m orn in g.”

“I w is h y ou c o uld s e e y ours e lf ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“I’m g la d I c an ’t.”
“I w is h y ou’d l o oked i n t h e g la ss.”
“I c o uld n’t.”
“Ju st l o ok a t m e. T hat’ s h ow y ou a re a n d I d id i t a n d t h ere ’s n oth in g y ou
can d o n ow . T hat’ s h ow y ou l o ok.”
“W e c o uld n’t r e ally h av e d one t h at,” D av id s a id . “ I c o uld n’t l o ok t h e w ay
you d o.”
“W ell, w e d id ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A nd y ou d o. S o y ou b ette r s ta rt t o l ik e
it.”
“W e c an ’t h av e d one t h at, D ev il.”
“Y es w e d id . Y ou k new i t t o o. Y ou j u st w ould n’t l o ok. A nd w e’re
dam ned n ow . I w as a n d n ow y ou a re . L ook a t m e a n d s e e h ow m uch y ou l ik e
it.”
Dav id l o oked a t h er e y es t h at h e l o ved a n d a t h er d ark f a ce a n d t h e
in cre d ib ly f la t i v ory c o lo r o f h er h air a n d a t h ow h ap py s h e l o oked a n d h e
beg an t o r e aliz e w hat a c o m ple te ly s tu pid t h in g h e h ad p erm itte d .

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H e d id n ot t h in k t h at h e c o uld g o o n w ith t h e s to ry t h at m orn in g a n d f o r a
l o ng t im e h e c o uld n ot. B ut h e k new t h at h e m ust a n d f in ally h e h ad s ta rte d
a n d t h ey w ere f o llo w in g t h e s p oor o f t h e e le p han t o n a n o ld e le p han t t r a il t h at
w as a h ard p ack ed w orn r o ad t h ro ugh t h e f o re st. I t l o oked a s t h ough
e le p han ts h ad t r a v elle d i t e v er s in ce t h e l a v a h ad c o ole d f ro m t h e m ounta in
a n d t h e t r e es h ad f ir s t g ro w n t a ll a n d c lo se . J u m a w as v ery c o nfid en t a n d t h ey
m oved f a st. B oth h is f a th er a n d J u m a s e em ed v ery s u re o f t h em se lv es a n d t h e
g oin g o n t h e e le p han t r o ad w as s o e asy t h at J u m a g av e h im t h e .3 03 t o c arry
a s t h ey w en t o n t h ro ugh t h e b ro ken l ig ht o f t h e f o re st. T hen t h ey l o st t h e t r a il
i n s m okin g p ile s o f f re sh d ung a n d t h e f la t r o und p rin ts o f a h erd o f e le p han ts
t h at h ad c o m e o nto t h e e le p han t r o ad f ro m t h e h eav y f o re st o n t h e l e ft o f t h e
t r a il. J u m a h ad t a k en t h e .3 03 f ro m D av id a n grily . I t w as a fte rn oon b efo re
t h ey h ad w ork ed u p t o t h e h erd a n d a ro und i t s e ein g t h e g ra y b ulk s t h ro ugh
t h e t r e es a n d t h e m ovem en t o f t h e b ig e ars a n d t h e s e arc h in g t r u nks c o ilin g
a n d u nco ilin g, t h e c ra sh o f b ra n ch es b ro ken , t h e c ra sh o f t r e es p ush ed o ver
a n d t h e r u m blin g i n t h e b ellie s o f t h e e le p han ts a n d t h e s la p a n d t h ud o f t h e
d ung f a llin g.
They h ad f o und t h e t r a il o f t h e o ld b ull f in ally a n d w hen i t t u rn ed o ff o nto
a s m alle r e le p han t r o ad J u m a h ad l o oked a t D av id ’s f a th er a n d g rin ned
s h ow in g h is f ile d t e eth a n d h is f a th er h ad n odded h is h ead . T hey l o oked a s
t h ough t h ey h ad a d ir ty s e cre t, j u st a s t h ey h ad l o oked w hen h e h ad f o und
t h em t h at n ig ht a t t h e s h am ba.
It w as n ot v ery l o ng b efo re t h ey c am e o n t h e s e cre t. I t w as o ff t o t h e r ig ht
i n t h e f o re st a n d t h e t r a ck s o f t h e o ld b ull l e d t o i t. I t w as a s k ull a s h ig h a s

Dav id ’s c h est a n d w hite f ro m t h e s u n a n d t h e r a in s. T here w as a d eep
dep re ssio n i n t h e f o re h ead a n d r id ges r a n f ro m b etw een t h e b are w hite e y e
so ck ets a n d f la re d o ut i n e m pty b ro ken h ole s w here t h e t u sk s h ad b een
ch opped a w ay . J u m a p oin te d o ut w here t h e g re at e le p han t t h ey w ere t r a ilin g
had s to od w hile h e l o oked d ow n a t t h e s k ull a n d w here h is t r u nk h ad m oved
it a l ittle w ay f ro m t h e p la ce i t h ad r e ste d o n t h e g ro und a n d w here t h e p oin ts
of h is t u sk s h ad t o uch ed t h e g ro und b esid e i t. H e s h ow ed D av id t h e s in gle
hole i n t h e b ig d ep re ssio n i n t h e w hite b one o f f o re h ead a n d t h en t h e f o ur
hole s c lo se t o geth er i n t h e b one a ro und t h e e ar h ole . H e g rin ned a t D av id a n d
at h is f a th er a n d t o ok a .3 03 s o lid f ro m h is p ock et a n d f itte d t h e n ose i n to t h e
hole i n t h e b one o f t h e f o re h ead .
“H ere i s w here J u m a w ounded t h e b ig b ull,” h is f a th er s a id . “ T his w as h is
ask a ri.
H is f rie n d, r e ally , b ecau se h e w as a b ig b ull t o o. H e c h arg ed a n d J u m a
knock ed h im d ow n a n d f in is h ed h im i n t h e e ar.”
Ju m a w as p oin tin g o ut t h e s c atte re d b ones a n d h ow t h e b ig b ull h ad
walk ed a ro und a m ong t h em . J u m a a n d D av id ’s f a th er w ere b oth v ery p le ase d
with w hat t h ey h ad f o und.
“H ow l o ng d o y ou s u ppose h e a n d h is f rie n d h ad b een t o geth er? ” D av id
ask ed h is f a th er.
“I h av en ’t t h e f a in te st i d ea,” h is f a th er s a id . “ A sk J u m a.”
“Y ou a sk h im p le ase .”
His f a th er a n d J u m a s p oke t o geth er a n d J u m a h ad l o oked a t D av id a n d
la u ghed .
“P ro bab ly f o ur o r f iv e t im es y our l if e h e s a y s,” D av id ’s f a th er t o ld h im .
“H e d oesn ’t k now o r c are r e ally .”
I c are , D av id t h ought. I s a w h im i n t h e m oonlig ht a n d h e w as a lo ne b ut I
had K ib o. K ib o h as m e t o o. T he b ull w asn ’t d oin g a n yone a n y h arm a n d n ow
we’v e t r a ck ed h im t o w here h e c am e t o s e e h is d ead f rie n d a n d n ow w e’re
goin g t o k ill h im . I t’ s m y f a u lt. I b etr a y ed h im .
Now J u m a h ad w ork ed o ut t h e t r a il a n d m otio ned t o h is f a th er a n d t h ey
sta rte d o n.
My f a th er d oesn ’t n eed t o k ill e le p han ts t o l iv e, D av id t h ought. J u m a
would n ot h av e f o und h im i f I h ad n ot s e en h im . H e h ad h is c h an ce a t h im
an d a ll h e d id w as w ound h im a n d k ill h is f rie n d. K ib o a n d I f o und h im a n d I
nev er s h ould h av e t o ld t h em a n d I s h ould h av e k ep t h im s e cre t a n d h ad h im
alw ay s a n d l e t t h em s ta y d ru nk w ith t h eir
b ib is
a t t h e b eer s h am ba. J u m a w as
so d ru nk w e c o uld n ot w ak e h im . I ’m g oin g t o k eep e v ery th in g a s e cre t

alw ay s. I ’ll n ev er t e ll t h em a n yth in g a g ain . I f t h ey k ill h im J u m a w ill d rin k
his s h are o f t h e i v ory o r j u st b uy h im se lf a n oth er g od d am n w if e . W hy d id n’t
you h elp t h e e le p han t w hen y ou c o uld ? A ll y ou h ad t o d o w as n ot g o o n t h e
se co nd d ay . N o, t h at w ould n’t h av e s to pped t h em . J u m a w ould h av e g one o n.
You n ev er s h ould h av e t o ld t h em . N ev er, n ev er t e ll t h em . T ry a n d r e m em ber
th at. N ev er t e ll a n yone a n yth in g e v er. N ev er t e ll a n yone a n yth in g a g ain .
His f a th er w aite d f o r h im t o c o m e u p a n d s a id v ery g en tly , “ H e r e ste d
here . H e’s n ot t r a v ellin g a s h e w as. W e’ll b e u p o n h im a n ytim e n ow .”
“F uck e le p han t h untin g,” D av id h ad s a id v ery q uie tly .
“W hat’ s t h at? ” h is f a th er a sk ed .
“F uck e le p han t h untin g,” D av id s a id s o ftly .
“B e c are fu l y ou d on’t f u ck i t u p,” h is f a th er h ad s a id t o h im a n d l o oked a t
him f la tly .
That’ s o ne t h in g, D av id h ad t h ought. H e’s n ot s tu pid . H e k now s a ll a b out
it n ow a n d h e w ill n ev er t r u st m e a g ain . T hat’ s g ood. I d on’t w an t h im t o
becau se I ’ll n ev er e v er t e ll h im o r a n ybody a n yth in g a g ain n ev er a n yth in g
ag ain . N ev er e v er n ev er.
That w as w here h e s to pped i n t h e h unt t h at m orn in g. H e k new h e d id n ot
hav e i t r ig ht y et. H e h ad n ot g otte n t h e e n orm ity o f t h e s k ull a s t h ey h ad c o m e
onto i t i n t h e f o re st n or t h e t u nnels u ndern eath i t i n t h e e arth t h at t h e b eetle s
had m ad e a n d t h at h ad b een r e v eale d l ik e d ese rte d g alle rie s o r c ata co m bs
when t h e e le p han t h ad m oved t h e s k ull. H e h ad n ot m ad e t h e g re at l e n gth o f
th e w hite n ed b ones n or h ow t h e e le p han t’ s t r a ck s h ad m oved a ro und t h e
sc en e o f t h e k illin g a n d h ow f o llo w in g t h em h e h ad b een a b le t o s e e t h e
ele p han t a s h e h ad m oved a n d t h en h ad b een a b le t o s e e w hat t h e e le p han t
had s e en . H e h ad n ot g otte n t h e g re at w id th o f t h e o ne e le p han t t r a il t h at w as
a p erfe ct r o ad t h ro ugh t h e f o re st n or t h e w orn s m ooth r u bbin g t r e es n or t h e
way o th er t r a ils i n te rs e cte d s o t h at t h ey w ere l ik e t h e m ap o f t h e M étr o i n
Paris . H e h ad n ot m ad e t h e l ig ht i n t h e f o re st w here t h e t r e es c am e t o geth er a t
th eir t o ps a n d h e h ad n ot c la rif ie d c erta in t h in gs t h at h e m ust m ak e a s t h ey
were t h en , n ot a s h e r e calle d t h em n ow . T he d is ta n ces d id n ot m atte r s in ce a ll
dis ta n ces c h an ged a n d h ow y ou r e m em bere d t h em w as h ow t h ey w ere . B ut
his c h an ge o f f e elin g t o w ard J u m a a n d t o w ard h is f a th er a n d t o w ard t h e
ele p han t w as c o m plic ate d b y t h e e x hau stio n t h at h ad b re d i t. T ir e d ness
bro ught t h e b eg in nin g o f u nders ta n din g. T he u nders ta n din g w as b eg in nin g
an d h e w as r e aliz in g i t a s h e w ro te . B ut t h e d re ad fu l t r u e u nders ta n din g w as
all t o c o m e a n d h e m ust n ot s h ow i t b y a rb itr a ry s ta te m en ts o f r h eto ric b ut b y

re m em berin g t h e a ctu al t h in gs t h at h ad b ro ught i t. T om orro w h e w ould g et
th e t h in gs r ig ht a n d t h en g o o n.
He p ut t h e c ah ie rs o f m an usc rip t a w ay i n t h e s u itc ase a n d l o ck ed i t a n d
cam e o ut t h e d oor o f h is r o om a n d w alk ed a lo ng t h e f ro nt o f t h e h ote l t o
where M arita w as r e ad in g.
“D o y ou w an t b re ak fa st? ” s h e a sk ed .
“I t h in k I ’d l ik e a d rin k.”
“L et’ s h av e i t a t t h e b ar,” s h e s a id . “ It’ s c o ole r.”
They w en t i n a n d s a t d ow n o n s to ols a n d D av id p oure d f ro m t h e H aig
Pin ch b ottle i n to a g la ss a n d f ille d i t u p w ith c o ld P errie r.
“W hat b ecam e o f C ath erin e?”
“S he l e ft v ery h ap py a n d g ay .”
“A nd h ow a re y ou?”
“H ap py a n d s h y a n d r a th er q uie t.”
“T oo s h y f o r m e t o k is s y ou?”
They h eld e ach o th er a n d h e c o uld f e el h im se lf s ta rt t o b e w hole a g ain .
He h ad n ot k now n j u st h ow g re atly h e h ad b een d iv id ed a n d s e p ara te d
becau se o nce h e s ta rte d t o w ork h e w ro te f ro m a n i n ner c o re w hic h c o uld n ot
be s p lit n or e v en m ark ed n or s c ra tc h ed . H e k new a b out t h is a n d i t w as h is
str e n gth s in ce a ll t h e r e st o f h im c o uld b e r iv en .
They s a t a t t h e b ar w hile t h e b oy l a id t h e t a b le a n d t h e f ir s t c o oln ess o f
fa ll w as i n t h e b re eze f ro m t h e s e a a n d t h en s ittin g a t t h e t a b le u nder t h e p in es
th ey f e lt i t a g ain a s t h ey a te a n d d ra n k.
“T his c o ol b re eze c o m es a ll t h e w ay f ro m K urd is ta n ,” D av id s a id . “ T he
eq uin octia l s to rm s w ill b e c o m in g s o on.”
“T hey w on’t c o m e t o day ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ W e d on’t h av e t o w orry a b out
th em t o day .”
“T here h asn ’t b een a b lo w o f a n y k in d s in ce w hen w e m et i n C an nes a t
th e c afe .”
“C an y ou s till r e m em ber t h in gs t h at l o ng a g o?”
“It s e em s f u rth er a w ay t h an t h e w ar.”
“I h ad t h e w ar t h e l a st t h re e d ay s,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ I j u st l e ft i t t h is
morn in g.”
“I n ev er t h in k a b out i t,” D av id s a id .
“N ow I ’v e r e ad i t,” M arita t o ld h im , “ b ut I d on’t u nders ta n d a b out y ou.
You n ev er m ad e c le ar w hat y ou b elie v ed .”
He f ille d h er g la ss a n d t h en r e fille d h is o w n.

“I d id n’t k now u ntil a fte rw ard s,” h e s a id . “ S o I d id n’t t r y t o a ct a s t h ough
I d id . I s u sp en ded t h in kin g a b out i t w hile i t w as h ap pen in g. I o nly f e lt a n d
sa w a n d a cte d a n d t h ought t a ctic ally . T hat’ s w hy i t’ s n ot a b ette r b ook.
Becau se I w asn ’t m ore i n te llig en t.”
“It i s a v ery g ood b ook. T he f ly in g p arts a re w onderfu l a n d t h e f e elin g f o r
th e o th er p eo ple a n d f o r t h e p la n es t h em se lv es.”
“I’m g ood o n o th er p eo ple a n d o n t e ch nic al a n d t a ctic al t h in gs,” D av id
sa id . “ I d on’t m ean t o t a lk w et o r t o b ra g . B ut, M arita , n obody k now s a b out
him se lf w hen h e i s r e ally i n volv ed . Y ours e lf i s n ’t w orth c o nsid erin g. I t w ould
be s h am efu l a t t h e t im e.”
“B ut a fte rw ard s y ou k now .”
“S ure . S om etim es.”
“C an I r e ad t h e n arra tiv e?”
Dav id p oure d w in e i n t h e g la sse s a g ain .
“H ow m uch d id s h e t e ll y ou?”
“S he s a id s h e t o ld m e e v ery th in g. S he t e lls t h in gs v ery w ell y ou k now .”
“I’d r a th er y ou d id n’t r e ad i t,” D av id s a id . “ A ll i t w ould d o i s m ak e
tr o uble . I d id n’t k now t h ere w ould b e y ou w hen I w ro te i t a n d I c an ’t h elp h er
te llin g y ou t h in gs b ut I d on’t h av e t o h av e y ou r e ad a b out t h em t o o.”
“T hen I m ustn ’t r e ad i t? ”
“I w is h y ou w ould n’t. I d on’t w an t t o g iv e y ou o rd ers .”
“T hen I h av e t o t e ll y ou,” t h e g ir l s a id .
“S he l e t y ou r e ad i t? ”
“Y es. S he s a id I s h ould .”
“G od d am n h er.”
“S he d id n’t d o i t t o d o w ro ng. I t w as w hen s h e w as s o w orrie d .”
“S o y ou r e ad i t a ll? ”
“Y es. I t’ s w onderfu l. I t’ s s o m uch b ette r t h an t h e l a st b ook a n d n ow t h e
sto rie s a re s o m uch b ette r t h an i t o r t h an a n yth in g.”
“W hat a b out t h e M ad rid p art? ” H e l o oked a t h er a n d s h e l o oked u p a t h im
an d t h en m ois te n ed h er l ip s a n d d id n ot l o ok a w ay a n d s h e s a id v ery
care fu lly , “ I k new a ll a b out t h at b ecau se I ’m j u st t h e w ay y ou a re .”

When t h ey w ere l y in g t o geth er M arita s a id , “ Y ou d on’t t h in k a b out h er w hen
you m ak e l o ve t o m e?”
“N o, s tu pid .”
“Y ou d on’t w an t m e t o d o h er t h in gs? B ecau se I k now t h em a ll a n d I c an

do t h em .”
“S to p t a lk in g a n d j u st f e el.”
“I c an d o t h em b ette r t h an s h e c an .”
“S to p t a lk in g.”
“D on’t t h in k y ou h av e t o — ”
“D on’t t a lk .”
“B ut y ou d on’t h av e t o — ”
“N o o ne h as t o b ut w e a re — ”
They l a y h old in g e ach o th er c lo se a n d h ard a n d t h en g en tly f in ally a n d
Marita s a id , “ I h av e t o g o a w ay b ut I ’ll b e b ack . P le ase s le ep f o r m e.”
She k is se d h im a n d w hen s h e c am e b ack h e w as a sle ep . H e h ad m ean t t o
wait f o r h er b ut h e h ad f a lle n a sle ep w hile h e w aite d . S he l a y d ow n b y h im
an d k is se d h im a n d w hen h e d id n ot w ak e s h e l a y b y h im v ery q uie tly a n d
tr ie d t o s le ep t o o. B ut s h e w as n ot s le ep y a n d s h e k is se d h im v ery s o ftly a g ain
an d t h en c o m men ced t o p la y w ith h im v ery g en tly w hile s h e p ush ed h er
bre asts a g ain st h im . H e s tir re d i n h is s le ep a n d s h e l a y n ow w ith h er h ead
dow n b elo w h is c h est a n d p la y ed s o ftly a n d s e arc h in gly m ak in g s m all
in tim acie s a n d d is c o verie s.
It w as a l o ng c o ol a fte rn oon a n d D av id s le p t a n d w hen h e w oke M arita
was g one a n d h e h eard t h e t w o g ir ls ’ v oic es o n t h e t e rra ce. H e d re sse d a n d
unbolte d t h e d oor t o h is w ork in g r o om a n d t h en c am e o ut f ro m t h e d oor o f
th at r o om o nto t h e f la g sto nes. T here w as n o o ne o n t h e t e rra ce e x cep t t h e
waite r w ho w as t a k in g i n t h e t e a t h in gs a n d h e f o und t h e g ir ls i n t h e b ar.

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T he t w o g ir ls w ere b oth s ittin g a t t h e b ar w it h a b ottle o f P errie r-J o uët i n a
b uck et w ith i c e a n d t h ey b oth l o oked f re sh a n d l o vely .
“It’ s j u st l ik e m eetin g a n e x -h usb an d,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It m ak es m e f e el
v ery s o phis tic ate d .” S he h ad n ev er l o oked g ay er o r m ore l o vely . “ I m ust s a y
i t a g re es w ith y ou.” S he l o oked a t D av id i n m ock a p pra is a l.
“D o y ou t h in k h e’s a ll r ig ht? ” M arita s a id . S he l o oked a t D av id a n d
b lu sh ed .
“A nd w ell y ou m ig ht b lu sh ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ L ook a t h er, D av id .”
“S he l o oks v ery w ell,” D av id s a id . “ S o d o y ou.”
“S he l o oks a b out s ix te en ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ S he s a id s h e t o ld y ou a b out
r e ad in g t h e n arra tiv e.”
“I t h in k y ou s h ould h av e a sk ed m e,” D av id s a id .
“I k now I s h ould ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ B ut I s ta rte d t o r e ad i t f o r m yse lf a n d
t h en i t w as s o i n te re stin g I t h ought H eir e ss o ught t o r e ad i t t o o.”
“I’d h av e s a id n o.”
“B ut t h e p oin t i s ,” C ath erin e s a id , “ if h e e v er s a y s n o a b out a n yth in g,
M arita , j u st k eep r ig ht o n. I t d oesn ’t m ean a t h in g.”
“I d on’t b elie v e i t,” M arita s a id . S he s m ile d a t D av id .
“T hat’ s b ecau se h e h asn ’t w ritte n t h e n arra tiv e u p t o d ate . W hen h e d oes
y ou’ll f in d o ut.”
“I’m t h ro ugh w ith t h e n arra tiv e,” D av id s a id .
“T hat’ s d ir ty ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hat w as m y p re se n t a n d o ur p ro je ct.”
“Y ou m ust w rite i t, D av id ,” t h e g ir l s a id . “ Y ou w ill w on’t y ou?”
“S he w an ts t o b e i n i t, D av id ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A nd i t w ill b e s o m uch

bette r w hen y ou h av e a d ark g ir l t o o.”
Dav id p oure d h im se lf a g la ss o f t h e c h am pag ne. H e s a w M arita l o ok a t
him , a w arn in g, a n d h e s a id t o C ath erin e, “ I’ll g o o n w ith i t w hen I f in is h t h e
sto rie s. W hat d id y ou d o w ith y our d ay ?”
“I h ad a f in e d ay . I m ad e d ecis io ns a n d p la n ned t h in gs.”
“O h G od,” D av id s a id .
“T hey ’re a ll s tr a ig htf o rw ard p la n s,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou d on’t h av e t o
gro an a b out t h em . Y ou’v e b een d oin g j u st w hate v er y ou w an te d t o d o a ll d ay
an d I w as p le ase d . B ut I h av e a r ig ht t o m ak e a f e w p la n s.”
“W hat s o rt o f p la n s? ” D av id a sk ed . H is v oic e s o unded v ery f la t.
“F ir s t w e h av e t o s ta rt s e ein g a b out g ettin g t h e b ook o ut. I ’m g oin g t o
hav e t o h av e t h e m an usc rip t t y ped u p t o w here i t i s n ow a n d s e e a b out g ettin g
illu str a tio ns. I h av e t o s e e t h e a rtis ts a n d m ak e t h e a rra n gem en ts .”
“Y ou’v e h ad a v ery b usy d ay ,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou k now , d on’t y ou, t h at
you d on’t g et m an usc rip ts t y ped u ntil w hoev er w rite s t h em h as g one o ver
th em a n d h as t h em r e ad y f o r t y pin g?”
“T hat i s n ’t n ecessa ry b ecau se I o nly n eed a r o ugh d ra ft t o s h ow t h e
artis ts .”
“I s e e. A nd i f I d on’t w an t i t c o pie d y et? ”
“D on’t y ou w an t i t b ro ught o ut? I d o. A nd s o m eo ne h as t o g et s ta rte d o n
so m eth in g p ra ctic al.”
“W ho a re t h e a rtis ts y ou t h ought u p t o day ?”
“D if fe re n t o nes f o r d if fe re n t p arts . M arie L au re n cin , P asc en , D era in ,
Dufy a n d P ic asso .”
“F or C hris t s a k e, D era in .”
“C an ’t y ou s e e a n ic e L au re n cin o f M arita a n d m e i n t h e c ar w hen w e
sto pped t h e f ir s t t im e b y t h e L oup o n t h e w ay t o N ic e?”
“N obody’s w ritte n t h at.”
“W ell w rite i t t h en . I t’ s c erta in ly m uch m ore i n te re stin g a n d i n str u ctiv e
th an a l o t o f n ativ es i n a k ra al o r w hate v er y ou c all i t c o vere d w ith f lie s a n d
sc ab s i n C en tr a l A fric a w ith y our d ru nken f a th er s ta g gerin g a ro und s m ellin g
of s o ur b eer a n d n ot k now in g w hic h o nes o f t h e l ittle h orro rs h e h ad
fa th ere d .”
“T here g oes t h e b all g am e,” D av id s a id .
“W hat d id y ou s a y , D av id ?” M arita s a id .
“I s a id t h an k y ou v ery m uch f o r h av in g l u nch w ith m e,” D av id t o ld h er.
“W hy d on’t y ou t h an k h er f o r t h e r e st o f i t? ” C ath erin e s a id . “ S he r e ally

must h av e d one s o m eth in g i m pre ssiv e t o m ak e y ou s le ep a s t h ough y ou w ere
dead u ntil t h e a b so lu te e n d o f t h e a fte rn oon. T han k h er f o r t h at a t l e ast.”
“T han k y ou f o r g oin g s w im min g,” D av id s a id t o t h e g ir l.
“O h d id y ou s w im ?” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m g la d y ou s w am .”
“W e s w am q uite f a r,” M arita s a id . “ A nd w e h ad a v ery g ood l u nch . D id
you h av e a g ood l u nch , C ath erin e?”
“I t h in k s o ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I d on’t r e m em ber.”
“W here w ere y ou?” M arita a sk ed g en tly .
“S ain t R ap hael,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I r e m em ber s to ppin g t h ere b ut I c an ’t
re m em ber a b out l u nch . I n ev er n otic e w hen I e at b y m yse lf . B ut I ’m q uite
su re I d id h av e l u nch t h ere . I k now I i n te n ded t o .”
“W as i t n ic e d riv in g b ack ?” M arita a sk ed . “ It w as s u ch a c o ol l o vely
afte rn oon.”
“I d on’t k now ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I d id n’t n otic e. I w as t h in kin g a b out
mak in g t h e b ook a n d g ettin g i t s ta rte d . W e h av e t o g et i t s ta rte d . I d on’t k now
why D av id s ta rte d t o b e d if fic u lt t h e m om en t I c o m men ced t o p ut a l ittle
ord er i n to i t. T he w hole t h in g h as d ra g ged a lo ng i n s u ch a h ap hazard w ay t h at
I w as s u dden ly a sh am ed o f a ll o f u s.”
“P oor C ath erin e,” M arita s a id . “ B ut n ow t h at y ou h av e i t a ll p la n ned y ou
must f e el b ette r.”
“I d o,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I f e lt s o h ap py w hen I c am e i n . I k new I ’d m ad e
you h ap py a n d I ’d a cco m plis h ed s o m eth in g p ra ctic al t o o a n d t h en D av id
mad e m e f e el l ik e a n i d io t o r a l e p er. I c an ’t h elp i t i f I ’m p ra ctic al a n d
se n sib le .”
“I k now , D ev il,” D av id s a id . “ I j u st d id n’t w an t t o g et t h e w ork m ix ed
up.”
“B ut i t’ s y ou w ho m ix ed i t u p,” C ath erin e s a id . “ C an ’t y ou s e e? J u m pin g
back a n d f o rth t r y in g t o w rite s to rie s w hen a ll y ou h ad t o d o w as k eep o n
with t h e n arra tiv e t h at m ean t s o m uch t o a ll o f u s. I t w as g oin g s o w ell t o o
an d w e w ere j u st c o m in g t o t h e m ost e x citin g p arts . S om eo ne h as t o s h ow
you t h at t h e s to rie s a re j u st y our w ay o f e sc ap in g y our d uty .”
Marita l o oked a t h im a g ain a n d h e k new w hat s h e w as t r y in g t o t e ll h im
an d h e s a id , “ I h av e t o g o g et c le an ed u p. Y ou t e ll M arita a b out i t a n d I ’ll b e
back .”
“W e h av e o th er t h in gs t o t a lk a b out,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m s o rry I w as
ru de a b out y ou a n d M arita . I c o uld n’t b e h ap pie r a b out y ou r e ally .”
Dav id t o ok e v ery th in g t h at h ad b een s a id i n w ith h im t o t h e b ath ro om

where h e h ad a s h ow er a n d c h an ged i n to a n ew ly w ash ed f is h erm an ’s s w eate r
an d s la ck s. I t w as q uite c o ol n ow i n t h e e v en in g a n d M arita w as s ittin g a t t h e
bar l o okin g a t
V ogue.
“S he’s g one d ow n t o s e e a b out y our r o om ,” M arita s a id .
“H ow i s s h e?”
“H ow s h ould I k now , D av id ? S he’s a v ery g re at p ublis h er n ow . S he’s
giv en u p s e x . I t d oesn ’t i n te re st h er a n ym ore . I t’ s c h ild is h r e ally , s h e s a y s.
She d oesn ’t k now h ow i t c o uld e v er h av e m ean t a n yth in g t o h er. B ut s h e m ay
decid e t o h av e a n a ffa ir w ith a n oth er w om an i f s h e e v er t a k es i t u p a g ain .
There ’s q uite a b it a b out a n oth er w om an .”
“C hris t I n ev er t h ought i t w ould g o t h is w ay .”
“D on’t,” M arita s a id . “ N o m atte r w hat o r h ow i t i s I l o ve y ou a n d y ou a re
goin g t o w rite t o m orro w .”
Cath erin e c am e i n a n d s a id , “ Y ou l o ok w onderfu l t o geth er a n d I ’m s o
pro ud. I f e el a s t h ough I ’d i n ven te d y ou. W as h e g ood t o day , M arita ?”
“W e h ad a n ic e l u nch ,” M arita s a id . “ P le ase b e f a ir , C ath erin e.”
“O h I k now h e’s a s a tis fa cto ry l o ver,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H e’s a lw ay s t h at.
That’ s j u st l ik e h is m artin is o r h ow h e s w im s o r s k is o r f le w p ro bab ly . I n ev er
sa w h im w ith a p la n e. E very one s a y s h e w as m arv elo us. I t’ s l ik e a cro bats
re ally I s u ppose a n d j u st a s d ull. I w asn ’t a sk in g a b out t h at.”
“Y ou w ere v ery g ood t o l e t u s s p en d a d ay t o geth er, C ath erin e,” M arita
sa id .
“Y ou c an s p en d t h e r e st o f y our l iv es t o geth er,” C ath erin e s a id . “ If y ou
don’t b ore e ach o th er. I h av e n o f u rth er n eed o f e ith er o f y ou.”
Dav id w as w atc h in g h er i n t h e m ir ro r a n d s h e l o oked c alm , h an dso m e
an d n orm al. H e c o uld s e e M arita l o okin g a t h er v ery s a d ly .
“I d o l ik e t o l o ok a t y ou t h ough a n d I ’d l ik e t o h ear y ou t a lk i f y ou’d e v er
open y our m outh s.”
“H ow d o y ou d o,” s a id D av id .
“T hat w as q uite a g ood e ffo rt,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m v ery w ell.”
“H av e a n y n ew p la n s? ” D av id a sk ed . H e f e lt a s t h ough h e w ere h ailin g a
sh ip .
“O nly w hat I ’v e t o ld y ou,” C ath erin e w en t o n. “ T hey ’ll p ro bab ly k eep m e
quite b usy .”
“W hat w as a ll t h e g uff a b out a n oth er w om an ?”
He f e lt M arita k ic k h im a n d h e p ut h is f o ot o n h ers t o a ck now le d ge.
“T hat’ s n ot g uff,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I w an t t o h av e o ne m ore t r y t o s e e i f

I’v e m is se d a n yth in g. I m ig ht h av e.”
“A ll o f u s a re f a llib le ,” D av id s a id a n d M arita k ic k ed h im a g ain .
“I w an t t o s e e,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I k now e n ough a b out t h at n ow s o I
sh ould b e a b le t o t e ll. D on’t w orry a b out y our d ark g ir l. S he’s n ot m y t y pe a t
all. S he’s y ours . S he’s w hat y ou l ik e a n d v ery n ic e i t i s b ut n ot f o r m e. I ’m
not a ttr a cte d t o t h e g am in t y pe.”
“P erh ap s I a m a g am in ,” M arita s a id .
“T hat’ s a v ery p olite w ord f o r t h at p art.”
“B ut I ’m a ls o m ore o f a w om an t h an y ou a re C ath erin e.”
“G o a h ead a n d s h ow D av id w hat s o rt o f g am in y ou a re . H e’d l ik e i t.”
“H e k now s w hat s o rt o f w om an I a m .”
“T hat’ s s p le n did ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’m g la d y ou b oth f o und y our t o ngues
fin ally . I d o p re fe r c o nvers a tio n.”
“Y ou a re n ’t r e ally a w om an a t a ll,” M arita s a id .
“I k now i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’v e t r ie d t o e x pla in i t t o D av id o fte n
en ough. I s n ’t t h at t r u e, D av id ?”
Dav id l o oked a t h er a n d s a id n oth in g.
“D id n’t I ? ”
“Y es,” h e s a id .
“I d id t r y a n d I b ro ke m yse lf i n p ie ces i n M ad rid t o b e a g ir l a n d a ll i t d id
was b re ak m e i n p ie ces,” C ath erin e s a id . “ N ow a ll I a m i s t h ro ugh. Y ou’re a
gir l a n d a b oy b oth a n d y ou r e ally a re . Y ou d on’t h av e t o c h an ge a n d i t
doesn ’t k ill y ou a n d I ’m n ot. A nd n ow I ’m n oth in g. A ll I w an te d w as f o r
Dav id a n d y ou t o b e h ap py. E very th in g e ls e I i n ven t.”
Marita s a id , “ I k now i t a n d I t r y t o t e ll D av id .”
“I k now y ou d o. B ut y ou d on’t h av e t o b e l o yal t o m e o r t o a n yth in g.
Don’t d o i t. N obody w ould a n yw ay a n d y ou p ro bab ly a re n ’t r e ally . B ut I t e ll
you n ot t o b e. I w an t y ou t o b e h ap py a n d m ak e h im h ap py. Y ou c an t o o a n d
I c an ’t a n d I k now i t.”
“Y ou’re t h e f in est g ir l t h ere i s ,” M arita s a id .
“I’m n ot. I ’m f in is h ed b efo re I e v er s ta rte d .”
“N o. I ’m t h e o ne,” M arita s a id . “ I w as s tu pid a n d a w fu l.”
“Y ou w ere n ’t s tu pid . E very th in g y ou s a id w as t r u e. L et’ s s to p t a lk in g a n d
be f rie n ds. C an w e?”
“C an w e p le ase ?” M arita a sk ed h er.
“I w an t t o ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ A nd n ot b e s u ch a t r a g ic b ully . P le ase t a k e
your t im e a b out t h e b ook, D av id . Y ou k now a ll I w an t i s f o r y ou t o w rite t h e

best y ou c an . T hat’ s w hat w e s ta rte d w ith . I ’m o ver i t n ow w hate v er t h is o ne
was.”
“Y ou w ere j u st t ir e d ,” D av id s a id . “ I d on’t t h in k y ou a te a n y l u nch
eith er.”
“P ro bab ly n ot,” C ath erin e s a id . “ B ut I m ay h av e. C an w e f o rg et i t a ll n ow
th ough a n d j u st b e f rie n ds? ”
So t h ey w ere f rie n ds; w hate v er f rie n ds a re , D av id t h ought, a n d t r ie d n ot
to t h in k b ut t a lk ed a n d l is te n ed i n t h e u nre ality t h at r e ality h ad b eco m e. H e
had h eard e ach o ne s p eak a b out t h e o th er a n d h e k new e ach m ust k now w hat
th e o th er t h ought a n d p ro bab ly w hat t h ey e ach h ad t o ld h im . I n t h at w ay t h ey
re ally w ere f rie n ds, u nders ta n din g i n t h eir b asic d is a g re em en t, t r u stin g i n
th eir c o m ple te d is tr u st a n d e n jo yin g o ne a n oth er’s c o m pan y. H e e n jo yed t h eir
co m pan y t o o b ut t o nig ht h e’d h ad e n ough o f i t.
Tom orro w h e m ust g o b ack i n to h is o w n c o untr y , t h e o ne t h at C ath erin e
was j e alo us o f a n d t h at M arita l o ved a n d r e sp ecte d . H e h ad b een h ap py i n t h e
co untr y o f t h e s to ry a n d k new t h at i t w as t o o g ood t o l a st a n d n ow h e w as
back f ro m w hat h e c are d a b out i n to t h e o verp opula te d v acan cy o f m ad ness
th at h ad t a k en , n ow , t h e n ew t u rn o f e x ag gera te d p ra ctic ality . H e w as t ir e d o f
it a n d h e w as t ir e d o f M arita ’s c o lla b ora tin g w ith h er e n em y. C ath erin e w as
not h is e n em y e x cep t a s s h e w as h im se lf i n t h e u nfin din g u nre aliz ab le q uest
th at i s l o ve a n d s o w as h er o w n e n em y. S he n eed s a n e n em y s o b ad ly a lw ay s
th at s h e h as t o k eep o ne n ear a n d s h e’s t h e n eare st a n d t h e e asie st t o a tta ck
know in g t h e w eak nesse s a n d s tr e n gth s a n d a ll t h e f a u lts o f o ur d efe n se s. S he
tu rn s m y f la n k s o s k illf u lly t h en f in ds i t i s h er o w n a n d t h e l a st f ig htin g i s
alw ay s i n a s w ir l a n d t h e d ust t h at r is e s i s o ur o w n d ust.
Cath erin e w an te d t o p la y b ack gam mon w ith M arita a fte r d in ner. T hey
alw ay s p la y ed i t s e rio usly a n d f o r m oney a n d w hen C ath erin e w en t t o g et t h e
board M arita s a id t o D av id , “ P le ase d on’t c o m e t o m y r o om t o nig ht a fte r a ll.”
“G ood.”
“D o y ou u nders ta n d?”
“L et’ s s k ip t h at w ord ,” D av id s a id . H is c o ld ness h ad c o m e b ack a s t h e
tim e f o r w ork in g m oved c lo se r.
“A re y ou a n gry ?”
“Y es,” D av id s a id .
“A t m e?”
“N o.”
“Y ou c an ’t b e a n gry w ith s o m eo ne w ho’s i ll.”

“Y ou h av en ’t l iv ed v ery l o ng,” D av id s a id . “ T hat’ s e x actly w ho e v ery one
is a lw ay s a n gry w ith . G et i ll s o m etim e y ours e lf a n d s e e.”
“I w is h y ou w ould n’t b e a n gry .”
“I w is h I ’d n ev er s e en a n y o f y ou.”
“P le ase d on’t, D av id .”
“Y ou k now i t i s n ’t t r u e. I ’m o nly g ettin g r e ad y t o w ork .”
He w en t i n to t h eir b ed ro om a n d p ut o n t h e r e ad in g l ig ht o n h is s id e o f t h e
bed a n d m ad e h im se lf c o m fo rta b le a n d r e ad o ne o f t h e W . H . H udso n b ooks.
It w as
N atu re i n D ow nla nd
a n d h e h ad t a k en i t t o r e ad b ecau se i t h ad t h e
most u npro m is in g t itle . H e k new e n ough t o k now a t im e w as c o m in g w hen
he’d n eed a ll t h e b ooks a n d h e w as s a v in g t h e b est o nes. B ut o nce p ast t h e
title o f t h is o ne n oth in g i n i t b ore d h im . H e w as h ap py t o r e ad a n d h e w as
back o ut o f h is l if e a n d w ith H udso n a n d h is b ro th er r id in g t h eir h ors e s i n to
th e t u m ble d w hite n ess o f b re ast- h ig h t h is tle d ow n i n t h e m oonlig ht a n d
gra d ually t h e c lic k o f d ic e a n d t h e l o w s o und o f t h e g ir ls ’ v oic es b ecam e r e al
ag ain t o o s o t h at w hen , a fte r a t im e, h e w en t o ut t o m ak e h im se lf a w his k ey
an d P errie r t o t a k e b ack t o h is r e ad in g t h ey s e em ed , w hen h e s a w t h em
pla y in g, t o b e a ctu al h um an b ein gs d oin g s o m eth in g n orm al a n d n ot f ig ure s
in s o m e u nbelie v ab le p la y h e h ad b een b ro ught u nw illin gly t o a tte n d.
He w en t b ack t o t h e r o om a n d r e ad a n d d ra n k h is w his k ey a n d P errie r
very s lo w ly a n d h e h ad u ndre sse d a n d t u rn ed t h e l ig ht o ff a n d w as a lm ost
asle ep w hen h e h eard C ath erin e c o m e i n t o t h e b ed ro om . I t s e em ed t o h im
th at s h e w as g one a l o ng t im e i n t h e b ath ro om b efo re h e f e lt h er c o m e t o b ed
an d h e l a y s till a n d b re ath ed s te ad ily a n d h oped h e m ig ht r e ally g o t o s le ep .
“A re y ou a w ak e, D av id ?” s h e a sk ed .
“I t h in k s o .”
“D on’t w ak e u p,” s h e s a id . “ T han k y ou f o r s le ep in g h ere .”
“I u su ally d o.”
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o .”
“Y es I d o.”
“I’m g la d y ou d id . G ood n ig ht.”
“G ood n ig ht.”
“W ould y ou k is s m e g ood n ig ht? ”
“S ure ,” h e s a id .
He k is se d h er a n d i t w as C ath erin e a s s h e h ad b een b efo re w hen s h e h ad
se em ed t o c o m e b ack t o h im f o r a w hile .
“I’m s o rry I w as s u ch a f a ilu re a g ain .”

“L et’ s n ot t a lk a b out t h in gs.”
“D o y ou h ate m e?”
“N o.”
“C an w e s ta rt a g ain t h e w ay I ’d p la n ned t h in gs? ”
“I d on’t t h in k s o .”
“T hen w hy d id y ou c o m e i n h ere ?”
“T his i s w here I b elo ng.”
“N o o th er r e aso n?”
“I t h ought y ou m ig ht b e l o nely .”
“I w as.”
“E very body’s l o nely ,” D av id s a id .
“It’ s t e rrib le t o b e i n b ed t o geth er a n d b e l o nely .”
“T here i s n ’t a n y s o lu tio n,” D av id s a id . “ A ll y our p la n s a n d s c h em es a re
worth le ss.”
“I d id n’t g iv e i t a c h an ce.”
“It w as a ll c ra zy a n yw ay . I ’m s ic k o f c ra zy t h in gs. Y ou’re n ot t h e o nly
one g ets b ro ken u p.”
“I k now . B ut c an ’t w e t r y i t a g ain j u st o nce m ore a n d I r e ally b e g ood? I
can . I n early w as.”
“I’m s ic k o f a ll o f i t, D ev il. S ic k a ll t h e w ay t h ro ugh m e.”
“W ould n’t y ou t r y i t j u st o nce m ore f o r h er a n d f o r m e b oth ?”
“It d oesn ’t w ork a n d I ’m s ic k o f i t.”
“S he s a id y ou h ad a f in e d ay a n d t h at y ou w ere r e ally c h eerfu l a n d n ot
dep re sse d . W on’t y ou t r y i t o nce m ore f o r b oth o f u s? I w an t i t s o m uch .”
“Y ou w an t e v ery th in g s o m uch a n d w hen y ou g et i t i t’ s o ver a n d y ou
don’t g iv e a d am n.”
“I w as j u st o verc o nfid en t t h is t im e a n d t h en I g et i n su ffe ra b le . P le ase c an
we t r y i t a g ain ?”
“L et’ s g o t o s le ep , D ev il, a n d n ot t a lk a b out i t.”
“K is s m e a g ain p le ase ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’ll g o t o s le ep b ecau se I k now
you’ll d o i t. Y ou a lw ay s d o e v ery th in g I w an t b ecau se y ou r e ally w an t t o d o
it t o o.”
“Y ou o nly w an t t h in gs f o r y ou, D ev il.”
“T hat’ s n ot t r u e, D av id . A nyw ay I a m y ou a n d h er. T hat’ s w hat I d id i t
fo r. I ’m e v ery body. Y ou k now a b out t h at d on’t y ou?”
“G o t o s le ep , D ev il.”
“I w ill. B ut w ould y ou p le ase k is s m e a g ain f ir s t s o t h at w e w on’t b e

lo nely ?”

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I n t h e m orn in g h e w as o n t h e f a r s lo pe o f t h e m ounta in a g ain . T he e le p han t
w as n o l o nger t r a v ellin g a s h e h ad b een b ut w as m ovin g a im le ssly n ow ,
f e ed in g o ccasio nally a n d D av id h ad k now n t h ey w ere g ettin g c lo se t o h im .
H e t r ie d t o r e m em ber h ow h e h ad f e lt. H e h ad n o l o ve f o r t h e e le p han t y et.
H e m ust r e m em ber t h at. H e h ad o nly a s o rro w t h at h ad c o m e f ro m h is o w n
t ir e d ness t h at h ad b ro ught a n u nders ta n din g o f a g e. T hough b ein g t o o y oung,
h e h ad l e arn ed h ow i t m ust b e t o b e t o o o ld . H e w as l o neso m e f o r K ib o a n d
t h in kin g o f J u m a k illin g t h e e le p han t’ s f rie n d h ad t u rn ed h im a g ain st J u m a
a n d m ad e t h e e le p han t h is b ro th er. H e k new t h en h ow m uch i t m ean t t o h im
t o h av e s e en t h e e le p han t i n t h e m oonlig ht a n d f o r h im t o h av e f o llo w ed h im
w ith K ib o a n d c o m e c lo se t o h im i n t h e c le arin g s o t h at h e h ad s e en b oth o f
t h e g re at t u sk s. B ut h e d id n ot k now t h at n oth in g w ould e v er b e a s g ood a s
t h at a g ain . N ow h e k new t h ey w ould k ill t h e e le p han t a n d t h ere w as n oth in g
h e c o uld d o a b out i t. H e h ad b etr a y ed t h e e le p han t w hen h e h ad g one b ack t o
t e ll t h em a t t h e s h am ba. T hey w ould k ill m e a n d t h ey w ould k ill K ib o t o o i f
w e h ad i v ory , h e h ad t h ought a n d k now n i t w as u ntr u e. P ro bab ly t h e e le p han t
i s g oin g t o f in d w here h e w as b orn n ow a n d t h ey ’ll k ill h im t h ere . T hat’ s a ll
t h ey ’d n eed t o m ak e i t p erfe ct. T hey ’d l ik e t o h av e k ille d h im w here t h ey
k ille d h is f rie n d. T hat w ould b e a b ig j o ke. T hat w ould h av e p le ase d t h em .
T he g od d am ned f rie n d k ille rs .
They h ad m oved t o t h e e d ge o f t h ic k c o ver n ow a n d t h e e le p han t w as
c lo se a h ead . D av id c o uld s m ell h im a n d t h ey c o uld a ll h ear h im p ullin g d ow n
b ra n ch es a n d t h e s n ap pin g t h at t h ey m ad e. H is f a th er p ut h is h an d o n D av id ’s
s h ould er t o m ove h im b ack a n d h av e h im w ait o uts id e a n d t h en h e t o ok a b ig

pin ch o f a sh es f ro m t h e p ouch i n h is p ock et a n d t o sse d i t i n t h e a ir . T he a sh
bare ly s la n te d t o w ard t h em a s i t f e ll a n d h is f a th er n odded a t J u m a a n d b en t
dow n t o f o llo w h im i n to t h e t h ic k c o ver. D av id w atc h ed t h eir b ack s a n d t h eir
asse s g o i n a n d o ut o f s ig ht. H e c o uld n ot h ear t h em m ove.
Dav id h ad s to od s till a n d l is te n ed t o t h e e le p han t f e ed in g. H e c o uld s m ell
him a s s tr o ngly a s h e h ad t h e n ig ht i n t h e m oonlig ht w hen h e h ad w ork ed u p
clo se t o h im a n d h ad s e en h is w onderfu l t u sk s. T hen a s h e s to od t h ere i t w as
sile n t a n d h e c o uld n ot s m ell t h e e le p han t. T hen t h ere h ad b een a h ig h
sq uealin g a n d s m ash in g a n d a s h ot b y t h e .3 03 t h en t h e h eav y r o ck in g d ouble
re p ort o f h is f a th er’s .4 50, t h en t h e s m ash in g a n d c ra sh in g h ad g one o n g oin g
ste ad ily a w ay a n d h e h ad g one i n to t h e h eav y g ro w th a n d f o und J u m a
sta n din g s h ak en a n d b le ed in g f ro m h is f o re h ead a ll d ow n o ver h is f a ce a n d
his f a th er w hite a n d a n gry .
“H e w en t f o r J u m a a n d k nock ed h im o ver,” h is f a th er h ad s a id . “ Ju m a h it
him i n t h e h ead .”
“W here d id y ou h it h im ?”
“W here I f u ck in g w ell c o uld ,” h is f a th er h ad s a id . “ G et o n t h e f u ck in g
blo od s p oor.”
There w as p le n ty o f b lo od. O ne s tr e am a s h ig h a s D av id ’s h ead t h at h ad
sq uir te d b rig ht o n t r u nks a n d l e av es a n d v in es a n d a n oth er m uch l o w er t h at
was d ark a n d f o ul w ith s to m ach c o nte n t.
“L ung a n d g ut s h ot,” h is f a th er s a id . “ W e’ll f in d h im d ow n o r a n ch ore d —
I h ope t h e h ell,” h e a d ded .
They f o und h im a n ch ore d , i n s u ch s u ffe rin g a n d d esp air t h at h e c o uld n o
lo nger m ove. H e h ad c ra sh ed t h ro ugh t h e h eav y c o ver w here h e h ad b een
fe ed in g a n d c ro sse d a p ath o f o pen f o re st a n d D av id a n d h is f a th er h ad r u n
alo ng t h e h eav ily s p la sh ed b lo od t r a il. T hen t h e e le p han t h ad g one o n i n to
th ic k f o re st a n d D av id h ad s e en h im a h ead s ta n din g g ra y a n d h uge a g ain st t h e
tr u nk o f a t r e e. D av id c o uld o nly s e e h is s te rn a n d t h en h is f a th er m oved
ah ead o f h im a n d h e f o llo w ed a n d t h ey c am e a lo ngsid e t h e e le p han t a s
th ough h e w as a s h ip a n d D av id s a w t h e b lo od c o m in g f ro m h is f la n ks a n d
ru nnin g d ow n h is s id es a n d t h en h is f a th er r a is e d h is r if le a n d f ir e d a n d t h e
ele p han t t u rn ed h is h ead w ith t h e g re at t u sk s m ovin g h eav y a n d s lo w a n d
lo oked a t t h em a n d w hen h is f a th er f ir e d t h e s e co nd b arre l t h e e le p han t
se em ed t o s w ay l ik e a f e lle d t r e e a n d c am e s m ash in g d ow n t o w ard t h em . B ut
he w as n ot d ead . H e h ad b een a n ch ore d a n d n ow h e w as d ow n w ith h is
sh ould er b ro ken . H e d id n ot m ove b ut h is e y e w as a liv e a n d l o oked a t D av id .

He h ad v ery l o ng e y ela sh es a n d h is e y e w as t h e m ost a liv e t h in g D av id h ad
ev er s e en .
“S hoot h im i n t h e e ar h ole w ith t h e t h re e o h t h re e,” h is f a th er s a id . “ G o
on.”
“Y ou s h oot h im ,” D av id h ad s a id .
Ju m a h ad c o m e u p l im pin g a n d b lo ody, t h e s k in o f h is f o re h ead h an gin g
dow n o ver h is l e ft e y e, t h e b one o f h is n ose s h ow in g a n d o ne e ar t o rn a n d h ad
ta k en t h e r if le f ro m D av id w ith out s p eak in g a n d p ush ed t h e m uzzle a lm ost
in to t h e e ar h ole a n d f ir e d t w ic e j e rk in g t h e b olt a n d d riv in g i t f o rw ard
an grily . T he e y e o f t h e e le p han t h ad o pen ed w id e o n t h e f ir s t s h ot a n d t h en
sta rte d t o g la ze a n d b lo od c am e o ut o f t h e e ar a n d r a n i n t w o b rig ht s tr e am s
dow n t h e w rin kle d g ra y h id e. I t w as a d if fe re n t c o lo re d b lo od a n d D av id h ad
th ought I m ust r e m em ber t h at a n d h e h ad b ut i t h ad n ev er b een o f a n y u se t o
him . N ow a ll t h e d ig nity a n d m aje sty a n d a ll t h e b eau ty w as g one f ro m t h e
ele p han t a n d h e w as a h uge w rin kle d p ile .
“W ell w e g ot h im , D av ey , t h an ks t o y ou,” h is f a th er h ad s a id . “ N ow w e’d
bette r g et a f ir e g oin g s o I c an p ut J u m a b ack t o geth er a g ain . C om e h ere y ou
blo ody H um pty D um pty . T hose t u sk s w ill k eep .”
Ju m a h ad c o m e t o h im g rin nin g b rin gin g t h e t a il o f t h e e le p han t t h at h ad
no h air s o n i t a t a ll. T hey h ad m ad e a d ir ty j o ke a n d t h en h is f a th er h ad b eg un
to s p eak r a p id ly i n S w ah ili: H ow f a r t o w ate r? H ow f a r w ill y ou h av e t o g o t o
get p eo ple t o g et t h ose t u sk s o ut o f h ere ? H ow a re y ou, y ou w orth le ss o ld p ig
fu ck er? W hat h av e y ou b ro ken ?
Then w ith t h e a n sw ers k now n h is f a th er h ad s a id , “ Y ou a n d I w ill g o
back t o g et t h e p ack s w here w e d ro pped t h em w hen w e w en t i n a fte r h im .
Ju m a c an g et w ood a n d h av e t h e f ir e r e ad y. T he m ed ic al k it i s i n m y p ack .
We h av e t o g et t h e p ack s b efo re i t’ s d ark . H e w on’t i n fe ct. I t’ s n ot l ik e c la w
wounds. L et’ s g o.”
His f a th er h ad k now n h ow h e h ad f e lt a b out t h e e le p han t a n d t h at n ig ht
an d i n t h e n ex t f e w d ay s h e h ad t r ie d i f n ot t o c o nvert h im t o b rin g h im b ack
to t h e b oy h e h ad b een b efo re h e h ad c o m e t o t h e k now le d ge t h at h e h ate d
ele p han t h untin g. D av id h ad p ut n o s ta te m en t o f h is f a th er’s i n te n tio n, w hic h
had n ev er b een s ta te d , i n t h e s to ry b ut h ad o nly u se d t h e h ap pen in gs, t h e
dis g usts , t h e e v en ts a n d f e elin gs o f t h e b utc h erin g, a n d t h e w ork o f c h oppin g
out t h e t u sk s a n d o f t h e r o ugh s u rg ery o n J u m a d is g uis e d b y m ock ery a n d
ra ile ry t o k eep t h e p ain i n c o nte m pt a n d r e d uce i ts s ta tu re s in ce t h ere w ere n o
dru gs. T he a d ded r e sp onsib ility D av id w as g iv en a n d t h e t r u st t h at w as

offe re d h im a n d n ot a ccep te d h e h ad p ut i n t h e s to ry w ith out p oin tin g t h eir
sig nif ic an ce. H e h ad t r ie d t o m ak e t h e e le p han t a liv e b en eath t h e t r e e
an ch ore d i n h is f in al a n guis h a n d d ro w nin g i n t h e b lo od t h at h ad f lo w ed s o
man y t im es b efo re b ut a lw ay s s ta u nch ed a n d n ow w as r is in g i n h im s o h e
co uld n ot b re ath e, t h e g re at h eart p um pin g i t t o d ro w n h im a s h e w atc h ed t h e
man w ho c am e t o f in is h h im . D av id h ad b een s o p ro ud t h e e le p han t h ad
sc en te d J u m a a n d c h arg ed h im i n sta n tly . H e w ould h av e k ille d J u m a i f h is
fa th er h ad n ot f ir e d i n to h im s o t h at h e h ad t h ro w n J u m a i n to t h e t r e es w ith
his t r u nk a n d c h arg ed o n w ith t h e d eath i n h im , f e elin g i t a s o nly a n oth er
wound u ntil t h e b lo od w elle d u p a n d h e c o uld n ot b re ath e a g ain st i t. T hat
ev en in g a s D av id h ad s a t b y t h e f ir e h e h ad l o oked a t J u m a w ith h is s titc h ed
up f a ce a n d h is b ro ken r ib s t h at h e t r ie d t o b re ath e w ith out a n d w ondere d i f
th e e le p han t h ad r e co gniz ed h im w hen h e h ad t r ie d t o k ill h im . H e h oped h e
had . T he e le p han t w as h is h ero n ow a s h is f a th er h ad b een f o r a l o ng t im e a n d
he h ad t h ought, I d id n ot b elie v e h e c o uld d o i t w hen h e w as s o o ld a n d t ir e d .
He w ould h av e k ille d J u m a t o o. B ut h e d id n’t l o ok a t m e a s t h ough h e w an te d
to k ill m e. H e o nly l o oked s a d t h e s a m e w ay I f e lt. H e v is ite d h is o ld f rie n d
on t h e d ay h e d ie d .
It w as a v ery y oung b oy’s s to ry , h e k new , w hen h e h ad f in is h ed i t. H e
re ad i t o ver a n d s a w t h e g ap s h e m ust f ill i n t o m ak e i t s o t h at w hoev er r e ad i t
would f e el i t w as t r u ly h ap pen in g a s i t w as r e ad a n d h e m ark ed t h e g ap s i n
th e m arg in .
He r e m em bere d h ow t h e e le p han t l o st a ll d ig nity a s s o on a s h is e y e h ad
cease d t o b e a liv e a n d h ow w hen h is f a th er a n d h e h ad r e tu rn ed w ith t h e
pack s t h e e le p han t h ad a lr e ad y s ta rte d t o s w ell e v en i n t h e c o ol e v en in g.
There w as n o m ore t r u e e le p han t, o nly t h e g ra y w rin kle d s w ellin g d ead b ody
an d t h e h uge g re at m ottle d b ro w n a n d y ello w t u sk s t h at t h ey h ad k ille d h im
fo r. T he t u sk s w ere s ta in ed w ith t h e d rie d b lo od a n d h e s c ra p ed s o m e o f i t o ff
with h is t h um bnail l ik e a d rie d p ie ce o f s e alin g w ax a n d p ut i t i n t h e p ock et
of h is s h ir t. T hat w as a ll h e t o ok f ro m t h e e le p han t e x cep t t h e b eg in nin g o f
th e k now le d ge o f l o nelin ess.
Afte r t h e b utc h ery h is f a th er t r ie d t o t a lk t o h im t h at n ig ht b y t h e f ir e .
“H e w as a m urd ere r y ou k now , D av ey ,” h e h ad s a id . “ Ju m a s a y s n obody
know s h ow m an y p eo ple h e h as k ille d .”
“T hey w ere a ll t r y in g t o k ill h im w ere n ’t t h ey ?”
“N atu ra lly ,” h is f a th er h ad s a id , “ w ith t h at p air o f t u sk s.”
“H ow c o uld h e b e a m urd ere r t h en ?”

“Ju st a s y ou l ik e,” h is f a th er h ad s a id . “ I’m s o rry y ou g ot s o m ix ed u p
ab out h im .”
“I w is h h e’d k ille d J u m a,” D av id h ad s a id .
“I t h in k t h at’ s c arry in g i t a l ittle f a r,” h is f a th er s a id . “ Ju m a’s y our f rie n d
you k now .”
“N ot a n ym ore .”
“N o n eed t o t e ll h im s o .”
“H e k now s i t,” D av id h ad s a id .
“I t h in k y ou m is ju dge h im ,” h is f a th er s a id a n d t h ey h ad l e ft i t t h ere .
Then w hen t h ey w ere f in ally b ack s a fe ly w ith t h e t u sk s a fte r a ll t h e t h in gs
th at h ad h ap pen ed a n d t h e t u sk s w ere p ro pped a g ain st t h e w all o f t h e s tic k
an d m ud h ouse l e an in g t h ere w ith t h eir p oin ts t o uch in g, t h e t u sk s s o t a ll a n d
th ic k t h at n o o ne c o uld b elie v e t h em e v en w hen t h ey t o uch ed t h em a n d n o
one, n ot e v en h is f a th er, c o uld r e ach t o t h e t o p o f t h e b en d w here t h ey c u rv ed
in f o r t h e p oin ts t o m eet, t h ere w hen J u m a a n d h is f a th er a n d h e w ere h ero es
an d K ib o w as a h ero ’s d og, a n d t h e m en w ho h ad c arrie d t h e t u sk s w ere
hero es, a lr e ad y s lig htly d ru nk h ero es a n d t o b e d ru nker, h is f a th er h ad s a id ,
“D o y ou w an t t o m ak e p eace D av ey ?”
“A ll r ig ht,” h e s a id b ecau se h e k new t h is w as t h e s ta rt o f t h e n ev er t e llin g
th at h e h ad d ecid ed o n.
“I’m s o g la d ,” h is f a th er s a id . “ It’ s s o m uch s im ple r a n d b ette r.”
Then t h ey s a t o n o ld m en ’s s to ols u nder t h e s h ad e o f t h e g re at f ig t r e e
with t h e t u sk s a g ain st t h e w all o f t h e h ut a n d d ra n k n ativ e b eer f ro m g ourd
cu ps t h at w ere b ro ught b y a y oung g ir l a n d h er y ounger b ro th er, n o l o nger a
dete ste d n uis a n ce b ut t h e s e rv an t o f h ero es, s ittin g i n t h e d ust b y t h e h ero ic
dog o f a h ero w ho h eld a n o ld c o ck ere l n ew ly p ro m ote d t o t h e s ta n din g o f t h e
hero es’ f a v orite r o oste r. T hey s a t t h ere a n d d ra n k b eer w hile t h e b ig d ru m
sta rte d a n d t h e
N gom a
b eg an t o b uild .
He c am e o ut o f t h e w ork in g r o om a n d h e w as h ap py a n d e m pty a n d
pro ud a n d M arita w as w aitin g f o r h im o n t h e t e rra ce s ittin g i n t h e s u n o f t h e
brig ht e arly f a ll m orn in g t h at h e h ad n ot k now n e x is te d . I t w as a p erfe ct
morn in g, s till a n d c o ol. T he s e a b elo w w as a f la t c alm a n d a cro ss t h e b ay w as
th e w hite c u rv e o f C an nes w ith t h e d ark m ounta in s b eh in d i t.
“I l o ve y ou v ery m uch ,” h e s a id t o t h e d ark g ir l a s s h e s to od u p. H e p ut
his a rm s a ro und h er a n d k is se d h er a n d s h e s a id , “ Y ou f in is h ed i t.”
“S ure ,” h e s a id . “ W hy n ot? ”
“I l o ve y ou a n d I ’m s o p ro ud,” s h e s a id . T hey w alk ed o ut a n d l o oked a t

th e s e a w ith t h eir a rm s a ro und e ach o th er.
“H ow a re y ou g ir l? ”
“I’m v ery w ell a n d v ery h ap py,” M arita s a id . “ D id y ou m ean i t a b out
lo vin g m e o r w as i t j u st t h e m orn in g?”
“It w as t h e m orn in g,” D av id s a id a n d k is se d h er a g ain .
“C an I r e ad t h e s to ry ?”
“It’ s t o o l o vely a d ay .”
“C an ’t I r e ad i t s o I c an f e el l ik e y ou d o a n d n ot j u st h ap py b ecau se
you’re h ap py l ik e I w as y our d og?”
He g av e h er t h e k ey a n d w hen s h e b ro ught t h e n ote b ooks a n d r e ad t h e
sto ry a t t h e b ar D av id r e ad i t s ittin g b esid e h er. H e k new i t w as i ll m an nere d
an d s tu pid . H e h ad n ev er d one t h is b efo re w ith a n yone a n d i t w as a g ain st
ev ery th in g h e b elie v ed a b out w ritin g b ut h e d id n ot t h in k o f t h at e x cep t a t t h e
mom en t w hen h e p ut h is a rm a ro und t h e g ir l a n d l o oked a t t h e w ritin g o n t h e
lin ed p ap er. H e c o uld n ot h elp w an tin g t o r e ad i t w ith h er a n d h e c o uld n ot
help s h arin g w hat h e h ad n ev er s h are d a n d w hat h e h ad b elie v ed c o uld n ot
an d s h ould n ot b e s h are d .
When s h e f in is h ed r e ad in g M arita p ut h er a rm s a ro und D av id a n d k is se d
him s o h ard t h at s h e d re w b lo od f ro m h is l ip . H e l o oked a t h er a n d t a ste d h is
blo od a b se n tm in ded ly a n d s m ile d .
“I’m s o rry D av id ,” s h e s a id . “ P le ase f o rg iv e m e. I ’m s o v ery h ap py a n d
pro uder t h an y ou a re .”
“Is i t a ll r ig ht? ” h e s a id . “ C an y ou s m ell t h e s h am ba s m ell a n d t h e c le an
sm ell o f h ut i n sid e a n d f e el t h e s m ooth ness o f t h e o ld m en c h air s ? I t’ s r e ally
cle an i n t h e h ut a n d t h e e arth f lo or i s s w ep t.”
“O f c o urs e i t i s . Y ou h ad i t i n t h e o th er s to ry . I c an s e e t h e a n gle o f t h e
head o f K ib o t h e h ero ic d og t o o. Y ou w ere s u ch a l o vely h ero . D id t h e b lo od
mak e a s ta in i n y our p ock et? ”
“Y es. I t s o fte n ed w hen I s w eate d .”
“L et’ s g o t o t o w n a n d c ele b ra te t h e d ay ,” M arita s a id . “ T here ’s a l o t o f
th in gs t h at w e c an d o t o day .”
Dav id s to pped a t t h e b ar a n d p oure d H aig P in ch a n d t h en c o ld P errie r i n to
a g la ss a n d b ro ught i t w ith h im t o t h e r o om w here h e d ra n k h alf o f i t a n d t o ok
a c o ld s h ow er. T hen h e p ulle d o n s la ck s a n d a s h ir t a n d p ut o n
a lp arg ata s
t o
go i n to t o w n. H e f e lt t h e s to ry w as g ood a n d f e lt e v en b ette r a b out M arita .
Neith er h ad b een d im in is h ed b y t h e s h arp en in g o f p erc ep tio n h e h ad n ow ,
an d c la rity h ad c o m e w ith n o s a d ness.

Cath erin e w as d oin g w hate v er s h e w as d oin g a n d w ould d o w hate v er s h e
would d o. H e l o oked o ut a n d f e lt t h e o ld h ap py c are le ssn ess. I t w as a d ay f o r
fly in g a ctu ally . H e w is h ed t h ere w as a f ie ld w here h e c o uld r e n t a p la n e a n d
ta k e M arita u p a n d s h ow h er w hat y ou c o uld d o w ith a d ay l ik e t h is . S he
mig ht l ik e i t. B ut t h ere i s n ’t a n y f ie ld h ere . S o f o rg et t h at. I t w ould b e f u n
th ough. S o w ould s k iin g. T hat’ s o nly t w o m onth s a w ay i f y ou w an t i t. C hris t,
it w as g ood t o f in is h t o day a n d h av e h er t h ere . M arita t h ere w ith n o d am ned
je alo usy o f t h e w ork a n d h av e h er k now w hat y ou w ere r e ach in g f o r a n d h ow
fa r y ou w en t. S he r e ally k now s a n d i t’ s n ot f a k ed . I d o l o ve h er a n d y ou m ak e
a n ote o f i t, w his k ey , a n d y ou w itn ess i t f o r m e, P errie r o ld b oy o ld P errie r, I
hav e b een f a ith fu l t o y ou, P errie r, i n m y f u ck in g f a sh io n. I t f e els v ery g ood
when y ou f e el s o g ood. I t’ s a s tu pid f e elin g b ut i t f its o n t h is d ay s o p ut i t o n.
“C om e o n g ir l,” h e s a id t o M arita a t t h e d oor o f h er r o om . “ W hat’ s
hold in g y ou u p b esid es y our b eau tif u l l e g s? ”
“I’m r e ad y, D av id ,” s h e s a id . S he h ad o n a t ig ht s w eate r a n d s la ck s a n d
her f a ce w as s h in in g. S he b ru sh ed h er d ark h air a n d l o oked a t h im .
“It’ s w onderfu l w hen y ou’re s o g ay .”
“It’ s s u ch a g ood d ay ,” h e s a id . “ A nd w e’re s o l u ck y.”
“D o y ou t h in k s o ?” s h e s a id a s t h ey w alk ed t o t h e c ar. “ D o y ou t h in k
we’re r e ally l u ck y?”
“Y es,” h e s a id . “ I t h in k i t c h an ged t h is m orn in g o r m ay be i n t h e n ig ht.”

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C ath erin e’s c ar w as i n t h e d riv ew ay o f t h e h ote l w hen t h ey d ro ve u p. I t w as
p ark ed o n t h e r ig ht s id e o f t h e g ra v elle d a p pro ach . D av id s to pped t h e I s o tta
b eh in d i t a n d h e a n d M arita g ot o ut a n d w alk ed d ow n t h e d riv e p ast t h e s m all,
l o w e m pty b lu e c ar a n d o nto t h e f la g sto nes o f t h e w alk w ith out s p eak in g.
They p asse d D av id ’s r o om w ith t h e l o ck ed d oor a n d t h e o pen w in dow s
a n d M arita s to pped o uts id e o f h er d oor a n d s a id , “ G oodbye.”
“W hat a re y ou d oin g t h is a fte rn oon?” h e a sk ed .
“I d on’t k now ,” s h e s a id . “ I’ll b e h ere .”
He w alk ed o n d ow n t o t h e p atio o f t h e h ote l a n d w en t i n t h e m ain d oor.
C ath erin e w as s ittin g a t t h e b ar r e ad in g t h e P aris
H era ld
w ith a g la ss a n d h alf
a b ottle o f w in e b esid e h er o n t h e b ar. S he l o oked u p a t h im .
“W hat b ro ught y ou b ack ?” s h e a sk ed .
“W e h ad l u nch i n t o w n a n d c am e o n u p,” D av id s a id .
“H ow i s y our w hore ?”
“I h av en ’t o ne y et.”
“I m ean t h e o ne y ou w rite t h e s to rie s f o r.”
“O h. T he s to rie s.”
“Y es. T he s to rie s. T he d re ary d is m al l ittle s to rie s a b out y our a d ole sc en ce
w ith y our b ogus d ru nken f a th er.”
“H e w asn ’t s o b ogus r e ally .”
“D id n’t h e d efra u d h is w if e a n d a ll h is f rie n ds? ”
“N o. J u st h im se lf r e ally .”
“Y ou c erta in ly m ak e h im d esp ic ab le i n t h ese l a st s k etc h es o r v ig nette s o r
p oin tle ss a n ecd ote s y ou w rite a b out h im .”

“Y ou m ean t h e s to rie s.”
“Y ou c all t h em s to rie s,” C ath erin e s a id .
“Y es,” D av id s a id a n d p oure d a g la ss o f t h e l o vely c o ld w in e o n t h e
brig ht c le ar d ay i n t h e p le asa n t, s u nny r o om i n t h e c le an , c o m fo rta b le h ote l
an d, s ip pin g i t, f e lt i t f a il t o l if t u p h is d ead c o ld h eart.
“W ould y ou l ik e m e t o g o a n d g et H eir e ss? ” C ath erin e s a id . “ It w ould n’t
do t o h av e h er t h in k t h at w e’d h ad a m is u nders ta n din g a b out w hose d ay i t i s
or t h at w e’d t a k en u p s o lita ry d rin kin g t o geth er.”
“Y ou d on’t n eed t o g et h er.”
“I’d l ik e t o . S he t o ok c are o f y ou t o day a n d I d id n’t. R eally , D av id , I ’m
not a b itc h y et. I j u st a ct a n d t a lk l ik e o ne.”
While D av id w aite d f o r C ath erin e t o c o m e b ack h e d ra n k a n oth er g la ss o f
th e c h am pag ne a n d r e ad t h e P aris e d itio n o f
T he N ew Y ork H era ld
s h e h ad
le ft o n t h e b ar. D rin kin g t h e w in e b y h im se lf i t d id n ot t a ste t h e s a m e a n d h e
fo und a c o rk i n t h e k itc h en t o s to p u p t h e b ottle b efo re h e p ut i t b ack i n t h e
ic e c h est. B ut t h e b ottle d id n ot f e el h eav y e n ough a n d l if tin g i t a g ain st t h e
lig ht t h at c am e i n t h e w est w in dow h e s a w h ow l ittle w in e w as l e ft a n d h e
poure d i t o ut a n d d ra n k i t o ff a n d p ut t h e b ottle d ow n o n t h e t ile d f lo or. E ven
when h e d ra n k i t o ff q uic k ly i t d id n oth in g f o r h im .
Than k G od h e w as b re ak in g t h ro ugh o n t h e s to rie s n ow . W hat h ad m ad e
th e l a st b ook g ood w as t h e p eo ple w ho w ere i n i t a n d t h e a ccu ra cy o f t h e
deta il w hic h m ad e i t b elie v ab le . H e h ad , r e ally , o nly t o r e m em ber a ccu ra te ly
an d t h e f o rm c am e b y w hat h e w ould c h oose t o l e av e o ut. T hen , o f c o urs e , h e
co uld c lo se i t l ik e t h e d ia p hra g m o f a c am era a n d i n te n sif y i t s o i t c o uld b e
co ncen tr a te d t o t h e p oin t w here t h e h eat s h one b rig ht a n d t h e s m oke b eg an t o
ris e . H e k new t h at h e w as g ettin g t h is n ow .
What C ath erin e h ad s a id a b out t h e s to rie s w hen s h e w as t r y in g t o h urt
him h ad s ta rte d h im t h in kin g a b out h is f a th er a n d a ll t h e t h in gs h e h ad t r ie d t o
do w hate v er h e c o uld a b out. N ow , h e t o ld h im se lf , y ou m ust t r y t o g ro w u p
ag ain a n d f a ce w hat y ou h av e t o f a ce w ith out b ein g i r rita b le o r h urt t h at
so m eo ne d id n ot u nders ta n d a n d a p pre cia te w hat y ou w ro te . S he u nders ta n ds
it l e ss a n d l e ss. B ut y ou’v e w ork ed w ell a n d n oth in g c an t o uch y ou a s l o ng a s
you c an w ork . T ry t o h elp h er n ow a n d f o rg et a b out y ours e lf . T om orro w y ou
hav e t h e s to ry t o g o o ver a n d t o m ak e p erfe ct.
But D av id d id n ot w an t t o t h in k a b out t h e s to ry . H e c are d a b out t h e
writin g m ore t h an a b out a n yth in g e ls e , a n d h e c are d a b out m an y t h in gs, b ut
he k new t h at w hen h e w as d oin g i t h e m ust n ot w orry a b out i t n or f in ger i t

nor h an dle i t a n y m ore t h an h e w ould o pen u p t h e d oor o f t h e d ark ro om t o
se e h ow a n eg ativ e w as d ev elo pin g. L eav e i t a lo ne, h e t o ld h im se lf . Y ou a re a
blo ody f o ol b ut y ou k now t h at m uch .
His t h oughts t u rn ed t o t h e t w o g ir ls a n d h e w ondere d i f h e s h ould g o f in d
th em a n d s e e w hat t h ey w an te d t o d o o r i f t h ey w an te d t o g o o ff a n d s w im .
Afte r a ll, i t w as M arita ’s a n d h is d ay a n d s h e m ig ht b e w aitin g. M ay be
so m eth in g c o uld s till b e s a lv ag ed o ut o f t h e d ay f o r a ll o f t h em . T hey m ig ht
be c o okin g s o m eth in g u p. H e o ught t o g o b y a n d a sk w hat t h ey w an te d t o d o.
Then d o i t, h e t o ld h im se lf . D on’t s ta n d h ere a n d t h in k a b out i t. G o o n a n d
fin d t h em .
The d oor t o M arita ’s r o om w as s h ut a n d h e k nock ed o n i t.
They h ad b een t a lk in g a n d w hen h e k nock ed t h e t a lk in g s to pped .
“W ho i s i t? ” M arita a sk ed .
He h eard C ath erin e l a u gh a n d s h e s a id , “ C om e i n w hoev er y ou a re .”
He h eard M arita s a y s o m eth in g t o h er a n d C ath erin e s a id , “ C om e i n ,
Dav id .”
He o pen ed t h e d oor. T hey w ere l y in g i n t h e b ig b ed t o geth er s id e b y s id e;
th e s h eet p ulle d u p u nder t h eir c h in s.
“P le ase c o m e i n , D av id ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e’v e b een w aitin g f o r y ou.”
Dav id l o oked a t t h em , t h e s e rio us d ark g ir l a n d t h e f a ir l a u ghin g o ne.
Marita l o oked a t h im t r y in g t o t e ll h im s o m eth in g. C ath erin e w as l a u ghin g.
“W on’t y ou c o m e i n t o o, D av id ?”
“I c am e b y t o s e e i f y ou w an te d t o g o t o s w im o r a n yth in g,” D av id s a id .
“I d on’t w an t t o ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H eir e ss w as i n b ed a sle ep a n d I g ot
in to b ed w ith h er. S he w as v ery g ood a n d a sk ed m e t o l e av e. S he’s n ot a b it
unfa ith fu l t o y ou. N ot i n t h e l e ast l ittle b it. B ut w on’t y ou c o m e i n t o o s o w e
can b oth b e f a ith fu l t o y ou?”
“N o,” D av id s a id .
“P le ase , D av id ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It’ s s u ch a l o vely d ay .”
“D o y ou w an t t o g o t o s w im ?” D av id a sk ed M arita .
“I’d l ik e t o ,” t h e g ir l s a id a b ove t h e s h eet.
“Y ou t w o p urita n s,” C ath erin e s a id . “ P le ase b oth b e r e aso nab le a n d c o m e
to b ed D av id .”
“I w an t t o g o t o s w im ,” M arita s a id . “ P le ase g o o ut, D av id .”
“W hy c an ’t h e s e e y ou?” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ H e s e es y ou a t t h e b each .”
“H e’ll s e e m e a t t h e c o ve,” M arita s a id . “ P le ase g o o ut, D av id .”
Dav id w en t o ut a n d c lo se d t h e d oor w ith out l o okin g b ack , h earin g M arita

ta lk in g i n a l o w v oic e t o C ath erin e a n d C ath erin e’s l a u ghte r. H e w alk ed d ow n
th e f la g sto nes t o t h e f ro nt o f t h e h ote l a n d l o oked o ut a t t h e s e a. T here w as a
lig ht b re eze n ow a n d h e w atc h ed t h re e F re n ch d estr o yers a n d a c ru is e r, n eat
an d d ark , a n d s h arp ly e tc h ed o n t h e b lu e s e a a s t h ey m oved i n f o rm atio n
work in g o ut s o m e p ro ble m s. T hey w ere f a r o ut a n d t h ey l o oked t o b e
re co gnitio n s ilh ouette s f ro m t h eir s iz e u ntil a w hite l in e w ould s h ow a t t h e
bow a s a s h ip s p eed ed u p t o c h an ge t h e p atte rn . D av id w atc h ed t h em u ntil t h e
tw o g ir ls c am e u p t o h im .
“P le ase d on’t b e c ro ss,” C ath erin e s a id .
They w ere d re sse d t o g o t o t h e b each a n d C ath erin e p ut a b ag w ith t h e
to w els a n d t h e r o bes o n a n i r o n c h air .
“A re y ou g oin g s w im min g t o o?” D av id s a id t o h er.
“If y ou’re n ot a n gry w ith m e.”
Dav id s a id n oth in g a n d w atc h ed t h e s h ip s a s t h ey c h an ged c o urs e a n d
an oth er d estr o yer m oved o ut o f t h e p atte rn a t a s h arp a n gle w ith t h e l in e o f
white c u rlin g b ack f ro m h er b ow s. S he b eg an t o m ak e s m oke a n d i t t r a ile d i n
a b la ck w id en in g p lu m e a s s h e c u rv ed a t f la n k s p eed .
“It w as o nly a j o ke,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W e’d b een m ak in g s u ch g ood
ro ugh j o kes. Y ou a n d I h ad .”
“W hat a re t h ey d oin g, D av id ?” M arita a sk ed .
“A nti- s u b m an eu vers , I t h in k,” h e s a id . “ M ay be t h ere a re s u bs w ork in g
with t h em . T hey ’re p ro bab ly o ut f ro m T oulo n.”
“T hey w ere i n S ain te M ax im e o r S ain t R ap hael,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I s a w
th em t h e o th er d ay .”
“I d on’t k now w hat i t i s n ow w ith t h e s m oke s c re en ,” D av id s a id . “ T here
must b e o th er s h ip s w e c an ’t s e e.”
“T here c o m e t h e p la n es,” M arita s a id . “ A re n ’t t h ey l o vely ?”
They w ere v ery s m all, n eat s e a-p la n es a n d t h re e o f t h em w ere c o m in g
aro und t h e p oin t l o w o ver t h e w ate r.
“W hen w e w ere h ere i n t h e e arly s u m mer t h ey h ad g unnery p ra ctic e o ff
th e P orq uero lle s a n d i t w as t e rrif ic ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It s h ook t h e w in dow .
Will t h ey u se d ep th b om bs n ow , D av id ?”
“I d on’t k now . I s h ould n’t t h in k s o i f t h ey ’re w ork in g w ith r e al s u bs.”
“I c an g o t o s w im , c an ’t I p le ase D av id ?” C ath erin e a sk ed . “ I’m g oin g
aw ay a n d t h en y ou c an s w im a ll t h e t im e b y y ours e lv es.”
“I a sk ed y ou t o s w im ,” D av id s a id .
“T hat’ s t r u e,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou d id . T hen l e t’ s g o n ow a n d a ll b e

frie n ds a n d h ap py. I f t h e p la n es c o m e i n c lo se t h ey c an s e e u s o n t h e b each a t
th e c o ve a n d t h at w ill c h eer t h em u p.”
The p la n es d id c o m e b y c lo se o ff t h e c o ve w hile D av id a n d M arita w ere
sw im min g f a r o ut a n d C ath erin e w as t a n nin g o n t h e b each . T hey p asse d
ra p id ly , t h re e e ch elo ns o f t h re e, t h eir b ig R hône m oto rs r o arin g s u dden ly a s
th ey f le w o ver t h en d yin g a w ay a s t h ey w en t t o w ard S ain te M ax im e.
Dav id a n d M arita s w am b ack i n t o t h e b each a n d s a t o n t h e s a n d b y
Cath erin e.
“T hey n ev er e v en l o oked a t m e,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hey m ust b e v ery
se rio us b oys.”
“W hat d id y ou e x pect? A eria l p hoto gra p hy?” D av id a sk ed h er.
Marita h ad s a id v ery l ittle s in ce t h ey h ad l e ft t h e h ote l a n d s h e s a id
noth in g t o t h is .
“It w as f u n w hen D av id r e ally d id l iv e w ith m e,” C ath erin e s a id t o h er. “ I
can r e m em ber w hen I l ik ed e v ery th in g t h at D av id d id . Y ou m ust t r y t o l ik e
his t h in gs t o o, H eir e ss. T hat i s i f h e h as a n y l e ft.”
“D o y ou h av e a n y l e ft, D av id ?” M arita a sk ed .
“H e t r a d ed e v ery th in g h e h ad i n o n t h ose s to rie s,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H e
use d t o h av e s o m an y t h in gs. I c erta in ly h ope y ou l ik e s to rie s, H eir e ss.”
“I l ik e t h em ,” M arita s a id . S he d id n ot l o ok a t D av id b ut h e s a w h er
se re n e d ark f a ce a n d s e a w et h air a n d s m ooth l o vely s k in a n d h er b eau tif u l
body a s s h e s a t l o okin g o ut a t t h e s e a.
“T hat’ s g ood,” C ath erin e s a id l a zily a n d t o ok a l o ng d eep l a zy b re ath a s
sh e s tr e tc h ed o ut o n t h e b each r o be o n t h e s a n d t h at w as s till w arm f ro m t h e
afte rn oon s u n. “ B ecau se t h at’ s w hat y ou’re g oin g t o g et. H e u se d t o d o s o
man y t h in gs t o o a n d h e d id t h em a ll s o b eau tif u lly . H e h ad a w onderfu l l if e
an d a ll h e t h in ks a b out n ow i s A fric a a n d h is d ru nken f a th er a n d h is p re ss
cu ttin gs. H is c lip pin gs. H as h e e v er s h ow n y ou h is c lip pin gs, H eir e ss? ”
“N o, C ath erin e,” M arita s a id .
“H e w ill,” C ath erin e s a id . “ H e t r ie d t o s h ow t h em t o m e o nce a t l e G ra u
du R oi b ut I p ut a s to p t o t h at. T here w ere h undre d s o f t h em a n d e v ery o ne,
alm ost, h ad h is p ic tu re a n d t h ey w ere a ll t h e s a m e p ic tu re s. I t’ s w ors e t h an
carry in g a ro und o bsc en e p ostc ard s r e ally . I t h in k h e r e ad s t h em b y h im se lf
an d i s u nfa ith fu l t o m e w ith t h em . I n a w aste b ask et p ro bab ly . H e a lw ay s h as
a w aste b ask et. H e s a id h im se lf i t w as t h e m ost i m porta n t t h in g f o r a w rite r
—”
“L et’ s g o i n a n d s w im , C ath erin e,” M arita s a id . “ I t h in k I ’m g ettin g

co ld .”
“I m ean t h e w aste b ask et w as t h e m ost i m porta n t t h in g f o r a w rite r,”
Cath erin e s a id . “ I u se d t o t h in k I o ught t o g et h im a r e ally w onderfu l o ne t h at
would b e w orth y o f h im . B ut h e n ev er p uts a n yth in g h e w rite s i n t h e
waste b ask et. H e w rite s i n t h ose r id ic u lo us c h ild ’s n ote b ooks a n d h e d oesn ’t
th ro w a n yth in g a w ay . H e j u st c ro sse s t h in gs o ut a n d w rite s a lo ng t h e s id es o f
th e p ag es. T he w hole b usin ess i s a f ra u d r e ally . H e m ak es m is ta k es i n
sp ellin g a n d g ra m mar t o o. D id y ou k now , M arita , t h at h e d oesn ’t e v en r e ally
know g ra m mar? ”
“P oor D av id ,” M arita s a id .
“O f c o urs e h is F re n ch i s w ors e ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou’v e n ev er s e en h im
tr y t o w rite i t. H e f a k es a lo ng w ell e n ough i n c o nvers a tio n a n d h e’s a m usin g
with h is s la n g. B ut a ctu ally h e’s i llite ra te .”
“T oo b ad ,” s a id D av id .
“I t h ought h e w as w onderfu l,” C ath erin e s a id , “ u ntil I f o und h e c o uld n’t
write e v en a s im ple n ote c o rre ctly . B ut t h en y ou’ll b e a b le t o w rite i n F re n ch
fo r h im .”
“Ta g ueu le ,”
Dav id s a id c h eerfu lly .
“H e’s g ood a t t h at s o rt o f t h in g,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Q uic k t a g s o f s la n g t h at
are p ro bab ly o utd ate d b efo re h e k now s i t. H e s p eak s v ery i d io m atic F re n ch
but h e c an ’t w rite i t a t a ll. H e’s r e ally i llite ra te , M arita , a n d y ou h av e t o f a ce
it. H is h an dw ritin g i s t e rrib le t o o. H e c an ’t w rite l ik e a g en tle m an n or s p eak
lik e o ne i n a n y l a n guag e. E sp ecia lly n ot h is o w n.”
“P oor D av id ,” M arita s a id .
“I c an ’t s a y I ’v e g iv en h im t h e b est y ears o f m y l if e ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“B ecau se I ’v e o nly l iv ed w ith h im s in ce M arc h I t h in k i t w as, b ut I ’v e
certa in ly g iv en h im t h e b est m onth s o f m y l if e . T he o nes I ’v e h ad t h e m ost
fu n i n a n yw ay a n d h e c erta in ly m ad e t h em f u n t o o. I w is h i t h ad n’t e n ded i n
co m ple te d is illu sio n t o o b ut w hat a re y ou t o d o i f y ou d is c o ver t h e m an i s
illite ra te a n d p ra ctic es s o lita ry v ic e i n a w aste b ask et f u ll o f c lip pin gs f ro m
so m eth in g c alle d T he O rig in al R om eik e’s , w hoev er t h ey a re . A ny g ir l w ould
be d is c o ura g ed a n d f ra n kly I ’m n ot g oin g t o p ut u p w ith i t.”
“Y ou t a k e t h e c lip pin gs a n d b urn t h em ,” D av id s a id . “ T hat w ould b e t h e
so undest t h in g. W ould n’t y ou l ik e t o g o i n n ow a n d s w im , D ev il? ”
Cath erin e l o oked a t h im s ly ly .
“H ow d id y ou k now I d id i t? ” s h e a sk ed .
“D id w hat? ”

“B urn ed t h e c lip pin gs.”
“D id y ou, C ath erin e?” M arita a sk ed .
“O f c o urs e I d id ,” C ath erin e s a id .
Dav id s to od l o okin g a t h er. H e f e lt c o m ple te ly h ollo w . I t w as l ik e c o m in g
aro und a c u rv e o n a m ounta in r o ad a n d t h e r o ad n ot b ein g t h ere a n d o nly a
gulf a h ead . M arita w as s ta n din g n ow t o o. C ath erin e w as l o okin g a t t h em h er
fa ce c alm a n d r e aso nab le .
“L et’ s g o i n a n d s w im ,” M arita s a id . “ W e’ll j u st s w im o ut t o t h e p oin t
an d b ack .”
“I’m g la d y ou’re b ein g p le asa n t f in ally ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I’v e b een
wan tin g t o g o i n f o r a l o ng t im e. I t’ s r e ally g ettin g q uite c o ol. W e f o rg et i t’ s
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T hey d re sse d o n t h e b each a n d c lim bed u p t h e s te ep t r a il w ith D av id c arry in g
t h e b ag w ith t h e b each t h in gs t o w here t h e o ld c ar w as w aitin g i n t h e p in e
w oods. T hey g ot i n a n d D av id d ro ve b ack t o t h e h ote l i n t h e e arly e v en in g
l ig ht. C ath erin e w as q uie t i n t h e c ar a n d t o a n yone p assin g t h em t h ey m ig ht
h av e b een r e tu rn in g f ro m a n y a fte rn oon a t o ne o f t h e u nfre q uen te d b each es o f
t h e E sté re l. T he w ar s h ip s w ere n o l o nger i n s ig ht w hen t h ey l e ft t h e c ar o n
t h e d riv ew ay , a n d t h e s e a b ey ond t h e p in es w as b lu e a n d c alm . T he e v en in g
w as a s b eau tif u l a n d c le ar a s t h e m orn in g h ad b een .
They w alk ed d ow n t o t h e e n tr a n ce o f t h e h ote l a n d D av id t o ok t h e b ag
w ith t h e b each t h in gs i n to t h e s to re ro om a n d p ut i t d ow n.
“L et m e t a k e t h em ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hey o ught t o g o t o d ry .”
“I’m s o rry ,” D av id s a id . H e t u rn ed a t t h e d oor o f t h e s to re ro om a n d
w alk ed o ut a n d t h en d ow n t o h is w ork r o om a t t h e e n d o f t h e h ote l. I n sid e t h e
r o om h e o pen ed t h e b ig V uitto n s u itc ase . T he p ile o f c ah ie rs t h at t h e s to rie s
h ad b een w ritte n i n w as g one. S o w ere t h e f o ur b ulk y e n velo pes f ro m t h e
b an k t h at h ad c o nta in ed t h e p re ss c lip pin gs. T he p ile o f c ah ie rs w ith t h e
n arra tiv e w ritte n i n t h em w ere i n ta ct. H e c lo se d a n d l o ck ed t h e s u itc ase a n d
s e arc h ed a ll o f t h e d ra w ers i n t h e a rm oir e a n d s e arc h ed t h e r o om . H e h ad n ot
b elie v ed t h at t h e s to rie s c o uld b e g one. H e h ad n ot b elie v ed t h at s h e c o uld d o
i t. A t t h e b each h e h ad k now n t h at s h e m ig ht h av e d one i t b ut i t h ad s e em ed
i m possib le a n d h e h ad n ot r e ally b elie v ed i t. T hey h ad b een c alm a n d c are fu l
a n d r e str a in ed a b out i t a s y ou w ere t r a in ed t o b e i n d an ger o r e m erg en cy o r i n
d is a ste r b ut i t h ad n ot s e em ed p ossib le t h at i t c o uld r e ally h av e h ap pen ed .
Now h e k new t h at i t h ad h ap pen ed b ut s till t h ought i t m ig ht b e s o m e

ghastly j o ke. S o, e m pty a n d d ead i n h is h eart, h e r e o pen ed t h e s u itc ase a n d
ch eck ed i t a n d a fte r h e l o ck ed i t h e c h eck ed t h e r o om a g ain .
Now t h ere w as n o d an ger a n d n o e m erg en cy . I t w as o nly d is a ste r n ow .
But i t c o uld n’t b e. S he m ust h av e h id den t h em s o m ep la ce. T hey c o uld b e i n
th e s to re ro om , o r i n t h eir o w n r o om , o r s h e c o uld h av e p ut t h em i n M arita ’s
ro om . S he c o uld n’t r e ally h av e d estr o yed t h em . N o o ne c o uld d o t h at t o a
fe llo w h um an b ein g. H e s till c o uld n ot b elie v e t h at s h e h ad d one i t b ut h e f e lt
sic k i n sid e h im se lf w hen h e c lo se d a n d l o ck ed t h e d oor.
The t w o g ir ls w ere a t t h e b ar w hen D av id c am e i n . M arita l o oked u p a t
him a n d s a w h ow t h in gs w ere a n d C ath erin e w atc h ed h im c o m e i n b y l o okin g
at t h e m ir ro r. S he d id n ot l o ok a t h im , o nly a t h is r e fle ctio n i n t h e m ir ro r.
“W here d id y ou p ut t h em , D ev il? ” D av id a sk ed .
She t u rn ed a w ay f ro m t h e m ir ro r a n d l o oked a t h im . “ I w on’t t e ll y ou,”
sh e s a id . “ I t o ok c are o f t h em .”
“I w is h y ou’d t e ll m e,” D av id s a id . “ B ecau se I n eed t h em v ery m uch .”
“N o, y ou d on’t,” s h e s a id . “ T hey w ere w orth le ss a n d I h ate d t h em .”
“N ot t h e o ne a b out K ib o,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou l o ved K ib o. D on’t y ou
re m em ber? ”
“H e h ad t o g o t o o. I w as g oin g t o t e ar h im o ut a n d k eep h im b ut I
co uld n’t f in d h im . A nyw ay y ou s a id h e w as d ead .”
Dav id s a w M arita l o ok a t h er a n d l o ok a w ay . T hen s h e l o oked b ack .
“W here d id y ou b urn t h em , C ath erin e?”
“I w on’t t e ll y ou e ith er,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou’re p art o f t h e s a m e t h in g.”
“D id y ou b urn t h em w ith t h e c lip pin gs? ” D av id a sk ed .
“I w on’t t e ll y ou,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou t a lk t o m e l ik e a p olic em an o r a t
sc h ool.”
“T ell m e, D ev il. I o nly w an t t o k now .”
“I p aid f o r t h em ,” C ath erin e s a id , “ I p aid t h e m oney t o d o t h em .”
“I k now ,” D av id s a id . “ It w as v ery g en ero us o f y ou. W here d id y ou b urn
th em , D ev il? ”
“I w on’t t e ll h er.”
“N o. J u st t e ll m e.”
“A sk h er t o g o a w ay .”
“I r e ally h av e t o g o a n yw ay ,” M arita s a id . “ I’ll s e e y ou l a te r, C ath erin e.”
“T hat’ s g ood,” C ath erin e s a id . “ It w asn ’t y our f a u lt, H eir e ss.”
Dav id s a t o n t h e t a ll s to ol b y C ath erin e a n d s h e l o oked i n t h e m ir ro r a n d
watc h ed M arita g o o ut o f t h e r o om .

“W here d id y ou b urn t h em , D ev il? ” D av id a sk ed . “ Y ou c an t e ll m e n ow .”
“S he w ould n’t u nders ta n d,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hat’ s w hy I w an te d h er t o
go.”
“I k now ,” s a id D av id . “ W here d id y ou b urn t h em , D ev il? ”
“In t h e i r o n d ru m w ith h ole s t h at M ad am e u se s t o b urn t r a sh ,” C ath erin e
sa id .
“D id e v ery th in g b urn u p?”
“Y es. I p oure d o n s o m e p etr o l f ro m a
b id on
i n t h e
r e m is e .
I t m ad e a b ig
fir e a n d e v ery th in g b urn ed . I d id i t f o r y ou, D av id , a n d f o r a ll o f u s.”
“I’m s u re y ou d id ,” D av id s a id . “ D id e v ery th in g b urn ?”
“O h y es. W e c an g o o ut a n d l o ok i f y ou l ik e b ut i t i s n ’t n ecessa ry . T he
pap er a ll b urn ed b la ck a n d I s tir re d i t u p w ith a s tic k .”
“I’ll j u st g o o ut a n d h av e a l o ok,” D av id s a id .
“B ut y ou’ll b e b ack ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“S ure ,” D av id s a id .
The b urn in g h ad b een i n t h e t r a sh b urn er w hic h w as a f o rm er f if ty -fiv e-
gallo n g aso lin e d ru m w ith h ole s p unch ed i n i t. T he s tic k u se d t o s tir t h e
ash es, a n d s till f re sh ly b la ck en ed o n o ne e n d, w as a n o ld b ro om h an dle w hic h
had b een u se d i n t h is c ap acity b efo re . T he
b id on
w as i n t h e s to ne s h ed a n d
co nta in ed k ero se n e. I n t h e d ru m w ere a f e w i d en tif ia b le c h arre d b its o f t h e
gre en c o vers o f t h e c ah ie rs , a n d D av id f o und s c ra p s o f b urn t n ew sp rin t a n d
tw o c h arre d b its o f p in k p ap er w hic h h e i d en tif ie d a s t h ose u se d b y t h e
Rom eik e’s c lip pin g s e rv ic e. O n o ne h e c o uld d is tin guis h t h e P ro vid en ce R I
date lin e. T he a sh es h ad b een w ell s tir re d b ut t h ere w ould d oubtle ss h av e b een
more u nburn ed o r c h arre d m ate ria l i f h e h ad c are d t o s if t o r e x am in e t h em
patie n tly . H e t o re t h e p in k p ap er w ith P ro vid en ce R I p rin te d o n i t i n to s m all
pie ces a n d d ro pped t h em i n t h e f o rm er g aso lin e d ru m w hic h h e h ad r e p la ced
in a n u prig ht p ositio n. H e r e fle cte d t h at h e h ad n ev er b een i n P ro vid en ce,
Rhode I s la n d, a n d r e p la cin g t h e b ro om h an dle i n t h e s to ne s h ed , w here h e
notic ed t h e p re se n ce o f h is r a cin g b ic y cle , t h e t ir e s o f w hic h n eed ed i n fla tio n,
he r e en te re d t h e k itc h en o f t h e h ote l, w hic h w as e m pty , a n d p ro ceed ed t o t h e
sa lo n w here h e j o in ed h is w if e C ath erin e a t t h e b ar.
“W asn ’t i t j u st t h e w ay I s a id ?” C ath erin e a sk ed .
“Y es,” D av id s a id a n d s a t d ow n o n o ne o f t h e s to ols a n d p ut h is e lb ow s
on t h e b ar.
“It p ro bab ly w ould h av e b een e n ough t o b urn t h e c lip pin gs,” C ath erin e
sa id . “ B ut I r e ally t h ought I o ught t o m ak e a c le an s w eep .”

“Y ou d id , a ll r ig ht,” D av id s a id .
“N ow y ou c an g o r ig ht o n w ith t h e n arra tiv e a n d t h ere w ill b e n oth in g t o
in te rru pt y ou. Y ou c an s ta rt i n t h e m orn in g.”
“S ure ,” D av id s a id .
“I’m g la d y ou’re r e aso nab le a b out i t,” C ath erin e s a id . “ Y ou c o uld n’t
know h ow w orth le ss t h ey w ere , D av id . I h ad t o s h ow y ou.”
“Y ou c o uld n’t h av e k ep t t h e K ib o o ne t h at y ou l ik ed ?”
“I t o ld y ou I t r ie d t o f in d i t. B ut i f y ou w an t t o r e w rite i t I c an t e ll i t t o
you w ord f o r w ord .”
“T hat w ill b e f u n.”
“It w ill b e r e ally . Y ou’ll s e e. D o y ou w an t m e t o t e ll i t t o y ou n ow ? W e
co uld i f y ou w an t.”
“N o,” D av id s a id . “ N ot j u st n ow . W ould y ou w rite i t t h ough?”
“I c an ’t w rite t h in gs, D av id . Y ou k now t h at. B ut I c an t e ll i t t o y ou
an ytim e y ou w an t. Y ou d on’t r e ally c are a b out t h e o th ers d o y ou? T hey w ere
worth le ss.”
“W hy d id y ou d o i t r e ally ?”
“T o h elp y ou. Y ou c an g o t o A fric a a n d w rite t h em a g ain w hen y our
vie w poin t i s m ore m atu re . T he c o untr y c an ’t b e c h an ged v ery m uch . I t h in k i t
would b e n ic e i f y ou w ro te a b out S pain i n ste ad t h ough. Y ou s a id t h e c o untr y
was a lm ost t h e s a m e a s A fric a a n d t h ere y ou’d h av e t h e a d van ta g e o f a
civ iliz ed l a n guag e.”
Dav id p oure d h im se lf a w his k ey a n d f o und a b ottle o f P errie r, u ncap ped
it a n d p oure d s o m e i n t h e g la ss. H e r e m em bere d t h e d ay t h ey h ad p asse d t h e
pla ce w here t h ey b ottle d P errie r w ate r o n t h e p la in o n t h e w ay t o A ig ues
Morte s a n d h ow — “L et’ s n ot t a lk a b out w ritin g,” h e s a id t o C ath erin e.
“I l ik e t o ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ W hen i t’ s c o nstr u ctiv e a n d h as s o m e v alid
purp ose . Y ou a lw ay s w ro te s o w ell u ntil y ou s ta rte d t h ose s to rie s. T he w ors t
th in g w as t h e d ir t a n d t h e f lie s a n d t h e c ru elty a n d t h e b estia lity . Y ou s e em ed
alm ost t o g ro vel i n i t. T hat h orrib le o ne a b out t h e m assa cre i n t h e c ra te r a n d
th e h eartle ssn ess o f y our o w n f a th er.”
“C an w e n ot t a lk a b out t h em ?” D av id a sk ed .
“I w an t t o t a lk a b out t h em ,” C ath erin e s a id . “ I w an t t o m ak e y ou r e aliz e
why i t w as n ecessa ry t o b urn t h em .”
“W rite i t o ut,” D av id s a id . “ I’d r a th er n ot h ear i t n ow .”
“B ut I c an ’t w rite t h in gs, D av id .”
“Y ou w ill,” D av id s a id .

“N o. B ut I ’ll t e ll t h em t o s o m eo ne w ho c an w rite t h em ,” C ath erin e s a id .
“If y ou w ere f rie n dly y ou’d w rite t h em f o r m e. I f y ou r e ally l o ved m e y ou’d
be h ap py t o .”
“A ll I w an t t o d o i s k ill y ou,” D av id s a id . “ A nd t h e o nly r e aso n I d on’t d o
it i s b ecau se y ou a re c ra zy .”
“Y ou c an ’t t a lk t o m e l ik e t h at, D av id .”
“N o?”
“N o, y ou c an ’t. Y ou c an ’t. D o y ou h ear m e?”
“I h ear y ou.”
“T hen h ear m e s a y y ou c an ’t s a y s u ch t h in gs. Y ou c an ’t s a y h orrib le
th in gs l ik e t h at t o m e.”
“I h ear y ou,” D av id s a id .
“Y ou c an ’t s a y s u ch t h in gs. I w on’t s ta n d f o r i t. I ’ll d iv orc e y ou.”
“T hat w ould b e v ery w elc o m e.”
“T hen I ’ll s ta y m arrie d t o y ou a n d n ev er g iv e y ou a d iv orc e.”
“T hat w ould b e p re tty .”
“I’ll d o a n yth in g I w an t t o y ou.”
“Y ou h av e.”
“I’ll k ill y ou.”
“I w ould n’t g iv e a s h it,” D av id s a id .
“Y ou c an ’t e v en t a lk l ik e a g en tle m an a t a t im e l ik e t h is .”
“W hat w ould a g en tle m an s a y a t a t im e l ik e t h is ? ”
“T hat h e w as s o rry .”
“A ll r ig ht,” D av id s a id . “ I’m s o rry . I ’m s o rry I e v er m et y ou. I ’m s o rry I
ev er m arrie d y ou— ”
“S o a m I .”
“S hut u p p le ase . Y ou c an t e ll i t t o s o m eb ody w ho c an w rite i t d ow n. I ’m
so rry y our m oth er e v er m et y our f a th er a n d t h at t h ey e v er m ad e y ou. I ’m
so rry y ou w ere b orn a n d t h at y ou g re w u p. I ’m s o rry f o r e v ery th in g w e e v er
did g ood o r b ad — ”
“Y ou’re n ot.”
“N o,” h e s a id . “ I’ll s h ut u p. I d id n’t m ean t o m ak e a s p eech .”
“Y ou’re j u st r e ally s o rry f o r y ours e lf .”
“P ossib ly ,” D av id s a id . “ B ut s h it, D ev il, w hy d id y ou h av e t o b urn t h em ?
The s to rie s? ”
“I h ad t o , D av id ,” s h e s a id . “ I’m s o rry i f y ou d on’t u nders ta n d.”

He h ad u nders to od r e ally b efo re h e h ad a sk ed h er t h e q uestio n a n d t h e
questio n h ad b een , h e r e aliz ed , a r h eto ric al o ne. H e d is lik ed r h eto ric a n d
dis tr u ste d t h ose w ho u se d i t a n d h e w as a sh am ed t o h av e f a lle n i n to i t. H e
dra n k t h e w his k ey a n d P errie r s lo w ly w hile h e t h ought h ow u ntr u e i t w as t h at
ev ery th in g t h at w as u nders to od w as f o rg iv en a n d h e t ig hte n ed h is o w n
dis c ip lin e a s c o nsc ie n tio usly a s h e w ould h av e w ork ed i n t h e o ld d ay s w ith
th e m ech an ic a n d t h e a rm ore r g oin g o ver t h e p la n e, t h e e n gin e a n d h is g uns.
It w as n ot n ecessa ry t h en b ecau se t h ey d id t h e w ork p erfe ctly b ut i t w as o ne
way o f n ot t h in kin g, a n d i t w as, t o u se a w et w ord , c o m fo rtin g. N ow i t
w as
necessa ry b ecau se w hat h e h ad s a id t o C ath erin e a b out k illin g h er h e h ad s a id
quite t r u ly a n d n ot r h eto ric ally . H e w as a sh am ed o f t h e s p eech w hic h h ad
fo llo w ed t h e s ta te m en t. B ut t h ere w as n oth in g h e c o uld d o a b out t h e
sta te m en t w hic h w as t r u ly m ad e e x cep t t ig hte n h is d is c ip lin e s o t h at h e w ould
hav e i t i n c ase h e b eg an t o l o se c o ntr o l. H e p oure d h im se lf a n oth er w his k ey
an d p ut i n P errie r a g ain a n d w atc h ed t h e s m all b ubble s f o rm a n d b re ak . G od
dam n h er t o h ell, h e t h ought.
“I’m s o rry t o b e s tu ffy ,” h e s a id . “ I u nders ta n d o f c o urs e .”
“I’m s o g la d , D av id ,” s h e s a id . “ I’m g oin g a w ay i n t h e m orn in g.”
“W here ?”
“T o H en day e a n d t h en t o P aris t o s e e a b out a rtis ts f o r t h e b ook.”
“R eally ?”
“Y es. I t h in k I s h ould . W e’v e w aste d t im e a s i t i s a n d t o day I m ad e s o
much p ro gre ss t h at I j u st n eed t o k eep o n.”
“H ow a re y ou g oin g?”
“W ith t h e B ug.”
“Y ou s h ould n’t d riv e a lo ne.”
“I w an t t o .”
“Y ou s h ould n’t, D ev il. R eally . I c o uld n’t l e t y ou.”
“C an I g o o n t h e t r a in ? T here ’s o ne t o B ay onne. I c an r e n t a c ar t h ere o r
in B ia rritz .”
“C an w e t a lk a b out i t i n t h e m orn in g?”
“I w an t t o t a lk a b out i t n ow .”
“Y ou s h ould n’t g o, D ev il.”
“I’m g oin g,” s h e s a id . “ Y ou’re n ot g oin g t o s to p m e.”
“I’m o nly t h in kin g a b out t h e b est w ay .”
“N o, y ou’re n ot. Y ou’re t r y in g t o s to p m e.”
“If y ou w ait w e’ll g o t o geth er.”

“I d on’t w an t t o g o t o geth er. I w an t t o g o t o m orro w a n d i n t h e B ug. I f
you d on’t a g re e I ’ll g o b y t r a in . Y ou c an ’t s to p a n yone f ro m g oin g o n t h e
tr a in . I ’m o f a g e a n d b ecau se I ’m m arrie d t o y ou d oesn ’t m ak e m e y our s la v e
or y our c h atte l. I ’m g oin g a n d y ou c an ’t s to p m e.”
“W ill y ou b e c o m in g b ack ?”
“I p la n t o .”
“I s e e.”
“Y ou d on’t s e e b ut i t d oesn ’t m ak e a n y d if fe re n ce. T his i s a r e aso ned a n d
co ord in ate d p ro je ct. T hese t h in gs a re n ’t j u st t o sse d o ff— ”
“In to a w aste b ask et,” D av id s a id a n d r e m em bere d t h e d is c ip lin e a n d
sip ped t h e w his k ey a n d P errie r.
“A re y ou g oin g t o s e e y our l a w yers i n P aris ? ” h e a sk ed .
“If I h av e a n y b usin ess w ith t h em . I u su ally s e e m y l a w yers . J u st b ecau se
you d on’t h av e a n y l a w yers d oesn ’t m ean e v ery one e ls e d oesn ’t h av e t o s e e
th eir l a w yers . D o y ou w an t m y l a w yers t o d o a n yth in g f o r y ou?”
“N o,” D av id s a id . “ F uck y our l a w yers .”
“D o y ou h av e p le n ty o f m oney ?”
“I’m q uite a ll r ig ht o n m oney .”
“R eally , D av id ? W ere n ’t t h e s to rie s w orth a l o t? I t’ s b oth ere d m e t e rrib ly
an d I k now m y r e sp onsib ility . I ’ll f in d o ut a n d d o e x actly w hat I s h ould .”
“Y ou’ll w hat? ”
“D o e x actly w hat I s h ould .”
“Ju st w hat i s i t y ou p ro pose t o d o?”
“I’ll h av e t h eir v alu e d ete rm in ed a n d I ’ll h av e t w ic e t h at p aid i n to y our
ban k.”
“S ounds v ery g en ero us,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou w ere a lw ay s g en ero us.”
“I w an t t o b e j u st, D av id , a n d i t’ s p ossib le t h at t h ey w ere w orth ,
fin an cia lly , m uch m ore t h an t h ey w ould b e a p pra is e d a t.”
“W ho a p pra is e s t h ese t h in gs? ”
“T here m ust b e p eo ple w ho d o. T here a re p eo ple w ho a p pra is e
ev ery th in g.”
“W hat s o rt o f p eo ple ?”
“I w ould n’t k now , D av id . B ut I c an i m ag in e s u ch p eo ple a s t h e e d ito r o f
th e
A tla ntic M onth ly , H arp er’s , L a N ouvelle R evu e F ra nça is e .

“I’m g oin g o ut f o r a w hile ,” D av id s a id . “ D o y ou f e el a ll r ig ht? ”
“E xcep t f o r t h e f a ct t h at I f e el I ’v e p ro bab ly d one a g re at w ro ng t o y ou
th at I m ust t r y t o s e t r ig ht I f e el v ery w ell,” C ath erin e s a id . “ T hat w as o ne

re aso n I w as g oin g t o P aris . I d id n’t w an t t o t e ll y ou.”
“L et’ s n ot d is c u ss c asu altie s,” D av id s a id . “ S o y ou w an t t o g o o n t h e
tr a in ?”
“N o. I w an t t o g o i n t h e B ug.”
“A ll r ig ht. G o i n t h e B ug. J u st d riv e c are fu lly a n d d on’t p ass o n h ills .”
“I’ll d riv e t h e w ay y ou t a u ght m e a n d I ’ll p re te n d y ou’re w ith m e a ll t h e
tim e a n d t a lk t o y ou a n d t e ll u s s to rie s a n d m ak e u p s to rie s a b out h ow I s a v ed
your l if e . I a lw ay s m ak e t h ose u p. A nd w ith y ou i t w ill a ll s e em s o m uch
sh orte r a n d e ffo rtle ss a n d t h e s p eed w on’t s e em f a st. I ’m g oin g t o h av e f u n.”
“G ood,” s a id D av id . “ T ak e i t a s e asy a s y ou c an . S le ep a t N îm es t h e f ir s t
nig ht u nle ss y ou g et o ff e arly . T hey k now u s a t t h e I m pera to r.”
“I t h ought I ’d g et t o C arc asso nne.”
“N o, D ev il, p le ase .”
“P erh ap s I c an g et o ff e arly a n d m ak e C arc asso nne. I ’d g o b y A rle s a n d
Montp ellie r a n d n ot l o se t im e b y N îm es.”
“If y ou g et o ff l a te s to p a t N îm es.”
“It s e em s s o b ab yis h ,” s h e s a id .
“I’ll d riv e w ith y ou,” h e s a id . “ I s h ould .”
“N o, p le ase . I t’ s i m porta n t t h at I d o t h is b y m yse lf . I t r e ally i s . I w ould n’t
hav e y ou.”
“A ll r ig ht,” h e s a id . “ B ut I o ught t o g o.”
“P le ase d on’t. Y ou m ust h av e c o nfid en ce i n m e, D av id . I ’ll d riv e
care fu lly a n d I ’ll d riv e i t r ig ht s tr a ig ht t h ro ugh.”
“Y ou c o uld n’t, D ev il. I t g ets d ark e arly n ow .”
“Y ou m ustn ’t w orry . Y ou’re s w eet t o l e t m e g o,” C ath erin e s a id . “ B ut
you a lw ay s d id . I f I d id a n yth in g I s h ould n’t I h ope y ou c an f o rg iv e m e. I ’ll
mis s y ou t e rrib ly . I m is s y ou a lr e ad y. N ex t t im e w e’ll d riv e i t t o geth er.”
“Y ou’v e h ad a v ery b usy d ay ,” D av id s a id . “ Y ou’re t ir e d . A t l e ast l e t m e
ru n y our B ugatti d ow n t o t o w n a n d b ack a n d g iv e i t a c h eck .”
He s to pped a t M arita ’s d oor a n d s a id , “ D o y ou w an t t o g o f o r a r id e?”
“Y es,” s h e s a id .
“C om e o n t h en ,” h e t o ld h er.

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D av id g ot i n to t h e c ar a n d M arita c lim bed i n b esid e h im a n d h e p ut t h e c ar a t
a s tr e tc h o f r o ad w here t h e s a n d d rif te d a cro ss f ro m t h e b each a n d t h en
t h ro ttle d b ack a n d h eld i t i n , w atc h in g t h e p ap yru s g ra ss a h ead o n h is l e ft a n d
t h e e m pty b each a n d t h e s e a o n h is r ig ht a s h e s a w t h e b la ck r o ad a h ead . H e
p ut t h e c ar a t t h e r o ad a g ain u ntil h e s a w t h e w hite p ain te d b rid ge c o m in g a t
h im f a st t h en h eld h is s p eed a s h e c alc u la te d t h e d is ta n ce, r a is e d h is f o ot f ro m
t h e t h ro ttle a n d p um ped t h e b ra k es g en tly . S he w as s te ad y a n d l o st
m om en tu m a t e ach p um p w ith n o d ev ia tio n a n d n o b in din g. H e b ro ught t h e
c ar t o a s to p b efo re t h e b rid ge, d ow nsh if te d a n d t h en p ut h er a t t h e r o ad a g ain
i n a r is in g d is c ip lin ed s n arl a lo ng t h e N .6 t o C an nes.
“S he b urn ed t h em a ll,” h e s a id .
“O h D av id ,” M arita s a id a n d t h ey d ro ve o n i n to C an nes w here t h e l ig hts
w ere o n n ow a n d D av id s to pped t h e c ar u nder t h e t r e es i n f ro nt o f t h e c afe
w here t h ey h ad f ir s t m et.
“W ould n’t y ou r a th er g o s o m ew here e ls e ?” M arita a sk ed .
“I d on’t c are ,” D av id s a id . “ It d oesn ’t m ak e a h ell o f a l o t o f d if fe re n ce.”
“If y ou’d r a th er j u st d riv e,” M arita o ffe re d .
“N o. I ’d r a th er c o ol o ut,” D av id s a id . “ I j u st w an te d t o s e e i f t h e c ar w as
i n s h ap e f o r h er t o d riv e i t.”
“S he’s g oin g?”
“S he s a y s s o .”
They w ere s ittin g a t t h e t a b le o n t h e t e rra ce i n t h e d ap ple d s h ad ow o f t h e
l e av es o f t h e t r e es. T he w aite r h ad b ro ught M arita a T io P ep e a n d D av id a
w his k ey a n d P errie r.

“D o y ou w an t m e t o g o w ith h er? ” M arita s a id .
“Y ou d on’t r e ally t h in k a n yth in g w ill h ap pen t o h er? ”
“N o, D av id . I t h in k s h e’s d one h er d am ag e f o r a w hile .”
“C ould b e,” D av id s a id . “ S he b urn ed e v ery f u ck in g t h in g e x cep t t h e
narra tiv e. T he s tu ff a b out h er.”
“It’ s a w onderfu l n arra tiv e,” M arita s a id .
“D on’t b uck m e u p,” D av id s a id . “ I w ro te i t a n d I w ro te w hat s h e b urn ed .
Don’t g iv e m e t h e s tu ff t h ey f e ed t h e t r o ops.”
“Y ou c an w rite t h em a g ain .”
“N o,” D av id t o ld h er. “ W hen i t’ s r ig ht y ou c an ’t r e m em ber. E very t im e
you r e ad i t a g ain i t c o m es a s a g re at a n d u nbelie v ab le s u rp ris e . Y ou c an ’t
belie v e y ou d id i t. W hen i t’ s o nce r ig ht y ou n ev er c an d o i t a g ain . Y ou o nly
do i t o nce f o r e ach t h in g. A nd y ou’re o nly a llo w ed s o m an y i n y our l if e .”
“S o m an y w hat? ”
“S o m an y g ood o nes.”
“B ut y ou c an r e m em ber t h em . Y ou m ust.”
“N ot m e a n d n ot y ou a n d n ot a n ybody. T hey ’re g one. O nce I g et t h em
rig ht t h ey ’re g one.”
“S he w as w ic k ed t o y ou.”
“N o,” D av id s a id .
“W hat t h en ?”
“H urrie d ,” D av id s a id . “ E very th in g t o day w as b ecau se s h e w as h urrie d
re ally .”
“I h ope y ou’ll b e a s k in d t o m e.”
“Y ou j u st s ta y a ro und a n d h elp m e n ot t o k ill h er. Y ou k now w hat s h e’s
goin g t o d o d on’t y ou? S he’s g oin g t o p ay m e f o r t h e s to rie s s o t h at I w on’t
lo se a n yth in g.”
“N o.”
“Y es s h e i s . S he’s g oin g t o h av e h er l a w yers h av e t h em a p pra is e d i n
so m e f a n ta stic R ube G old berg m an ner a n d t h en s h e’s g oin g t o p ay m e d ouble
th e a p pra is a l p ric e.”
“T ru ly , D av id , s h e d id n’t s a y t h at.”
“S he s a id i t a n d i t’ s i n fin ite ly s o und. O nly t h e d eta ils n eed w ork in g o ut
an d w hat’ s m ore t h e d oublin g o f t h e a p pra is a l o r w hate v er m ak es i t g en ero us
an d g iv es h er p le asu re .”
“Y ou c an ’t l e t h er d riv e a lo ne, D av id .”
“I k now i t.”

“W hat a re y ou g oin g t o d o?”
“I d on’t k now . B ut l e t’ s s it h ere f o r a l ittle w hile ,” D av id s a id . “ T here
is n ’t a n y h urry n ow . I t h in k s h e’s p ro bab ly t ir e d a n d g one t o s le ep . I ’d l ik e t o
go t o s le ep t o o, w ith y ou, a n d w ak e u p a n d f in d t h e s tu ff a ll t h ere a n d n ot
gone a n d g o t o w ork a g ain .”
“W e w ill s le ep a n d s o m ed ay w hen y ou w ak e u p y ou’ll w ork a s
wonderfu lly a s y ou d id t h is m orn in g.”
“Y ou’re a w fu lly g ood,” D av id s a id . “ B ut y ou c erta in ly g ot i n to a f in e l o t
of t r o uble w hen y ou c am e i n h ere t h at n ig ht, d id n’t y ou?”
“D on’t t r y t o p ut m e o uts id e,” M arita s a id . “ I k now w hat I g ot i n to .”
“S ure ,” s a id D av id . “ W e b oth k now . D o y ou w an t a n oth er d rin k?”
“If y ou d o,” M arita s a id a n d t h en , “ I d id n’t k now i t w as a b attle w hen I
cam e.”
“N eith er d id I .”
“W ith y ou i t’ s r e ally o nly y ou a g ain st t im e.”
“N ot t h e t im e t h at’ s C ath erin e’s .”
“O nly b ecau se h er t im e i s d if fe re n t. S he’s p an ic k ed b y i t. Y ou s a id
to nig ht t h at a ll o f t o day w as o nly h urry . T hat w asn ’t t r u e b ut i t w as
perc ep tiv e. A nd y ou w on s o w ell o ver t im e f o r s o l o ng.”
Very m uch l a te r h e c alle d f o r t h e w aite r a n d p aid f o r t h e d rin ks a n d l e ft a
good t ip a n d h e h ad s ta rte d t h e c ar a n d p ut o n t h e l ig hts a n d w as l e ttin g o ut
th e c lu tc h w hen w hat h ad r e ally h ap pen ed c am e b ack t o h im a g ain . I t w as
back a s c le ar a n d u nblu rre d a s w hen h e h ad f ir s t l o oked i n to t h e t r a sh b urn er
an d s e en t h e a sh es t h at h ad b een s tir re d b y t h e b ro om stic k . H e p ush ed h is
head lig hts c are fu lly o ut t h ro ugh t h e q uie t a n d e m pty e v en in g o f t h e t o w n a n d
fo llo w ed t h em a lo ng t h e p ort o nto t h e r o ad . H e f e lt M arita ’s s h ould er b y h im
an d h eard h er s a y , “ I k now , D av id . I t h it m e t o o.”
“D on’t l e t i t.”
“I’m g la d i t d id . T here ’s n oth in g t o d o b ut w e’ll d o i t.”
“G ood.”
“W e’ll r e ally d o i t.
T oi e t m oi.


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A t t h e h ote l M ad am e c am e i n f ro m t h e k itc h en w hen D av id a n d M arita c am e
i n to t h e m ain r o om . S he h ad a l e tte r i n h er h an d.
“M ad am e t o ok t h e t r a in f o r B ia rritz ,” s h e s a id . “ S he l e ft t h is l e tte r f o r
M onsie u r.”
“W hen d id s h e g o?” D av id a sk ed .
“Im med ia te ly a fte r M onsie u r a n d M ad am e l e ft,” M ad am e A uro l s a id .
“ S he s e n t t h e b oy t o t h e s ta tio n f o r t h e t ic k et a n d t o r e se rv e a
w agon-lit.

Dav id b eg an r e ad in g t h e l e tte r.
“W hat w ould y ou e at? ” M ad am e s a id . “ S om e c o ld c h ic k en a n d a s a la d ?
A n o m ele tte t o s ta rt. T here ’s l a m b t o o i f M onsie u r w ould r a th er. W hat w ould
h e l ik e, M ad am e?”
Marita a n d M ad am e A uro l w ere t a lk in g t o geth er a n d D av id f in is h ed
r e ad in g t h e l e tte r. H e p ut i t i n h is p ock et a n d l o oked a t M ad am e A uro l. “ D id
s h e s e em h ers e lf w hen s h e l e ft? ”
“P erh ap s n ot, M onsie u r.”
“S he’ll b e b ack ,” D av id s a id .
“Y es, M onsie u r.”
“W e w ill t a k e g ood c are o f h er.”
“Y es, M onsie u r.” S he b eg an t o c ry a l ittle a s s h e t u rn ed t h e o m ele tte a n d
D av id p ut h is a rm a ro und h er a n d k is se d h er. “ G o a n d t a lk t o M ad am e,” s h e
s a id , “ an d l e t m e s e t t h e t a b le . A uro l a n d t h e b oy a re a t N ap oule , m ix in g
b elo te
a n d p olitic s.”
“I’ll s e t i t,” M arita s a id . “ O pen t h e w in e, D av id , p le ase . D on’t y ou t h in k
w e s h ould h av e a b ottle o f t h e L an so n?”

He c lo se d t h e d oor o f t h e i c e c h est a n d h old in g t h e c o ld b ottle u ntw is te d
th e s e al a n d l o ose n ed t h e w ir e a n d t h en c are fu lly m oved t h e c o rk b etw een h is
th um b a n d f ir s t f in ger f e elin g t h e p in ch o f m eta l c ap a g ain st h is t h um b a n d
th e l o ng c o ld r o unded p ro m is e o f t h e b ottle . H e b ro ught t h e c o rk o ut g en tly
an d p oure d t h re e g la sse s f u ll. M ad am e s to od b ack f ro m t h e s to ve w ith h er
gla ss a n d t h ey a ll r a is e d t h eir g la sse s. D av id d id n ot k now w hat t o d rin k t o s o
he s a id t h e f ir s t w ord s t h at c am e w hic h w ere ,
“ À n ous e t à l a l ib erté .”
They a ll d ra n k a n d t h en M ad am e s e rv ed t h e o m ele tte a n d t h ey a ll d ra n k
ag ain w ith out m ak in g a t o ast.
“E at, D av id , p le ase ,” M arita s a id .
“A ll r ig ht,” h e s a id a n d d ra n k s o m e o f t h e w in e a n d a te s o m e o f t h e
om ele tte s lo w ly .
“Ju st e at a l ittle ,” M arita s a id . “ It w ill b e g ood f o r y ou.”
“M ad am e l o oked a t M arita a n d s h ook h er h ead . “ N oth in g i s h elp ed b y
your n ot e atin g,” M ad am e t o ld h im .
“S ure ,” s a id D av id a n d a te s lo w ly a n d c are fu lly a n d d ra n k t h e c h am pag ne
th at w as b orn n ew e ach t im e h e p oure d a g la ss.
“W here d id s h e l e av e t h e c ar? ” h e a sk ed .
“A t t h e s ta tio n,” M ad am e s a id . “ T he b oy r o de d ow n w ith h er. H e b ro ught
back t h e k ey . I t’ s i n y our r o om .”
“W as t h e
w agon-lit
c ro w ded ?”
“N o. H e p ut h er a b oard . T here w ere v ery f e w p asse n gers . S he w ill h av e a
pla ce.”
“It’ s n ot a b ad t r a in ,” D av id s a id .
“E at s o m e c h ic k en ,” M ad am e s a id , “ an d d rin k s o m e m ore w in e. O pen
an oth er b ottle . Y our w om en a re t h ir s ty t o o.”
“I’m n ot t h ir s ty ,” M arita s a id .
“Y es, y ou a re ,” M ad am e s a id . “ D rin k u p n ow a n d t a k e a b ottle w ith y ou.
I k now t h is o ne. I t’ s g ood f o r h im t o d rin k g ood w in e.”
“I d on’t w an t t o d rin k t o o m uch ,
c h érie ,
” D av id s a id t o M ad am e.
“B ecau se t o m orro w i s a b ad d ay a n d I ’d r a th er n ot f e el b ad t o o.”
“Y ou w on’t. I k now y ou. J u st e at n ow t o p le ase m e.”
She e x cu se d h ers e lf i n a f e w m in ute s a n d w as g one f o r a q uarte r o f a n
hour. D av id a te a ll o f h is c h ic k en a n d t h e s a la d f in ally a n d a fte r s h e h ad c o m e
back t h ey a ll h ad a g la ss o f w in e t o geth er a n d t h en D av id a n d M arita s a id
good n ig ht t o M ad am e w ho w as v ery f o rm al n ow a n d w en t o ut o nto t h e
te rra ce a n d l o oked a t t h e n ig ht. T hey w ere b oth i n a h urry a n d D av id w as

carry in g t h e o pen ed b ottle o f w in e i n a n i c e b uck et. H e p ut i t d ow n o n t h e
sto ve a n d t o ok M arita i n h is a rm s a n d k is se d h er. T hey h eld e ach o th er c lo se
an d s a id n oth in g a n d t h en D av id p ic k ed u p t h e b uck et a n d t h ey w alk ed t o
Marita ’s r o om .
Her b ed h ad b een m ad e u p n ow f o r t w o p eo ple a n d D av id p ut t h e i c e
buck et d ow n o n t h e f lo or a n d s a id , “ M ad am e.”
“Y es,” M arita s a id . “ N atu ra lly .”

They l a y t o geth er w ith t h e n ig ht c le ar a n d c o ol o uts id e a n d t h e s m all b re eze
fro m t h e s e a a n d M arita s a id , “ I l o ve y ou, D av id , a n d i t’ s s o s u re n ow .”
Sure , D av id t h ought. S ure . N oth in g i s s u re .
“A ll t h e t im e b efo re n ow ,” M arita s a id , “ b efo re I c o uld s le ep a ll n ig ht
with y ou I ’v e t h ought a n d t h ought y ou w ould n’t l ik e t h e s o rt o f w if e w ho
co uld n’t s le ep .”
“W hat s o rt o f w if e a re y ou?”
“Y ou’ll s e e. A h ap py o ne n ow .”
Then h e f e lt i t w as a l o ng t im e b efo re h e w en t t o s le ep b ut r e ally i t w as
not a n d w hen h e w oke a t t h e f ir s t g ra y l ig ht h e s a w M arita i n t h e b ed b esid e
him a n d w as h ap py u ntil h e r e m em bere d w hat h ad h ap pen ed . H e w as v ery
care fu l n ot t o w ak e h er b ut w hen s h e s tir re d h e k is se d h er b efo re h e s te p ped
out o f b ed . S he s m ile d a n d s a id , “ G ood m orn in g, D av id ,” a n d h e s a id , “ G o
back t o s le ep m y d eare st l o ve.”
She s a id , “ A ll r ig ht,” a n d r o lle d o ver q uic k ly l ik e a s m all a n im al a n d,
dark h ead ed , l a y c u rle d u p w ith h er c lo se d e y es a w ay f ro m t h e l ig ht a n d h er
lo ng d ark s h in y e y ela sh es a g ain st t h e r o se b ro w n e arly m orn in g c o lo r o f h er
sk in . D av id l o oked a t h er a n d t h ought h ow b eau tif u l s h e w as a n d h ow h e
co uld s e e h er s p ir it h ad n ot g one f ro m h er b ody w hen s h e s le p t. S he w as
lo vely a n d h er c o lo rin g a n d t h e u nbelie v ab le s m ooth ness o f h er s k in w ere
alm ost J a v an ese , h e t h ought. H e w atc h ed t h e c o lo rin g i n h er f a ce d eep en a s
th e l ig ht g re w s tr o nger. T hen h e s h ook h is h ead a n d c arry in g h is c lo th in g o n
his l e ft a rm o pen ed a n d c lo se d t h e d oor a n d w en t o ut i n to t h e n ew m orn in g,
walk in g b are fo ot o n t h e s to nes t h at w ere s till w et w ith d ew .
In h is a n d C ath erin e’s r o om h e t o ok a s h ow er, s h av ed , f o und a f re sh s h ir t
an d s h orts a n d p ut t h em o n, l o oked a ro und t h e e m pty b ed ro om , t h e f ir s t
morn in g h e h ad e v er b een i n i t w ith C ath erin e n ot t h ere , a n d t h en w en t o ut t o
th e e m pty k itc h en a n d f o und a t in o f M aq uere au V in B la n c C ap ita in e C ook
an d o pen ed i t a n d t o ok i t, p erilo us w ith e d ge-le v el j u ic e, w ith a c o ld b ottle o f

th e T uborg b eer o ut t o t h e b ar.
He o pen ed t h e b eer, t o ok t h e b ottle t o p b etw een h is r ig ht t h um b a n d t h e
fir s t j o in t o f h is r ig ht f o re fin ger a n d b en t i t i n u ntil i t w as f la tte n ed t o geth er,
put i t i n h is p ock et s in ce h e s a w n o c o nta in er t o t o ss i t i n to , r a is e d t h e b ottle
th at w as s till c o ld t o h is h an d a n d n ow b ead ed w et i n h is f in gers a n d,
sm ellin g t h e a ro m a f ro m t h e o pen ed t in o f s p ic ed a n d m arin ate d m ack ere l, h e
to ok a l o ng d rin k o f t h e c o ld b eer, s e t i t d ow n o n t h e b ar a n d t o ok a n
en velo pe f ro m h is h ip p ock et a n d u nfo ld ed C ath erin e’s l e tte r a n d c o m men ced
to r e re ad i t.
David , I k n ew v ery s u dden ly y o u m ust k n ow h ow t e rrib le i t w as. W orse t h an
hittin g s o m eo ne, a c h ild i s t h e w orst I g uess— with a c a r. T he t h um p o n t h e
fe n der o r m ayb e j u st a s m all b um p a nd t h en a ll t h e r e st o f i t h appen in g a nd
th e c ro w d g ath erin g t o s c re a m . T he F re n ch -w om an s c re a m in g é cra sse u se
even i f i t w as t h e c h ild ’s f a ult. I d id i t a nd I k n ew I d id i t a nd I c a n’t u ndo i t.
It’ s t o o a w fu l t o u ndersta nd. B ut i t h appen ed .
I’ll c u t t h is s h ort. I ’ll b e b ack a nd w e’ll s e ttle t h in gs t h e b est w e c a n. D o
not w orry a t a ll. I ’ll w ir e a nd w rite a nd d o a ll t h e t h in gs f o r m y b ook s o i f y o u
ever f in is h i t o nly I w ill t r y t o d o t h is o ne t h in g. I h ad t o b urn t h e o th er t h in gs.
The w orst w as b ein g r ig hte o us a bout i t b ut I d on’t h ave t o t e ll y o u t h at. I d o
not a sk f o r f o rg iv en ess b ut p le a se h ave g ood l u ck a nd I w ill d o e very th in g a s
well a s I c a n.
Heir e ss h as b een g ood t o y o u a nd m e b oth a nd I d on’t h ate h er.
I w on’t e n d a s I ’d l ik e t o b eca use i t w ould s o und t o o p re p oste ro us t o
belie ve b ut I w ill s a y i t a nyw ay s in ce I w as a lw ays r u de a nd p re su m ptu ous
and p re p oste ro us t o o l a te ly a s w e b oth k n ow . I l o ve y o u a nd I a lw ays w ill a nd
am s o rry . W hat a u se le ss w ord .
Cath erin e
Afte r h e h ad f in is h ed i t h e r e ad i t t h ro ugh a g ain .
He h ad n ev er r e ad a n y o th er l e tte rs f ro m C ath erin e b ecau se f ro m t h e t im e
th ey h ad m et a t t h e C rillo n b ar i n P aris u ntil t h ey w ere m arrie d a t t h e
Am eric an c h urc h a t A ven ue H och e t h ey h ad s e en e ach o th er e v ery d ay a n d,
re ad in g t h is f ir s t o ne n ow f o r t h e t h ir d t im e, h e f o und t h at h e s till c o uld b e,
an d w as, m oved b y h er.

He p ut t h e l e tte r b ack i n h is h ip p ock et a n d a te a s e co nd s m all, p lu m p,
min ia tu re m ack ere l i n t h e a ro m atic w hite w in e s a u ce a n d f in is h ed t h e c o ld
beer. T hen h e w en t o ut t o t h e k itc h en f o r a p ie ce o f b re ad t o s o p u p t h e l iq uid
in t h e l o ng t in a n d f o r a f re sh b ottle o f b eer. H e w ould t r y t o w ork t o day a n d
would a lm ost c erta in ly f a il. T here h ad b een t o o m uch e m otio n, t o o m uch
dam ag e, t o o m uch o f e v ery th in g a n d h is c h an gin g o f a lle g ia n ce, n o m atte r
how s o und i t h ad s e em ed , n o m atte r h ow i t s im plif ie d t h in gs f o r h im , w as a
gra v e a n d v io le n t t h in g a n d t h is l e tte r c o m pounded t h e g ra v ity a n d t h e
vio le n ce.
All r ig ht B ourn e, h e t h ought a s h e b eg an t o d rin k t h e s e co nd b eer, d on’t
sp en d t im e t h in kin g h ow b ad t h in gs a re b ecau se y ou k now . Y ou h av e t h re e
ch oic es. T ry t o r e m em ber o ne t h at i s g one a n d w rite i t a g ain . S eco nd, y ou c an
tr y a n ew o ne. A nd t h ir d , w rite o n t h e g od d am ned n arra tiv e. S o s h arp en u p
an d t a k e t h e b est o ne. Y ou a lw ay s g am ble d w hen y ou c o uld b et o n y ours e lf .
Nev er b et o n a n yth in g t h at c an t a lk , y our f a th er s a id a n d y ou s a id , E xcep t
yours e lf . A nd h e s a id , N ot m e, D av ey , b ut p ile i t o n y ours e lf s o m etim e y ou
ir o n-h earte d l ittle b asta rd . H e m ean t t o s a y c o ld -h earte d b ut h e t u rn ed i t
kin dly w ith h is g en tly l y in g m outh . O r m ay be h e m ean t i t. D on’t c o n y ours e lf
on T uborg b eer.
So t a k e t h e b est o ne a n d w rite o ne n ew a n d g ood a s y ou c an . A nd
re m em ber, M arita h as b een h it a s b ad ly a s y ou. M ay be w ors e . S o g am ble .
She c are s a s m uch f o r w hat w e l o st a s y ou d o.

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W hen h e f in ally g av e u p w ritin g t h at d ay i t w as a fte rn oon. H e h ad s ta rte d a
s e n te n ce a s s o on a s h e h ad g one i n to h is w ork in g r o om a n d h ad c o m ple te d i t
b ut h e c o uld w rite n oth in g a fte r i t. H e c ro sse d i t o ut a n d s ta rte d a n oth er
s e n te n ce a n d a g ain c am e t o t h e c o m ple te b la n kness. H e w as u nab le t o w rite
t h e s e n te n ce t h at s h ould f o llo w a lth ough h e k new i t. H e w ro te a f ir s t s im ple
d ecla ra tiv e s e n te n ce a g ain a n d i t w as i m possib le f o r h im t o p ut d ow n t h e n ex t
s e n te n ce o n p ap er. A t t h e e n d o f t w o h ours i t w as t h e s a m e. H e c o uld n ot
w rite m ore t h an a s in gle s e n te n ce a n d t h e s e n te n ces t h em se lv es w ere
i n cre asin gly s im ple a n d c o m ple te ly d ull. H e k ep t a t i t f o r f o ur h ours b efo re
h e k new t h at r e so lu tio n w as p ow erle ss a g ain st w hat h ad h ap pen ed . H e
a d m itte d i t w ith out a ccep tin g i t, c lo se d a n d p ut a w ay t h e n ote b ook w ith t h e
r o w s o f c ro sse d o ut l in es a n d w en t t o f in d t h e g ir l.
She w as o n t h e t e rra ce i n t h e s u n r e ad in g a n d w hen s h e l o oked u p a n d
s a w h is f a ce s h e s a id , “ N o?”
“W ors e t h an n o.”
“N ot a t a ll? ”
“N ope.”
“L et’ s h av e a d rin k,” M arita s a id .
“G ood,” s a id D av id .
They w ere i n sid e a t t h e b ar a n d t h e d ay h ad c o m e i n w ith t h em . I t w as a s
g ood a s t h e d ay b efo re a n d p erh ap s b ette r s in ce s u m mer s h ould h av e b een
g one a n d e ach w arm d ay w as a n e x tr a t h in g. W e s h ould n ot w aste i t, D av id
t h ought. W e s h ould t r y t o m ak e i t g ood a n d s a v e i t i f w e c an . H e m ix ed t h e
m artin is a n d p oure d t h em a n d w hen t h ey t a ste d t h em t h ey w ere i c y c o ld a n d

dry .
“Y ou w ere r ig ht t o t r y t h is m orn in g,” M arita s a id . “ B ut l e t’ s n ot t h in k
ab out i t a n y m ore t o day .”
“G ood,” h e s a id .
He r e ach ed f o r t h e b ottle o f G ord on’s , t h e N oilly P ra t a n d t h e s tir rin g
pitc h er, p oure d o ut t h e w ate r f ro m t h e i c e, a n d u sin g h is e m pty g la ss
co m men ced t o m easu re o ut t w o m ore d rin ks.
“It’ s a l o vely d ay ,” h e s a id . “ W hat s h ould w e d o?”
“L et’ s g o t o s w im n ow ,” M arita s a id . “ S o w e w on’t w aste t h e d ay .”
“G ood,” D av id s a id . “ S hould I t e ll M ad am e t h at w e’ll b e l a te f o r l u nch ?”
“S he p ut a c o ld l u nch u p,” M arita s a id . “ I t h ought t h at p ro bab ly y ou’d
lik e t o s w im h ow ev er w ork w en t.”
“T hat w as i n te llig en t,” D av id s a id . “ H ow i s M ad am e?”
“S he h as a s lig htly d is c o lo re d e y e,” M arita s a id .
“N o.”
Marita l a u ghed .
They d ro ve u p t h e r o ad a n d a ro und t h e p ro m onto ry t h ro ugh t h e f o re st a n d
le ft t h e c ar i n t h e b ro ken s h ad e o f t h e p in e w oods a n d c arrie d t h e l u nch b ask et
an d t h e b each g ear d ow n t h e t r a il t o t h e c o ve. T here w as a l ittle b re eze f ro m
th e e ast a n d t h e s e a w as d ark a n d b lu e a s t h ey c am e d ow n t h ro ugh t h e s to ne
pin es. T he r o ck s w ere r e d a n d t h e s a n d o f t h e c o ve w as y ello w a n d w rin kle d
an d t h e w ate r, a s t h ey c am e t o i t, c le an a n d n ow a m ber c le ar o ver t h e s a n d.
They p ut t h e b ask et a n d t h e r u ck sa ck i n t h e s h ad e o f t h e b ig gest r o ck a n d
undre sse d a n d D av id c lim bed t h e t a ll r o ck t o d iv e. H e s to od t h ere n ak ed a n d
bro w n i n t h e s u n l o okin g o ut t o t h e s e a.
“W an t t o d iv e?” h e c alle d .
She s h ook h er h ead .
“I’ll w ait f o r y ou.”
“N o,” s h e c alle d u p a n d w ad ed o ut i n to t h e w ate r u p t o h er t h ig hs.
“H ow i s i t? ” D av id c alle d d ow n.
“M uch c o ole r t h an i t’ s e v er b een . A lm ost c o ld .”
“G ood,” h e s a id , a n d a s s h e w atc h ed h im a n d w ad ed , t h e w ate r c am e o ver
her b elly a n d t o uch ed h er b re asts a n d h e s tr a ig hte n ed , r o se o n h is t o es,
se em ed t o h an g s lo w ly w ith out f a llin g a n d t h en k nif e d o ut a n d d ow n, m ak in g
a b oil i n t h e w ate r t h at a p orp ois e m ig ht h av e m ad e r e en te rin g s lic k ly i n to t h e
hole t h at h e h ad m ad e i n r is in g. S he s w am o ut t o w ard t h e c ir c le o f m illin g
wate r a n d t h en h e r o se b esid e h er a n d h eld h er u p a n d c lo se a n d t h en p ut h is

sa lty m outh a g ain st h er o w n.
“E lle e st b onne, l a m er,”
he s a id .
“ Toi a ussi.”
They s w am o ut o f t h e c o ve a n d b ey ond i n to t h e d eep w ate r p ast w here
th e m ounta in d ro pped d ow n i n to t h e s e a, a n d l a y o n t h eir b ack s a n d f lo ate d .
The w ate r w as c o ld er t h an i t h ad b een b ut t h e v ery t o p w as w arm ed a l ittle
an d M arita f lo ate d w ith h er b ack a rc h ed h ig h, h er h ead a ll u nderw ate r b ut h er
nose , a n d h er b ro w n b re asts w ere l a p ped g en tly b y t h e m ovem en t t h e l ig ht
bre eze g av e t h e s e a. H er e y es w ere s h ut a g ain st t h e s u n a n d D av id w as b esid e
her i n t h e w ate r. H is a rm w as u nder h er h ead a n d t h en h e k is se d t h e t ip o f h er
le ft b re ast a n d t h en t h e o th er b re ast.
“T hey t a ste l ik e t h e s e a,” h e s a id .
“L et’ s g o t o s le ep o ut h ere .”
“C ould y ou?”
“It’ s t o o h ard t o k eep m y b ack a rc h ed .”
“L et’ s s w im w ay o ut a n d t h en s w im i n .”
“A ll r ig ht.”
They s w am f a r o ut, f u rth er t h an t h ey h ad e v er s w um b efo re , f a r e n ough
so t h ey c o uld s e e p ast t h e n ex t h ead la n d a n d o n o ut u ntil t h ey c o uld s e e t h e
bro ken p urp le l in e o f t h e m ounta in s b eh in d t h e f o re st. T hey l a y t h ere i n t h e
wate r a n d w atc h ed t h e c o ast. T hen t h ey s w am i n s lo w ly . T hey s to pped t o r e st
when t h ey l o st t h e m ounta in s a n d a g ain w hen t h ey l o st t h e h ead la n d a n d t h en
sw am s lo w ly a n d s tr o ngly o n i n p ast t h e e n tr a n ce t o t h e c o ve a n d p ulle d
th em se lv es o ut o n t h e b each .
“A re y ou t ir e d ?” D av id a sk ed .
“V ery ,” M arita s a id . S he h ad n ev er s w um t h at f a r b efo re .
“A re y ou s till p oundin g?”
“O h I ’m f in e.”
Dav id w alk ed u p t h e b each a n d o ver t o t h e r o ck a n d f o und o ne o f t h e
bottle s o f T av el a n d t w o t o w els .
“Y ou l o ok l ik e a s e al,” D av id s a id s ittin g d ow n b esid e h er o n t h e s a n d.
He h an ded h er t h e T av el a n d s h e d ra n k f ro m t h e b ottle a n d h an ded i t
back . H e t o ok a l o ng d rin k a n d t h en o n t h e s m ooth d ry s a n d, s tr e tc h ed o ut i n
th e s u n, t h e l u nch b ask et b y t h em a n d t h e w in e c o ol a s t h ey d ra n k f ro m t h e
bottle . M arita s a id , “ C ath erin e w ould n’t h av e g otte n t ir e d .”
“T he h ell s h e w ould n’t. S he n ev er s w am t h at f a r.”
“T ru ly ?”
“W e s w am a l o ng w ay , g ir l. I w as n ev er o ut w here w e c o uld s e e t h ose

back dro p m ounta in s b efo re .”
“A ll r ig ht,” s h e s a id . “ T here i s n ’t a n yth in g w e c an d o a b out h er t o day s o
le t’ s n ot t h in k a b out i t. D av id ?”
“Y es.”
“D o y ou s till l o ve m e?”
“Y es. V ery m uch .”
“P erh ap s I m ad e a g re at m is ta k e w ith y ou a n d y ou’re j u st b ein g k in d t o
me.”
“Y ou d id n’t m ak e a n y m is ta k es a n d I ’m n ot b ein g k in d t o y ou.”
Marita t o ok a h an dfu l o f r a d is h es a n d a te t h em s lo w ly a n d d ra n k s o m e
win e. T he r a d is h es w ere y oung a n d c ris p a n d s h arp i n f la v or.
“Y ou d on’t h av e t o w orry a b out w ork in g,” s h e s a id . “ I k now . T hat w ill b e
all r ig ht.”
“S ure ,” D av id s a id .
He c u t o ne o f t h e a rtic h oke h earts u p w ith t h e f o rk a n d a te a c h unk
sw ir le d i n t h e m usta rd s a u ce M ad am e h ad m ad e.
“M ay I h av e t h e T av el? ” M arita s a id . S he t o ok a g ood s w allo w o f t h e
win e a n d s e t t h e b ottle d ow n b y D av id p uttin g i ts b ase f ir m ly i n t h e s a n d a n d
le an in g i t a g ain st t h e b ask et. “ Is n ’t i t a g ood l u nch M ad am e m ad e, D av id ?”
“It’ s a n e x celle n t l u nch . D id A uro l r e ally g iv e h er a b la ck e y e?”
“N ot a r e al o ne.”
“S he h as a b ad t o ngue w ith h im .”
“T here ’s t h e d if fe re n ce i n a g e a n d h e w as w ith in h is r ig hts t o h it h er i f
sh e w as i n su ltin g. S he s a id s o . A t t h e e n d. A nd s h e s e n t y ou m essa g es.”
“W hat m essa g es? ”
“Ju st l o vin g m essa g es.”
“S he l o ves
y o u,
” D av id s a id .
“N o. Y ou s tu pid . S he’s o nly o n m y s id e.”
“T here a re n ’t a n y s id es a n ym ore ,” D av id s a id .
“N o,” M arita s a id . “ A nd w e d id n’t t r y t o m ak e s id es. I t j u st h ap pen ed .”
“It h ap pen ed a ll r ig ht.” D av id h an ded h er t h e j a r w ith t h e c u t u p a rtic h oke
heart a n d t h e d re ssin g a n d f o und t h e s e co nd b ottle o f T av el. I t w as s till c o ol.
He t o ok a l o ng d rin k o f t h e w in e. “ W e’v e b een b urn ed o ut,” h e s a id . “ C ra zy
wom an b urn ed o ut t h e B ourn es.”
“A re w e t h e B ourn es? ”
“S ure . W e’re t h e B ourn es. I t m ay t a k e a w hile t o h av e t h e p ap ers . B ut
th at’ s w hat w e a re . D o y ou w an t m e t o w rite i t o ut? I t h in k I c o uld w rite

th at.”
“Y ou d on’t n eed t o w rite i t.”
“I’ll w rite i t i n t h e s a n d,” D av id s a id .

They s le p t w ell a n d n atu ra lly t h ro ugh t h e l a te a fte rn oon a n d w hen t h e s u n
was l o w M arita w oke a n d s a w D av id l y in g i n t h e b ed b y h er s id e. H is l ip s
were c lo se d a n d h e w as b re ath in g v ery s lo w ly a n d s h e l o oked a t h is f a ce a n d
his c o vere d e y es t h at s h e h ad o nly s e en l id ded i n s le ep t w ic e b efo re a n d
lo oked a t h is c h est a n d h is b ody w ith t h e a rm s s tr a ig ht b y h is s id es. S he w en t
over t o t h e d oor o f t h e b ath ro om a n d l o oked a t h ers e lf i n t h e f u ll l e n gth
mir ro r. T hen s h e s m ile d a t t h e m ir ro r. W hen s h e w as d re sse d s h e w en t o ut t o
th e k itc h en a n d t a lk ed w ith M ad am e.
Late r, D av id w as s till a sle ep a n d s h e s a t b y h im o n t h e b ed . I n t h e d usk
his h air w as w hitis h a g ain st h is d ark f a ce, a n d s h e w aite d f o r h im t o w ak e.

They s a t a t t h e b ar a n d w ere b oth d rin kin g H aig P in ch a n d P errie r. M arita
was b ein g v ery c are fu l w ith h er d rin k. S he s a id , “ I t h in k y ou s h ould g o t o
to w n e v ery d ay a n d g et t h e p ap ers a n d h av e a d rin k a n d r e ad b y y ours e lf . I
wis h t h ere w as a c lu b o r a r e al c afe w here y ou m et y our f rie n ds.”
“T here i s n ’t.”
“W ell, I t h in k i t w ould b e g ood e v ery d ay f o r y ou t o b e a w ay f ro m m e f o r
a w hile w hen y ou’re n ot w ork in g. Y ou’v e b een o verru n w ith g ir ls . I ’m
alw ay s g oin g t o s e e y ou h av e y our m en f rie n ds. T hat’ s o ne t h in g v ery b ad
th at C ath erin e d id .”
“N ot o n p urp ose a n d i t w as m y o w n f a u lt.”
“M ay be t h at’ s t r u e. B ut d o y ou t h in k w e’ll h av e f rie n ds? G ood f rie n ds? ”
“W e e ach h av e o ne a lr e ad y.”
“W ill w e h av e o th ers ? ”
“M ay be.”
“W ill t h ey t a k e y ou a w ay b ecau se t h ey k now m ore t h an I d o?”
“T hey w on’t k now m ore .”
“W ill t h ey c o m e a lo ng y oung a n d n ew a n d f re sh w ith n ew t h in gs a n d y ou
be t ir e d o f m e?”
“T hey w on’t a n d I w on’t b e.”
“I’ll k ill t h em i f t h ey d o. I ’m n ot g oin g t o g iv e y ou a w ay t o a n yone t h e
way s h e d id .”

“T hat’ s g ood.”
“I w an t y ou t o h av e m en f rie n ds a n d f rie n ds f ro m t h e w ar a n d t o s h oot
with a n d t o p la y c ard s a t t h e c lu b. B ut w e d on’t h av e t o h av e y ou h av e
wom en f rie n ds, d o w e? F re sh , n ew o nes w ho w ill f a ll i n l o ve a n d r e ally
unders ta n d y ou a n d a ll t h at? ”
“I d on’t r u n a ro und w ith w om en . Y ou k now t h at.”
“T hey a re n ew a ll t h e t im e,” M arita s a id . “ T here a re n ew o nes e v ery d ay .
No o ne c an e v er b e s u ffic ie n tly w arn ed . Y ou m ost o f a ll.”
“I l o ve y ou,” D av id s a id , “ an d y ou’re m y p artn er t o o. B ut t a k e i t e asy .
Ju st b e w ith m e.”
“I’m w ith y ou.”
“I k now i t a n d I l o ve t o l o ok a t y ou a n d k now y ou’re h ere a n d t h at w e’ll
sle ep t o geth er a n d b e h ap py.”

In t h e d ark , M arita l a y a g ain st h im a n d h e f e lt h er b re asts a g ain st h is c h est
an d h er a rm b eh in d h is h ead a n d h er h an d t o uch in g h im a n d l ip s a g ain st h is .
“I’m y our g ir l,” s h e s a id i n t h e d ark . “ Y our g ir l. N o m atte r w hat I ’m
alw ay s y our g ir l. Y our g ood g ir l w ho l o ves y ou.”
“Y es, m y d eare st l o ve. S le ep w ell. S le ep w ell.”
“Y ou g o t o s le ep f ir s t,” M arita s a id , “ an d I ’ll b e b ack i n a m in ute .”
He w as a sle ep w hen s h e c am e b ack a n d s h e g ot i n u nder t h e s h eet a n d l a y
besid e h im . H e w as s le ep in g o n h is r ig ht s id e a n d b re ath in g s o ftly a n d
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D av id w oke i n t h e m orn in g w hen t h e f ir s t l ig ht c am e i n t h e w in dow . I t w as
s till g ra y o uts id e a n d t h ere w ere d if fe re n t p in e t r u nks t h an t h e o nes h e u su ally
w oke t o s e e a n d a l o nger g ap b ey ond t h em t o w ard t h e s e a. H is r ig ht a rm w as
s tif f b ecau se h e h ad s le p t o n i t. T hen , a w ak e, h e k new h e w as i n a s tr a n ge b ed
a n d h e s a w M arita l y in g s le ep in g b y h im . H e r e m em bere d e v ery th in g a n d h e
l o oked a t h er l o vin gly a n d c o vere d h er f re sh b ro w n b ody w ith t h e s h eet a n d
t h en k is se d h er v ery l ig htly a g ain a n d p uttin g o n h is d re ssin g g ow n w alk ed
o ut i n to t h e d ew -w et e arly m orn in g c arry in g t h e i m ag e o f h ow s h e l o oked
w ith h im t o h is r o om . H e t o ok a c o ld s h ow er, s h av ed , p ut o n a s h ir t a n d a p air
o f s h orts a n d w alk ed d ow n t o h is w ork in g r o om . H e s to pped a t t h e d oor o f
M arita ’s r o om a n d o pen ed i t v ery c are fu lly . H e s to od a n d l o oked a t h er
s le ep in g, a n d c lo se d t h e d oor s o ftly a n d w en t i n to t h e r o om w here h e w ork ed .
H e g ot o ut h is p en cils a n d a n ew c ah ie r, s h arp en ed f iv e p en cils a n d b eg an t o
w rite t h e s to ry o f h is f a th er a n d t h e r a id i n t h e y ear o f t h e M aji- M aji r e b ellio n
t h at h ad s ta rte d w ith t h e t r e k a cro ss t h e b itte r l a k e. H e m ad e t h e c ro ssin g n ow
a n d c o m ple te d t h e d re ad fu l t r e k o f t h e f ir s t d ay w hen t h e s u nris e h ad c au ght
t h em w ith t h e p art t h at h ad t o b e d one i n t h e d ark o nly h alf f in is h ed a n d t h e
m ir a g es a lr e ad y m ak in g a s t h e h eat b ecam e u nbeara b le . B y t h e t im e t h e
m orn in g w as w ell a d van ced a n d a s tr o ng f re sh e ast b re eze w as b lo w in g
t h ro ugh t h e p in es f ro m t h e s e a h e h ad f in is h ed t h e n ig ht a t t h e f ir s t c am p
u nder t h e f ig t r e es w here t h e w ate r c am e d ow n f ro m t h e e sc arp m en t a n d w as
m ovin g o ut o f t h at c am p i n t h e e arly m orn in g a n d u p t h e l o ng d ra w t h at l e d t o
t h e s te ep c u t u p o nto t h e e sc arp m en t.
He f o und h e k new m uch m ore a b out h is f a th er t h an w hen h e h ad f ir s t

writte n t h is s to ry a n d h e k new h e c o uld m easu re h is p ro gre ss b y t h e s m all
th in gs w hic h m ad e h is f a th er m ore t a ctile a n d t o h av e m ore d im en sio ns t h an
he h ad i n t h e s to ry b efo re . H e w as f o rtu nate , j u st n ow , t h at h is f a th er w as n ot
a s im ple m an .
Dav id w ro te s te ad ily a n d w ell a n d t h e s e n te n ces t h at h e h ad m ad e b efo re
cam e t o h im c o m ple te a n d e n tir e a n d h e p ut t h em d ow n, c o rre cte d t h em , a n d
cu t t h em a s i f h e w ere g oin g o ver p ro of. N ot a s e n te n ce w as m is sin g a n d
th ere w ere m an y t h at h e p ut d ow n a s t h ey w ere r e tu rn ed t o h im w ith out
ch an gin g t h em . B y t w o o ’c lo ck h e h ad r e co vere d , c o rre cte d a n d i m pro ved
what i t h ad t a k en h im f iv e d ay s t o w rite o rig in ally . H e w ro te o n a w hile
lo nger n ow a n d t h ere w as n o s ig n t h at a n y o f i t w ould e v er c ease r e tu rn in g t o
him i n ta ct.

Abou t t h e A uth or
E RN EST
H EM IN GW AY
was b orn in O ak P ark , Illin ois , in 1 899, a n d b eg an h is w ritin g c are er fo r
T he
K ansa s C ity S ta r
in 1 917. D urin g th e F ir s t W orld W ar h e v olu nte ere d a s a n a m bula n ce d riv er o n th e
I ta lia n f ro nt b ut w as i n valid ed h om e, h av in g b een s e rio usly w ounded w hile s e rv in g w ith t h e i n fa n tr y . I n
H em in gw ay s e ttle d in P aris , w here h e b ecam e p art o f th e e x patr ia te c ir c le o f G ertr u de S te in , F . S co tt
F itz g era ld , E zra P ound, a n d F ord M ad ox F ord . W ith th e a p peara n ce o f
T he S un A ls o R is e s
in 1 926,
H em in gw ay b ecam e n ot o nly th e v oic e o f th e “ lo st g en era tio n” b ut th e p re em in en t w rite r o f h is tim e.
T his w as fo llo w ed by his novel of th e Ita lia n fro nt,
A F are w ell to A rm s
(1 929). In th e 1930s,
H em in gw ay s e ttle d i n K ey W est, a n d l a te r i n C uba, b ut h e t r a v ele d w id ely — to S pain , I ta ly , a n d A fric a.
L ate r h e r e p orte d o n th e S pan is h C iv il W ar, w hic h b ecam e th e b ack gro und f o r h is b rillia n t w ar n ovel,
F or W hom th e B ell T olls
(1 939), h unte d U -b oats in th e C arib bean , a n d c o vere d th e E uro pean fro nt
d urin g th e S eco nd W orld W ar. H em in gw ay ’s m ost p opula r w ork ,
T he O ld M an a nd th e S ea ,
w as
a w ard ed th e P ulitz er P riz e in 1 953, a n d in 1 954 H em in gw ay w on th e N obel P riz e in L ite ra tu re “ fo r h is
p ow erfu l, s ty le -fo rm in g m aste ry o f th e a rt o f n arra tio n.” O ne o f th e m ost im porta n t in flu en ces o n th e
d ev elo pm en t o f th e s h ort s to ry a n d n ovel in A m eric an f ic tio n, H em in gw ay h as s e iz ed th e im ag in atio n
o f th e A m eric an p ublic lik e n o o th er tw en tie th -c en tu ry a u th or. H e d ie d , b y s u ic id e, in K etc h um , I d ah o,
i n 1 961. H is o th er m ajo r w ork s in clu de
T o H ave a nd H ave N ot
( 1 937),
A cro ss th e R iv er a nd In to th e
T re es
(1 950), an d posth u m ously ,
A M ovea ble F ea st
(1 964),
Is la nds in th e Str e a m
(1 970),
The
D angero us S um mer
( 1 985), a n d
T he G ard en o f E den
( 1 986).

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